Run (Disasters in Love, Book 1) https://www.penana.com/feed/23676 Just out of an unhealthy relationship, Katarina decides to give up on men all together...Only to meet Bentley, a terribly attractive playboy with a few pretty big secrets. When their best friends couple up, Kat and Ben agree to fake a relationship.  They begin to question how much is pretend and how much is real, but will their fak en Penana Run (Disasters in Love, Book 1) Epilogue https://www.penana.com/story/23676/run-disasters-in-love-book-1/issue/52 KatJuly 3, 2005*Next day*I hardly recognize the frail body lying in front of me, I've never seen someone so strong look so weak, so fragile. The monitors beep and groan, straining to provide life. I've never been so grateful for a machine before.Working up Mon, 10 Aug 2020 20:01:33 +0000 Run (Disasters in Love, Book 1) Chapter 50 https://www.penana.com/story/23676/run-disasters-in-love-book-1/issue/51 KatJuly 2, 2005*Same day*As I near the end of my run, I feel like something is off.  It has nothing to do with my devastated sister or the fact that my Father hasn't even wished me 'Happy Birthday'.I just feel... off balance. Rounding the corner, I Mon, 10 Aug 2020 20:01:08 +0000 Run (Disasters in Love, Book 1) Chapter 49 https://www.penana.com/story/23676/run-disasters-in-love-book-1/issue/50 BenJuly 2, 2005*One month later*As I pull into the driveway, I begin to second guess my decision.What if she doesn't want to see me? What if her dad shoots me?What if she's with someone else?What if-Ring, ring.Ring, ring. Mon, 10 Aug 2020 20:00:42 +0000 Run (Disasters in Love, Book 1) Chapter 48 https://www.penana.com/story/23676/run-disasters-in-love-book-1/issue/49 KatMay 31, 2005*Ten days later*In. Out.Right. Left.Nothing can replace the feeling of running. Since I've been home, I found I can easily run my old path twice, even three times before getting tired. I could probably do four, but maybe I Mon, 10 Aug 2020 20:00:12 +0000 Run (Disasters in Love, Book 1) Chapter 47 https://www.penana.com/story/23676/run-disasters-in-love-book-1/issue/48 BenMay 21, 2005*Same day*Fuck.Kat doesn't want to be with me. Not yet.It's only three months, right? I can make it that long without her, can't I?Fuck. When did I become so pussy whipped? Of course I can make it a couple measl Mon, 10 Aug 2020 19:59:35 +0000 Run (Disasters in Love, Book 1) Chapter 46 https://www.penana.com/story/23676/run-disasters-in-love-book-1/issue/47 KatMay 21, 2005*Same day*I love seeing Ben like this.So carefree. So happy.So very weird.This is the real him, the one he hides away.Sometimes, when he thinks nobody's looking, his mask drops. In those moments, I can see the face Mon, 10 Aug 2020 19:59:03 +0000 Run (Disasters in Love, Book 1) Chapter 45 https://www.penana.com/story/23676/run-disasters-in-love-book-1/issue/46 BenMay 21, 2005*Same day*What the fuck is she doing here? I told her to leave.  I told her I didn't care who she told.  I just want her out of my life.And Kat thought I would date her?  I don't even want to see her ugly fake ass Mon, 10 Aug 2020 19:58:25 +0000 Run (Disasters in Love, Book 1) Chapter 44 https://www.penana.com/story/23676/run-disasters-in-love-book-1/issue/45 KatMay 21, 2005*Same day*"You have feelings for me?"  He's standing again, looking down into my eyes. Crap.  Why did I say that?"Uh, yeah..."  I cup my hand lightly over my face, trying to hide my embarrassment. "I think I should probably leave now. Mon, 10 Aug 2020 19:57:53 +0000 Run (Disasters in Love, Book 1) Chapter 43 https://www.penana.com/story/23676/run-disasters-in-love-book-1/issue/44 BenMay 21, 2005*Same day*"Ben, I'm serious.  Untie me."  She's trying to shut me out, but I can't figure out what changed.  I almost had her exactly where I wanted her.  It was drastic, I know, but she was about to open up to me.  I could feel it.I can't g Mon, 10 Aug 2020 19:57:17 +0000 Run (Disasters in Love, Book 1) Chapter 42 https://www.penana.com/story/23676/run-disasters-in-love-book-1/issue/43 KatMay 21, 2005*Same day*"Wh-What?" Surely I misheard him.He wants to tie me down? Like figuratively or literally?I'm not sure I like either one. The need to get out of here is growing stronger.I don't want to stay.I don't want to talk. Mon, 10 Aug 2020 19:56:46 +0000 Run (Disasters in Love, Book 1) Chapter 41 https://www.penana.com/story/23676/run-disasters-in-love-book-1/issue/42 BenMay 21, 2005*Same day*I knew she was here from the moment I stepped inside my room.I wish I could say I just sensed her presence, but honestly I had a few clues. I figured she would try to get her phone back without talking to me, but I didn't expect he Mon, 10 Aug 2020 19:56:11 +0000 Run (Disasters in Love, Book 1) Chapter 40 https://www.penana.com/story/23676/run-disasters-in-love-book-1/issue/41 KatMay 21, 2005*Same day*I hesitate, turning the knob to Nate's house slowly.  I have the key ready in my other hand, but the door opens easily. They are either stupidly trusting, forgetful or someone is here.  Hopefully they are just forgetful.I sl Mon, 10 Aug 2020 19:55:35 +0000 Run (Disasters in Love, Book 1) Chapter 39 https://www.penana.com/story/23676/run-disasters-in-love-book-1/issue/40 BenMay 21, 2005*Same day*"Maybe we should leave."  McClain's is about the last place I want to be right now."Bro, Kat said they would be here.  Just chill." Nate tries to reassure me as we sit in our usual booth, but I'm full of too much nervous energy.  I Mon, 10 Aug 2020 19:55:00 +0000 Run (Disasters in Love, Book 1) Chapter 38 https://www.penana.com/story/23676/run-disasters-in-love-book-1/issue/39 KatMay 21, 2005*Same day*Why is Samantha here?I guess he was pretending to hate her but as soon as I was out of the picture he ran right back to her.I knew it was all pretend, so why does it still hurt to see him with her?I can't bel Mon, 10 Aug 2020 19:54:31 +0000 Run (Disasters in Love, Book 1) Chapter 37 https://www.penana.com/story/23676/run-disasters-in-love-book-1/issue/38 BenMay 21, 2005*Same day*I look up to see Samantha sitting in the back seat of my Bentley wearing a low cut dress that I probably would have found attractive before. Before she cheated on me.Before she shattered me.Before Mon, 10 Aug 2020 19:53:52 +0000 Run (Disasters in Love, Book 1) Chapter 36 https://www.penana.com/story/23676/run-disasters-in-love-book-1/issue/37 KatMay 21, 2005*Same day*Why did I come here today?I knew it was a bad idea.I knew I would see Ben.That's exactly why you came.No, I just wanted to see the graduation... of all the people I don't know.Crap. Maybe I d Mon, 10 Aug 2020 19:52:59 +0000 Run (Disasters in Love, Book 1) Chapter 35 https://www.penana.com/story/23676/run-disasters-in-love-book-1/issue/36 BenMay 21, 2005*Three months later*It's been 3 months.Three fucking months since I've talked to her. Touched her.Held her.Kissed her.Three months since I've seen her smile.Three miserable months without her laughter filling Mon, 10 Aug 2020 19:52:23 +0000 Run (Disasters in Love, Book 1) Chapter 34 https://www.penana.com/story/23676/run-disasters-in-love-book-1/issue/35 KatFebruary 25, 2005*Same day*This is all my fault.I thought telling Vanessa would help. Why couldn't I just keep my stupid mouth shut?No, you know what, this is Nate's fault. I thought they stayed up sharing their secrets, so what the heck did Mon, 10 Aug 2020 19:51:55 +0000 Run (Disasters in Love, Book 1) Chapter 33 https://www.penana.com/story/23676/run-disasters-in-love-book-1/issue/34 BenFebruary 25, 2005*Same day*Before I can even think of a response, someone is pounding on my door.Dammit.Red's annoying voice comes through, making me wish it wasn't wrong to slap some sense into girls. It's not fair, guys do something stupid and Mon, 10 Aug 2020 19:51:27 +0000 Run (Disasters in Love, Book 1) Chapter 32 https://www.penana.com/story/23676/run-disasters-in-love-book-1/issue/33 KatFebruary 25, 2005*Same day*What is going on?Nate and Ness are being super weird.Why are they even here? Nate has his own place, they never hang out in our little dorm room.Unless...They must be keeping away from his house."So Mon, 10 Aug 2020 19:50:55 +0000