夜已深，整條街區陷入幾近死寂的靜。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4QijtbEvkt
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星野莉奈拿著包，轉頭對司機道了聲謝，下了車。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5KgWv9D0Fc
一身車燈的暖色光線，落在她身後，彷彿在為她驅逐黑暗。 她拿出鑰匙打開大門，腳步一側、轉身走進家門。身後的保母車慢慢掉頭，駛離靜謐的住宅街。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBiV54UML03
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⋯⋯喀。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡshZ11s262a
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那聲音輕得像幻聽，卻又真實得讓她停下動作——太溫柔了，跟落在地板上的雪花一樣。不仔細注意，根本不會發現。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3KquOaIRoA
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正要轉身關門的時候，眼前的光忽然被一片黑影遮住。她本能抬頭、卻還沒反應過來——那個人就站在門口。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp8XZFcMdLR
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「啊⋯⋯」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhhQ29rDP2t
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星野莉奈嚇了一大跳、馬上捂住嘴巴以免叫出聲——不用半秒她就認出對方身份。她急忙東張西望，接著用最快的速度，把他拉到身後、拉進大門內的小庭園中。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMjLKiYHLYz
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星野莉奈又朝門外看了一眼，才輕輕帶上門。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIy4bwr04Zr
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「——你怎麼⋯⋯在這裡？」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl764uHUPlb
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMnPJIYADQn
與其說驚喜，她根本是驚嚇——她沒想過、也不敢再想，會在這樣一個夜晚、這樣安靜的家門口，又見到他站在光線邊緣。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWh1b1tphNO
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「我沒走。」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2z9PwXxgTJ
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糸師冴說，看似沒想過要遲疑什麼，也沒有想過現在多晚了。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ20Hist6m8M
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiNyOPHgJHE
有點不真實。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOrdQq9Gpy
這麼晚了，連附近的商店都關了燈，只有他還像某種錯置的錯覺一樣，站在那裡不動。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI2gYpBpAKV
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnkBgi6StnM
星野莉奈整個人都停下來了。除了一直握著手機的手，現在抖得有點明顯。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYk8ZTYaRvk
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpo4ZPPICD
她真的——真的好想見他。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrssYMwqzZe
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9gyaIv8DwS
那種想念不是為了擁抱或安慰，只是想確認，他真的還在她觸碰得到的地方。哪怕只是遠遠站著，哪怕什麼都不說，她都會覺得——撐得下去。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡICderltsPB
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSDgg43xL3c
可在昨晚收到他簡單的行程告知後，她早就說服自己：這次見不到了。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnPiP1lgLqm
——他應該早就走了，回到屬於他的節奏，他自己的軌道裡。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4SqL22KIjb
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXMYtjRForr
她早準備好，把『好想他』這句話藏在心裡——可他現在，竟然真的站在這裡。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTfENjzfn6l
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMGIGInVAKV
他真的站在這裡。真的沒走——8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEtZ2e1rtt8
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbUbtR9LryS
心底有股緩緩竄升上來的喜悅，連心跳都因此變得更真實——可她從未預期過這個片段，連下一步該做什麼都沒有頭緒。最後還是只能再回頭問他：8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz52YR64cRv
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxAHFtYHU0R
「⋯⋯不是要回西班牙嗎？」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1Auga99jg
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「本來要回去。」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxxXeRViwPL
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyufGaQqUt6
糸師冴做了個短暫的答覆。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCuFASHEwr7
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTspD5iqFbm
「今天在酒店看到一場說明會，一個叫『藍色監獄』的計畫。滿有興趣。」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVFK2hQSWxa
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrIq7fxhnyN
沒說太多細節，也沒說什麼媒體、記者會、緋聞、風波。他說完後，靜了一下。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRdlNpqtVD
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwCUhCAERhh
她沒什麼表情，只是輕輕笑了一下，很簡單。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJBKPRpItp
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡofQUVAFYI7
「你決定留下來？」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡILT8OBWPk4
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「嗯。」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJDHcyVqpJ
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糸師冴頓了一下，才補了一句：8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxa1m7Zg1VV
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTAts5EJULU
「如果妳有什麼行程，不用改。也不用等我回去。」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs6FNtZNxPS
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWZoN6NeJrk
星野莉奈還是微笑著。想嘆氣，但沒真正吐出來。有些無奈，有些好笑，又有一點⋯⋯說不出的委屈。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHiVz5fUhBZ
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「冴⋯⋯這個時間點，你可以傳訊⋯⋯」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ43VrLJA4tg
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKeYOajWDRI
「我不想讓妳從新聞上知道這件事。」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeLwKf2uCUq
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZJRgL8wmMr
她停了一下，看著他。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡetmVIpDTit
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「剛好回家吃飯。就順路過來。」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMVBMnPJnpX
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQo545fXRDG
糸師冴把臉偏向一邊。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerDjeQnY48
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「我不確定妳會不會想聽⋯⋯所以沒先聯絡。」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUxYqSwDdkP
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQVJ3hG4Kl
原來他也會想，自己說的話她會不會想聽啊⋯⋯星野莉奈苦笑了一下。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbAVVNZTXWs
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbq8MkavcMR
他說要留下來，她是真的開心的。能見到他一面，已經夠幸福了。何況他還特地來說明這件事——難得先來找她，難得到讓她差點想笑。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0xaoqscL4D
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6dilXArVX
她原本那麼想見他，卻只能一個人想念。結果在放棄之後，他竟然就這樣活生生站在她面前。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0O3mcOmq3y
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡenipP0EI4L
星野莉奈低頭看了看自己仍在顫抖的手，忍不住笑了笑。明明只是順路說一句話而已⋯⋯她卻差點感動到不知所措。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDaIL1HyTqm
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGcE1H1O5Qz
可，那股躲不掉的疼痛感，還是很真實。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu5pMoBJ7qO
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyZvyRjyw4J
——他一向是這樣的。說走就走，說留下就留下，理由永遠不是她。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ39lh3eVR1d
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlg8EiDNzIJ
她不是不痛，但他也不是第一次這樣了。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS5FRJNTzcA
她告訴自己，沒那麼意外——因為十三歲那年，她哭得那麼大聲，都沒能讓他停下腳步。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC9lvh1TJ5z
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnV7dmuWR3G
那時候她就知道了，她留不住他。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwTIntX8dt
而現在，只是又一次被確認而已。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMrII1jJCv
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終於嘆了一口氣。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1bWU8ib4gu
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「⋯⋯謝謝。」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkdcQX92d3t
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW13spsI01h
星野莉奈輕聲說。不是不懂，因為她也做過類似的選擇——當初為了巴黎Ｃ牌的試鏡，留下他一個人在日本，獨自面對YIPS。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNA1et5pIDz
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaktnKsvXtt
這樣的選擇⋯⋯或許，並不是因為真的不在意吧。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSlHqpCfQHC
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSVZvKgCN0H
糸師冴沒回應，只是看著她，像在確認什麼，又像沒想那麼多，只是單純站在這裡。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGJfAOMQFR9
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「你今天有看新聞嗎？」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqWfRQc1iZY
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVeAZc48gMf
語氣像是隨口問的，但星野莉奈的眼神卻沒有移開他。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjBn6tTSNUr
糸師冴還是看著她，沒有立刻回。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCJqKF4C0cI
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMHNignZd0Z
「我是說⋯⋯有記者說你回來，是為了誰誰誰——什麼C牌的代言人啦，什麼模特啦。」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMbxsScjtQm
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx9dVa2ruTC
她笑了一下，語氣輕得像沒掛心。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVyBUJZ4FcT
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWPsV7hPLft
糸師冴的表情沒變，只是像掃過背景雜訊那樣，簡單丟出一句：8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRyFMsH1Ppl
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdTeaUDUwLW
「那些會降低智商的東西不用看。」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ7Mu6BBf9E
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkyVTeq4zGS
她愣了一下，早該猜到這個答案——卻還是被什麼刺了一下。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnzBioTC6a8
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTomLdcvrH1
「我就知道你不會在乎。」星野莉奈勉強笑著，沒說可是「那些」東西裡有她，「⋯⋯你一向都不理這些人。」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZxRim4rz8g
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOmk7nh1hlJ
糸師冴點了點頭，連一句都懶得多說。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZl32ONyF7
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbqtHtZKXiO
她早就知道了。可驗證的那一瞬間，還是⋯⋯會痛。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3fqdaNT6xY
——他不是不知道。是從頭到尾，真的，都沒打算為這些事，說一句話。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr0qJ9hAbRc
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAjudmDMEjQ
所以⋯⋯她才必須親口問他。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIy4JeA1lKk
否則，她永遠不知道，自己到底是被回應過，還是只是被忽略。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpsr8dCn4Ma
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9IaCjBjWm4
她眼神收回，像鼓起什麼：「可以問你一個問題嗎？」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWGttGEgsSp
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糸師冴望著她，她沒等那聲「可以」，就輕輕開口：8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBglc6wuZab
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7BygYrEq21
「那時候⋯⋯我問你，能不能當我男朋友的時候。」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4s2SOqfZnW
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfeMhGrqA8X
她語調平穩，卻藏不住一點點太久沒說出口的濕氣。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7sbxVFSY4N
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「你為什麼，什麼都不說？」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRWCIkns2HA
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRF47LPk3yn
她要的，不是澄清，不是安慰，也不是公關措辭——8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ47ZF6ZEptH
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡipgZSHEOAf
只是想知道，他當時，為什麼不說話。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVaAWOcDJ81
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她眼神乾淨，語氣也很平靜，看起來做了很多次心理預演。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNXt9xVxj3z
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePunL523Gy
糸師冴的眼睫微動，卻沒說話。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMaddmjc2J
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmWsc81IWBo
「你那時候什麼都沒說。」星野莉奈語氣不重，但每一個字都像在敲門，「所以我一直以為，你是在拒絕我。」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlvNgtLIHcm
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6z8CsutPPU
她沒打算哭，可眼睛就是酸了。不是情緒失控的那種，只是覺得——終於到了該問的時候。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOKQCVpar4i
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「現在可以告訴我了嗎？」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4xZUg4Bahv
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ceVUGgxck
她問得很輕、很平靜，跟在問一個已經無關痛癢的往事一樣。但她眼神裡的那一點閃動，出賣了她。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6AuTqXS9OY
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxNKtdIztCS
她可以接受他完全不想搭理記者，也可以接受他對輿論嗤之以鼻。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkC4PdZADnj
但她需要知道——真正的答案。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJeZlIbb9t
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVCFcjUorQl
她只是想有足夠的底氣，在所有喧嘩之中，繼續站穩自己。就像客廳那張媽媽的模特照一樣，最後走進聚光燈下，用優雅沉靜的笑容穿透一切喧囂，眼神仍然明亮。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVuWsOU1G7U
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhidU1WkT3a
她不是做不到——8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiJIYITujXE
是⋯⋯她太累了，不想再自己猜。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUxXHcE8UrM
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEaoAzRpzik
她想知道，不是只有她自己一個人；就算他不願意公開也沒關係。至少⋯⋯她得知道，她不是一個人。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrffmOxgaQO
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糸師冴沒有立刻回答。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡodgLZ3ljiM
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY4ZvSbwgKh
他只是站著，靜靜看著她，視線像是停在一個太久沒觸碰的名字上。喉結動了一下，似乎有什麼卡住了，然後才說：8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5QJHnNxyqt
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「⋯⋯因為妳太喜歡我了。」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaSuM8pu7yu
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她沒說話，只看著他，眼神在等一個更具體的解釋。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMFrWRUbnR
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFt8nw1UIi4
「妳太用盡全力了。」他的語氣一貫冷靜，沒有任何責備，卻也沒有溫度。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHj1cNXygk1
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxfOtZUZ5Xa
她盯著他，手指緊了緊。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAoYAIIC9qu
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZSkydFg9O
糸師冴繼續說下去，語速不快，說出那個早就壓在心底的結論：8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWAxAeCS21V
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「妳總在等我開口，連我沉默的時候，妳也會自己幫我把話説完⋯⋯妳知道我喜歡什麼口味的飲料、哪雙球鞋壓腳、哪天睡不好，什麼紅茶我不會喝第二次。」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMjsuKbu8n
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNcMn1jVs1a
他眼神沒動。她指尖掐緊了一下，但沒有插話。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV5MD2fBJDh
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVFqtnNncjT
「妳連我哪天打噴嚏、早上挑哪條毛巾、哪一場比賽後不想講話——妳都記得，比我還清楚。」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1tu1jmlVK2
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKG50ynEaPW
他停了一下，終於碰到心裡最難說出口的那句：8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCrK8QkTpMg
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpnXKhaU4p0
「——『這些，真的是妳該做的嗎？』」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRgCkdcbF3t
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡac9IewsnyJ
糸師冴冷靜到近乎空白。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAjJgbcgvr0
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX9t7N1U1jD
「每次妳把所有細節記得清清楚楚時，我只想問這句話。」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCm2eKxYhES
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbvJ1zd4rUQ
她抿唇，眼神裡的光開始慢慢往下沉。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDijwLNDu4g
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN07jGS22Qx
「所以你就選擇，不回應？」她問，聲音輕得像風。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbVWzDp7CvV
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRRWj4dswzx
他眼中有什麼微微動了一下，好像想說什麼，卻又收了回去。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXYAJoHDAfA
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5cgHETxlVD
糸師冴靜了太久，久到她以為，那份沉默也是一種回答。她點了點頭，像理解了什麼，又像終於累了。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPl8lJ3GEkS
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn5GG6Pb7g1
「原來我這麼努力地喜歡你，在你眼裡——只是努力過頭了？」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvk4g2gnDgH
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqMa525ono7
「不是。」糸師冴皺眉，「我只是覺得——妳不該這樣。」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwIiEFQFIOi
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWsQ5WOC1yN
「所以是我錯了？」她輕聲問，語氣仍然平穩，卻穩得連自己也不太確定。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrrRM16ujTr
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGMawX14Rd
「妳把所有事情都預先設想的太多了。」他停了一下，像在調整什麼似的：「多到讓我懷疑，妳是不是連受傷，都提前準備好了。」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLoNNXk5r6
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZ36kswiJB
他一直知道她的付出，他不是看不到；他一直都知道她很好，只是希望她知道，她真的不需要為了他這麼拚命。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJYAoFn5SDV
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuOFn1UOMN7
——不需要因為他，失去自己原本的樣子。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZVrdgAgtmJ
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcnFtBAItXN
星野莉奈沒再開口，只低頭看著地上的影子。站太久了，腳也有點麻了，但她還沒有轉身。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZr4WYusfOE
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1sXVMZARXy
「⋯⋯不管我在不在日本，妳都會是這樣吧。」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwaKNQR5kx1
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxYUPL5wCa
他說，聲音很低。像在問她，也像在說服自己。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX2B2rTR8rW
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm4CfRNL24h
他知道她會一直努力，無論他在不在場。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1PMPh4k0Hm
她本來就會閃閃發光，本來就能站在那裡，讓所有人看見她。從來不需要靠誰。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEsDqGcLXY7
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPe9NVHkBlo
機場的迎賓大廳裡，還掛著她和神谷美咲的海報——那個位置，本來就應該屬於她。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡufx7vWTrxM
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuKqcoBuH4p
和他，一點關係都沒有。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIqLZeiSXm
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR1YJV2namA
她聽著，忽然笑了。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBlPaIvHLba
很輕微的一個動作，像終於解開了什麼。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn1WgaogFGG
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxZXr2yyKW
原來，自己所做的一切，以為那些「不可取代」的位置，對對方來說，都只是——一種過分殷勤的工作。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ68UVszAWZX
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbddZywMXg
那些最美好、最溫暖也最真實的時刻，其實都是她一個人瞎忙猛竄，還低下頭，把它們收藏到內心最深的地方，珍惜保存。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ25g3pT5tfY
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngUxkOKtVX
突然想起小川鈴很久以前和她說過——她的一切都必須跟鏡頭前一樣「剛剛好」。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCcfMjM8FcU
動作剛好、語言剛好、行為舉止剛好⋯⋯8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqq6KsQz1vH
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfk8vtVdkc6
連情感都要，剛剛好。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Ifz9f5nuA
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcrzcZfBwCZ
她的身體可以在零點三秒內調整角度，但她的情感沒辦法「剛剛好地愛」；「鏡頭精準」是職業訓練，專業可以掌握，但感情——不是工作。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIiscKKRXfX
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不是。一直都不是。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7pJbwRXNpi
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡghx9XG0oPC
「⋯⋯你放心吧。」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAKQ8BgHVBM
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYWQDlyTKNC
星野莉奈輕聲說，像在宣布一場溫柔的退場。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO0okxHZtGs
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvTJNWtB2ZT
「你穿哪雙鞋、喝哪個牌子的運動飲料、喜歡哪種戰術、哪場比賽得幾分⋯⋯那些四年前的事，我現在都忘得差不多了。」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV2L42SUxDr
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ935NkPSFh0
她說得不快，每一個字都刻意放慢，用來割自己一刀。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSkk2TcLHCU
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡozeKaTV0BO
「這樣⋯⋯就不會太不像戀愛了。」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmVeW7Wf5Ha
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡugYGKhFyWx
她輕笑一下，對那個拼命記住所有細節的自己，說了一句告別。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIHBw7aIadg
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUKache6lS8
「太像，求職準備了⋯⋯」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWWCZ2dOood
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1t5X5YAiHl
她真的太用力了。用力到，忘記自己其實也需要被回應。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNwFCd8Cglo
她以為自己的愛是無條件、是輕盈、是足以支撐這段關係的——而現在，終於證明了，自己只是個過度消耗的機器。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkKUDogIeae
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIB1UihNc8e
說完，她轉身面向家門，手搭上門把，語氣輕到像是在結束一場不會錄取的面試：8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBiVpGic0jz
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3jZC9GSn7y
「我會學著，怎麼『不那麼喜歡你』——我學得很快。放心吧。」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0oRly0N24O
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60gnPZjYaL
腳步沒停，她往屋子裡走去。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOlGtst4o4a
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIp3QScXQbX
「莉奈——」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCBfY2sCzx0
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaPzgWd1iFT
糸師冴下意識叫住她，腳步剛動了一下，手也抬了一寸，卻還是差了半步。他原本伸出的手，就停在門把的高度，離她不到五公分。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2EfA738kP7
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5U6jes0ecJ
門「喀」地關上。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQiEKUr4Tjp
那聲音落下的瞬間，像什麼被剪斷了。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5appP91cHq
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5xC17KtV3g
「我會調整成你認為『適合』的樣子。那個剛剛好的樣子。」8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH3uRAsdQch
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI5cQqwajlL
她最後的聲音在空氣裡散開，帶著幾乎聽不見的顫抖。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfRlz2GnzUs
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo2RCzTWnwh
——她那麼努力地喜歡他。不是一天，不是一句話，而是幾年來，心甘情願學著怎麼靠近他、照顧他、讀懂他——8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUU6Zehx6qn
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfszIe1VXKR
她用盡全力在風暴中站穩，繼續溫暖自己的初心，就是為了不辜負所有的真心、她感受到真切的每一刻——她以為，她不是一個人。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJQLmMSCNU6
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkAxmdT4Hb7
而他，只用一場冷靜的風，把她所有的熱度吹散了。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡii2m4hM07a
8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZjhMnpP7D1
門關上的瞬間，他站著沒有動。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyXbsuN2xNC
他知道她誤會了，卻一句解釋也說不出口。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgp1zeFR3nP
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他不是不在意她。8Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmmThMKoKvA
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而是，他已經用盡全力，回應她的每一句話了。
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