Chapter nineteen : You love her, don't you?copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkDzJO23eL
Richard's POV:copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡhMpjv3rYVP
"You love her, don't you?"copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡbTBQ1bok1D
That one question made me feel thousands of feelings, but the feeling which I felt the most, and which was hurting me more than my other feelings, was I felt scared.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡIRXmqHatKp
I felt my heart beating furiously against my chest, I felt my lips going dry and I felt thirsty all of a sudden, water, I need water, and of course I need to get the hell out of here.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1bEkGHMFC
Damien didn't see any of my expressions and he didn't feel any of my feelings because my back was to him.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡCRwdIxo6Sq
Should I answer him?copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡKAhIXIp7b9
Should I not?copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡwqaI4vpMh5
What should I do?copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡpUXV7FtwMl
Should I walk away?copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡXxWefTWE18
Should I tell him the truth?copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡNyzYgEuGqL
Of course not, I won't tell that asshole the truth, I don't trust him anymore.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡLPFILNofkb
All I wanna do is make Kristen happy, destroying every possible way of making her feel hurt, is the only way to make her feel happy.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡAhIxwXrtBs
I realized I have been daydreaming since Damien has asked me that damned question, I decided to not let him see through me and just be my casual old jerk self again.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡCp0bohQSXg
" What makes you think I love a girl like her? She's nothing near what I have in my mind, for my dream girl" I chuckled and walked upstairs to the library, I had to distract myself.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡEI6krS8P7s
I didn't stare at Damien as I answered him, because I was too afraid he might see right through me.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1IKJggGHKi
I'm pathetic, I am in love with a girl, she's in love with another guy, and that guy is just not in love with her.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9mIay6soZp
What a mess!copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡFD8LXzE5pL
Why can't life be simple?copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡyquj9KAQrk
Why can't she be in love with me too?copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9BGRMeYeDX
Why can't she return my love?copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡDiBL4zlIFK
Why one sided love even exists?copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡueaYxkI7b9
Too many questions which are unanswerable.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡrkL8cxnaL1
I searched for the most distracting book in the library, of course philosophy is the best choice when you want to distract yourself, it makes you think.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8pjKanjv6Z
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Kristen's POV:copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡrkhcttJREv
I was removing my makeup, when Damien knocked the door and came inside.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡSNUbx4zRAF
"Hey" I smiled and greeted him, I am really happy we are back together, I thought he is mad at me forever.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡRQg4iOP36I
"Hey" he greeted back and gave me a peck on my lips. I felt my cheeks get warm and I felt shy all of a sudden.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1x2iJwMtnq
"so... ummm... what did Richard say?" I asked , Damien smiled sadly and stared at mae as if I was some piece of art, honeslty I didn't like that.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡZfeTqLYZDz
"He just threatened me"copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡFuqVzIKpLQ
"He threatened you?!"copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Noa58GSC4
"Yep"copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡjBjxuKjtKW
"Why?!"copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2prsl0a5pW
" He said he would kill me if I hurt you"copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwJlHOtoH5
"Oh"copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡs0GLxbvQEf
I frowned , why does he put his nose in my life everytime he has the chance? I am not a baby. I am grown up, I can take care of myself.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡNGFe80ei6E
Damien chuckled at my expression, and he stared at the mirror, I gasped as I saw the huge mark on his right side of his neck.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3bYoSNSgu
" Oh.My.God. what's that Damien ? who did that to you?" I ran towards him and stared at the huge blue mark on his neck. I know it's not a hickey , trust me I have seen one.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡXIuEt2PZSt
I still remember Richard's hickey. Don't get me wrong , I am not spying on that asshole or anything like that, it's just that he was making out with that girl back when we were newly married.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡeFaTUjU9C0
So I know this is not a hickey, I mean Damien would never betray me, right?copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡNR4YPsQDk7
He's just so sweet and kind, I brought him ice and tried to apply it gently on his bruise.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7iPCWjELiw
"Thank you" Damien whispered and smiled sadly at me. I smiled back .copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡfxcqr7Jmgl
"so what happened?" I asked " Who did that to you?"copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3cq12TSFe
"Uh..it's nothing serious, it was just a random thief , he was trying to steal my money"copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡZNwPps93es
"Oh, you should have been more careful"copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡAu0NUrUDNa
"Yeah"copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡYaebBgdv8S
I smiled to myself, Damien has always been kind to beggars maybe he has been fooled, and one of the beggars might have been a thief.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ8FfY5H79W
My smile vanished when I remembered Richard's expression when he saw me and Damien kissing.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡAJqAxk2rYQ
What was that about?copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡCX0Q8C6m8f
He looked ... weird. No, he looked sad and he was about to punch Damien in the face.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡfRoV6n0Ou9
He looked dangerous, actually he looked like he might have been jealous. But jealous of who?copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡL5TbFqwHSv
It doesn't make sense , I mean he was the one who made us date. He can't be jealous right? You get jealous when you like someone , does he like me? I mean not as a friend, but.. you know, as more than a friend, as a lover?copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡxusylAbsXj
No way, I laughed at myself mentally, Richard will never fall for me, he doesn't like me that way.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡIca67ht76Y
Yep , I am positive. But then what about the kiss? I felt all of his anger, and love in that kiss, he wasn't letting me go when he kissed me, it was as if he was so desperate. Could his feelings and the way he kissed me have been all an act?copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡhR3a3JAAqs
Wow, I am driving myself crazy by overthinking, Richard is never desperate for a kiss, he might have been playing with girls and kissing them, but it was because he has felt lonely.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5YXxwi8HL5
I am sure it has been all an act, Richard doesn't like me more than a friend.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ticApu4xA
Yeah, that's it. But that thought made me feel lonely, sad and disappointed, suddenly I wanted him to like me, no, actually I wanted him to love me, I don't know why, but I felt disappointed.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Os7YwQy6h
I stared at Damien who was now fast asleep in my bed, and sighed. I shouldn't feel this way,I am not being fair to Damien.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1cfYKMhSu3
I brushed my teeth and went to the other side of the bed, just when I was about to turn of the lamp, someone knocked on the door.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡYvwgH7Gbbd
I sighed and went to open the door , guess one of the maids has forgot something.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡMf1fmZLdyS
I opened the door and was surprised when I saw Richard standing by the door, guess he hasn't been able to sleep well.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡuA4JzOvQHZ
"Richard!"copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡTGvqXdyDoJ
I went out and closed the door behind me, didn't want to wake up Damien , he looked so tired.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbZRqlRbyq
"What are you doing-" I gasped when Richard turned around and stared at me, that look was enough to make me think. To make me think of all the things I have been thinking a few minutes ago.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4308MzXiqF
Why does Richard stare at me like this? He stares at me as if I am the most beautiful damned creature on earth.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡiklOLi1jWp
And his eyes said thousand unsaid words, could he be in love with me?copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2NB1F1nwdW
"I.. just came here.. to.. check on .. you" Richard said, his breath smelled of beer, and his tone was not normal, I felt the horrible feeling again.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡWhZXqMwn4X
Disappointment.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3nhob2HclD
I felt disappointed again, Richard is just drunk. He doesn't know what he is doing when he is drunk.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡCoqdq5fNCs
" I'm fine! Don't worry about me" I said and bit my bottom lip, Richard noticed this and frowned.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡKzJJw9v3xA
"What's the matter?" He asked, I just shrugged, I couldn't speak, I didn't trust my voice, drunk or not, Richard is still Richard and he is way too smart.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1AXiZ9lGmG
Just when I was about to speak, Richard said goodbye and walked away.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡkZ5LdvRsju
What was that?copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡV33ENAOiEm
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Day(15)copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Ym5JABB3U
Another ten days at Paris has passed, the most amazing surprise here was Damien, but it was a good surprise.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5YY9DMKr4p
We laughed, talked, watched movies, walked all around Paris ,then we came back to the villa, and had more fun. I was laughing very loud and really enjoyed everything me and Damien did together.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡNY5KP3HPnk
I was super happy, Richard sometimes enjoyed our company too, but other times I either saw him reading a book, I think it was about philosophy or he was locking himself upstairs to read that same book, either way he was reading.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡdniAs2a4Dd
And it was bothering me, he acts weird lately I wonder why, he has dark circles around his eyes, I saw it clearly yesterday.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJbXTOJEgO
I am hundred percent sure, something is bothering him, I will go and ask him later.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡ34M9PBcwrz
We're friends, I will try to help him and soothe his pain.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡQEX8eqbpuO
All of a sudden Richard came downstairs, he was speaking with someone on his iPhone,he put on his jacket.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡDtyOqrDa6U
"Okay, I'll see you there Rémi" Richard said and hung up.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡYaYLjOmvkO
I told Damien I had to go with Richard to see his friend, since he was a great friend of mine too, at first Damien didn't agree but after I gave him my cute puppy face he sighed and gave up, he told me he had something to take care of too.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bt3kItv7X
I hurried to follow Richard. Now this is my chance to know what is going through his head.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡjKqSzRkd1q
"Richard!" I called, Richard stopped and frowned.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡ70A6LTU8pf
"Yes?" He said, he was still frowning.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡXvqqyK81fg
"I was wondering if you could take me with you? Umm.. to see Rémi?" I smiled and fluttered my lashes. Richard snorted and rolled his eyes.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡZz1qrAhMOj
"Fine, you don't have to behave like a kid" He said.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡcWkM25FXe5
My smile dropped and I was thinking of a comeback, but unfortunately I didn't find anything to say.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡdcADC8oLaE
What do you say to a guy who tells you not to behave like a kid? When he knows you're grown up and you're not a kid anymore.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡ29e3AGERss
Ugh.. This guy is just not understandable.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡbEovqrB6pQ
I was thinking of a comeback all the way to the place where Richard was taking me, we reached the place, yet I haven't found a comeback.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡbC2MgFUFq5
I sighed and gave up, Richard is unbeatable.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡjsfywPeaHG
We were in a bar, a romantic music was playing and everyone was enjoying. I was hypnotized by the place, it was amazing, everything was so romantic, the music, the place, there were couples everywhere.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡCSk1oLsZSS
And they were all wearing nice dresses, why didn't Richard tell me to wear a nice dress?copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡP4vSQLxKrY
"This place is amazing" I murmured as I sat down on a chair, Richard sat beside me and smiled at me when I said that.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡPLr5jXUx7B
"I knew you'll like it, This place is not where Rémi is gonna see us, but I brought you here since I wanted you to see it, I just texted him and told him to come here" Richard said and stared at the man who was playing the piano, he was so into the music, I smiled at Richard's expression and bit my lips.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKtzLSkeRd
Okay, this is the right time to ask my question.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6HhCz7n7SP
"Richard?"copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5IAxNUuHsC
"Yeah?" He was still looking at the pianist, I didn';t want to ruin his mod, but it was now or never.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡiGmMf8FAnw
"What's wrong?" I asked. Richard's smile dropped and he stared at me" what do you mean?"copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡNue46OcuV4
"I mean... you act weird lately"copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡj1NUyAO2ig
"Weird?... how?"copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡFAW2nca3My
" You are sad most of the time, you always lock youself up in the library, you always read books and you're nowhere to be found, and you spend most of the nights drinking, is something wrong?"copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡzA2NF8CRCx
Richard smiled sadly at me, and shook his head without hesitation" I just didn't want to ruin your time with Damien" He said quietly. Then he stared at the pianist again, but this time he was frowning.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡWWyJQ6jE9B
"I am really worried about you" I bit my lips when I said those words, but it was too late I have said them, and I don't regret it, it's the simple truth. I am really worried about him.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡVOcRQA41DQ
Richard stared at me, and smiled sweetly, he was smiling that smile which could melt any girl, he has that effect on girls. But not on me I am taken.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡAdqC15KDXn
"Don't worry about me, I am fine Kris" he said , I tried to argue, but he cut me off by making a joke about my expression earlier when he told me I shouldn't behave like a kid.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡbTjJD9QXOZ
We smiled and laughed for another twenty minutes, Rémi called Richard and told him he will be late, and that he will be here in fifteen minutes.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJOLBFmFH0
Another fifteen minutes with Richard here makes me feel giddy all of a sudden. I enjoy being with my best friend more than I enjoy being with any guy friend of mine.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡwheWTf2ETZ
Richard was telling me about his girlfriends when suddenly his expression changed as if he has seen a ghost.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14TkOwuEti
" Let's go Kris" He grabbed my hand and forced me to stand up.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡE22sOD7aiP
"Wait.. ouch.. you're hurting me.. " I pulled away from him and stared at my surroundings, But I couldn't find anything bad.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡbO6pLZFNEz
"What's wrong Richard? Why do you wanna go? Rémi hasn't arrived yet" I said and rubbed where he has held my wrist, god he is strong.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡNFDG0rcu6G
Richard grabbed my hand by force this time and made me face him" let's go" He said stubbornly, but I freed myself from his strong grip, and an idea came to me.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡNKIPcwskHL
" I saw what you saw" I whispered, Richard's eyes widened and he stared at somewhere behind my back, so that's where the big problem is, huh?copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9SAgimgY9U
I turned around and tried to find what he was staring at, my eyes wandered, but all I saw was some girls giggling at god knows what, a couple making out they were sucking each other's face as if their life depended on it, and there was this guy who winked at me.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡxXAbEACQ5J
Okay, all these were normal, but, wait- the couple, the guy looks familiar, I stared at them again, I felt Richard's arm around my waist, but I freed myself again, No, this can't be happening right?copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTtfIGLb1t
My emotions were all messed up, I knew I felt betrayed, that's the only recognizable emotion at that moment.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡXblyrEUHC4
What else? I don't know. I touched my cheeks and under my eyes, but I couldn't feel wetness, nope there were no tears. My tears were frozen.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡC91ckFNXwS
What would you do when the guy you love the most cheats on you? Cry? Pull the girl's hair?copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡG3MajvQ5HR
No, I need to calm down, and I need to think and concentrate, I knew Richard was speaking, he was hugging me from behind, and he was whispering, I smiled to myself, even tho I couldn't hear him, because my mind was too busy taking in what I have just seen, I knew he is trying to make me feel better.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡyE2Uduy7bb
I felt a very sharp pain in the left side of my chest, no it was not from emotional hurt, it was actually hurting, an actual physical pain.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡbNldZFSNDp
I breathed in and out for a few moments, and walked towards the couple.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡGktsuMXlSE
They were still making out, I cleared my throat, and felt very... what's the word? Bitchy? No that's not like me. Slutty ? no that's same as bitchy I guess? Rude? Yep I felt rude. I wanted to be rude and I wanted to hurt Damien just how he has hurt me.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡcqjflwJUEU
"What a scene, you guys must really love each other, that guy must really be loyal to that girl, right Richard?"copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5PIq2I6VvK
Richard was of course behind me, he was holding my hand, and I let him. He sighed at my comment. But said nothing.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡlb4PDyCBTu
Damien froze as he heard my voice and he stopped kissing that girl.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡg6VAlg75aL
"Oh no, Kristen?" He whispered and swallowed, he looked panicked. Good for you Damien, you SHOULD be panicked.copyright protection117ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0gAIGDqNzW
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