~past tense~
I wake up and the first thing I catch myself thinking about is the lake, and the boats and the beautiful gold and blue light that streams through into the room. I miss it already.
Jay is facing me and again I am tucked into his chest. I love the feel of his skin, the sense that he has protected me and cared for me all night long. He is stroking my back his hand going up and down. I wonder how long he has been awake.
"Good morning Gilbert" I say chuckling against his chest.45Please respect copyright.PENANAtZfgetXJJh
He laughs and slaps my bum.
"Good morning beautiful" he says back.45Please respect copyright.PENANA7EYgqiY8lh
I look up at him smiling and kiss his lips for the first time today. I know I will kiss him over and over again but the first kiss of the day with him is the best. He lingers on my lips slowly kissing them.
"We don't have as much time today" I frown at him, remembering how long we spent kissing in bed yesterday and our activities in the kitchen afterwards.
"I know" he sighs hands going between my legs. He instantly finds the deliberate cut out in the lace lingerie.45Please respect copyright.PENANA6cfesEG6Hu
I gasp as he fingers me, I hold desperately onto him kissing him and telling him that I love him. I come quickly on his hand. He licks his fingers and I'm shocked. Is there anything this man is not good at.
"That was wow" I say.
"I just wanted to repay you actually for ugh taking me in the kitchen yesterday" he smiles.
After kissing each other for far too long we get up. I slip off my lacey underwear. Jay is silent behind me.45Please respect copyright.PENANAgHX3h4PoEs
"My love you need to get dressed too" I say turning to him. He's naked and I'm speechless.
"Later" I say eyeing him smiling.
"Later you're going to what" he says smiling at me.
I slip my leotard on, it's a new one. I love it.45Please respect copyright.PENANAHkCE6QRzhg
"Later I'm going to cook for you and then you are going to give me that" I say suggestively.45Please respect copyright.PENANAS1vR83jbBf
He puts his hand around himself holding it and I practically pass out.
"I could give you it now" he smiles.45Please respect copyright.PENANAUwRXZdrapi
I stutter and then walk over to him unclipping my leotard.
***
He smiles over at me in the car. Dressed in my new jeans, leotard and leather jacket.45Please respect copyright.PENANASk0MJpcadp
He's wearing his signature black T-shirt and black jeans.45Please respect copyright.PENANAMn5zrSnE26
We had sex, over the side of the bed. It was incredible. I can't say no to him. It's dangerous, I want him all the time.
"So psychology first" he says smiling.
"We won't be late it's all good. And I have to tell you I kind of already told Ross that we were seeing how things go" I say to him.45Please respect copyright.PENANAaQ3ZsL3Glr
"I hope you don't mind" I say worried.
"Is that what I am to you Taylor Elena Harris" he laughs comically.45Please respect copyright.PENANAtDFixXA1CI
"You're just seeing how things go with me" he laughs and I swat him.
"You know what I mean" I say back.
"Okay yeah I know I'm just messing, I'm glad you mentioned it to him would have been awkward kissing you afterwards" he sighs.
I stroke his thigh. He hands me a cigarette and I light up.
***45Please respect copyright.PENANA3QwP90xMAn
When we head into psychology it's not too bad we sit down in our normal seats. Ross smiles at me blanking Jay completely. Luckily the lecture starts promptly so nobody has to talk to anyone.
"What the plan later" Ross asks at half time. We always have a ten minute break between our lectures.
"I'm ugh I dunno" I stumble panicked.
Jay strokes my arm and I relax a fraction. I like that he hasn't spoken for me, he's just tried to make me feel more comfortable.45Please respect copyright.PENANA2UmeqDBIPg
"I've actually got to check in on my dorm" I say looking at Jay.
"They got you a dorm pretty quickly" Ross smiles and normality and order resumes.
"I know I'm lucky" I smile.
I mentally check off the things I need to do today. I need to talk to Matty, grab my stuff and my car from Ross. I need go to my actual dorm and see it.
"I'll miss you roomie" he laughs and I chuckle back.
"You too" I smile back at Ross.
The lecture starts again and Jay discreetly strokes my thigh. I glance over him trying desperately to stay focused and failing terribly.45Please respect copyright.PENANAuxezAhloql
It's different now we're together, I was attracted to him before but now i find him irresistible. Before I was opposed to his charm and now I'm completely open to it.
At the end he kisses me like he said he would and then I stand to walk out. Ross and I agree to sort my stuff out later once I've seen the room and like it. Ross assures me that my stuff is fine at his and that there is no such rush to move it. I smile at him thanking him again and I give him a big hug feeling like our friendship is still intact. We all walk out of the building, my plan is to go to the housing block.
"Think of it as a holding place for my stuff" I say to Jay who is accompanying me.
"I know I know" he smiles holding onto me.45Please respect copyright.PENANAdNY8HawySD
"I just know what dorms are like" he sighs.
I've got my keycard already for number 44 in block D. We walk over together and head up the stairs to find the room. Once inside I see a hall of doors leading too rooms and a small communal kitchen which is just littered with alcohol and shot glasses.
Finally we reach my door which is quite some way from the kitchen. We unlock it and it's basic, there's a bed and a long desk for studying. It has an en-suite which I am so relieved by. I sit down on the bed quietly. I realise I need to get a duvet and sheets and towels and I I put that on my to do list.
"You alright" he sighs looking over at me.
"Yes just need to go shopping for some stuff." I say.
"Let's order it all tonight then we can put it in the car and go from there" he says stroking my arm.
I stand up kissing him.45Please respect copyright.PENANAXE8bsriFU4
"Thank you you're amazing the most amazing..." I say cutting myself short. We haven't actually discussed whether he's my boyfriend yet.
"Man ever" I laugh awkwardly.
"You can say it" he says kissing me.
"Hmmm" I say softly kissing him back.
We hear a creaking at the door behind us which we left ajar.45Please respect copyright.PENANAzH85ct7qSp
"Oh now that is a surprise" a males voice says and Jay stiffens.
"I'm guessing this is your room now Taylor" he smiles
"I live next door, welcome" Nate sighs.
"If you ever need anything, I'm here all day and all night. It's not a problem" he says watching Jay.
"Thanks but I'm good" I reply smiling.
"Okay see you around" he replies45Please respect copyright.PENANAsSoBUB8USE
"Later Jay" he adds and he's gone.
"Okay so that's not ideal." I say grabbing my phone.
"If you like I can spend some time here with you for a while" he says earnestly.
I smile at him and lock up. I text Matty asking him if he's free to talk again.45Please respect copyright.PENANAJWWcB7xq4z
"I've got to clear things with Matty and let him know we're" I begin.
"We're seeing each other" Jay finishes for me.
"We're seeing each other." I smile up at him.
Once we're outside and nearly back to campus I turn to him.45Please respect copyright.PENANAV7PHeDYbHd
"Meet you at the car later?" I say not wanting to leave him.
He kisses me smiling down at me and I sigh.
"I don't want to be without you" I say.
"Me neither" he says smiling.45Please respect copyright.PENANAknEi21YsRB
"Give me a message and I'll see you at the car" he says.
He strokes my back and kisses me again. I pull myself away from him reluctantly and we say goodbye until later. We've spent all weekend together and we haven't been apart since then. My body can't take it but I owe Matty this. An explanation, a warning. I leave Jay and head to the coffee shop.
45Please respect copyright.PENANAdhVu2uJ4YN