#1 Entry: Why I Started This.762Please respect copyright.PENANAEpJc63IsZ9
This is actually personal. And I don't expect anyone to read this. It's a surprise that you are so. And no, this entry is not about the bad-ness of smoking, drinking or doing weed. Not yet, anyway. It's about what happened, fifteen minutes ago.762Please respect copyright.PENANA9nC4mW4a16
A while ago, I got so effing frustrated at a guy I almost dated. We didn't date- why? Because he wasn't ready to make it official, even after six months of him knowing that I really liked him. 762Please respect copyright.PENANAPf9u5fLHrf
His excuse: He found me adorable. And in his bucket list, it was to stay single till college graduation.762Please respect copyright.PENANAUpw47gW83l
Thinking about it, that sounds like an excuse right about now. Why was I so stupid? 762Please respect copyright.PENANAAOR2cEJ0MN
Moving on to present day, two months after I called it off (though, there was nothing to call off), the following happens. 762Please respect copyright.PENANAGOpRp816eN
It's a bit immature, but tell that to him. 762Please respect copyright.PENANAB3VfSFEbmv
I commented on his frequent change of instagram username. and well, he tells me to F.O. for it. 762Please respect copyright.PENANAvAbhG0E39O
So yeah, apparently we're still in highschool. 762Please respect copyright.PENANA9hDp0MKf3u
...762Please respect copyright.PENANARX05iy8YPL
And I wanted to RANT about it, you know?762Please respect copyright.PENANAbMz1D9NCxK
Throw my hurt feelings out to the world, so my heart feels empty.762Please respect copyright.PENANAYRL09r1SO0
But I couldn't use Facebook (he's a facebook friend). Instagram. (same reason). Nor Twitter (I don't tweet my feelings, duh.)762Please respect copyright.PENANA3zmNK20mvH
So I came here. and TADA! A blog. 762Please respect copyright.PENANAvqLyRRSVO7
I'm so glad. But I can't type as fast as my thoughts. And I feel pretty damn bad about it. It's stupid. I know. 762Please respect copyright.PENANAVabM72hxhn
But he shouldn't be the one to get all riled up about it. Right?762Please respect copyright.PENANAno26cgKyeg
I mean. He didn't want to commit. When I was so ready. 762Please respect copyright.PENANA3iNSV1hNE2
So calling it off, was it that bad?762Please respect copyright.PENANA7i9hFL9M7q
Though the way I called it off was pretty damn stupid, bad and outright mean. So maybe yes, I deserve this. 762Please respect copyright.PENANASP58enp0t9
BUT. A huge BUTT- I mean, butt. But. (sorry)762Please respect copyright.PENANArzTOH7w2tA
But. It's been two months. It wasn't like he was in love with me or I broke his heart. 762Please respect copyright.PENANAsIRpQHAYkL
If he wanted to be with me, he could have just EFFING taken the step. 762Please respect copyright.PENANAUiYTDjetcx
But no. So now. His friends, who were also my friends, don't talk to me. 762Please respect copyright.PENANAviEpW9thCS
He once mentioned that the entire class hates me. Which is not a shocker, really. I had that coming. 762Please respect copyright.PENANAh2qWSqVHH3
So. All these frustrations have now led me to bottle up and almost burst like Mount Vesuvius. 762Please respect copyright.PENANACW0NAPi511
Henceforth, we have this. 762Please respect copyright.PENANACEp6cpHmPk
Thanks for bearing with me. 762Please respect copyright.PENANA1xB910inIs
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