Today was surprisingly warm for March. It felt like August instead. 415Please respect copyright.PENANAM74AROJVlV
I was in three different departments at my job, doing all the tasks others could, but they decided to give me. 415Please respect copyright.PENANAll1OQBPWFn
I am coal for a fire they never want to see extinguished, yet here I burn out.415Please respect copyright.PENANAxiFymPSRXA
It's been four months since that day.415Please respect copyright.PENANAMqdsip7TrK
Call me Hidaka. It's my lesser-known name, but that doesn't bother me. 415Please respect copyright.PENANAwfeLXQFlW0
I'm young still, 22, yet old in spirit. I have lived a lot of life. Much more than a lot of people my age. 415Please respect copyright.PENANAIbYCFbrmnT
That may sound petty or like a brag. But trust me, I in no way feel pride in this. 415Please respect copyright.PENANAutTi4q8xOF
Only loneliness.415Please respect copyright.PENANAMk80zuRpnL
At 16:00, I clock out and get ready to leave. There is a party at my family's home tonight, but I feel like ditching. Too bad I can't drive.415Please respect copyright.PENANAajpzoLUNBq
My brother sends a text to me, stating only good news. After being belittled by one of my managers all day, it's nice to have something to smile about. 415Please respect copyright.PENANAfoxrrQrcnU
Once I gather my things, I go around the store to buy some items for myself. 415Please respect copyright.PENANAM5ASxxpmBh
On impulse, I decide to buy a picture. I never buy décor, but this was a must. 415Please respect copyright.PENANAfrymffrc1p
It was a photograph of cherry blossoms. 415Please respect copyright.PENANATcy2YGGyng
One thing everyone quickly knows about me is I love cherry blossoms. They remind me of good, whimsical memories. They recall a sweet time before this era.415Please respect copyright.PENANALgyLVsHSFn
They remind me of home. 415Please respect copyright.PENANAq7Gl59UDzo
The guests arrive a little later than 18:00, but I don't mind. I'm not the one hosting, anyway.415Please respect copyright.PENANAEHiA23jtbM
My sister and brother are making an effort to make more friends at their church. I think that's amazing. They found a place they really like. 415Please respect copyright.PENANANOVax3Fmrb
All night, we play board games. Not much conversation is actually done, and when we all stand to talk, it is dead silent. 415Please respect copyright.PENANAphcVSW2EMH
I don't want to be here. 415Please respect copyright.PENANAinQIaJ203u
It is now 0:04. I sit in my messy workspace, staring at the faux ivy hanging from the ceiling. 415Please respect copyright.PENANAPsq156FiTy
I contemplate a lot of things at this time of night. 415Please respect copyright.PENANAUXzp5MvMKg
I think about my job and the anxiety of being a hamster stuck in a plastic ball forever.415Please respect copyright.PENANA6f1S1L6LUC
I think of how I didn't care for company and how I wished I was left alone this evening. 415Please respect copyright.PENANAYTRbRSWuwA
I think about how I haven't had a proper church home in almost 2 years and how I wish I could find a place and congregation to return to each week. 415Please respect copyright.PENANA7atgZsfEhi
I think about being 22 and how my sisters want me married. I don't want to think about it now.415Please respect copyright.PENANAnAdDg21ru0
Most of all, I think of 2 years prior to this time. It was a time of freedom and promise, a time where I truly thought I knew where God wanted me. 415Please respect copyright.PENANA6U7XK4WszI
Now, I have a better understanding of where to go next. Better than I did four months ago. But I'm still the same. 415Please respect copyright.PENANAtON1xLFhST
I'm still lonely. I still feel depressed and bitter. I still feel dejected, betrayed, and abandoned. 415Please respect copyright.PENANA2Bm7fyR8yX
Maybe I should sleep all of this away. I think I need to talk to God more about this sorrow.415Please respect copyright.PENANA9M9ZdYdo4l
I know all of this makes no sense. But I hope I can prove to you it will. 415Please respect copyright.PENANAy5k6gG3p4c
I want it to make sense.415Please respect copyright.PENANAzwfLqPDnSQ
But alas, I must rest. Sleep only comes for the traveler once a fortnight, so I must seize it like a prize. Now I will go to the place of my dreams, a place where these past four months haunt me no more.415Please respect copyright.PENANAITJOf7Gd3u
The PaperGarden.415Please respect copyright.PENANAwzZUg5CQxo
To be Continued...415Please respect copyright.PENANA7oWBxt9Ce5