I Fell Off The Edge Of The World Today https://www.penana.com/feed/1386 Selected poems that I'll publish here. en Penana I Fell Off The Edge Of The World Today Chronic Illness https://www.penana.com/story/1386/i-fell-off-the-edge-of-the-world-today/issue/30 I have a job that pays bills and is understanding of my illnessI have a boyfriend who loves me Wed, 29 Nov 2017 15:21:39 +0000 I Fell Off The Edge Of The World Today The Worst Was November https://www.penana.com/story/1386/i-fell-off-the-edge-of-the-world-today/issue/29 He said it was a rough start,But a rough start isn’t supposed to last five months,The worst was November, he said,There wouldn’t be another November, he said,No, but there was a December,There was a January,There was a February,But I made sure there was no March.At the end, he was desperate Thu, 13 Jul 2017 20:01:46 +0000 I Fell Off The Edge Of The World Today The Stars https://www.penana.com/story/1386/i-fell-off-the-edge-of-the-world-today/issue/28 I fear for the stars that burn bright and hotLighting up the sky early in their lifeFor those are the ones that collapseFolding in on themselves in their own fireI fear for the child prodigiesLocked in their minds by their eldersUntil nothing they do as they grow seems rightAnd their talents are c Sat, 24 Jun 2017 02:59:40 +0000 I Fell Off The Edge Of The World Today I don't believe him https://www.penana.com/story/1386/i-fell-off-the-edge-of-the-world-today/issue/27 I don’t believe him,When he says the things he does,Even right in front of me,It’s something I can’t see,I don’t believe him,He says what I want to hear,That’s enough to spot a snake,Even if he’s not a rake,I don’t believe him,Though I’d trust him with my life,I don’t trust hi Thu, 10 Nov 2016 18:00:59 +0000 I Fell Off The Edge Of The World Today Service With A Smile https://www.penana.com/story/1386/i-fell-off-the-edge-of-the-world-today/issue/26 You can’t come?Oh that’s okay, it’s no big deal(I planned this for hours!)When things don’t work out I can still smileBecause it’ll be okay eventually(I really don’t know if I believe that anymore)Look, you’re sweet, you really areBut I’m not looking for something right now—(Actually I’m lo Fri, 24 Jun 2016 17:57:55 +0000 I Fell Off The Edge Of The World Today To A Friend https://www.penana.com/story/1386/i-fell-off-the-edge-of-the-world-today/issue/25 Drink as much and you likeBut you’ll still be there in the morningGod glances down at you with distainAnd hounds you every night and dayThough you don’t believe in demons stillYou cry until you’re mourning.I tried to help you night and dayBut all you did was push awayThen you grew your own Fri, 22 Apr 2016 20:31:09 +0000 I Fell Off The Edge Of The World Today I'm Smiling Reprise https://www.penana.com/story/1386/i-fell-off-the-edge-of-the-world-today/issue/24 I’m smiling,And everything’s all right,This time I’m not lying. Fri, 22 Jan 2016 06:56:05 +0000 I Fell Off The Edge Of The World Today I Lost My Hope One Sunday https://www.penana.com/story/1386/i-fell-off-the-edge-of-the-world-today/issue/23 I lost my hope one Sunday,The sky a lovely cloudy blue,The sun warming my hands,And bringing me its light,That, a sweet day of May.I find my mask come Monday,Smoothing deep over deep cracks,Until all I see is what they see,A smiling me happy to be,My silly lie being this is me. Thu, 21 Jan 2016 18:51:17 +0000 I Fell Off The Edge Of The World Today Interpretation https://www.penana.com/story/1386/i-fell-off-the-edge-of-the-world-today/issue/22 Interpretation is vital to any thinking mindIt’s why there’re so many religions and philosophiesSome proudly displayed with more zest thanTheir brothers and sisters that read the same bookPerhaps not even reading only listeningTo an interpretation of an interpretationOf something thrice translated Tue, 12 Jan 2016 05:51:33 +0000 I Fell Off The Edge Of The World Today The Red Onesie Sestina https://www.penana.com/story/1386/i-fell-off-the-edge-of-the-world-today/issue/21 She was born a beggar in a bright red onesie,Taught to want everything but not be selfish,Childhood spent puzzled with a wooden spoon,Haunted by words so soothing like honey,Those words almost convincing her it’s silver,That same voice could be just as cutting.One night of shattered glass an Tue, 15 Sep 2015 03:45:13 +0000 I Fell Off The Edge Of The World Today Gravel Beaches https://www.penana.com/story/1386/i-fell-off-the-edge-of-the-world-today/issue/20 Today I climbed out of the rabbit hole,Dragged up by my hair locked in iron,Stumbled through the thorny wood,Bruised and scratched I stand tall,Only to be hit behind the knees and fall.I still followed him with my hands bound,Bloody as I was I kept moving along,Knowi Fri, 11 Sep 2015 18:58:20 +0000 I Fell Off The Edge Of The World Today I'm Not As Okay As I Said I Was https://www.penana.com/story/1386/i-fell-off-the-edge-of-the-world-today/issue/19 I’m not as okay as I said I wasI’m taking the pills, I promiseBut I still feel like there’s notMuch you can do for me now.I’m not as okay as I said I wasI want you to stop worrying nowIt’s not like I’m off to off myselfI can’t do it with you there.I’m not as okay a Mon, 01 Jun 2015 02:33:25 +0000 I Fell Off The Edge Of The World Today I'm Smiling https://www.penana.com/story/1386/i-fell-off-the-edge-of-the-world-today/issue/18 I smile like I’ve got nothing to hide,Put myself up front this light won’t die,When really I write a song never sung,Carve the lyrics in my skin Sat, 18 Apr 2015 04:45:27 +0000 I Fell Off The Edge Of The World Today Romance of The Romance Languages https://www.penana.com/story/1386/i-fell-off-the-edge-of-the-world-today/issue/17 I don’t know what you’re sayingBut it sounds rather lyrical to meA language of ups of downs of rollsBeautiful Bonita Bella BeauIt sounds like warm brown eyesLike sweet fruits right off the treeA mysterious string of loveliesYou could be cursing my nameBut from your lips it soundsSens Wed, 25 Mar 2015 04:37:36 +0000 I Fell Off The Edge Of The World Today Tuning Out Nothing https://www.penana.com/story/1386/i-fell-off-the-edge-of-the-world-today/issue/16 —Fear—Rippling through still waterInstead of a test, I fall—splashDarkness, Death, Destruction——Public Speaking—I shut out the worldAnd the water roars louder—Telephones—Won’t stop ringingJust because I want them to—Conversations—Must happen for life to goSo walk Sun, 22 Mar 2015 02:15:01 +0000 I Fell Off The Edge Of The World Today I get nervous sometimes (a lot) https://www.penana.com/story/1386/i-fell-off-the-edge-of-the-world-today/issue/15 I get nervous when people don’t text me backI get nervous when I walk into a full bathroomI get nervous when I have to interrupt a classI get nervous when I have to present in mathI get nervous when I have to buy somethingI get nervous when my work is up for debateI get nervous when a cute boy talks to m Wed, 18 Mar 2015 07:38:18 +0000 I Fell Off The Edge Of The World Today The "You Tried" Ribbon https://www.penana.com/story/1386/i-fell-off-the-edge-of-the-world-today/issue/14 Why should I feel personally insulted?When my best certainly wasn’t enough?I’m more insulted when I see,A girl with the same ribbon—Who is worse than me. Sat, 14 Mar 2015 01:12:19 +0000 I Fell Off The Edge Of The World Today A Brief Summary of My Academic Experiences https://www.penana.com/story/1386/i-fell-off-the-edge-of-the-world-today/issue/13 Kindergarten first day I was late,Doesn’t play well with others.First grade Mother’s Day,I can’t read,Maybe I should be held back,Second grade, JK—Rowling lit a light inside,Third grade, I made—A friend that I still haveFourth grade, Charles Dickens,Please pay Thu, 12 Mar 2015 15:39:50 +0000 I Fell Off The Edge Of The World Today A Sitting Duck's Nature https://www.penana.com/story/1386/i-fell-off-the-edge-of-the-world-today/issue/12 There are so many words to describe an aching sorrow,But none that work to detail the chill that overtakes me,Science gave me solace in nature and nurture in tandem,Perhaps a change of scenery and a prescription bottle,May carry me away from all this by tomorrow--You are young!T Mon, 09 Mar 2015 03:04:33 +0000 I Fell Off The Edge Of The World Today Crushing My Fairies https://www.penana.com/story/1386/i-fell-off-the-edge-of-the-world-today/issue/11 Butterflies are fairies dancing,Flying around in a waltz, a tango,Fluttering in their wing made wind,Isolation once protected me,I studied my fairies all alone,Away from the words of those,Wishing to drag me down.But suddenly the winds changed,I changed, Sat, 07 Mar 2015 08:23:15 +0000