Chapter nineteen : You love her, don't you?copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡh0UeXkVbFN
Richard's POV:copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡtUAfayM7gd
"You love her, don't you?"copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡX5nMDMvEoz
That one question made me feel thousands of feelings, but the feeling which I felt the most, and which was hurting me more than my other feelings, was I felt scared.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7NnxvXs1H5
I felt my heart beating furiously against my chest, I felt my lips going dry and I felt thirsty all of a sudden, water, I need water, and of course I need to get the hell out of here.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡUcsLOBcLFa
Damien didn't see any of my expressions and he didn't feel any of my feelings because my back was to him.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡTE2ESxopEb
Should I answer him?copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡBzDQzZB5n8
Should I not?copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡbbUbgrSm8Q
What should I do?copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3YjvxK6UHr
Should I walk away?copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡnKmElNOmnW
Should I tell him the truth?copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡj5PVdW4Xsq
Of course not, I won't tell that asshole the truth, I don't trust him anymore.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡlENcXgBxwP
All I wanna do is make Kristen happy, destroying every possible way of making her feel hurt, is the only way to make her feel happy.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDSyoEDPnb
I realized I have been daydreaming since Damien has asked me that damned question, I decided to not let him see through me and just be my casual old jerk self again.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡGVHoLrTjR6
" What makes you think I love a girl like her? She's nothing near what I have in my mind, for my dream girl" I chuckled and walked upstairs to the library, I had to distract myself.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡYwVevPz5TA
I didn't stare at Damien as I answered him, because I was too afraid he might see right through me.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡo3GTEPzCZM
I'm pathetic, I am in love with a girl, she's in love with another guy, and that guy is just not in love with her.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡvhyMs8Ntqd
What a mess!copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHRDe1ad55
Why can't life be simple?copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡLplDaGm9AL
Why can't she be in love with me too?copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡe3EOFQl5qf
Why can't she return my love?copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡseUHjhYMvV
Why one sided love even exists?copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡxNS6ZRjvuI
Too many questions which are unanswerable.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡF1v8iIXSkc
I searched for the most distracting book in the library, of course philosophy is the best choice when you want to distract yourself, it makes you think.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4Qxa4zc6Q
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Kristen's POV:copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡhph8yeDq7i
I was removing my makeup, when Damien knocked the door and came inside.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡUisM0y6hHB
"Hey" I smiled and greeted him, I am really happy we are back together, I thought he is mad at me forever.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡImlYvc5yu8
"Hey" he greeted back and gave me a peck on my lips. I felt my cheeks get warm and I felt shy all of a sudden.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0OqQq1EIjc
"so... ummm... what did Richard say?" I asked , Damien smiled sadly and stared at mae as if I was some piece of art, honeslty I didn't like that.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡTLDSz76ztv
"He just threatened me"copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡeAtt2pFv5B
"He threatened you?!"copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡRtlQ6JJ7s8
"Yep"copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7rOxKP6DVH
"Why?!"copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡn0dBgJz9pK
" He said he would kill me if I hurt you"copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡFxNd1jHctT
"Oh"copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡzgHcPuOo10
I frowned , why does he put his nose in my life everytime he has the chance? I am not a baby. I am grown up, I can take care of myself.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡDij6uu7VKu
Damien chuckled at my expression, and he stared at the mirror, I gasped as I saw the huge mark on his right side of his neck.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡX1y7eKqIGU
" Oh.My.God. what's that Damien ? who did that to you?" I ran towards him and stared at the huge blue mark on his neck. I know it's not a hickey , trust me I have seen one.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmbBWXEyml
I still remember Richard's hickey. Don't get me wrong , I am not spying on that asshole or anything like that, it's just that he was making out with that girl back when we were newly married.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwo5o27kUo
So I know this is not a hickey, I mean Damien would never betray me, right?copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡiD6qYam6Q1
He's just so sweet and kind, I brought him ice and tried to apply it gently on his bruise.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡvBgKCCkdJ8
"Thank you" Damien whispered and smiled sadly at me. I smiled back .copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡIymFTCbX7I
"so what happened?" I asked " Who did that to you?"copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3A0dB0GHLW
"Uh..it's nothing serious, it was just a random thief , he was trying to steal my money"copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡrkZA3aIOUL
"Oh, you should have been more careful"copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡYjed26aQ3R
"Yeah"copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡFH5dnlWS0k
I smiled to myself, Damien has always been kind to beggars maybe he has been fooled, and one of the beggars might have been a thief.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡ37ma2tClFt
My smile vanished when I remembered Richard's expression when he saw me and Damien kissing.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡpoV57icn8N
What was that about?copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡdPJIW5NgZC
He looked ... weird. No, he looked sad and he was about to punch Damien in the face.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡf95a1XfDyZ
He looked dangerous, actually he looked like he might have been jealous. But jealous of who?copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡKGNdNboSbE
It doesn't make sense , I mean he was the one who made us date. He can't be jealous right? You get jealous when you like someone , does he like me? I mean not as a friend, but.. you know, as more than a friend, as a lover?copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡtGSwDQln15
No way, I laughed at myself mentally, Richard will never fall for me, he doesn't like me that way.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCsCuBGeEv
Yep , I am positive. But then what about the kiss? I felt all of his anger, and love in that kiss, he wasn't letting me go when he kissed me, it was as if he was so desperate. Could his feelings and the way he kissed me have been all an act?copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡGCMfDWbkil
Wow, I am driving myself crazy by overthinking, Richard is never desperate for a kiss, he might have been playing with girls and kissing them, but it was because he has felt lonely.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5reEqWcDxP
I am sure it has been all an act, Richard doesn't like me more than a friend.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡz5fnZFt2n6
Yeah, that's it. But that thought made me feel lonely, sad and disappointed, suddenly I wanted him to like me, no, actually I wanted him to love me, I don't know why, but I felt disappointed.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDN4I6ByUI
I stared at Damien who was now fast asleep in my bed, and sighed. I shouldn't feel this way,I am not being fair to Damien.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5AL6n5ab3X
I brushed my teeth and went to the other side of the bed, just when I was about to turn of the lamp, someone knocked on the door.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡQCkt87Dc5Q
I sighed and went to open the door , guess one of the maids has forgot something.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡaG558rZtNo
I opened the door and was surprised when I saw Richard standing by the door, guess he hasn't been able to sleep well.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9GsoglajAH
"Richard!"copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡGVzxcEXxWc
I went out and closed the door behind me, didn't want to wake up Damien , he looked so tired.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡcnu61o1e7E
"What are you doing-" I gasped when Richard turned around and stared at me, that look was enough to make me think. To make me think of all the things I have been thinking a few minutes ago.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡpV6LnKwsDb
Why does Richard stare at me like this? He stares at me as if I am the most beautiful damned creature on earth.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8BWcMR1O9a
And his eyes said thousand unsaid words, could he be in love with me?copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWLrkYFQVL
"I.. just came here.. to.. check on .. you" Richard said, his breath smelled of beer, and his tone was not normal, I felt the horrible feeling again.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡJl22jsImZY
Disappointment.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡQM0Uhw3TKF
I felt disappointed again, Richard is just drunk. He doesn't know what he is doing when he is drunk.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡR3otLMTpsu
" I'm fine! Don't worry about me" I said and bit my bottom lip, Richard noticed this and frowned.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡbNERFx0Dbx
"What's the matter?" He asked, I just shrugged, I couldn't speak, I didn't trust my voice, drunk or not, Richard is still Richard and he is way too smart.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡShMuRYom89
Just when I was about to speak, Richard said goodbye and walked away.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡMb3lrJlCEz
What was that?copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bE0TGRl75
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Day(15)copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡJwSRQaS4Th
Another ten days at Paris has passed, the most amazing surprise here was Damien, but it was a good surprise.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡCwWS6ZVO4A
We laughed, talked, watched movies, walked all around Paris ,then we came back to the villa, and had more fun. I was laughing very loud and really enjoyed everything me and Damien did together.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡnyzPhqlGUU
I was super happy, Richard sometimes enjoyed our company too, but other times I either saw him reading a book, I think it was about philosophy or he was locking himself upstairs to read that same book, either way he was reading.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4GT2euEtw6
And it was bothering me, he acts weird lately I wonder why, he has dark circles around his eyes, I saw it clearly yesterday.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡTF9Y7rmFmh
I am hundred percent sure, something is bothering him, I will go and ask him later.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡn25MuPMmzd
We're friends, I will try to help him and soothe his pain.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡXXsAfgx2jd
All of a sudden Richard came downstairs, he was speaking with someone on his iPhone,he put on his jacket.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3DwBvXbck
"Okay, I'll see you there Rémi" Richard said and hung up.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡJwtHCeunDk
I told Damien I had to go with Richard to see his friend, since he was a great friend of mine too, at first Damien didn't agree but after I gave him my cute puppy face he sighed and gave up, he told me he had something to take care of too.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡVbroBCTtjJ
I hurried to follow Richard. Now this is my chance to know what is going through his head.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡgcXco7nZKk
"Richard!" I called, Richard stopped and frowned.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡA2Rof3QQq2
"Yes?" He said, he was still frowning.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡqAJ6c1eYWi
"I was wondering if you could take me with you? Umm.. to see Rémi?" I smiled and fluttered my lashes. Richard snorted and rolled his eyes.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpzybrmJpD
"Fine, you don't have to behave like a kid" He said.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡHQVT8ia35M
My smile dropped and I was thinking of a comeback, but unfortunately I didn't find anything to say.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡJBtbyGK9Bu
What do you say to a guy who tells you not to behave like a kid? When he knows you're grown up and you're not a kid anymore.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡQkGGywNdAi
Ugh.. This guy is just not understandable.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4ZVIbfhi5
I was thinking of a comeback all the way to the place where Richard was taking me, we reached the place, yet I haven't found a comeback.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡLPDiEWGxoU
I sighed and gave up, Richard is unbeatable.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3yxizoPEpP
We were in a bar, a romantic music was playing and everyone was enjoying. I was hypnotized by the place, it was amazing, everything was so romantic, the music, the place, there were couples everywhere.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡFUnyeCqA24
And they were all wearing nice dresses, why didn't Richard tell me to wear a nice dress?copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkh2Ktpf7J
"This place is amazing" I murmured as I sat down on a chair, Richard sat beside me and smiled at me when I said that.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fOKogkgRn
"I knew you'll like it, This place is not where Rémi is gonna see us, but I brought you here since I wanted you to see it, I just texted him and told him to come here" Richard said and stared at the man who was playing the piano, he was so into the music, I smiled at Richard's expression and bit my lips.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡBmTxkB61Ui
Okay, this is the right time to ask my question.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡZEt2Bncz86
"Richard?"copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwCCLZ8oIy
"Yeah?" He was still looking at the pianist, I didn';t want to ruin his mod, but it was now or never.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡmaODlACa9h
"What's wrong?" I asked. Richard's smile dropped and he stared at me" what do you mean?"copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡqceaedVmpU
"I mean... you act weird lately"copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5hPzPdDlYN
"Weird?... how?"copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡODvAtFaakE
" You are sad most of the time, you always lock youself up in the library, you always read books and you're nowhere to be found, and you spend most of the nights drinking, is something wrong?"copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡdeutkhCSa5
Richard smiled sadly at me, and shook his head without hesitation" I just didn't want to ruin your time with Damien" He said quietly. Then he stared at the pianist again, but this time he was frowning.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡDikWwgPMMx
"I am really worried about you" I bit my lips when I said those words, but it was too late I have said them, and I don't regret it, it's the simple truth. I am really worried about him.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡuxHFuTlb0x
Richard stared at me, and smiled sweetly, he was smiling that smile which could melt any girl, he has that effect on girls. But not on me I am taken.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Uq2zj4GP3
"Don't worry about me, I am fine Kris" he said , I tried to argue, but he cut me off by making a joke about my expression earlier when he told me I shouldn't behave like a kid.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJR3vmKCfv
We smiled and laughed for another twenty minutes, Rémi called Richard and told him he will be late, and that he will be here in fifteen minutes.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡUHSdVQuJyG
Another fifteen minutes with Richard here makes me feel giddy all of a sudden. I enjoy being with my best friend more than I enjoy being with any guy friend of mine.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡlbR7auNIlv
Richard was telling me about his girlfriends when suddenly his expression changed as if he has seen a ghost.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡQDctp3uMZl
" Let's go Kris" He grabbed my hand and forced me to stand up.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡgpsvFQNS1B
"Wait.. ouch.. you're hurting me.. " I pulled away from him and stared at my surroundings, But I couldn't find anything bad.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdnLuC9vrd
"What's wrong Richard? Why do you wanna go? Rémi hasn't arrived yet" I said and rubbed where he has held my wrist, god he is strong.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡY2oB8ZZzvu
Richard grabbed my hand by force this time and made me face him" let's go" He said stubbornly, but I freed myself from his strong grip, and an idea came to me.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡUmLHiQ38zB
" I saw what you saw" I whispered, Richard's eyes widened and he stared at somewhere behind my back, so that's where the big problem is, huh?copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡTka3uhDNgW
I turned around and tried to find what he was staring at, my eyes wandered, but all I saw was some girls giggling at god knows what, a couple making out they were sucking each other's face as if their life depended on it, and there was this guy who winked at me.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡ89UsgSfb5f
Okay, all these were normal, but, wait- the couple, the guy looks familiar, I stared at them again, I felt Richard's arm around my waist, but I freed myself again, No, this can't be happening right?copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡAGRrNSG2PV
My emotions were all messed up, I knew I felt betrayed, that's the only recognizable emotion at that moment.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡzrOJYd1mCj
What else? I don't know. I touched my cheeks and under my eyes, but I couldn't feel wetness, nope there were no tears. My tears were frozen.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡj82VCIeLuz
What would you do when the guy you love the most cheats on you? Cry? Pull the girl's hair?copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡfyQLj2Yckq
No, I need to calm down, and I need to think and concentrate, I knew Richard was speaking, he was hugging me from behind, and he was whispering, I smiled to myself, even tho I couldn't hear him, because my mind was too busy taking in what I have just seen, I knew he is trying to make me feel better.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡSdJtjw6G3d
I felt a very sharp pain in the left side of my chest, no it was not from emotional hurt, it was actually hurting, an actual physical pain.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0df5nPrjU3
I breathed in and out for a few moments, and walked towards the couple.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡXa0qG3bPst
They were still making out, I cleared my throat, and felt very... what's the word? Bitchy? No that's not like me. Slutty ? no that's same as bitchy I guess? Rude? Yep I felt rude. I wanted to be rude and I wanted to hurt Damien just how he has hurt me.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡepsxQa50CF
"What a scene, you guys must really love each other, that guy must really be loyal to that girl, right Richard?"copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡAe9b4yiy0C
Richard was of course behind me, he was holding my hand, and I let him. He sighed at my comment. But said nothing.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡulsXtLRIrc
Damien froze as he heard my voice and he stopped kissing that girl.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡhqPLuqh9ut
"Oh no, Kristen?" He whispered and swallowed, he looked panicked. Good for you Damien, you SHOULD be panicked.copyright protection268ＰＥＮＡＮＡHlWtTlceml
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