Joey Fordcopyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkvHiPuOF7
November 4, 2016copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡ37AgFCYLuP
Week 10: Journal 5copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡalMHubRzjM
My ninth essay is done. And it's not about Parasyte. Let's just say I've had much different things on my mind these past couple of days.copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡOY6kFo9acO
So where do I begin? Well, me and Bunny can now go watch Trolls. Not because of some miracle, but because I did something I rarely ever do. I sold some of my video games. In this case, Ocarina of Time 3D, Majora's Mask 3D (I didn't get to beat Majora's Mask 3D, but who cares, I've beaten the original twice anyway), and...Mario Maker. I'm going to be pretty honest, that one kind of hurt.copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡhgWRxCuvnY
Why do I rarely sell my video games? Because I'm a selfish loser? Well, I am. But that's not why. The actual reason can be summed up in two words: Christmas and birthdays. Particularly Bunny's Christmas' and birthdays. Because I have almost no family outside of my brothers and sisters-in-laws, I'm pretty much on my own in getting my little girl presents. And when I can barely even afford to pay for a couple of movie tickets, buying a bunch of new toys is a VERY difficult task.copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡkyk6gPi8oB
Now I've gotten help before. From my brothers and sisters-in-laws. Like I said, Josh would give me his entire apartment if I asked him. Sometimes they'll offer to send me enough money to buy every one of Bunny's presents. Sometimes they'll just buy most of the gifts and I'll only have to save up for a few things. But I REALLY, REALLY hate mooching off of them. Considering I've never once paid my brothers back for their help (because I can barely even afford to do that), I just can't bring myself to keep doing it over and over. So I usually only take their offers every once in a while. And even that feels like too much. copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡUdA0xgpGqC
Justin and Michelle already send me money twice a year just so I can afford Bunny's school (they don't pay the full thing, I always pay as much as I can), so I'm pretty much already mooching off of them. Even that makes me feel like a dirtbag. When I finally finish college and get an actual career (however long that takes), my first main focus will be paying back Justin, Michelle, Josh, and Courtney for all of their help.copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡvHSszq43Vs
Also on Christmas, Justin and Josh already have their own children to buy presents for, so I pretty much refuse to accept any offers from them around this time. The main reason I took Josh's offer with the Halloween costume is because he was already on his phone making the order and the only possible way I could've stopped him was grabbing his phone and throwing it out the window. He was going to make that order even if I had told him not to. That's why I always try my hardest to keep it a secret from Josh what Bunny wants for her birthday and Christmas.copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2g1mmibEqA
So how do I afford to buy presents for Bunny? I sell video games. I no longer have the Super Nintendo, the Nintendo 64, the Game Boy Advance, my regular DS, my PlayStation 1, PlayStation 2, Xbox 360, or my PSP. This Christmas, I plan on selling my PlayStation 3 and the next on the list after that is the GameCube. The only reason I haven't already sold the Wii is because Bunny loves Wii Sports. Bunny would be crushed if I got rid of Wii Sports.copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡglNRml7L1y
I only have so many video games to sell and I have to make them last as long as possible. And I'm already running pretty low. This is why I try my absolute hardest not to sell them at any point of the year other than Christmas or birthdays. Not that I haven't already broken my promise a few times. I got rid of the Xbox 360 mainly so I could afford the Wii U. I know it's going to be a rough day when I have to get rid of the Wii U. But it's going to happen eventually. I better enjoy it while it lasts.copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡnxfgZPH4TC
I haven't bought a new video game in over a year, and I honestly should've stopped long before that. But like I said, I'm a selfish loser. Hey, at least the Wii U gives me more consoles and games to sell. The only consoles I have left are the Wii, the DSi, the PlayStation 3 that I'm selling next month, the GameCube, the Virtual Boy (yes I have a Virtual Boy, don't ask), my Game Boy, my Game Boy Color, the 3DS, and the Wii U. Until I get my actual career, these consoles are the only way that my little girl will for sure be happy on her birthday and Christmas. copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡxVSyifQuUh
So I CAN'T just get into the habit of selling video games every single time I have a budget crisis. It's not because I care about the video game. My little girl will always be much more important to me than video games. It's because I have to make them last.copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4bCS2YdaKf
But I'm sorry, getting rid of Mario Maker was really tough. I already miss it.copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡI8MXoMN6RG
Like I wrote yesterday, I wanted to give Bunny a giant hug regardless of how mad she was at me. I was pretty worried that this was going to create a scene right in front of the school. But that wasn't going to stop me from giving my little Bunny as many hugs and kisses as possible.copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡIoCBWVQNpL
Surprisingly, Bunny didn't have an issue with me lifting her up and hugging and kissing her nonstop. She at least let me hug her and kiss her. But she was still clearly very sad. She didn't run up to me excitingly like she normally does and her beautiful smile was replaced by a huge frown. I was smiling though. I had just finished selling my games and I was ready to tell her the exciting news.copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5uWHnYGB8q
Me (right after I finished hugging and kissing her): "Hey Sweetie, guess what?"copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡQQyDOXqC3h
Bunny: "What?"copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMFVnCQepf
Me: "I was wrong when I told you we couldn't watch Trolls! We can!"copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡZvKVc7UTI2
Bunny (a really surprised look appeared on her face): "Really?"copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡkzTTcIRDkV
Me: "That's right! We're going to watch it tomorrow!"copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCHAx5cojC
At that moment, Bunny's frown flipped right upside down. My beautiful little smiling Bunny was back.copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡEj7oekw8de
Bunny (hopping up and down): "YAAY!!! Thank you, Daddy! Thank you!"copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡbyO4r1MiE7
Me: "You're welcome, Baby. I love you."copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡdyKV8i0kGk
We then put our arms around each other and hugged for a very long time. After all that had happened the previous day and that morning, I couldn't have been filled with more joy. I was full of so much energy and happiness that I just wanted to grab my little Bunny, spin her around, and skip around with her like we were frolicking in a meadow. As tough as it had been selling those video games, I wasn't even thinking about them at that particular moment.copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡXkD4IRpe0C
The entire ride over to the Bloomfields was Bunny talking about how excited that she was getting to watch Trolls and how much she and her friends have been talking about it. Trolls, Trolls, Trolls, so many Trolls. Sounds like I'm talking about YouTube.copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡtcbigCj3UX
I was hoping the incident that had happened would be completely forgotten after that moment, but as right after I dropped Bunny off at the Bloomfields, this happened.copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡa8wV3Ed3ZT
Bunny looked at me for a second and her smile disappeared. After a few seconds, she ran up to me and threw her arms around me.copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡnWd11WTqbT
Bunny (crying): "I'm sorry I got mad at you, Daddy!"copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3F5eXmQhqL
Deja vu.copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡeBUKwXpJ1o
Bunny (crying): "I'm sorry I was so mean to you!"copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡDplRqmNjNZ
I put my arms around her and patted her back.copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡdQEj4CGVT6
Me: "It's okay, Sweetie. It's okay. You didn't do anything wrong."copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡH8IBSeyhYA
Bunny (crying): "Daddy, I love you so much!"copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡGBZ2sppgIc
I wiped away her tears and lifted her up, patting her back some more. I swayed her back and forth. copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡfW2Uf7wV3p
Me: "I can't wait to watch Trolls with you, Baby."copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KxKmqZUIX
Crystal and Kaitlyn were both standing right there when this was happening. Crystal looked kind of concerned.copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡvpzur2TQjC
After Bunny finally stopped crying, I gave her a kiss on both her cheeks and told her that I loved her. I then set her back down. Just as I was about to tell her bye, Bunny grabbed me by my uniform and said: "Daddy, lean down. I want to give you a kiss."copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2yy5sOdZJh
I leaned over and Bunny kissed me on the cheek. That made Crystal smile.copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡpM1Xwonvj6
Bunny then gave me one final hug and said: "Bye Daddy, have a great day at work."copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡtOv3iW5cMo
She then took Kaitlyn by the hand and they walked up to her room.copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡOPXnUqc8pW
I'm pretty sure I was running late to work. Thank God it was a night with Jerry.copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOIrLeP9K8
Right as I was about to leave, Crystal walked up to me and said: "I was going to offer to buy movie tickets for y'all."copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdWKgeHmqt
Me: "Crystal, you just paid for us to have a date. Take it easy."copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡLfiIDd8Ply
Crystal (laughing): "That was three weeks ago."copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKmtb8I0hs
Me: "And I still owe you."copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9xF5iWkZiL
I owe the Bloomfields WAY TOO FREAKING MUCH. Watching my child every day, paying for us to have dinner, being so freaking nice to us. I don't think selling every last game and console I have left would be enough to pay them back.copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡt31MLEZUul
And thank freaking God Crystal didn't make that offer yesterday, or else I probably would've taken it. I was feeling so guilty yesterday that I probably would've taken it without a second thought.copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡsf5PJhXrif
Crystal: "We were planning on watching that movie next week. She could've just come with us."copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡUrMzx4wS4O
Me: "She wants to watch it with me."copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡExSFjEkjyO
Crystal (nodded): "That makes sense. Well, I'm glad everything's okay now."copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡE14KQN2Ofk
And let's hope everything stays okay. copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡ39MPJkUfcY
I'll be honest, I'm kind of worried that I had made a huge mistake by selling those video games too soon. Like a few Christmas' from now, I'm going to be short a few presents and those games would've been the one thing that ensured that Bunny got everything that she had wanted. Or because I sold those games out of guilt this one time, I'll get into the habit of doing it EVERY time I feel guilty. Which happens way too freaking often.copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4QwWwQAQ98
Okay, I really need to stop thinking about this garbage. No more selling games. Not until Christmas.copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡENaJy0xAPM
Anyway, even though I haven't been upset at Bunny once throughout this whole thing, she just couldn't stop apologizing to me. When I went to go pick her up, Crystal had something to show me. SIXTEEN drawings! Sixteen drawings of the two of us. Each drawing covered with love and apology messages. "I love you, Daddy." "Daddy, sorry I got mad at you." "You're the best daddy ever." "I'll never be mean to you again." "Thank you for taking me to watch Trolls." "You look handsome in your uniform." copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡUSWHIG1DVd
Like I said, she just never fails to make me smile.copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZ48VAYwq7
This morning, Bunny woke up in an extra goofy mode. Right after I woke her up, she hopped off of her bed on all fours and crawled into the kitchen. I followed her and laughed.copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5VPOtQl4F
Me: "What are you doing?"copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Zx5GgLHTG
Bunny crawled over to the counter and pretended like she was trying climb on it (she had her knees on the floor and was grabbing the top of the counter).copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡVvG0DCAC81
Bunny (turning to me): "I'm a hungry tiger! Roar! The hungry tiger wants breakfast!"copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡKN6FDV9the
Me (laughing): "Oh no, I have a tiger in my house! I don't want tigers in my house! I should probably call the zoo!"copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9pdHuTXfBR
Bunny: "The hungry tiger already escaped from the zoo! She ate everyone! Roar!"copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡWxmCx0f8Cn
Me (laughing): "Looks like I'm doomed then!"copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9mbg2Pbcjs
Bunny: "Roar! The hungry tiger wants breakfast!"copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡqsSDamx8C9
Me (laughing): "What does the hungry tiger want to eat?"copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡZzHmcfmrnZ
Bunny: "The hungry tiger wants Cheerios!" (She was referring to Honey Nut Cheerios)copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡPxm1NpQYB9
Me: "Coming right up, Miss Tiger!"copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡr2CjGMGdVj
As I started pouring her cereal, she started pretending to scratch me and gnaw at my leg. That zoo option is still on the table.copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡnUS5g4kCwI
Bunny: "Roar! The hungry tiger likes Cheerios!"copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmgYn3oe2Z
Me: "Yep, she sure does."copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡot21NIOtWJ
After Bunny finished eating, she crawled over to the living room, still roaring like a tiger. She did a few somersaults and started rolling around. Then she started meowing.copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡNjDFpTKKwh
Me: "I thought you were a tiger?"copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡs9DI81MwfP
Bunny: "No, I'm a kitty cat now! Meow! Meow! Meow! The kitty cat wants to take a nap!" Then she curled up into a ball on the floor and closed her eyes. I had to walk over and pick her up.copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡwEjyF6gtAd
Me (as I carried her to her room): "Miss Kitty Cat needs to get ready for school."copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡcnxQ3WKNGh
Bunny: "Meow, meow, meow, meow."copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡ59qISyJF5Z
Bunny finally calmed down when I started doing her hair. She started thanking me again for taking her to go see Trolls and all the things about the movie that she was excited about even though she hasn't seen it yet. Personally, I'm not all too impressed about the movie from what I've seen in the trailers, but maybe it'll surprise me. Hey, I thought Attack On Titan Junior High was going to be as bad as Teen Titans Go (To Hell), but it actually ended up making me laugh several times. Today Bunny wore one of her Frozen shirts, a pretty purple skirt, and a pink bow. Hairstyle today was a french braid. I couldn't help but take another picture of her. It's so great to see her beautiful smile again.copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBENajTqNt
So tonight's my night-off and the same day the movie comes out. I've already paid for the tickets. With the money I got from the games, I have enough to pay for the movie and for me and Bunny to have a nice dinner afterwards. Guess what that means? Another daddy-daughter date!copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡD0RaQU7AHN
It's going to be a great night.copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡRNXivPQfuV
Oh, and RIP Mario Maker. copyright protection84ＰＥＮＡＮＡfYxTLHdF80
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