Chapter nineteen : You love her, don't you?8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡKWV979eh6A 維尼
Richard's POV:8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡm5suMSGqs0 維尼
"You love her, don't you?"8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡf5euWOHRrr 維尼
That one question made me feel thousands of feelings, but the feeling which I felt the most, and which was hurting me more than my other feelings, was I felt scared.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡzdGnR52OSo 維尼
I felt my heart beating furiously against my chest, I felt my lips going dry and I felt thirsty all of a sudden, water, I need water, and of course I need to get the hell out of here.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡnhvITMSGLt 維尼
Damien didn't see any of my expressions and he didn't feel any of my feelings because my back was to him.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡAc5Thd3oM5 維尼
Should I answer him?8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLYn7wAAAN 維尼
Should I not?8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZ0XVywEBM 維尼
What should I do?8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡtF3hgbN01j 維尼
Should I walk away?8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡqhyPosOzjk 維尼
Should I tell him the truth?8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡTkbissCdWm 維尼
Of course not, I won't tell that asshole the truth, I don't trust him anymore.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4wB8u8quY3 維尼
All I wanna do is make Kristen happy, destroying every possible way of making her feel hurt, is the only way to make her feel happy.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2RVsiXYDG3 維尼
I realized I have been daydreaming since Damien has asked me that damned question, I decided to not let him see through me and just be my casual old jerk self again.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡOJJjG2cwHv 維尼
" What makes you think I love a girl like her? She's nothing near what I have in my mind, for my dream girl" I chuckled and walked upstairs to the library, I had to distract myself.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡehP8gZFd9I 維尼
I didn't stare at Damien as I answered him, because I was too afraid he might see right through me.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3aAco6vmq0 維尼
I'm pathetic, I am in love with a girl, she's in love with another guy, and that guy is just not in love with her.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡMOA06Y53vY 維尼
What a mess!8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡXJMfFwQW4R 維尼
Why can't life be simple?8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡuyQhChnrIA 維尼
Why can't she be in love with me too?8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡBcvZnFhKrW 維尼
Why can't she return my love?8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡty6rYtxfSK 維尼
Why one sided love even exists?8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡRgg5TLaMXy 維尼
Too many questions which are unanswerable.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡQfw9UmmeBj 維尼
I searched for the most distracting book in the library, of course philosophy is the best choice when you want to distract yourself, it makes you think.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6wCXt2vv9z 維尼
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Kristen's POV:8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡnwiJPBKMUt 維尼
I was removing my makeup, when Damien knocked the door and came inside.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡRelLZvfP0c 維尼
"Hey" I smiled and greeted him, I am really happy we are back together, I thought he is mad at me forever.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnxazQfDVM 維尼
"Hey" he greeted back and gave me a peck on my lips. I felt my cheeks get warm and I felt shy all of a sudden.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡlaCYXke9JL 維尼
"so... ummm... what did Richard say?" I asked , Damien smiled sadly and stared at mae as if I was some piece of art, honeslty I didn't like that.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBDuR8CNPd 維尼
"He just threatened me"8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡKGCMkFIwEL 維尼
"He threatened you?!"8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡiejgEjPOLG 維尼
"Yep"8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡda8L5D7m30 維尼
"Why?!"8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDUFI4dfCh 維尼
" He said he would kill me if I hurt you"8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡh6iCg0NVte 維尼
"Oh"8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡVJVNZSJ3Lw 維尼
I frowned , why does he put his nose in my life everytime he has the chance? I am not a baby. I am grown up, I can take care of myself.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvwGXcnFbv 維尼
Damien chuckled at my expression, and he stared at the mirror, I gasped as I saw the huge mark on his right side of his neck.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡh9GmRCzonB 維尼
" Oh.My.God. what's that Damien ? who did that to you?" I ran towards him and stared at the huge blue mark on his neck. I know it's not a hickey , trust me I have seen one.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡQXFDjRAtZc 維尼
I still remember Richard's hickey. Don't get me wrong , I am not spying on that asshole or anything like that, it's just that he was making out with that girl back when we were newly married.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJ5kDAEG4x 維尼
So I know this is not a hickey, I mean Damien would never betray me, right?8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡB6Ts7EQSa5 維尼
He's just so sweet and kind, I brought him ice and tried to apply it gently on his bruise.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0WXnFg9FEm 維尼
"Thank you" Damien whispered and smiled sadly at me. I smiled back .8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡiXIDAYfgdQ 維尼
"so what happened?" I asked " Who did that to you?"8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡ868dBNXms2 維尼
"Uh..it's nothing serious, it was just a random thief , he was trying to steal my money"8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡBeIpILKAwb 維尼
"Oh, you should have been more careful"8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRJNqPzJdG 維尼
"Yeah"8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡiqZ5FFN8ZM 維尼
I smiled to myself, Damien has always been kind to beggars maybe he has been fooled, and one of the beggars might have been a thief.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡhDKMbvRfDQ 維尼
My smile vanished when I remembered Richard's expression when he saw me and Damien kissing.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡVXxlxNUlOc 維尼
What was that about?8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡb9V2wektNy 維尼
He looked ... weird. No, he looked sad and he was about to punch Damien in the face.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡ27HhIdtDpc 維尼
He looked dangerous, actually he looked like he might have been jealous. But jealous of who?8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡLIyMSZtTUn 維尼
It doesn't make sense , I mean he was the one who made us date. He can't be jealous right? You get jealous when you like someone , does he like me? I mean not as a friend, but.. you know, as more than a friend, as a lover?8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡpRXN6R58HV 維尼
No way, I laughed at myself mentally, Richard will never fall for me, he doesn't like me that way.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡVLFUSLaprZ 維尼
Yep , I am positive. But then what about the kiss? I felt all of his anger, and love in that kiss, he wasn't letting me go when he kissed me, it was as if he was so desperate. Could his feelings and the way he kissed me have been all an act?8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡtaYiHn9AJM 維尼
Wow, I am driving myself crazy by overthinking, Richard is never desperate for a kiss, he might have been playing with girls and kissing them, but it was because he has felt lonely.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡxknWtsbci8 維尼
I am sure it has been all an act, Richard doesn't like me more than a friend.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡtrRnTRFeVa 維尼
Yeah, that's it. But that thought made me feel lonely, sad and disappointed, suddenly I wanted him to like me, no, actually I wanted him to love me, I don't know why, but I felt disappointed.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡIzyF6IWXAm 維尼
I stared at Damien who was now fast asleep in my bed, and sighed. I shouldn't feel this way,I am not being fair to Damien.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡtytg6ZJDDc 維尼
I brushed my teeth and went to the other side of the bed, just when I was about to turn of the lamp, someone knocked on the door.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡl97nlvm9E1 維尼
I sighed and went to open the door , guess one of the maids has forgot something.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡKdYavh5Vaq 維尼
I opened the door and was surprised when I saw Richard standing by the door, guess he hasn't been able to sleep well.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvR5rOQoWA 維尼
"Richard!"8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡJN1i3TrY25 維尼
I went out and closed the door behind me, didn't want to wake up Damien , he looked so tired.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡtkQWUisruF 維尼
"What are you doing-" I gasped when Richard turned around and stared at me, that look was enough to make me think. To make me think of all the things I have been thinking a few minutes ago.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡheqK4cfLP5 維尼
Why does Richard stare at me like this? He stares at me as if I am the most beautiful damned creature on earth.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡIabKybxFPV 維尼
And his eyes said thousand unsaid words, could he be in love with me?8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9QIT8ZR366 維尼
"I.. just came here.. to.. check on .. you" Richard said, his breath smelled of beer, and his tone was not normal, I felt the horrible feeling again.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡu64qLRIAyl 維尼
Disappointment.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡLNKyXFMwlh 維尼
I felt disappointed again, Richard is just drunk. He doesn't know what he is doing when he is drunk.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡJiOECYUVxT 維尼
" I'm fine! Don't worry about me" I said and bit my bottom lip, Richard noticed this and frowned.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡew8hmuO3Tr 維尼
"What's the matter?" He asked, I just shrugged, I couldn't speak, I didn't trust my voice, drunk or not, Richard is still Richard and he is way too smart.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDmSIQ21Jp 維尼
Just when I was about to speak, Richard said goodbye and walked away.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡLlpq29JRpE 維尼
What was that?8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6YV8P9RZ3 維尼
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Day(15)8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0MwQfBoZBb 維尼
Another ten days at Paris has passed, the most amazing surprise here was Damien, but it was a good surprise.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡuctsMswhlt 維尼
We laughed, talked, watched movies, walked all around Paris ,then we came back to the villa, and had more fun. I was laughing very loud and really enjoyed everything me and Damien did together.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5dZacdnJSf 維尼
I was super happy, Richard sometimes enjoyed our company too, but other times I either saw him reading a book, I think it was about philosophy or he was locking himself upstairs to read that same book, either way he was reading.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡAuXEICTBU7 維尼
And it was bothering me, he acts weird lately I wonder why, he has dark circles around his eyes, I saw it clearly yesterday.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡRt5yyqfm6t 維尼
I am hundred percent sure, something is bothering him, I will go and ask him later.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2h5403FZ6h 維尼
We're friends, I will try to help him and soothe his pain.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡgZDFnZ0Nso 維尼
All of a sudden Richard came downstairs, he was speaking with someone on his iPhone,he put on his jacket.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡYeT9BLNXBK 維尼
"Okay, I'll see you there Rémi" Richard said and hung up.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡBwZDvwX0S5 維尼
I told Damien I had to go with Richard to see his friend, since he was a great friend of mine too, at first Damien didn't agree but after I gave him my cute puppy face he sighed and gave up, he told me he had something to take care of too.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡEjmpyUY6vj 維尼
I hurried to follow Richard. Now this is my chance to know what is going through his head.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡ84lEd3l8ur 維尼
"Richard!" I called, Richard stopped and frowned.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡtZ6QqM1T07 維尼
"Yes?" He said, he was still frowning.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡqrpqEYobew 維尼
"I was wondering if you could take me with you? Umm.. to see Rémi?" I smiled and fluttered my lashes. Richard snorted and rolled his eyes.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5qMvwTFMj5 維尼
"Fine, you don't have to behave like a kid" He said.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡBWs0uCbnwU 維尼
My smile dropped and I was thinking of a comeback, but unfortunately I didn't find anything to say.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCZrICy9ds 維尼
What do you say to a guy who tells you not to behave like a kid? When he knows you're grown up and you're not a kid anymore.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡUKPluSPQd5 維尼
Ugh.. This guy is just not understandable.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡelCgPeuej6 維尼
I was thinking of a comeback all the way to the place where Richard was taking me, we reached the place, yet I haven't found a comeback.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡj3KoxUOKgJ 維尼
I sighed and gave up, Richard is unbeatable.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡQgApmoa0NR 維尼
We were in a bar, a romantic music was playing and everyone was enjoying. I was hypnotized by the place, it was amazing, everything was so romantic, the music, the place, there were couples everywhere.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡC8PFE74vuT 維尼
And they were all wearing nice dresses, why didn't Richard tell me to wear a nice dress?8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡuDGnvTbTBo 維尼
"This place is amazing" I murmured as I sat down on a chair, Richard sat beside me and smiled at me when I said that.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡWo0jHglkDf 維尼
"I knew you'll like it, This place is not where Rémi is gonna see us, but I brought you here since I wanted you to see it, I just texted him and told him to come here" Richard said and stared at the man who was playing the piano, he was so into the music, I smiled at Richard's expression and bit my lips.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡihFGLX4zeP 維尼
Okay, this is the right time to ask my question.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35NNV49BOA 維尼
"Richard?"8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡFeVirz90AI 維尼
"Yeah?" He was still looking at the pianist, I didn';t want to ruin his mod, but it was now or never.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡhDCa6KxSqh 維尼
"What's wrong?" I asked. Richard's smile dropped and he stared at me" what do you mean?"8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ49q7EWtcS 維尼
"I mean... you act weird lately"8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡu95X6H9EUl 維尼
"Weird?... how?"8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡcyu0kte3Kz 維尼
" You are sad most of the time, you always lock youself up in the library, you always read books and you're nowhere to be found, and you spend most of the nights drinking, is something wrong?"8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡgBdF2Csb1E 維尼
Richard smiled sadly at me, and shook his head without hesitation" I just didn't want to ruin your time with Damien" He said quietly. Then he stared at the pianist again, but this time he was frowning.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡQj7qPiUQx4 維尼
"I am really worried about you" I bit my lips when I said those words, but it was too late I have said them, and I don't regret it, it's the simple truth. I am really worried about him.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡzLXE1jHDb7 維尼
Richard stared at me, and smiled sweetly, he was smiling that smile which could melt any girl, he has that effect on girls. But not on me I am taken.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1GrM0dbEHd 維尼
"Don't worry about me, I am fine Kris" he said , I tried to argue, but he cut me off by making a joke about my expression earlier when he told me I shouldn't behave like a kid.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡuXalVFhPWP 維尼
We smiled and laughed for another twenty minutes, Rémi called Richard and told him he will be late, and that he will be here in fifteen minutes.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡ23aktdSYMr 維尼
Another fifteen minutes with Richard here makes me feel giddy all of a sudden. I enjoy being with my best friend more than I enjoy being with any guy friend of mine.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJENM58mmP 維尼
Richard was telling me about his girlfriends when suddenly his expression changed as if he has seen a ghost.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡmEkvBrNjBG 維尼
" Let's go Kris" He grabbed my hand and forced me to stand up.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡr2Uxl7vYjq 維尼
"Wait.. ouch.. you're hurting me.. " I pulled away from him and stared at my surroundings, But I couldn't find anything bad.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwrDgHHUIm 維尼
"What's wrong Richard? Why do you wanna go? Rémi hasn't arrived yet" I said and rubbed where he has held my wrist, god he is strong.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFBGDh6t8t 維尼
Richard grabbed my hand by force this time and made me face him" let's go" He said stubbornly, but I freed myself from his strong grip, and an idea came to me.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡyUpiJxFgot 維尼
" I saw what you saw" I whispered, Richard's eyes widened and he stared at somewhere behind my back, so that's where the big problem is, huh?8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7cIepoKcRf 維尼
I turned around and tried to find what he was staring at, my eyes wandered, but all I saw was some girls giggling at god knows what, a couple making out they were sucking each other's face as if their life depended on it, and there was this guy who winked at me.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGDjjBm3l5 維尼
Okay, all these were normal, but, wait- the couple, the guy looks familiar, I stared at them again, I felt Richard's arm around my waist, but I freed myself again, No, this can't be happening right?8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQEnehtu1z 維尼
My emotions were all messed up, I knew I felt betrayed, that's the only recognizable emotion at that moment.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxvKjnVmO2 維尼
What else? I don't know. I touched my cheeks and under my eyes, but I couldn't feel wetness, nope there were no tears. My tears were frozen.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡT7RtvO3IHm 維尼
What would you do when the guy you love the most cheats on you? Cry? Pull the girl's hair?8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4tR0C3bS7m 維尼
No, I need to calm down, and I need to think and concentrate, I knew Richard was speaking, he was hugging me from behind, and he was whispering, I smiled to myself, even tho I couldn't hear him, because my mind was too busy taking in what I have just seen, I knew he is trying to make me feel better.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡjJAp9u5a3K 維尼
I felt a very sharp pain in the left side of my chest, no it was not from emotional hurt, it was actually hurting, an actual physical pain.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1IJju15EYL 維尼
I breathed in and out for a few moments, and walked towards the couple.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡVtUatfTOm7 維尼
They were still making out, I cleared my throat, and felt very... what's the word? Bitchy? No that's not like me. Slutty ? no that's same as bitchy I guess? Rude? Yep I felt rude. I wanted to be rude and I wanted to hurt Damien just how he has hurt me.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡmfwHawnxb2 維尼
"What a scene, you guys must really love each other, that guy must really be loyal to that girl, right Richard?"8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡIrlkB563IV 維尼
Richard was of course behind me, he was holding my hand, and I let him. He sighed at my comment. But said nothing.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡr34jWcJ4Le 維尼
Damien froze as he heard my voice and he stopped kissing that girl.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡjPVkrILggQ 維尼
"Oh no, Kristen?" He whispered and swallowed, he looked panicked. Good for you Damien, you SHOULD be panicked.8964 copyright protection483ＰＥＮＡＮＡua4TCsNv08 維尼
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