Chapter twenty : Breaking up
"Hello!" I smiled at the surprised girl, and held out my hand, she took it slowly and stared at Damien.
Damien was looking elsewhere, he didn't dare say a word. He didn't even say sorry.
Who cares? I mean I wouldn't like take him back as my lover or anything like that, besides I wouldn't even forgive him, and if I forgive him, I can never ever forget this moment.
I could still feel Richard's hand, I was glad he's by my side, I really need him at this moment, having my best friend at my side is what I need the most at this moment.
"My name is Kristen, I thought I am Damien's girlfriend till this moment, but I guess I was not the only one" I said to the girl.
Damien's girlfriend's mouth hung open and she stared at Damien.
"Damien, you told me that guy "The girl said and She pointed at Richard" was lying, what is going on?"
She was definitely French, I thought Damien has come to France because of me, I didn't know she has other purposes.
Damien was speechless, he was very pale, his girlfriend kept shouting and soon she begun hitting him.
I stared at Richard, he looked very sad, and he was sending thousands of apologies through his stares. I smiled at him.
"So you knew! I know you might have your own reasons for not telling me, and now I know his bruises were all your doing" I chuckled and kissed his cheeks.
Richard swallowed and smiled at me, as I was talking to Richard, I could feel Damien's girlfriend walking away, after of course having a huge argument with him.
"I love Kristen, I am sorry" That was all Damien said, he didn't stop the girl from walking away.
But he stood up and walked towards me, Richard's hold on me tightened. And I let him.
"Please forgive me, Kristen. Baby I am so sorry, she seduced me" Damien said.
Richard chuckled and shook his head "she seduced you for the second time" he murmured.
"I can't believe I trusted you this much, and I can't believe you have been my best friend all these years, why? Just tell me why? What have I done? Am I not worth loving?"
Richard murmured something I couldn't quite understand, but my hand was too busy. I was trying my best to be calm, so I ignored Richard's comment at the moment.
Damien tried to touch my cheeks, but I pulled away.
"And you were blaming me for kissing Richard" my voice was louder, I wanted to yell at Damien, but I didn't want to attract people's attention.
"Kristen, I ..." Damien was searching for an excuse, but it was obvious he couldn't find any.
"What?!... you're what Damien? Sorry? Oh no... you're NOT SORRY, you are just sorry you're caught cheating, you Cheater!"
Damien blinked at what I called him, I swallowed, I don't regret what I called him, he deserves the worst.
"I am sorry Kristen, but I love you.. please give me a second chance.... Please..." Damien whispered.
I laughed, Richard stared at me, he looked very worried, Damien looked very embarrassed for saying those words, I stared at Damien and stopped laughing, then I walked towards him and slapped him hard, now most people at the bar were staring at the scene I caused.
"You're an asshole, Damien" I whispered in his ear then I pulled away and stared straight at his eyes" You are a selfish fucking bastard, you're talking of love? You know nothing of love you jackass, now you lost all my trust, you're talking of second chances? There is no such thing as second chance in real love Damien, you had your chance, and you lost"
"This is not a misunderstanding Damien, this is mistake, YOUR mistake! You want a second chance Damien? Go.To.Hell" I gritted my teeth , I was that frustrated , I wanted to hit him hard, but the best thing to do at this moment was to get away from here, because my chest was hurting badly, I let go of Richard's hand and put it on my chest.
"I do not want to see you again, Damien. Good luck" I said and walked out of the bar, Richard followed me, I wanted to get away from there as fast as I can, the pain in my chest was getting worse.
The moment I reached Richard's car, I was feeling the worst pain I have ever felt. This pain in addition to the emotional pain, I was feeling was enough to drive anyone crazy.
" Hey, Kris, you okay?" Richard sat down beside me and he looked very worried. I tried to smiled at him, but I failed, the pain I was feeling was not normal, I have never felt this way, seriously what could be wrong with me? And I don't remember sitting on the floor beside Richard's car.
When have I sat down? I don't remember. I felt very dizzy, and I was about faint.
My eyes were heavy, and were about t close.
"Oh, no... Kris, wake up!" I could hear Richard calling my name, I tried to open my eyes but I was too tired and the pain in the left side of my chest was terrible.
I tried once again to open my eyes, when I did I saw Richard's nice eyes staring at me, he looked tired as well, and the dark circles around his eyes where now more visible than ever.
What have I done? I have hurt myself and my best friend. Now I know and I am sure how much Richard loves me.
I smiled and closed my eyes "Thank you" I whispered, I don't know if I have really told him that, or was it just my imagination? I don't remember anything else after that.
All I remember was I woke up, and I was in bed, in my own bed. I stared at my surroundings, the pain in my chest has disappeared.
The door suddenly opened, and Richard came in, he grabbed a chair and sat opposite of me.
"How are you feeling?" He asked, I stared at him and there it was, the look, which was full of love. It made my heart warm. And I was feeling less sad thanks to Richard. At least I know there are people like Natalie and Richard who really love me.
Natalie is my best friend she's more than a sister, as for Richard, well, I am very worried about him, and his feelings, I am afraid I am hurting him.
"Much better, thanks to you" I said and smiled at him, Richard ran his hand through his hair and sighed.
Why was it Damien? Why have I fallen for him? Why was it not you, Richard? Even though you're very annoying sometimes, but it would have been much better. I have hurt you twice, but this time you don't deserve this, you deserve more Richard.
"Well... I am glad, you're better" he said quietly and grabbed my hand, he held it in both his hands and looked up at me, he licked his bottom lip nervously and shook his head.
"I am very sorry" He mumbled" I hid it from you, because I was afraid it might hurt you, but I guess I was wrong, I should have told you"
"It's okay. Richard, I understand, We will never see him again, that's what matters"
"But, I am also sorry, I was the one who suggested that-"
"It's okay. Richard, really. I don't wanna talk about him anymore please."
"Okay" Richard sighed and swallowed" I won't talk about him anymore"
What should I do, now? I don't know how to act normal again with Richard, now that I know he loves me.
Most importantly, how do I feel? I don't know how I feel, all I know is that it's too soon to think of someone else, Richard is a good person,I don't wanna hurt him by false emotions and false promises.
I am sure Richard will tell me about his feelings at the right time, I just know it.
I know seeing me like this is not easy for him too, so I get up with his help and try to cheer him up.
" I am bored" I say and sigh, of course I am bored, and sad, but I said this in order to make Richard take me out, and it worked.
"You're bored? How about we go out?" He asked.
"Umm.. that sounds fun, I want to go to the amusement park" I mumble.
Richard smiles warmly, I am glad I see him smile again,his nice smile made me smile too. He nodded his head in agreement, and it was decided, we will go to the amusement park tonight.
As for Remi, well Richard said , he had a surprise for his crush, I didn't know he had a crush and I am glad he has finally decided to tell her about his feelings.
On our way to the amusement park, me and Richard talked about him, Richard said he has finally decided he wanted to tell his best friend, his crush,about his true feelings, that;s why he had wanted to meet up with Richard and talk about it.
"It must be hard" I said quietly, Richard stared at me , he was driving his dad's car, and we heading to the amusement park. Then he looked back at the road.
"I am sure it is " Richard said and sighed, the way he said those words, was enough to make me feel sad and guilty, but I shouldn't feel like this.
I am doing this, in order to make Richard happy,I reminded myself.
"How did he decide to tell her?" I asked Richard, Richard smiled and shook his head.
"It's a long story, umm .. I actually I told him the truth... I mean about.. our fake marriage" He said and stared at me for a while, then he looked at the road again.
"Oh, really? Well I am glad you did, he looks like a good guy" I said, totally amused by what Richard said.
"You're not mad, are you?" Richard asked, without staring at me, guess he was afraid of my reaction, how can I be mad at him? After all the things he had done for me?
"No. of course I am not, how can I be mad at you?" I said what was in my heart and even smiled, Richard looked at me and smiled too.
"I am glad, then." He said.
I remembered the pain in my chest, it felt horrible. I didn't that kind of pain really exists, I thought it was just an emotional pain, but I guess all those novellas and poets were telling the truth, when they said they had felt a pain in their chest, when they were hurt emotionally.
And right now, I feel a different kind of pain, in my chest, as I am speaking to Richard. I wonder how much he is hurting right now.
I want to tell him that I have felt his love, and I know how much he loves me, but I am afraid I embarrass him, or hurt him in return.
I will just pretend that it's nothing, I will pretend like I have not felt any of his love, towards me.
I have been right, his actions, his kisses, the way he acted all those days, they were all from his heart.
And I remember he told me he loved me, when he was drunk, could he really have been in love with me from that day on?
"I really want to know, what has happened to Remi and his crush" I said quietly and sighed.
"H e said, he'll call me later tonight, to let me know about what has happened, why are you so worried about him?" Richard said teasingly" do you like him?"
Huh? We're back to teasing, aren't we? I rolled my eyes, which made Richard laugh out loud.
I stared at him, but he just kept laughing, I don't know if he was faking it or he was really laughing, but his laughs made me laugh too.
So we laughed and teased each other till we got to the amusement park, even thought I haven't forgotten about today, but I was feeling way much better thanks to Richard,Richard was trying hard to make me laugh, and he succeeded.
Richard, I promise I won't hurt you again. Even if I can't fall for you, I will try and not fall for any other guys, because I won't hurt you. This is a promise. Even though I don't love you as a lover, but I love you as a friend, I won't ever leave you. And I will always be by your side.ns 22.214.171.124da2