「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來,298Please respect copyright.PENANAPS33E6Qzek
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒,298Please respect copyright.PENANA9ozypd0v6H
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的,298Please respect copyright.PENANAac8cEAY3Fv
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幼小我的父母就離異,298Please respect copyright.PENANAQyVjiIz83y
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了,298Please respect copyright.PENANAfOemdVgTth
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對母親的記憶還是有,298Please respect copyright.PENANAP5zIqKYLYm
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記得她很常酗酒,298Please respect copyright.PENANATisiNCVOof
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後來的日子,298Please respect copyright.PENANA925Xm9mbjp
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活,298Please respect copyright.PENANAqIo0NZ16VU
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忙於工作的他,298Please respect copyright.PENANA38k7rv67RH
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園,298Please respect copyright.PENANAwBDeZ2BUa1
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到了上課時間再直接上課,298Please respect copyright.PENANAlCl7e6VbAY
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什麼?為什麼能睡在那裡,298Please respect copyright.PENANA4c8JXAUf9Z
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師,298Please respect copyright.PENANA0YFYpCxnkG
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡,298Please respect copyright.PENANAhynQaYhUNS
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼,298Please respect copyright.PENANA1uACU6NcqW
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課,298Please respect copyright.PENANAhRdW32SWCq
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父親工作的地方不一定,298Please respect copyright.PENANAqqy51gElMW
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輾轉的換了三所小學,298Please respect copyright.PENANAWTgel7y7Dv
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲,298Please respect copyright.PENANAbJCZyFLRnI
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他開始會喜怒無常,298Please respect copyright.PENANAarepMLx9pl
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沒來由的找我發脾氣,298Please respect copyright.PENANAIUuvgc3uWN
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺,298Please respect copyright.PENANAWht35P6Mf6
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很小我就與異性交往,298Please respect copyright.PENANAC7eR1CKXF8
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親,是一名水電工,298Please respect copyright.PENANAec1Hfvs6v1
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作,298Please respect copyright.PENANA9bKSv8RW3C
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作,298Please respect copyright.PENANAPs3JerxK2O
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我會睡在工地,298Please respect copyright.PENANAegxewhI7xA
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩,298Please respect copyright.PENANAYrzZiwMfIe
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業,298Please respect copyright.PENANAJSWRMelYES
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級,298Please respect copyright.PENANApSWmRIRADz
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他開始會講貶低的話語,298Please respect copyright.PENANACe89HrGbKV
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那些原本用來工作的用具,298Please respect copyright.PENANA2pZyOWo1lA
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具,298Please respect copyright.PENANAL3EdMeOiAK
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他會拿著水管說:「你信不信我會打你」298Please respect copyright.PENANAShUpIrATKa
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有次,他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我,298Please respect copyright.PENANAhZjSRfcvQR
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課,298Please respect copyright.PENANAx18aU7PuvP
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要我轉告給老師,298Please respect copyright.PENANA0NvQgXpC2C
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電話裡他說:「老師吼?有種你就報警」298Please respect copyright.PENANA7hcOHZ45ke
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老師報了警,結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後,我偶爾會逃家,298Please respect copyright.PENANAc6IMDaDwuw
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班,298Please respect copyright.PENANAEeZZlQcJCR
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那樣的對待仍然持續,而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來,298Please respect copyright.PENANAezC4f2kcE6
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細細去回想每個片段,298Please respect copyright.PENANACd9WuEUg4M
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父親,很不容易的照顧了我的起居,298Please respect copyright.PENANA8pl1peqwfV
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩,298Please respect copyright.PENANAw88Om74m44
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對他一個大男孩很不容易,298Please respect copyright.PENANAMqPDyZ1Hlz
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所以他很常說:「我是個意外不該出生」298Please respect copyright.PENANAfzidZOr25P
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許,我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒,298Please respect copyright.PENANAcgTdzldIwq
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣,298Please respect copyright.PENANAi4GtMuyXKx
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我打開冰箱,拿出冰牛奶,298Please respect copyright.PENANAY5sFor94Mn
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐,298Please respect copyright.PENANANOAqGe6UYE
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點,298Please respect copyright.PENANA2E2JzKE9A0
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶,298Please respect copyright.PENANA20LSzGAThk
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我喃喃自語到:「好想失憶啊~」298Please respect copyright.PENANAXGpq83dgKV
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正準備吃下第一口時,298Please respect copyright.PENANAW9yvGeixf6
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞,298Please respect copyright.PENANAehb6HHMhz1
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時,回憶到了我國二那年。298Please respect copyright.PENANAls1D3IQuCc