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I remember exactly where I was8964 copyright protection174PENANAAuimvjKiWc 維尼
when I realized what happened.8964 copyright protection174PENANAQ54ulbL3WN 維尼
The water fountain next to my boss’s office 8964 copyright protection174PENANAu7TOEqYEOj 維尼
shared that moment with me.8964 copyright protection174PENANAp8cxaDvrDE 維尼
While a small piece of my sanity melted8964 copyright protection174PENANAtU6Y6gFSbD 維尼
the fountain never moved.8964 copyright protection174PENANA5DgTlWPQKX 維尼
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The melted pile of goo8964 copyright protection174PENANAmyZoyv1bM0 維尼
was hidden away.8964 copyright protection174PENANAwf6FCShFQV 維尼
The same place where I stuffed memories8964 copyright protection174PENANARup5MvvTWm 維尼
of that day.8964 copyright protection174PENANA0vEFVOcbPK 維尼
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I remember exactly where I was8964 copyright protection174PENANAv0ZWr7Pm5S 維尼
when I told myself it didn’t happen.8964 copyright protection174PENANA6jTAJ9fS13 維尼
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To make sense of what happened8964 copyright protection174PENANAtVnVK0CHpy 維尼
I sought out other men,8964 copyright protection174PENANAVLXdiLVhkI 維尼
and waited for it to happen again.8964 copyright protection174PENANAs8Wtyv1ROS 維尼
I chose the most vile and abusive men,8964 copyright protection174PENANAfFjAzmLLQz 維尼
because in my broken brain if they did 8964 copyright protection174PENANAJ4xwPjJKHq 維尼
that to me then it was normal.8964 copyright protection174PENANAgJTa1FROJy 維尼
If they hurt me the way he did,8964 copyright protection174PENANAkDUA94i2Kp 維尼
then what happened wasn’t rare.8964 copyright protection174PENANAvlIGyobwhg 維尼
Then I wouldn’t have to admit something had happened.8964 copyright protection174PENANABEHNg5kX7D 維尼
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They hurt me in other ways8964 copyright protection174PENANAJen129ol07 維尼
but never the way I thought they would.8964 copyright protection174PENANAc9hOlCGI5f 維尼
By trying to rationalize this one trauma8964 copyright protection174PENANAjYIqPULWUa 維尼
I created so many more.8964 copyright protection174PENANAQoq6t64GWp 維尼
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The hours I spent in backseats of cars8964 copyright protection174PENANAbaHVV35Bn8 維尼
or time I spent on my knees8964 copyright protection174PENANAIYMZz1eARk 維尼
are pieces of me I can’t ever get back.8964 copyright protection174PENANA8qejW2DD0S 維尼
I know from experience how little support8964 copyright protection174PENANA39ZtTxCNRO 維尼
a cardboard box has8964 copyright protection174PENANACRM1nUACUf 維尼
and how grimey the underside of a bathroom8964 copyright protection174PENANAJqMK4JapIP 維尼
sink is.8964 copyright protection174PENANAMOn9TP3N0I 維尼
I let sweaty middle-aged men climb over me8964 copyright protection174PENANAuPkNHv7aEs 維尼
while I blankly stared at mirrored ceilings8964 copyright protection174PENANA4fdHhZrw1U 維尼
because I told myself I deserved it. 8964 copyright protection174PENANAtvhuGz2bNf 維尼
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Moments of realization will8964 copyright protection174PENANAJZBzwe9h2J 維尼
come to me when I least expect it8964 copyright protection174PENANAZMEcvwK5ST 維尼
Driving, and thoughts of8964 copyright protection174PENANAE5ngNfC758 維尼
“my rapist was in my house”8964 copyright protection174PENANAuVfKYaoFnb 維尼
distract me.8964 copyright protection174PENANAdAV0eqgK4Z 維尼
Washing dishes, and my brain chirps8964 copyright protection174PENANAGSDVLPFxJj 維尼
“he helped your grandparents move a shelf”8964 copyright protection174PENANAtD0DaGhZi8 維尼
showering, and all I can see8964 copyright protection174PENANATxAeb2Mj12 維尼
are faces8964 copyright protection174PENANAYAAUa9jaMd 維尼
An endless cycle of regret8964 copyright protection174PENANA9DXhXR0olI 維尼
Everyday my brain resurrects 8964 copyright protection174PENANAbd4aU7rZ3q 維尼
a new ghost to haunt me8964 copyright protection174PENANAfaw3l1bjfI 維尼
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Your way of thinking will change.8964 copyright protection174PENANALyFKt4dGBL 維尼
No one talks about that.8964 copyright protection174PENANAi99X9ohoTU 維尼
You’ll realize it too late8964 copyright protection174PENANAHbiI3mbo87 維尼
and it’ll be another thing you’ve lost. 8964 copyright protection174PENANARLhyhErGJv 維尼
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There’ll be a joke8964 copyright protection174PENANAV6RxJNvBrD 維尼
someone always makes one8964 copyright protection174PENANA5O3b1QXCK2 維尼
and it’ll take almost breaking 8964 copyright protection174PENANAvD9lsGdMPR 維尼
your teeth8964 copyright protection174PENANAYhOAgNcHCT 維尼
to stay quiet8964 copyright protection174PENANAINm7NooQKk 維尼
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This thing that happened to you8964 copyright protection174PENANAjpBvt4AF7I 維尼
is used as a plot twist in movies.8964 copyright protection174PENANA4nKatE7wAg 維尼
You’ll have this weird8964 copyright protection174PENANAaP95r1iq7m 維尼
understanding or knowledge8964 copyright protection174PENANABMho99VKHO 維尼
that the rest of the audience won't. 8964 copyright protection174PENANAVW6v140Tk2 維尼
“I get why they froze.”8964 copyright protection174PENANAJcWDJZWHhK 維尼
”The shower made sense.”8964 copyright protection174PENANAiaD9ry3BqL 維尼
”I didn’t say anything either.”8964 copyright protection174PENANAiBO65nLKxA 維尼
“Zoning out is normal.”8964 copyright protection174PENANA60UgP7j3xk 維尼
“Ah, the random crying stage.”8964 copyright protection174PENANAobUSmAm8Hp 維尼
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People might not understand8964 copyright protection174PENANADZW1AcAdJF 維尼
why you connected to someone8964 copyright protection174PENANAl8hrdYvP7X 維尼
with ten minutes of screentime8964 copyright protection174PENANAKSvcSH8w4G 維尼
or some side character8964 copyright protection174PENANARHrH2gora8 維尼
(but you’ll know)8964 copyright protection174PENANAmKJJWDH9S0 維尼
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I mean that genuinely 8964 copyright protection174PENANAuLWCmAQ64t 維尼
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You may get help, justice, or pity8964 copyright protection174PENANACPRvVuQR3e 維尼
but that only lasts for so long.8964 copyright protection174PENANAPFhaudCNLD 維尼
The world moves on8964 copyright protection174PENANA5TXNxSpEvT 維尼
with or without you.8964 copyright protection174PENANAyby2UgWfuJ 維尼
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Eventually you have to stop8964 copyright protection174PENANAqgCbM0KBVw 維尼
mentioning it8964 copyright protection174PENANAMJ51EkGhGa 維尼
or you’ll get left behind.8964 copyright protection174PENANAKBVaLu7UCq 維尼
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I called ten offices8964 copyright protection174PENANA5hyc5CAPtj 維尼
there were no openings8964 copyright protection174PENANAMjKt2dOPYn 維尼
when I was finally ready8964 copyright protection174PENANAnMgp1QAJDG 維尼
to tell my story8964 copyright protection174PENANAXIisXfci6p 維尼
there were no ears8964 copyright protection174PENANA4YRP9IN8jf 維尼
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I have to remind myself8964 copyright protection174PENANAnyj6pVgdjr 維尼
to call him what he actually is8964 copyright protection174PENANAy5zrxm2Ses 維尼
a rapist8964 copyright protection174PENANAAEDYKRaAm4 維尼
Monsters are the things from fairy tales8964 copyright protection174PENANAe7ke3inQ1F 維尼
that show us darkness can be defeated8964 copyright protection174PENANAaJuu4fpY3x 維尼
Fantastical beings born into evil8964 copyright protection174PENANA6mGr7RD92u 維尼
He chose it in that moment8964 copyright protection174PENANAUH4IDO7CHn 維尼
and there wasn’t a sword for me8964 copyright protection174PENANAzj2lkvCIGD 維尼
I have to remind myself that he was nothing more than a man8964 copyright protection174PENANAmPJZSsf0j5 維尼
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You can’t get raped in you’re not having sex.8964 copyright protection174PENANAAeNfifR4Ok 維尼
So they don’t teach you about it.8964 copyright protection174PENANAVuoh5YB0VF 維尼
Now that you know nothing 8964 copyright protection174PENANA6TdPHSXAgy 維尼
how do you tell crime from nature?8964 copyright protection174PENANAgKlepqGfP2 維尼
You don’t.178Please respect copyright.PENANAk5nr8QFq70
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You learn about it in secret.8964 copyright protection174PENANApnPQTFC9iW 維尼
On darkened screens where predators lurk8964 copyright protection174PENANATbDMxlwk4P 維尼
and you get desensitized. 8964 copyright protection174PENANAYwVR5vfR2O 維尼
Violence=love8964 copyright protection174PENANADArOkLF0xU 維尼
or so the internet says.8964 copyright protection174PENANA6CRkk7dFst 維尼
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So when something violent happens you think everythings normal.8964 copyright protection174PENANAQ8GmikUVFM 維尼
It takes years to figure out what went wrong.8964 copyright protection174PENANAU5YF6uAa0O 維尼
You blame yourself,8964 copyright protection174PENANA2kx3G7ovwA 維尼
for not realizing it sooner.8964 copyright protection174PENANAQzG4YcjMQC 維尼
They blame you,8964 copyright protection174PENANAdANNphfA0a 維尼
because how could you have been raped8964 copyright protection174PENANAuMClz2RYe3 維尼
if you’re not having sex?8964 copyright protection174PENANA5Ylp8BQ2Rr 維尼
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I vilified myself8964 copyright protection174PENANA5Mb5VAzN1u 維尼
ruined my own background8964 copyright protection174PENANAHK4uTAkrlH 維尼
lied to myself8964 copyright protection174PENANASOm7x4b0G3 維尼
why would anyone believe me8964 copyright protection174PENANA5qouBhacLU 維尼
if I didn’t for years8964 copyright protection174PENANAXR5xVdZQ00 維尼
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Seven years.8964 copyright protection174PENANA4tuMf00pu1 維尼
That’s how long I sang8964 copyright protection174PENANAl0d7a2iPkZ 維尼
my song of denial.8964 copyright protection174PENANA9NPF2ZlHJs 維尼
That could have been years8964 copyright protection174PENANAay1n13MqLC 維尼
of therapy, moving on,8964 copyright protection174PENANAsAbePfcAvp 維尼
or at least acceptance.8964 copyright protection174PENANAbD2Rffkvm9 維尼
Seven years8964 copyright protection174PENANA5uhf7c1MwJ 維尼
spent fighting myself8964 copyright protection174PENANAO5qql97qfb 維尼
while the real monster8964 copyright protection174PENANAJU9o0rtx6Z 維尼
roamed free8964 copyright protection174PENANAm0fvmgyP53 維尼
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