I wish I could understand why I feel this way71Please respect copyright.PENANA9JEBBItzqC
Why flying doesn't feel the same 71Please respect copyright.PENANAaFkuajF8xL
And the lows don't seem to fade71Please respect copyright.PENANAv5D1jcMsXo
They just linger and remain
I find myself trapped with no incentive to fix it, to rewrite the narrative 71Please respect copyright.PENANAChnV0YVQeC
Instead my mind picks it apart, going straight for the heart71Please respect copyright.PENANAh5xIpNMrMt
I gotta give it to them, they play it pretty smart
I wish I could tell you everything that makes me hurt 71Please respect copyright.PENANANFelStj5ZG
I wish I could convert it into something better, avert from the inevitable 71Please respect copyright.PENANAQk5GKeDYP2
I'll convert this pain into something that works 71Please respect copyright.PENANADr9g3gi6KL
Something that works to be charitable to my health, make my pain more revocable and severable 71Please respect copyright.PENANA53I3QqIjUY
Because after several years of being rendered inseparable from this feeling 71Please respect copyright.PENANA06U8jtOOkg
I finally feel like I'm worth freeing 71Please respect copyright.PENANAtTRHkCXJJu
That this pain made me bleed, but it can't keep me71Please respect copyright.PENANAwXRspH5pua
I'm finally fleeing
But my superficial confidence is fleeting as my heart slows its beating 71Please respect copyright.PENANAfDhhu9oLqH
The breathing turns to drowning 71Please respect copyright.PENANAVhpSc4AI8O
The seconds I'm counting, turns to shouting 71Please respect copyright.PENANAeGSjAHw5lK
I'm pounding on the walls, sounding my alarms71Please respect copyright.PENANA7dESXb7uJ4
But no one welcomes me with open arms71Please respect copyright.PENANAvOxDvPH6CS
Their love is fictitious 71Please respect copyright.PENANAGKxVEwap4Y
So thus, restarts the vicious cycle71Please respect copyright.PENANAHRC3Vb6QC8
I try to focus on my survival, but I never see its arrival 71Please respect copyright.PENANAvmV0D0eJwr
So I lay here, my body limp and my heart slowing 71Please respect copyright.PENANAMd8T3CSZo8
The deprival of blood, of color, of feeling 71Please respect copyright.PENANA49QdTm0t8S
My life is fleeting, like the confidcence I once had 71Please respect copyright.PENANAqEhOKjwmIu
I never meet my revival
But no one understands, no one offers a hand 71Please respect copyright.PENANAAxtQHbkZgW
I try to stand, my lungs expand, only to to be stuck in secondhand smoke71Please respect copyright.PENANAc3wgU6P4zH
My voice broke as the smoke filled my lungs and covered my eyes like some sort of cloak 71Please respect copyright.PENANAX0PmE3eH7Z
I tried to yell, to call out for help, but all I did was choke
Falling on my knees, right back to the ground, I look around 71Please respect copyright.PENANAwR5SSWzqta
Listening to the elaborate planning of everything demanding a change 71Please respect copyright.PENANAFTVE1rfFe1
They get their way, nothing remains the same71Please respect copyright.PENANAbLXXZcgoa7
All I feel is shame as I call out every name, hoping for someone to see everything slipping away 71Please respect copyright.PENANARcLubrkZlW
But no one comes my way, I'm disregarded and pushed away 71Please respect copyright.PENANAA8P3kMPr91
I guess no one wanted me around anyway
I give in to the deadly game, as if I was ever given a choice 71Please respect copyright.PENANAMrbPIQpV4q
But maybe my only claim to fame would be that I'm pretty damn good at playing this game 71Please respect copyright.PENANAUWvG7y7rO5
Even if it feels like I'm locked in a cage71Please respect copyright.PENANAIKchagrSS9
The game of push and pull with the demons in my mind71Please respect copyright.PENANAGyTeS7YTu6
Darkness covering my eyes, I'm blind 71Please respect copyright.PENANAHdWTnVcNfe
But full of myself and always on time 71Please respect copyright.PENANAvLYm1Yjn4E
I admit that the crime is mine 71Please respect copyright.PENANAPBgHIx9hEY
Now I'll serve my time
I thought, maybe if I quit it71Please respect copyright.PENANANm4gucTfY1
The devil will lose his incentive 71Please respect copyright.PENANAMynQOrJsRo
The weak little girl, poisoned 71Please respect copyright.PENANAWn9Oj5jGYT
Too bad for his game of tainting the good
But even then he just pulled down my walls 71Please respect copyright.PENANAmHLY0XA3O6
Brick by brick 71Please respect copyright.PENANArlsYFqJ7Oy
And now I'm back in this smoky pit, the light drained from it 71Please respect copyright.PENANAAEg6Zq04II
Smoke filling my lungs and ripping the sight from my eyes 71Please respect copyright.PENANALrsHeKY8Pi
Once again, I'm blind
Even when I believe it's over71Please respect copyright.PENANAWct40gduUY
That the thunder has passed me by, the storm subsiding 71Please respect copyright.PENANACI9odI574I
It's still right there 71Please respect copyright.PENANAzOFcxsUjWd
The devil on my shoulder