Chapter I: One Desperate Lover93Please respect copyright.PENANA9mY3eEde83
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April 2020
"Roses are red, violets are blue, I smile all day, because of you!" The young Kaduk enthusiastically said, But.. what response did he get? clearly, nothing! The young man desperately looked at his phone's screen and let a sigh out.93Please respect copyright.PENANAp3a5yjabwS
"Lord, for how long does she want to ignore me? For how long should my soul be tortured? Isn't three years of suffering enough? What have I done to deserve this all?"93Please respect copyright.PENANA6mYS4rfEKB
He knew what he had done. In the depth of his heart, he knew that he was not the innocent man everyone thought him to be.93Please respect copyright.PENANAT9sp07MNTp
Feeling desperate and miserable, Kaduk did reach for his drawer, grabbed a pen, and started to write:93Please respect copyright.PENANAuEf7iYMnht
Alas... the man's tears can't be released from his chest93Please respect copyright.PENANA317g5lfohc
Alas... his fruits never riped even tho he did his best93Please respect copyright.PENANAFdWjdIETCG
Alas.... he never gave up on his thoughts93Please respect copyright.PENANA2YbnvOpAwo
Alas.... cause he gave it in and fought93Please respect copyright.PENANAp2fsKKiMXv
Alas... sorrows of the young man were never heard93Please respect copyright.PENANAw9W8GCvbfo
Alas.... he messed it all up and no one even cared93Please respect copyright.PENANAZF37tPj8pX
Alas... he climbed the rock all up to his fate93Please respect copyright.PENANAqcwiilz65w
Alas... & never knew he has no man but his mate93Please respect copyright.PENANAWuo5tbNSZM
Alas... poor man was surrounded by emotion93Please respect copyright.PENANAiHkkjTgibj
Alas... he was yet waiting for a motion93Please respect copyright.PENANAC6Xu4nd6XU
Alas... all he had was just his hope93Please respect copyright.PENANAdK0L01OSn8
Alas... & what he got was a nope...93Please respect copyright.PENANAMIATq0z18M
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"To send or not to send? That was the question!" He started struggling with himself, sending this poem to his beloved one could make everything even worse but... what did he have to lose anyway?93Please respect copyright.PENANAoc8gMD08MP
Who would ever imagine Kaduk, this humble but furious captain of FC Arman, a man who never cared about relationships, a pure virgin, falling in love like that?93Please respect copyright.PENANA0A5E42x02P
Ever since he met Karnastiya, he faced a revolution in his heart and mind. He was not the man he used to be.93Please respect copyright.PENANAjwNeYsevqL
For his heart and mind were stolen by one gorgeous, sweet, smart, and also an arrogant girl who was indeed far-fetching to impress.93Please respect copyright.PENANAh4n66dlHnA
Hours, days, and months passed by but there was no sign of success ahead.93Please respect copyright.PENANAPKHMbYjoa7
His heart eagerly wanted him to keep going and not give up on impressing Karnastiya while his brain advised the opposite. But what was the best decision he could make?93Please respect copyright.PENANAoJR3EvzVAz
Thus, continued the deadly combat between heart and logic...93Please respect copyright.PENANAtEYRPKngv7
With his tears dripping, Once again, he reached for his phone but on second thought, he put it back on the desk.93Please respect copyright.PENANAIBa6g4vBAj
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Chapter II: When it all began93Please respect copyright.PENANAjufKMu6Ja3
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November 2017
That was a mood-boosting rainy evening. The air was getting cold and winter was becoming easier to behold.93Please respect copyright.PENANAh9vv4caQKz
Business as usual, Kaduk was drinking a latte, surfing the net in the meanwhile.93Please respect copyright.PENANAf1NPDLlvl9
"Ah, someone has visited my profile, let's see who it is...93Please respect copyright.PENANA2v2OcDZBOw
Well, Her name is Karnastyia from Ukraine, hm, and she studies Persian literature. That's very interesting indeed!"93Please respect copyright.PENANA9l3yqI9xq7
Possessing similar interests in history, literature, and video games, he decided to send her a message. This warm-hearted man was always eager to help those who wanted to learn the Persian language.93Please respect copyright.PENANAZrTTfyysk4
"Good Evening Karnastiya, Thanks for visiting my profile. My name is Kaduk, just like you, I study literature, and of course, I'm in love with history! I will be truly glad if you grant me the honor to get to know more about you. Besides, don't hesitate to ask me if you might ever need help with your Persian studies :)"93Please respect copyright.PENANAwrsgy9tAcS
His high school studies were slowly coming to an end. However, Kaduk never wanted this to happen! He would definitely miss his classmates, teachers, and even Mr. Kazaki, the angry old man who was in charge of managing the school.93Please respect copyright.PENANAScbwukeUOL
Life was indeed peaceful and, beautiful. But we never know what expects us the next day. One day, when we don't expect it at all, the parrot of love sits in our hearts, building a nest.93Please respect copyright.PENANAT0009k0qQ2
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February 201893Please respect copyright.PENANAR1dQTPCvLO
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Having a wide smile on his face, he quickly reached for his phone and started writing an email to his old friend.93Please respect copyright.PENANA2qZWmFhM4u
"Dear Sandra, can you imagine? I mean, just, I don't know how to describe this godly creature. It's been a few months since I met a young lady whose name is Karnastiya. She is from Ukraine, just like you! I feel like I can never live a single day in her absence. With that much joy, she's brought to my life. We even play games together and guess what? She says that she wants to visit Tehran in the upcoming summer! She's someone I can talk to about anything that pops up in my mind.93Please respect copyright.PENANAzDgTl5uZXt
When she speaks, I can't stop smiling or sometimes I even laugh. One might think I'm crazy or something but let it be, isn't it how falling in love is?93Please respect copyright.PENANAOrDd6pynTw
It's truly one of the most joyful feelings that have ever existed in the history of humankind.93Please respect copyright.PENANAOreSqqFJN6
I'll write to you again soon. Please take good care of yourself!"93Please respect copyright.PENANAv6FGCiMV51
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June 201893Please respect copyright.PENANA02ehm2lE5b
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"She has just revealed that she's interested in someone, ah, it was like an arrow in my chest, a fiery arrow that ruthlessly burns the man's heart. To be honest, I can't breathe... just don't know what to do. I can't give up on her. Even if she has given her heart to somebody else! Yes, I will wait, but I won't tell her anything.93Please respect copyright.PENANAt0DuW8fauk
I know it might all be immoral, but how can I stop loving her? you know, dear Sandra, it's the first time ever that I feel like this, the first time that I am truly in love. I know it might sound stupid, but I will wait for as long as I need to. Who knows, perhaps, one day she'll realize that nobody loves her as much as I do!"93Please respect copyright.PENANAvMWZvTCDB1
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December 201893Please respect copyright.PENANAtlWTr3g1Dw
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"Sandra, It's been already two weeks since I had a conversation with her and she has been offline since then. We were discussing a new movie and she suddenly disappeared. I'm nervous and stressed out.93Please respect copyright.PENANAhh0nbjBFtq
I remember some disputes had erupted in their relationship but I don't think it was that serious and I hope not! I just hope she's alright because I never want to see her sad. Even if it means that I'll have to keep her love in my chest and seal my lips forever!"93Please respect copyright.PENANAAViYhRhK0J
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Chapter III: The Year of Desolation93Please respect copyright.PENANAinvg3ZYpEh
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"Doroha Sandra, it's been months since she went into the dark. I'm really nervous. What has happened to her? May the Lord himself protect her.93Please respect copyright.PENANA16RDmKCjck
I just can't stop thinking about her. You might not believe but I even see her in my dreams in which, she's often silent. Once, she was sitting among sunflowers, looking at me with a smile on her sweet lips, however, she did not say a single word.93Please respect copyright.PENANAttgsqoG9Ln
The other time, we were somewhere near an abandoned workshop. I asked if I can hug her but she wanted me to enter the workshop and kill five cockroaches first. I know it might sound ridiculous but well, it is what is it. I managed to kill four cockroaches and damn, I woke up and failed to hug her. That was such a deep sense of frustration! Why can't we live in our dreams?"93Please respect copyright.PENANANvAHIMFO1i
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October 201993Please respect copyright.PENANAKRRP7TAxS9
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"She's back! I can't believe this, Sandra, but the wait is finally over! what's more joyful than seeing your beloved one again? after nearly a year? My friend, I can't describe my excitement. It's truly a heavenly joy, given by God himself to enlighten my soul.93Please respect copyright.PENANA8LQgRD4X87
She said that she broke up with her boyfriend some months ago. Well, that was to be expected as I could see how nervous and upset she was back in late 2018.93Please respect copyright.PENANAT8sRQa1jR4
I even told her about my feelings, yes! I know it was kinda stupid to immediately jump on this topic but I couldn't hide my excitement and love anymore.93Please respect copyright.PENANADEUxxhJaGX
However, I didn't get the answer I was hoping for. Alas, there's someone in her life.93Please respect copyright.PENANAC4AH9CjPoR
I do feel like a concrete wall has collapsed on me..."93Please respect copyright.PENANAx0b0HFCrVz
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November 201993Please respect copyright.PENANAfqMeBKvfgM
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"What happens that one loses interest in one else? How those of the people who would hang out and chat every day and night, suddenly start to communicate less and less. It's been always one of my questions. As a random dude says: There are several continents and billions of humans but you lose your heart to exactly the one who doesn't have the same feelings for you.93Please respect copyright.PENANAOWNzpV49RR
The philosophy of life is indeed something complicated and uneasy to understand for us ordinary people.93Please respect copyright.PENANAtOX6O0rii2
Yes, as you might have already guessed, it's been a while since I haven't had a chance to talk to her. In fact, I often find her online but I don't get any responses. However, I do know that I'm guilty of all this. Perhaps, I had a chance to impress her but lost it due to being too careless in expressing my ideas, thoughts, and feelings.93Please respect copyright.PENANAB6gop7OFh6
It's surely understandable that I have pushed her away from myself. When I take a deeper look at it, I realize that she might have no reason to feel something for me and as I said, it's logical.93Please respect copyright.PENANAZ4MtaUa7wT
You can never impress someone if you fail to present yourself in a proper way.93Please respect copyright.PENANAtCWQP3NhUn
I don't think I would love myself if I were in her shoes, definitely not!"93Please respect copyright.PENANAa2S0u7ip73
That being said, the young man decided to fade away, having no hope of winning Karnastiya's heart, Kaduk went into the dark for a while, trying to make the wrong things right in his life and make a much better version of himself. So that, who knows, perhaps he would have a chance to strike back!93Please respect copyright.PENANAnuQgav8Cd4
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Chapter IV: The Matter of Life and Death93Please respect copyright.PENANAtrUlZDcmdI
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"Dear Sandra, you must forgive me for not contacting you for more than a year. I understand that you might be really angry at me but to tell you the truth, I needed to stay away from social media. I really needed to have some peace of mind!93Please respect copyright.PENANAdqnUNaCh1o
Thanks to the Lord, I've made some good progress in my life. Now I'm a teacher and I have my own car! I call him "Busphalas". It's a glorious name, is it not?93Please respect copyright.PENANAJLTokOCz7t
Aside from that, I have started to play soccer again. Our team continues to smash all the opponents. How joyful it is!93Please respect copyright.PENANAFLr6YH2afj
It was not easy to stop thinking about Karnastiya. She would constantly appear in my night dreams but I did it! I try not to think about her anymore. Though, I must confess that in the depth of my heart, something still loves her...93Please respect copyright.PENANA98wpyTGgBn
I shall contact you soon, please take care!"93Please respect copyright.PENANAJTC3trSHNU
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January 202293Please respect copyright.PENANAJg8ucjSqIP
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"I could not bear this anymore. It's been more than a year already. Well, I know it was a stupid move but I called her. Hearing her sweet voice was such a heartwarming blessing. My eyes were wet and butterflies were flying in my heart. But I knew that she will slip away again so I wasn't surprised when she disappeared after a couple of days.93Please respect copyright.PENANAEskhxYMmQE
Perhaps it was my fault again. Perhaps I was not able to keep her interested in conversing with me..."93Please respect copyright.PENANA5kIlnqYx9L
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March 202293Please respect copyright.PENANAy9LIoWJ1X5
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"Who would ever imagine such a full-scale invasion happening in the twenty-first century?93Please respect copyright.PENANAn79STz8fX3
Well, we all know what's happening in Syria, Iraq, Afghanistan, and many other parts of the world but a full-scale invasion? that's a new drama in this century.93Please respect copyright.PENANAeRVvjSUICg
Please take good care of yourself, Sandra. You know how precious you are to me. Keep me updated on your well-being!93Please respect copyright.PENANAZEQlISxFBw
I had a phone call with Karnastiya. Thanks to the Lord, she's alright. I had never been as nervous as I currently am in my entire life. What if something bad happens to her?93Please respect copyright.PENANAud6kHiEErn
It's not easy to have phone calls with her but I shall keep trying.93Please respect copyright.PENANAeeraJVhjD5
Stay safe, Sandra!"93Please respect copyright.PENANAQaHN7jGEfT
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April 202293Please respect copyright.PENANAR59FTB1G1I
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"My dear friend, the time has come and I have made my decision! I have applied to join the volunteer division so I shall meet you soon in Kyiv Oblast.93Please respect copyright.PENANASl3JCPqVci
I am having the hardest times of my life. How can I put everything I have, my family, and my loved ones behind and move to the other side of the world, putting my life at risk?93Please respect copyright.PENANAT7gUGDZ0kX
But something in the depth of my heart is telling me that everything will be alright and I will survive! Yes, I have absolute faith in this!93Please respect copyright.PENANAEKA6EXopYY
Besides, I do have to protect her, how can I leave her alone? She needs me more than ever. She might not even care about my existence but I do, I do care about her!"93Please respect copyright.PENANAI8cSRJJI4V
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Chapter V: The End of an Era93Please respect copyright.PENANAPmVArJcg2W
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May 2022
"I was hoping to be assigned as one of the defenders of Kyiv so that I could protect her but... I was wrong! We were dispatched to reinforce Mariupol instead and things are just horrible here.93Please respect copyright.PENANAg6z9yj1Igt
There are wounded soldiers and civilians everywhere. Meanwhile, we are low on medical and food supplies...93Please respect copyright.PENANAFFlfy5iHH2
I hope God will show us mercy because the Russian artillery is bombarding the city nonstop. There's no way out and now the city is fully under siege.93Please respect copyright.PENANAsmv7mfUI6U
I shall confess that I'm scared... But Sandra, what's nicer than dying for your beloved girl?93Please respect copyright.PENANAfRNx3sn43M
Last night I started to write some verses but I failed to finish them, I felt desperate...93Please respect copyright.PENANA5B1fQAjC1j
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Nastiya... you, who walk in the ruins of the fallen land, arise!93Please respect copyright.PENANA7MzZ1QZwhJ
Nastiya... your green eyes are what, day and night, are seen in the skies!93Please respect copyright.PENANAt5TjjHQe2T
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I am afraid without serious action, there will be even darker days ahead of us.93Please respect copyright.PENANAwi4wWAXv93
People have high hopes here, there's still some hope to break the siege and find a way out so we must not give up just yet. Nobody wants to surrender here, absolutely nobody!93Please respect copyright.PENANAUqJVzAnT44
I tell you, my friend, these people are so brave!93Please respect copyright.PENANAlH47EO0TDG
In less than an hour, comrades and I will attempt to break the siege and find some supplies.93Please respect copyright.PENANA43dcLs3Z4u
I promised Commander Radzinsky to not disappoint him. We need medicine or we will lose some of our best comrades.93Please respect copyright.PENANAebZCksdxY6
Yes, I am scared but I got no choice, I have to give it my all!93Please respect copyright.PENANA5yhfZMPqC0
You may not hear from me again because nobody knows if we will make it or not, but please tell her why I did this.93Please respect copyright.PENANAHjOJuFF6T2
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God be with you93Please respect copyright.PENANAZuYk8LjGkb
Kaduk"93Please respect copyright.PENANAX9VwlXSmOE
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And for months, what happened to this passionate lover, Kaduk, remained a mystery.93Please respect copyright.PENANAdsGzCt2Toj
Until on a windy afternoon, a one-handed man, carrying his rifle was seen, wandering in an abandoned village near Bila Tserkava...93Please respect copyright.PENANAYFzvG0zPMY
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