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No Plagiarism!M7I7DRjtcXCAmHYLucSEposted on PENANA

Driving along a quiet country road I think to myself:copyright protection5PENANAJDzWHgatvM

This is a dream.copyright protection5PENANAGhTopwgI0t

Now, I know that this is actually reality; but the thought nagged at me nonetheless.copyright protection5PENANAFD32k2NPfG

I chuckle to myself.copyright protection5PENANAuYj4V0k6uQ

This is ridiculous.copyright protection5PENANASb8LAxhQfi

I returned my attention to the road, but my eyes wouldn't focus.copyright protection5PENANAjVVnYgqL5F

I was in a daze.copyright protection5PENANAsAELEzMZFg

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A new thought silently slipped into my mind.copyright protection5PENANATcGOAE51qa

Self destructive behavior.copyright protection5PENANAGSKlDpUpoA

I thought of doing something dangerous.copyright protection5PENANAGe88craH23

Stop in the middle of a busy intersectioncopyright protection5PENANAsVf8KQNPRd

Something to make myself feel something.copyright protection5PENANA0y6LTKbOaA

Let the oncoming traffic ram into me.copyright protection5PENANAoQOxZ1Y9I0

Something to wake me up.copyright protection5PENANAcaWsjHi6xa

I need to wake up.copyright protection5PENANAkyIrjBbuql

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~copyright protection5PENANA4OcTlcUklD

I chuckle at the thought of allowing my car to be t-boned in an intersection.copyright protection5PENANAlyNi16Zjdx

I know I won't ever actually do it.copyright protection5PENANAty5cZpOaUe

Yet, copyright protection5PENANAwZ3JSoVNJh

Thoughts like those follow me.copyright protection5PENANAq4PemRkmay

As I walk down the stairs.copyright protection5PENANATE6ZQ5oFgi

Trip, fall and break your neck.copyright protection5PENANATMhWvalrY4

As I cross the road,copyright protection5PENANAIo9yCvpXRA

Step out and let that car hit you.copyright protection5PENANAvLfCK6H9LX

Thoughts like these follow me.copyright protection5PENANArEKJAgUWHS

Tempting me with death.copyright protection5PENANA0qh9ZTFpRx

Yet I have more left to do.copyright protection5PENANAZnifZ3lHc6

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~copyright protection5PENANAFEKpnlGhhn

Again, I know that this is reality; but I have the underlying thought that this is actually a dream.copyright protection5PENANAaiOrsNl8dc

Again I chuckle to myself, at how silly the whole thing seemed to be.copyright protection5PENANAFdzYsz2Nge

Again I returned my focus to the quiet, desolate country road.copyright protection5PENANATVSElg01yi

Nuthouse.copyright protection5PENANApIAe931ubf

They’d send me to a nuthouse if I actually acted this way.copyright protection5PENANAHRshQUQSH7

If I actually partook in self-destructive behavior,copyright protection5PENANA7B30foggqO

If I was convinced that this was a dream,copyright protection5PENANAyQx94Hc5co

If I needed to wake up.copyright protection5PENANAlTgNb6H1Zp

I mentally shake my head of the thought, and smile at myself.copyright protection5PENANA960c6gBmx1

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~copyright protection5PENANAb5RJeVqr1D

I know this to be true.copyright protection5PENANAPmx6aIcSJb

If I were to actually believe my subconscious,copyright protection5PENANAhSii5ozGL6

If I were to actually believe that this reality is a dream,copyright protection5PENANAIXczGqv7Rx

If I were to actually act upon my self destructive impulses,copyright protection5PENANAKHUhN4Z0WJ

I would be submitted.copyright protection5PENANAbeCtxHS6oD

I would be dragged, copyright protection5PENANAd6BpGhQbpH

Kicking and screaming,copyright protection5PENANAJapDrcIrcF

To a mental institution.copyright protection5PENANAboTNSqvKxT

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~copyright protection5PENANAoL0ZbGh1SG

Because this is real.copyright protection5PENANAJCR8filYKx

This reality in which I live,copyright protection5PENANADWWwJPXfzv

This reality in which I struggle to achieve and maintain mental stability,copyright protection5PENANA9Yh9YsQftJ

This reality in which I depend on medications to keep me from slipping into the void,copyright protection5PENANAWclNlA6GyR

This reality is real.copyright protection5PENANAecNaIwZGMz

No matter how sad it is.copyright protection5PENANAcVyt5wVWLp

No matter how shitty it may feel.copyright protection5PENANAFHB0vXBBDa

No matter how overwhelming it becomes.copyright protection5PENANAsRmf25M2Mz

This reality,copyright protection5PENANABYv9rBFnxr

This reality is my life;copyright protection5PENANAMc9odElPgY

And I still have work to do dammit.copyright protection5PENANAZJQmZSrMUd

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