***Taylors POV***
~past tense~
End of January-February
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University flies by, I spend the day with Jay. We go out for lunch and grab Italian. Being around him is addictive. I used to think he was cold and stand off-ish. He's not though he's calm and chilled out. Wherever he goes people look at him like he's a model.
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"You can't see it can you?" I say to him after the waitress leaves our table finally.
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"What" he says defensively.
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I sigh.
"Completely oblivious" I say and he winks at me.
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The waitress brings my pasta and his pizza.
She lingers and then leaves.
"So what's the verdict ? As good as your arrabatia" he smiles.
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"No I'll cook it for you " I say spooning some into his mouth.
"Then you can see the difference" I smile as he eats it. He keeps my eye contact the whole time he's so confident.
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"I like it, but yours will be better" he says.
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"It's nice, it needs more... love" I say.
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"Love?" He says.
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"Yes you've got to love what you do and then it will turn out great" I say smiling.
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We eat quietly for a little bit. He doesn't look messy even eating pizza.
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"Wanna come over Saturday, we can watch a movie or go out?" He asks eyeing me.
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"Definitely is that date number two" I ask to clarify.
I'm remembering our conversation we had about when it's appropriate to ask a girl to stay at your house and we agreed date number two.
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"It is date number three, this totally counts as two" he laughs.
"Pizza and pasta dates are always the best kind of dates" he says
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I smile up at him.
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"Is there anything in particular you wanna do?" He asks.
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"I want to cook this for you and then watch a movie, besides we may be a little bit hungover after tonight" I say smiling.
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"Yeah what time would you like me to pick you up for the party later" he says glancing up from his food.
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"Around 8?" I say.
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"I'll take Ross too it's no problem" he laughs.
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I smile over at him.
He looks up at me.
"What" he asks looking self conscious.
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"I don't know you just make me smile" I say feeling corny as ever.
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He laughs.
"You too babe, especially when you say stuff like that to me" he says and he reaches his hand across the table to grasp mine.
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"Why is it you're like a completely different person to who you were before" I say smiling
"I mean like before you were hot but you were not friendly with me, and now it's like I can't not smile at you" I say.
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"Because I was a dick" he says smiling.
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I laugh.
"You kind of were" I say.
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"Yeah I wanted you so bad Taylor. I played so many stupid games, thinking it would somehow work out for me. I was an idiot" he says.
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"What made you continually stick with me when I was unimaginably awful" he asks.
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"I knew you were a good guy really" I say.
"Plus you're pretty hot too" I laugh.
"That helps" I say.
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He strokes my hand.
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"You wanna bunk the rest of the day?" He winks at me.
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I love how exciting he is.
"I don't have anything, apart from rehearsals but they're optional and I was the only one there yesterday" I say.
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"Okay, I'll go pay" he smiles.
"And then we can go somewhere else" he says.
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He gets me one of the sweets from the counter and we head out. He holds my hand and I grasp his back feeling so close to him.
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We head to the car and I hop in.
He drives and lights up a cigarette. I can't lie being driven around in an Audi by an older guy who looks like a model is definitely something I'm enjoying about being single. The problem is the more time I spend with him, the more I want him to be with me. I glance over at him.
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"Taylor you're giving me that look a lot today" he smiles
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"Sorry" I smile.
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"No keep doing it" he says.
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I laugh.
"Where are we going?" I ask.
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"It's a surprise" he says winking at me.
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He drives out of town. I relax and ask if I can have a smoke, he hands me one saying of course. The weather is mild today, now that we're saying goodbye to January the harshness of the cold winter air is finally leaving us. Making way for milder days and some sunshine. I stare at the trees lining the road.
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"We are going somewhere I love, that I have never ever have taken anyone too" he says
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"Oh interesting" I say smiling at him.
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After some more driving into what feels like the wilderness we park up in a small car park. We get out of the car and he looks into the trees. Looks like we're hiking. I laugh looking down at my shoes.
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"Here" he pulls off his jumper as it's cooler and I take it.
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"Paths flat you'll be fine" he laughs.
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I pull his jumper on and he stares down at me. He lifts my chin and kisses my lips.
We start walking, me closely behind him. It's sunny and the trees are beginning to get ready for spring already. There's lots of wild flowers which I love, everything is just natural not overly pruned or kept.
Bluebells and blossoms, I delicately walk around it all while trying to not step on anything. He smiles back at me. He grasps my hand and we start walking together.
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“We will have to come back again when it’s warmer, Then you can see how it all changes with the seasons” he smiles, as if he’s reading my thoughts.
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I can hear water flowing nearby and for some reason I get excited like a kid going to the beach and waiting to see the sea.
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We walk through the trees and there's an opening which a lake runs through. I watch the water flow, with the backdrop of the trees and flowers. There's a small bridge which I want to cross and small benches for people to sit on.
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"Jay this place is magical" I say feeling like a five year old.
"It's quiet and beautiful and different" I smile.
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"I'm glad I remembered where it was, would of been a bit shit if I couldn't find it" He laughs.
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I impulsively turn to him and kiss him. He kisses me back arms around my waist.
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"When I was younger we lived in so many different places. We had a home here, but my mum and dad moved around quite a bit for work. Often staying with me for months in different places. And whenever I came back I used to come here with them" he says.
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"We weren't out doors people but here we all liked" he smiles.
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I love the insight into his life and I just stare at him.
"There's that look again" he smiles
"What does it mean" he says softly
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I smile take his hand and start walking with him.
"It's just in my head you've changed as a person. You feel different to me, I see you differently. And I keep smiling because I like the changes" I say glancing up at him.
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We keep walking, hand in hand. And I reflect how nice it is to spend time with him, just us together. Without any interruptions or distractions. Somewhere that is special to him.
"My mum used to tell me when I was small that fairies lived here, and when I didn't want to leave and go home they would come out from there hiding spots. My dad used to get exasperated, he just expected me to do as I was told, but my mum always had a way of reaching me. And of course as I got older I didn't believe in fairies anymore but because she always made things nice for me, I always just did as she said" he laughs.
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"You love your mum, I can tell from the way you talk about her." I say stroking his arm lightly.
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"I do love her." He says.
He pauses for a minute and we walk over to the water edge. He sits down on the side and I join him. He lights up a cigarette and passes it to me. Then he lights up his own.
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"I've never felt like this with somebody before. I always imagined that somebody would come along that my mum liked and I would just be with them because she approved. I didn't ever really consider meeting somebody that I would actually want to take to my mum, you know?" He says looking out over the water.
"I don't normally do this Taylor, take girls places or even talk to them really" he laughs looking at me
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I smile.
"I know you don't. Even though before you were being such an ass, and I was mad at you all the time. I was still consumed by my thoughts of you" I say
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"When you came back after New Years I didn't know how to be around you at all because you literally told me you loved me and then Ross was there being Ross. And I kept thinking no this is my only chance" he smiles.
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"I do love you, Taylor." He says looking at me.
"I'm not just saying that, and it's like nothing I've ever felt before. I'm happy just spending time with you like this until" he begins, thinking I'm going to knock him back.
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"I do love you" I say looking up at him.
"I do Jay, you were so maddening, even before when you were with Jane I was so angry because I wanted you. And that's pathetic I know. Even when you were with Rach I kept convincing myself I had no business being involved with you." I say.
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He kisses me. I moan at his touch, his lips on mine.
"I'm going to do this properly" he says breaking away.
"I can tell this moment in my life is special. This is an opportunity Taylor and I’m not going to just dive in and ruin in like I do with every single girl I’ve ever been with” he says looking into my eyes.
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He takes my hand and we stand up, we begin walking in the direction of the bridge.
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