White sheets stained red in a hotel bed72Please respect copyright.PENANA7CGFhfhInK
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone72Please respect copyright.PENANA3VJTTSRS96
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing72Please respect copyright.PENANAQ6zJQCPQ8M
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping72Please respect copyright.PENANAvZXDmjwJBZ
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 72Please respect copyright.PENANAWtE5O6tmyL
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 72Please respect copyright.PENANAsOfPdbGzAY
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head72Please respect copyright.PENANAbQJBauxodU
Vivid visions invading my rest 72Please respect copyright.PENANAvr5DgXYYrW
I can't sleep because all I see is death72Please respect copyright.PENANAS5M0uzFB2e
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 72Please respect copyright.PENANAkrgayThxqc
Thinking about death at such an early age72Please respect copyright.PENANA0Dd1CUKv73
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 72Please respect copyright.PENANAEh7zMa9mJf
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest72Please respect copyright.PENANAAFR0yyDqzl
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 72Please respect copyright.PENANAcGhtO9CIGM
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end72Please respect copyright.PENANAflxkgXt4p3
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again72Please respect copyright.PENANATLyINkH5NQ
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying72Please respect copyright.PENANAgkxvSXClpN
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries72Please respect copyright.PENANA8PB7DvVGwD
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"72Please respect copyright.PENANA5Kgu74nMy1
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 72Please respect copyright.PENANASgtRt6lySl
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends72Please respect copyright.PENANAwCriY9nHL3
Nobody actually cares until you're dead72Please respect copyright.PENANAWPda00r83S
Until you're another headline in the news72Please respect copyright.PENANABGpmkVTfCm
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 72Please respect copyright.PENANAyvJM8wbDDy
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 72Please respect copyright.PENANAy7GkaYAcpG
"I miss you today" 72Please respect copyright.PENANAT2PNGR7kq5
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around72Please respect copyright.PENANA657C18ZYOz
But they care now, 72Please respect copyright.PENANACF2MCUcLmQ
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 72Please respect copyright.PENANAHBdh81tbDI
Mixed signals is all they send72Please respect copyright.PENANAGgEnGBrNC5
One day I matter to them 72Please respect copyright.PENANAomBOHAVXh9
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine72Please respect copyright.PENANAv44FpcwQ5N
A few months ago, I felt like flying 72Please respect copyright.PENANAZ6uagxOfiL
A few months ago, I truly felt alive72Please respect copyright.PENANApuIyBJzGWU
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 72Please respect copyright.PENANAIUmhW7vrkp
It's hard to explain with words,72Please respect copyright.PENANAmUnUqqBOyC
How the silence kills 72Please respect copyright.PENANAVI28KoGB5R
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 72Please respect copyright.PENANA1CFWcN5Xvu
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 72Please respect copyright.PENANAw3zdeHe2mu
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 72Please respect copyright.PENANAmhepo2oDCw
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow72Please respect copyright.PENANA9UAUbumdF1
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 72Please respect copyright.PENANADUWH7lUFjB
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 72Please respect copyright.PENANAsSTD19BcqP
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it72Please respect copyright.PENANAPEicPhid96
The little voice in my head, it screams it72Please respect copyright.PENANAIrxUDMCrFf
"This was their choice"72Please respect copyright.PENANA49lVBL1aqs
And to be lonely all the time is mine72Please respect copyright.PENANAqrNeIu3R78
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly72Please respect copyright.PENANAeztmzJHm3N
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains72Please respect copyright.PENANAzYGC1HJdUL
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned72Please respect copyright.PENANArrjvlW1SNO
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 72Please respect copyright.PENANAIRbI1KwVBk
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 72Please respect copyright.PENANApjv07TU48G
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying72Please respect copyright.PENANARBSvcuBtJk
I wish somebody would call72Please respect copyright.PENANAdLXc1wRjaQ
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 72Please respect copyright.PENANAjmDJPOITsA
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 72Please respect copyright.PENANAP66wqcBUXs
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden72Please respect copyright.PENANAsM1EpLvVI9
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 72Please respect copyright.PENANA364dTnxlNn
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 72Please respect copyright.PENANAZsKzAwFuIu
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 72Please respect copyright.PENANAmFGxIL3B6U
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried