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I remember exactly where I was8964 copyright protection169PENANAJnYZlkAlt1 維尼
when I realized what happened.8964 copyright protection169PENANA1v337CjIsN 維尼
The water fountain next to my boss’s office 8964 copyright protection169PENANAzRldjcvWvR 維尼
shared that moment with me.8964 copyright protection169PENANACDmWnoeTw6 維尼
While a small piece of my sanity melted8964 copyright protection169PENANAPyJJvnbLhi 維尼
the fountain never moved.8964 copyright protection169PENANAXMb20PmO9c 維尼
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The melted pile of goo8964 copyright protection169PENANAJPbzT85QCt 維尼
was hidden away.8964 copyright protection169PENANA3jlbzt8yCq 維尼
The same place where I stuffed memories8964 copyright protection169PENANApxBSCJ8pqq 維尼
of that day.8964 copyright protection169PENANA35BHv07ESu 維尼
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I remember exactly where I was8964 copyright protection169PENANAlYRfRIJ5hr 維尼
when I told myself it didn’t happen.8964 copyright protection169PENANAaTau2OvY37 維尼
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To make sense of what happened8964 copyright protection169PENANAYrOPxgFKke 維尼
I sought out other men,8964 copyright protection169PENANAgeIT7TE1os 維尼
and waited for it to happen again.8964 copyright protection169PENANAURRkfUHXoo 維尼
I chose the most vile and abusive men,8964 copyright protection169PENANA7irmlQafvJ 維尼
because in my broken brain if they did 8964 copyright protection169PENANAbV4trOVypa 維尼
that to me then it was normal.8964 copyright protection169PENANA81J9y0gTHj 維尼
If they hurt me the way he did,8964 copyright protection169PENANAIMhHNPUlUh 維尼
then what happened wasn’t rare.8964 copyright protection169PENANAJgBrAylCft 維尼
Then I wouldn’t have to admit something had happened.8964 copyright protection169PENANAPJiVh0u5kY 維尼
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They hurt me in other ways8964 copyright protection169PENANAttB1m6sqpJ 維尼
but never the way I thought they would.8964 copyright protection169PENANA9wnHMmQQeN 維尼
By trying to rationalize this one trauma8964 copyright protection169PENANAPRRDbg6ypY 維尼
I created so many more.8964 copyright protection169PENANANJijxEjhfk 維尼
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The hours I spent in backseats of cars8964 copyright protection169PENANAG3TEVY9vBj 維尼
or time I spent on my knees8964 copyright protection169PENANABLt0ywjw0m 維尼
are pieces of me I can’t ever get back.8964 copyright protection169PENANA2xEFL5Lx6t 維尼
I know from experience how little support8964 copyright protection169PENANAipPQcAt0rW 維尼
a cardboard box has8964 copyright protection169PENANAkS2Hw4j9rD 維尼
and how grimey the underside of a bathroom8964 copyright protection169PENANANpBE1XiY2P 維尼
sink is.8964 copyright protection169PENANAIILkslZcdy 維尼
I let sweaty middle-aged men climb over me8964 copyright protection169PENANA86XgABMqFs 維尼
while I blankly stared at mirrored ceilings8964 copyright protection169PENANA1smeFAxQ4v 維尼
because I told myself I deserved it. 8964 copyright protection169PENANAQKKrUHrynP 維尼
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Moments of realization will8964 copyright protection169PENANArg4XYTjNfv 維尼
come to me when I least expect it8964 copyright protection169PENANADQ16cuoffR 維尼
Driving, and thoughts of8964 copyright protection169PENANAdsX8jKR3hP 維尼
“my rapist was in my house”8964 copyright protection169PENANABoFFhtwL1n 維尼
distract me.8964 copyright protection169PENANAiZaPMORBL3 維尼
Washing dishes, and my brain chirps8964 copyright protection169PENANA191nHXzhNz 維尼
“he helped your grandparents move a shelf”8964 copyright protection169PENANAzuC30pL48r 維尼
showering, and all I can see8964 copyright protection169PENANACUURREkW7c 維尼
are faces8964 copyright protection169PENANAFZrraijFVf 維尼
An endless cycle of regret8964 copyright protection169PENANAgNJ3ddsMBl 維尼
Everyday my brain resurrects 8964 copyright protection169PENANA6NDRGntQkN 維尼
a new ghost to haunt me8964 copyright protection169PENANAB8DnCBjr2f 維尼
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Your way of thinking will change.8964 copyright protection169PENANA0rxgxeOIbM 維尼
No one talks about that.8964 copyright protection169PENANAXh1IYSJ3ny 維尼
You’ll realize it too late8964 copyright protection169PENANA8WQ8sbIJWJ 維尼
and it’ll be another thing you’ve lost. 8964 copyright protection169PENANAkqtg10QonX 維尼
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There’ll be a joke8964 copyright protection169PENANA7Z2B0HrnYT 維尼
someone always makes one8964 copyright protection169PENANAQJc8IFajCq 維尼
and it’ll take almost breaking 8964 copyright protection169PENANAdVsY3K6k1L 維尼
your teeth8964 copyright protection169PENANApty4ECgAdr 維尼
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This thing that happened to you8964 copyright protection169PENANAZY7Gm3ehMu 維尼
is used as a plot twist in movies.8964 copyright protection169PENANALEkWJMOlRs 維尼
You’ll have this weird8964 copyright protection169PENANA9eIbM2Nz8o 維尼
understanding or knowledge8964 copyright protection169PENANAotOv0T5sS6 維尼
that the rest of the audience won't. 8964 copyright protection169PENANA2dTILBId5r 維尼
“I get why they froze.”8964 copyright protection169PENANAjufd1VFbmj 維尼
”The shower made sense.”8964 copyright protection169PENANAfUy4TLvktp 維尼
”I didn’t say anything either.”8964 copyright protection169PENANAzqLiOWyHc3 維尼
“Zoning out is normal.”8964 copyright protection169PENANAwsCZ6ZoE9b 維尼
“Ah, the random crying stage.”8964 copyright protection169PENANAbonsdaR7u3 維尼
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People might not understand8964 copyright protection169PENANAObfKm4Pu4S 維尼
why you connected to someone8964 copyright protection169PENANAdnjyV9eBSd 維尼
with ten minutes of screentime8964 copyright protection169PENANAYpOTCQIlNy 維尼
or some side character8964 copyright protection169PENANAlAYbPRUuv7 維尼
(but you’ll know)8964 copyright protection169PENANAgO2kgXqqNT 維尼
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You may get help, justice, or pity8964 copyright protection169PENANAnGior9h6Sa 維尼
but that only lasts for so long.8964 copyright protection169PENANA17YrBIQYsU 維尼
The world moves on8964 copyright protection169PENANAkAUEhb2V7k 維尼
with or without you.8964 copyright protection169PENANAZKrJjZXd1U 維尼
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Eventually you have to stop8964 copyright protection169PENANATVL6nOYTjv 維尼
mentioning it8964 copyright protection169PENANA9LGzMjCZ1G 維尼
or you’ll get left behind.8964 copyright protection169PENANAnik0eE05z7 維尼
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I called ten offices8964 copyright protection169PENANAKIZm9icm0E 維尼
there were no openings8964 copyright protection169PENANACAgYKPbzKm 維尼
when I was finally ready8964 copyright protection169PENANARjYXC00KM3 維尼
to tell my story8964 copyright protection169PENANASAoZTQMmaT 維尼
there were no ears8964 copyright protection169PENANAFqw0unBqNv 維尼
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I have to remind myself8964 copyright protection169PENANAkNpz3s9igh 維尼
to call him what he actually is8964 copyright protection169PENANA4ZCyzoCMPw 維尼
a rapist8964 copyright protection169PENANAbPpZYoFJbT 維尼
Monsters are the things from fairy tales8964 copyright protection169PENANA4IxeOYpKRW 維尼
that show us darkness can be defeated8964 copyright protection169PENANAQHqWWVTzQi 維尼
Fantastical beings born into evil8964 copyright protection169PENANAjgcJzBr2UB 維尼
He chose it in that moment8964 copyright protection169PENANAonZwXYCoor 維尼
and there wasn’t a sword for me8964 copyright protection169PENANAAcddBStumX 維尼
I have to remind myself that he was nothing more than a man8964 copyright protection169PENANAPCl20SfM6l 維尼
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You can’t get raped in you’re not having sex.8964 copyright protection169PENANAjA1UYBY0Jj 維尼
So they don’t teach you about it.8964 copyright protection169PENANAmtjwowFvBs 維尼
Now that you know nothing 8964 copyright protection169PENANAxJZ18bMNj9 維尼
how do you tell crime from nature?8964 copyright protection169PENANA67c9pyCuL7 維尼
You don’t.173Please respect copyright.PENANAJl3TifbcZ5
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You learn about it in secret.8964 copyright protection169PENANAZRe9d1hWXj 維尼
On darkened screens where predators lurk8964 copyright protection169PENANA5hwWsGL3iu 維尼
and you get desensitized. 8964 copyright protection169PENANArCDfydYZC3 維尼
Violence=love8964 copyright protection169PENANAVt6ZWnhkSZ 維尼
or so the internet says.8964 copyright protection169PENANAc9OQSuS5ma 維尼
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So when something violent happens you think everythings normal.8964 copyright protection169PENANA5O28sw5l5B 維尼
It takes years to figure out what went wrong.8964 copyright protection169PENANA4mTIfZiOQp 維尼
You blame yourself,8964 copyright protection169PENANASR88lWA6fO 維尼
for not realizing it sooner.8964 copyright protection169PENANAWfQouTlSnS 維尼
They blame you,8964 copyright protection169PENANAGo5ut6l05J 維尼
because how could you have been raped8964 copyright protection169PENANARufUjOuu2a 維尼
if you’re not having sex?8964 copyright protection169PENANAtSmdHbzbY3 維尼
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I vilified myself8964 copyright protection169PENANAbbp6KtbEds 維尼
ruined my own background8964 copyright protection169PENANAZDC9MncSkS 維尼
lied to myself8964 copyright protection169PENANAua6oJnVzRa 維尼
why would anyone believe me8964 copyright protection169PENANARN4ZNvsOr5 維尼
if I didn’t for years8964 copyright protection169PENANAgtNe3abcsR 維尼
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Seven years.8964 copyright protection169PENANAa2CFpO9W58 維尼
That’s how long I sang8964 copyright protection169PENANAZqQxXYnmgn 維尼
my song of denial.8964 copyright protection169PENANAjfkoT3CuHB 維尼
That could have been years8964 copyright protection169PENANAJw3FO62obS 維尼
of therapy, moving on,8964 copyright protection169PENANAu4q2P9IRIj 維尼
or at least acceptance.8964 copyright protection169PENANAUoKheIaRot 維尼
Seven years8964 copyright protection169PENANA9V7QOpBR2M 維尼
spent fighting myself8964 copyright protection169PENANADmmZ7UZdIt 維尼
while the real monster8964 copyright protection169PENANAluhp2oGYnm 維尼
roamed free8964 copyright protection169PENANA7asJO9kr3b 維尼
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