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Jan 13, 2018
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Driving along a quiet country road I think to myself:copyright protection17PENANA9MaaM5oUEI

This is a dream.copyright protection17PENANARrFPo4HmEe

Now, I know that this is actually reality; but the thought nagged at me nonetheless.copyright protection17PENANAfSJszbNQTF

I chuckle to myself.copyright protection17PENANAj2sudezB9d

This is ridiculous.copyright protection17PENANAk1FZQ44yqJ

I returned my attention to the road, but my eyes wouldn't focus.copyright protection17PENANANFBx8bIV2B

I was in a daze.copyright protection17PENANABmE4QRjpts

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A new thought silently slipped into my mind.copyright protection17PENANACHteeBqXxs

Self destructive behavior.copyright protection17PENANAz9OeeF5x5z

I thought of doing something dangerous.copyright protection17PENANA0Inu1bPp3J

Stop in the middle of a busy intersectioncopyright protection17PENANAcGqGVEilBQ

Something to make myself feel something.copyright protection17PENANAOb0CpeiuLn

Let the oncoming traffic ram into me.copyright protection17PENANA4L5rg7C5wG

Something to wake me up.copyright protection17PENANAOJneqiTJDu

I need to wake up.copyright protection17PENANAzsFz45NnAy

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I chuckle at the thought of allowing my car to be t-boned in an intersection.copyright protection17PENANApueMJF5CoI

I know I won't ever actually do it.copyright protection17PENANA7XaNxfSkCs

Yet, copyright protection17PENANATn6edcPaVv

Thoughts like those follow me.copyright protection17PENANAFk0U7JzcmY

As I walk down the stairs.copyright protection17PENANAVtV6hsl9NY

Trip, fall and break your neck.copyright protection17PENANABHlIVzVKKQ

As I cross the road,copyright protection17PENANAgpagkh0Utm

Step out and let that car hit you.copyright protection17PENANASpQOv7hRg4

Thoughts like these follow me.copyright protection17PENANAQSMcBILwsv

Tempting me with death.copyright protection17PENANAmIUwZfOZ9i

Yet I have more left to do.copyright protection17PENANAm2HcQdj74A

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Again, I know that this is reality; but I have the underlying thought that this is actually a dream.copyright protection17PENANAmXShuSxjRG

Again I chuckle to myself, at how silly the whole thing seemed to be.copyright protection17PENANABeJjqzwKHB

Again I returned my focus to the quiet, desolate country road.copyright protection17PENANAkUvOTCSAut

Nuthouse.copyright protection17PENANAKRrD9VvGen

They’d send me to a nuthouse if I actually acted this way.copyright protection17PENANAnQB691GGLn

If I actually partook in self-destructive behavior,copyright protection17PENANAh6hNUbpNLU

If I was convinced that this was a dream,copyright protection17PENANAhwLI9UDEAS

If I needed to wake up.copyright protection17PENANA2YID4SFKyr

I mentally shake my head of the thought, and smile at myself.copyright protection17PENANA8QxqEsB4gn

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I know this to be true.copyright protection17PENANALKdunhm22V

If I were to actually believe my subconscious,copyright protection17PENANAuaM2BqucuK

If I were to actually believe that this reality is a dream,copyright protection17PENANAAshtcxwQqe

If I were to actually act upon my self destructive impulses,copyright protection17PENANA5cYiGmA2pC

I would be submitted.copyright protection17PENANAYTNKVoaqAE

I would be dragged, copyright protection17PENANAab7sEj0baq

Kicking and screaming,copyright protection17PENANAqfCoyjK8la

To a mental institution.copyright protection17PENANAKj3x4YWeox

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Because this is real.copyright protection17PENANAtYL6njp8sK

This reality in which I live,copyright protection17PENANAic4lK8kGnJ

This reality in which I struggle to achieve and maintain mental stability,copyright protection17PENANAdhjViliDoR

This reality in which I depend on medications to keep me from slipping into the void,copyright protection17PENANA8RQUXedmmF

This reality is real.copyright protection17PENANA7FSc1DllkI

No matter how sad it is.copyright protection17PENANA5yZotiKMV8

No matter how shitty it may feel.copyright protection17PENANAE4ZvYWJcj5

No matter how overwhelming it becomes.copyright protection17PENANARrLKDMnZ8I

This reality,copyright protection17PENANAHdgHCKZmxV

This reality is my life;copyright protection17PENANAubZuGXrp9L

And I still have work to do dammit.copyright protection17PENANAv1chMQ3aPc

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