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January 1, 2005
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Same day
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Even though I was trying really hard not to listen to the girls through the wall, I could still make out bits and pieces of their conversation. 439Please respect copyright.PENANAbvsnQrd2VU
Okay, maybe I didn't try that hard.439Please respect copyright.PENANATNuQw4A2yq
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Okay, fine I didn't try at all. 439Please respect copyright.PENANAm3lcfN7eso
In fact, I might have tried really hard to listen. If only the guys would have shut their stupid mouths, maybe I could have at least heard the loud redhead.439Please respect copyright.PENANAWyT3W19AGv
I heard Vanessa yell something about good sex in Kat's life. Shit, were they talking about me? 439Please respect copyright.PENANAw7Yazcu4ck
I've never been so fucking insecure about a girl before. What the hell is wrong with me?439Please respect copyright.PENANA6XNhOgR5GY
I couldn't make out anything Kat said, but Vanessa's voice came through clearly. She practically yelled about Kats ex being unable to satisfy her.439Please respect copyright.PENANAOlZjMtfZRW
I tried to hide my snicker, but Kai stopped mid sentence to glare at me. "What the fuck is so funny? I haven't even got to the good part."439Please respect copyright.PENANAaI2FfR4gYw
I couldn't think up an excuse, so I went for an apology. "Sorry, bro."439Please respect copyright.PENANAbVtQb8xq3R
"Just ignore him, he's smitten with his new girl." Nate betrayed me.439Please respect copyright.PENANABmh9TNArUA
"What the fuck, man?" I tried to think of more, but I was in shock. Smitten? Who says that? 439Please respect copyright.PENANAlBglPZzMRe
"Just telling it like it is, bro." Nate smirked. Asshole.439Please respect copyright.PENANAjyPLeNlSZM
"Whatever. She's definitely not my girl." I crossed my arms defensively, hoping he would take the hint and back the fuck off.439Please respect copyright.PENANAPv9zKeWS16
As soon as we heard the girls screaming at each other, I was on my feet, ready for... what? 439Please respect copyright.PENANAHLkUGUI6Yr
Was I worried about Kat? What could I even do? She barely even liked me. She would probably just turn her wrath on me.439Please respect copyright.PENANA3Y4O7Kq1mo
Nate stood up and clapped his hand down on my shoulder. "I got this." Thank fuck. I blew out the breath I didn't realize I was holding.439Please respect copyright.PENANAWCP78WKVI6
I tried to focus on Kai's story, but my mind kept drifting to Kat.439Please respect copyright.PENANAvv3pSiiEaS
Damn, Vanessa was the only one with Nate when he returned.439Please respect copyright.PENANA09Dvwggi3A
Where was my little hurricane?439Please respect copyright.PENANAHERNsx7Msq
"Hey 'Ness! Good to see you again." Luke smiled from next to the stove, waving the spatula in greeting.439Please respect copyright.PENANApFPPIcKYfk
Vanessa smiled and stepped up to the breakfast bar. "Hey Luke, where's Soph?" 439Please respect copyright.PENANAizO2lY7sO5
"Your guess is as good as mine." Luke grimaces as he moves to the opposite side of the breakfast bar.439Please respect copyright.PENANAUaRTYrghbk
"Uh oh... Trouble in paradise?" Vanessa pats his arm to console him.439Please respect copyright.PENANAmPcUWbYAe0
Fuck this. I can't sit here and listen to this small talk. I need to find Kat. I need to apologize. 439Please respect copyright.PENANAbQQ0RHr9YE
I wasn't sure where Kat would be, but I saw the redhead drag her into the empty room next to mine, so I knock on that door. 439Please respect copyright.PENANAUfE0q0cpAe
Even though she tried to turn me away, I was determined. She accepted my apology, but she seemed to withdraw afterwards. What did I do wrong? 439Please respect copyright.PENANAKtTenxadPo
I thought apologizing would make things better, give us a fresh start, but she said she didn't want to start over. 439Please respect copyright.PENANASD4xRQWdp2
And that made me fucking ecstatic. I wanted to remember everything, every little detail.439Please respect copyright.PENANA377032Euwq
As we walk into the kitchen, Kai stops shoving food in his mouth long enough to be obnoxious. "Daaamn bro, your girl is smokin'!"439Please respect copyright.PENANAhnQx2TE9dC
I smirk, giving a slight nod in acknowledgement, but I know better than to speak. 439Please respect copyright.PENANAIO6hZmH1JC
"I'm not his girl." Kat sounds offended. Oh shit. Shut up, Kai.439Please respect copyright.PENANAI0qtDTGBkT
"So sorry, my lady." She is full on glaring at him by this point and I'm resisting the urge to grab an umbrella and wait out the storm that's brewing.439Please respect copyright.PENANAVPO98MqSaz
"I'm not your lady either." I fail at hiding the laugh that escapes out of me. Even though Kai had no idea what he was getting into, I could get used to her rage being aimed at someone other than me. 439Please respect copyright.PENANAL4hFg3LEMt
Shit. Now she's glaring at me again. "Something amusing?"439Please respect copyright.PENANAi4Msz197oQ
I drop the smirk and shake my head, hoping I look innocent.439Please respect copyright.PENANAnHQ6qkntvX
Her eyebrows raise further, in question. "No, Kat." Feeling very much like the schoolboy who got caught. Guess I got detention.439Please respect copyright.PENANA0SQUiZvaUE
"Sorry, Kat, is it?" His stupid face continues taking. Fuck, he's gonna get this whole house burnt down. 439Please respect copyright.PENANANqdOhzklyw
Just shut up, Kai.439Please respect copyright.PENANAugIbHse7mg
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I'm sending a brain message to him.439Please respect copyright.PENANA2vpmKGvWVs
Stop talking. 439Please respect copyright.PENANAfFzyNtp46e
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Stop talking.439Please respect copyright.PENANAlCBMqhwWCA
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Stop talking.439Please respect copyright.PENANAqC5xbGKEQb
Of course, he doesn't hear me, so he continues digging his grave. "I just assumed since Vanessa is with Nate-dog, Soph is with Luke and I'm pretty sure you aren't with me... Benny here is the only option."439Please respect copyright.PENANAfsxjR6ClCC
"Oh." She... wait. What? That's it? What the fuck? She would have murdered me. 439Please respect copyright.PENANA3QQhltDzY5
"Oh?" I say it before I can stop myself. What is wrong with me? She turns her little glare on me. 439Please respect copyright.PENANAaPhjzal0Xa
God, could she be more breathtaking? I want to worship her... and run for shelter at the same time. What is she doing to me?439Please respect copyright.PENANAWtvfJiSf2q
"Sorry, just ignore me." I try to cut off her rage before it starts, but fail. 439Please respect copyright.PENANA53uzyBRPVf
"Will do." Her eyes avoid mine as she hurries out of the kitchen.439Please respect copyright.PENANAA1CbH7ijtp
I follow after her. Of course I do. I am a glutton for punishment.439Please respect copyright.PENANAWo2FFh80lC
But as I stand outside the door of my room, I'm at a complete loss. 439Please respect copyright.PENANAp4aTk86rvV
I'm honestly not sure what I did wrong, other than piss her off... but I seem to do that simply by breathing. 439Please respect copyright.PENANAgT3xR5Wdaq
I just want to be near her.439Please respect copyright.PENANAFn0eWA3403
Come on, Ben. Get a fucking hold of yourself. You are the man. You don't need another disaster. Remember what happened last time you - no, don't think about that. 439Please respect copyright.PENANA2sCQ1Zb95d
Focus. 439Please respect copyright.PENANAinpr7wx2vo
No relationships. 439Please respect copyright.PENANAhcMRF7eQ8x
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No dating.439Please respect copyright.PENANAWs5X4u2Fzp
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No long term. 439Please respect copyright.PENANAqJQtzs2b9z
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No feelings.439Please respect copyright.PENANAnkpqFBL6n4
That's the deal. Nate might have fallen off the wagon, but I know he will come back around. 439Please respect copyright.PENANACTYPnoC5rW
Time to reign this in. I turn the knob and walk in without looking at her. That will make this easier. 439Please respect copyright.PENANAwimgOff9zu
I sit on my bed, next to her and stare at the floor as I begin my half-assed blow-off attempt. 439Please respect copyright.PENANA9edqBF35jT
"So, listen, Kat... This has been fun. But you know, I'm just like super busy right now and I just think maybe-" She cuts me off, which is good because I ran out of cliches to use.439Please respect copyright.PENANAkjfkX2xaZF
"Are you serious right now?" If her eyes could shoot lasers, I would be cut into tiny pieces... and she would probably enjoy it. A lot. "I can't even... I can't..."439Please respect copyright.PENANAK26J8CwX6V
She shakes her head and walks out the door. I swear I feel a piece of me follow her, but like the pussy I am, I stay behind. 439Please respect copyright.PENANAx9Te2rc7pW
She chose to run away from the shell that's left of me.439Please respect copyright.PENANA5Tpl81LHUD
So I let her.
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