~past tense~
After saying goodbye to Matty I head to dance. I reflect on how well that actually went, I feel like it was positive. I had been feeling sick about it, and putting it off. Now it's done and I feel as if a weight has been removed from my shoulders.
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I go and get changed for dance. I leave my leotard on and put on some short dance shorts. I casually walk through to the studio realising that it's just me so far. I stretch out and get ready to go through the new dances.
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"Well done on your performance" my teacher says as she's heading out. Just before Christmas I was the lead in the show. It feels like a lifetime ago.
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"Thank you" I say.
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"You know I've got some info on dance companies, the work experience would be great for you and they would be paid performances" she says.
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"Oh I'd love to apply for something like that" I say enthusiastically.
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"Okay I'll give it to you next rehearsal" she says smiling.
"I can put a word in for you too" she says.
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I continue practicing and going on pointe. It takes my mind off of everybody and I feel like I've worked out by the end. I close up the studio. Turning everything off and head out to the changing rooms. I walk past the gym, glancing in the window to see Jay working out. He hasn't seen me. He's just wearing shorts. And I literally have to pull myself away from looking at him. I step back and start walking to the changing rooms.
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"Hey" he says it's a voice I don't recognise. I turn around to see a tall guy coming out of the gym. Not Jay, this guy has dark hair and the closer he comes I realise it's Nate.
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"Hey" I say tentatively. He's not wearing a shirt, he has his nipple pierced and a tattoo covering his shoulder and chest. I'm beginning to wonder if there's some kind of nipple piercing club I haven't been invited too.
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"I know you, Taylor right? You were in the dance show" he says.
"Awesome show by the way" he says.
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"Yeah that's me" I say.
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"Oh I'm sorry for coming on to you a bit strong before, it happens when I drink" he says. He came onto me in a bar after Matty's art show, he forcibly tried to dance with me until Jay intervened. I'm starting to realise that drinking is the first point of all of my problems.
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Yeah it just happens, jerk.
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Jay clears his throat. Approaching him from behind his shirts still off. His chest is impressive, he's bigger than Nate.
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"Hey babe" Jay says eyeing me as if to say play along.
"Hey good workout?" I ask smiling.
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"Really good" he says and he pulls me into his bare chest. I face him looking up into his eyes. He kisses me and I reciprocate.
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"So are you two partying with us on Friday?" Nate asks.
We both turn to look at him.
"We are yes" I say looking at Jay, me giving him the play along look. I've never answered for him, and it feels nice. The term we, the idea of us going together.
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"Awesome it starts at 8" Nate says and looks down at my body again. I look away.
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"Hey her face is up here" Jay says
"Show Tay some respect" he adds.
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I smile at him.
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"Sorry babe" he says and I snicker a little.
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He walks off and Jay watches him. I realise I'm still in Jay arms. I turn around to face him.
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"This is nice" I say smiling.
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"It is, oh and by the way I am going to escort you to the party tomorrow, especially since little Nate wants you too" he smiles winking at me.
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"Hah little Nate" I laugh.
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"What he can barely bench press" he laughs back.
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I realise I'm staring up into his eyes. He tilts his head and kisses me again. This time slowly, I open my mouth and he seizes the opportunity.
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"I need to change" I say between kissing him.
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"Okay" he says kissing me back and raising his hands up to my waist.
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"You realise I have not been able to stop thinking about you all day right? Having you in my arms for that long last night was a privilege" He whispers.
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"Me too" I whisper back.
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"Are you okay?" He asks looking down into my eyes, I instantly know what he means. He's checking on how I am after talking to Matty. But somehow now I know he cares, he's not just trying to get with me anymore. It's the sincerity in his eyes.
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"Yes I'm okay" I tell him smiling.
"I'm gonna change and then let's go yeah?" I say.
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He releases me, I duck into the ladies changing room and undress, I chuck on a clean shirt and my skirt and boots from earlier. I brush my hair out and then put on some lipstick.
I pack everything away and head out for the door.
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We walk together towards the car park.
"Want me to pick you up tomorrow for the party?" He asks.
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"Yes let's do that" I say.
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We see Ross walking towards us in the car park. He eyes us curiously and then smiles.
"I'm so ready to go and chill" I say to him.
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"Hey do you wanna come with us" Ross says and I'm shocked at his niceness.
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"We could watch a film" I suggest.
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"Yeah sure" Jay says just as taken back.
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"Okay I'll cook" I say smiling.
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"What do you want to eat guys" I say.
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Rach joins us in the car park. And I have an idea.
"Hey Rach, want to have a drink?" I ask and Jay laughs at my directness.
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"I'm in" she smiles.
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"Okay me and Ross will stop off and get food and drinks" I say smiling.
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"See you at Ross' house" I explain.
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I smile at Jay and he hugs me much to Ross' confusion and heads to his own beautiful black Audi.
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