i - we both knew from the start how wrong it is...
but still we continued it when we were not suppose to
he likes to live in the moment and enjoy it , while me , i am a realistic person, i dont like living in fantasy but now i am not..
i dont know what have he done to me...7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT1rXwwe51g
i decided to end it, not because i want to but because from my side this is not how things are suppose to be, its so very wrong.7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡleK4LK6R4s
i took the decision and started my prayer and dont why i dont how but i broke down like crazy, i have not cried that much in last six months as much as i cried on 16 of july
i was not sure what i wanted from my GOD i just cried and cried HE already knows everything....
after my prayer i saw that he have already texted me wanting to talk to me
he knew smt was wrong and he wanted to talk about it, he wanted me to speak up whats going in my mind. So i did, i told him each and everything....
he was stunned, lost of words, first he said that i must be right thinking whats correct for a second he was ready to let to and i broke down miserably i knew i had to do it but then that second ended he said he cant and that you are not going anywhere but he knew i have decided and then he asked me and i said yes i am leaving you and that when he got overwhelmed and ghosted me for few minutes, he told me he cried a bit and i got more miserable....
nothing can be worst then knowing you have hurted someone you love and when you are the person they get comfort from...
at the end i was not able to let go of him and he ended up comforting me because damn i was so miserable crying and all
we did decided we will slowly end it well atleast i did but he is not ready for that either nor do i see myself trying..
i love him more i know and that does not mean he loves me less buts just that my love for him have approached towards muhabat.. he said he felt it too.
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