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No Plagiarism!rZdXD5s7x5daO1EPDrNZposted on PENANA

Driving along a quiet country road I think to myself:copyright protection41PENANA7VlqKiOb5o

This is a dream.copyright protection41PENANA0wndu1iW9P

Now, I know that this is actually reality; but the thought nagged at me nonetheless.copyright protection41PENANA2m0QoFG17t

I chuckle to myself.copyright protection41PENANA1epnFaGtlL

This is ridiculous.copyright protection41PENANASmifAMgSJp

I returned my attention to the road, but my eyes wouldn't focus.copyright protection41PENANAILMJCbpidw

I was in a daze.copyright protection41PENANAMfLcDqmjUI

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A new thought silently slipped into my mind.copyright protection41PENANAJgEw0hHpzU

Self destructive behavior.copyright protection41PENANAWmaHyN7V61

I thought of doing something dangerous.copyright protection41PENANADaOIwQmF9U

Stop in the middle of a busy intersectioncopyright protection41PENANAyTadpau7A4

Something to make myself feel something.copyright protection41PENANA2wqcdZZlV5

Let the oncoming traffic ram into me.copyright protection41PENANAnygbgM2Dsc

Something to wake me up.copyright protection41PENANAx15HevSICt

I need to wake up.copyright protection41PENANANEZdQddPy8

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I chuckle at the thought of allowing my car to be t-boned in an intersection.copyright protection41PENANAl8tqQHVJqy

I know I won't ever actually do it.copyright protection41PENANAcdccr3pFSX

Yet, copyright protection41PENANANOTv00tY94

Thoughts like those follow me.copyright protection41PENANAqvcTW3ASM1

As I walk down the stairs.copyright protection41PENANAqZfCbGFAly

Trip, fall and break your neck.copyright protection41PENANAy9nrEns7lC

As I cross the road,copyright protection41PENANAbM7oF4sfWe

Step out and let that car hit you.copyright protection41PENANAhmewZpdFZy

Thoughts like these follow me.copyright protection41PENANAeyIBZmZsul

Tempting me with death.copyright protection41PENANA4G7c4Mgx2c

Yet I have more left to do.copyright protection41PENANAMjz0Qzp3ep

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~copyright protection41PENANACtXk5XH4pb

Again, I know that this is reality; but I have the underlying thought that this is actually a dream.copyright protection41PENANAptSwGXiWuk

Again I chuckle to myself, at how silly the whole thing seemed to be.copyright protection41PENANA9gEIguiGxw

Again I returned my focus to the quiet, desolate country road.copyright protection41PENANA5a02u5Zc9p

Nuthouse.copyright protection41PENANAoySg4zdnvH

They’d send me to a nuthouse if I actually acted this way.copyright protection41PENANAIEXmneRFUp

If I actually partook in self-destructive behavior,copyright protection41PENANAcZzc23i2gr

If I was convinced that this was a dream,copyright protection41PENANArE0kU5T7so

If I needed to wake up.copyright protection41PENANAPb3Nxr2p7W

I mentally shake my head of the thought, and smile at myself.copyright protection41PENANAOjWnwYrP1H

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~copyright protection41PENANAgslhMgmGoP

I know this to be true.copyright protection41PENANA5d091yA3XH

If I were to actually believe my subconscious,copyright protection41PENANAZM1W9xVAmW

If I were to actually believe that this reality is a dream,copyright protection41PENANAhDoDVbThRi

If I were to actually act upon my self destructive impulses,copyright protection41PENANA7Xv86xHGAF

I would be submitted.copyright protection41PENANAoArpwAXrbk

I would be dragged, copyright protection41PENANAntYM6TX0bP

Kicking and screaming,copyright protection41PENANAiiNOrTl8AW

To a mental institution.copyright protection41PENANANYwfn3Qlv1

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~copyright protection41PENANAFTuDFBwDBI

Because this is real.copyright protection41PENANAtU0gIr94AJ

This reality in which I live,copyright protection41PENANA0oIxD5Bur6

This reality in which I struggle to achieve and maintain mental stability,copyright protection41PENANAv6ZZKFBhic

This reality in which I depend on medications to keep me from slipping into the void,copyright protection41PENANAZL6Z2PrbT1

This reality is real.copyright protection41PENANAVUqDs4J3ya

No matter how sad it is.copyright protection41PENANA93h931OEi7

No matter how shitty it may feel.copyright protection41PENANARhSYhUNI6H

No matter how overwhelming it becomes.copyright protection41PENANAK2BbF3fp7N

This reality,copyright protection41PENANAAgQRqUSezb

This reality is my life;copyright protection41PENANAlqseoK9bsg

And I still have work to do dammit.copyright protection41PENANATdiuoYyDnF

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