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-Looking For Juliet
Chapter. 1
Jun 11, 2018
27 Mins Read
No Plagiarism!GB92hGEZ1q6SgnTYRhe0posted on PENANA

Chapter. 1copyright protection8PENANAyB1pObYrjt

Spring Hills, 2016.copyright protection8PENANArZ4A2mgHli

I was alone, like always. I wake up every morning trying to figure out what I want to or what I would be. I’m 16 years old right now at Lincoln, Saint Anna’s Public School, Spring Hills. While girls around my age having fun with their own life, smoking, having sex for the first time or trying any drugs and me? I was sinking into deep depression and anxiety in my head after I lost my bestfriend by car accident last 3 months ago. Yes, I keep all my scars and pain in my mind and I won’t let anyone notice that I needed help. Trust me, nobody noticed that because I’m good pretending everything is okay. Until I say that’s enough to hiding. Enough to pretending everything looks fine but actually not.copyright protection8PENANA7sboQ4nImC

Mom has been mad at me because I almost burned our whole house last few weeks after I released from Mental Health Therapy Center, 3 hours from my hometown. I almost dropped out from school caused by my last cases in the club when a student reported me selling drugs with Evan. Well, now I’m coming back to school to fulfill my last probation the school gave to me just because I’m one of their multitalented students. That’s what mom said to me. Now let’s see how it all goes by today.copyright protection8PENANAIUdJk2Vjte

I’m going to school as usual with my backpack on my shoulder, blue jeans jacket and I tied up my red brown long hair because the wind will make it messy. I hate that. And two books in my hand. I’m like a nerd one. Okay. I didn’t drive though, since that day. Called me I got traumatic or I got PTSD, I don’t care. I’m just losing my interest to drive. Just please, stop asking me that question.copyright protection8PENANAMUeRvhdLYz

And people who recognized my face can’t stopped talking about me behind my back even right in front of my face like I was a criminal. I hate this day. I hate school and I hate everything new about my life after Hayley’s gone. I’m standing in front of my locker and almost punch it with my fist to release my anger but I didn’t do it.copyright protection8PENANA452fuSkSAG

“Hey Remy, how are you?,” asked Amber when she saw me put my books into my locker in the hallway and took another one.copyright protection8PENANAujBI2VKYfe

“Good, thanks.” I answered like usually. Everytime people asked me same question I will answer them with the same answer too. “Yourself?” I asked her back as a formality. Even though she’s arrogant but she’s nice, sometimes. A blondie girl with her sexy body and smile can kills half of boys at school. Except me. I’m not bisexual.copyright protection8PENANAc18rTEI7qG

“I’m good too. I’m just wondering about your last decision.” She said to me very carefully.copyright protection8PENANAHuMJKhC59d

“About what? Decision or probation?,” I asked with my sarcastic intonation to her. “Well, I’ve made many decisions in my life anyway including my probation.” I smiled awkwardly to her, trying not to look like an idiot one.copyright protection8PENANALEwnmzj6xy

Amber handed a paper to me. I take a look at it and I know what it is. “Now you know what I mean,” she added again.copyright protection8PENANAkKAtbu7UBx

“My resignation letter won’t bother anyone in the music club, Amber.” I’m making it clear right now. Why should I’ve met her in my first day at school? Duh.copyright protection8PENANAAj2n3MEFRO

“Yes it does. You’re one of the best pianist we have here. And you left without giving us a choice or another choices.”copyright protection8PENANASDsp1PYkWv

“Should I?”copyright protection8PENANATgftKrXSlz

“Yes, you should. We only had 2 weeks left until the charity shows and you left music club without giving us a chance to find another one. What a professional musician are you?” Amber is venting at my face right now. I bet she was holding her anger few months after I had left club and during my medication at mental health therapy.copyright protection8PENANAqWTtjWfYB7

“I’m not interested anymore.”copyright protection8PENANANuLgUM5S71

“Is that a sign of depression because you lost your bestfriend, Hayley at that night?”copyright protection8PENANAn0iDu34sVp

Dang? How did she know it? Does she really noticed it or just assuming to get my attention back?copyright protection8PENANA2mlVPFR5Dt

“Kind of.” I said with full of ignorant to her.copyright protection8PENANAcqYYHSLMKS

“Funny. You should keep fighting with your own life, Remy.”copyright protection8PENANAN8T6Lo9PQ5

“Let me ask you a question, Amber.”copyright protection8PENANAeSrANgfFlT

“Okay.”copyright protection8PENANA9yk7w10iOL

“Do you really care about me or you only care about yourself with asking this and give me encouragement like we were meant to be? I’m impressed, to be honest.”copyright protection8PENANAaCT4IEsRuj

Amber looked surprised and being silence for a minute. She doesn’t want to look into my eyes anymore. Not brave enough to do so. I know her answer without hearing her statement. And I don’t need to hear that though.copyright protection8PENANAWJbojZEzE0

“It’s okay,” I said then. “thank you, once again. And I’m not depression, not that much this time. I’m just losing my interest with anything about her in my life. I want to start over, get back my life, my new life without her.”copyright protection8PENANAsOyNV5OWnD

That’s my honest answer I’ve ever said to anyone. And I told Amber in front of crowded hallway of Saint Anna, I told her about something I’m thinking just a couple minutes before I choose to go. I wanted to start over and getting back my new life without Hayley in my life. My new life. And I saw her eyes changed with a deep sorrow.copyright protection8PENANAHyfADXf5PJ

“Remy, I’m so sorry for your loss.” Amber said to me for a hundred million times I guess. But this time I know she meant it.copyright protection8PENANAoLsA9LzOle

I nodded to her and giving a smile. “Thank you. I hope music club can find a new one to replace me.”copyright protection8PENANAOO2nBYsqUQ

“I hope so. Maybe you can help, if you want?”copyright protection8PENANA3Coic1fs75

“I’m gonna think about it.”copyright protection8PENANAbvQD60pFPK

“Thanks.” Amber smiled at me and she said goodbye when the bell is ringing.copyright protection8PENANAUDyX0aVtAQ

Ugh. The sound of that bell really hurting my ear. I don’t like it. But I’m packing my books again and get ready for the class. Smile, Remy, smile. I told myself. And suddenly a man bumping up into me and make my books falling on the floor. Damn it. I cursed. It’s not really a good day to start over, is it?copyright protection8PENANAjEsIWFJc7R

“Sorry,” he said to me with his soft and husky low tone voice.copyright protection8PENANAhjn8Wt9m9Y

“It’s okay,” I said while picking up my books and he is helping me to pick another one on the floor and give it to my hand.copyright protection8PENANA73CG0DQW6r

“Ernest Hemingway?,” he said. He is staring at me with his deep green eyes.copyright protection8PENANANq5f82VSe3

“Yes,” I replied him formaly.copyright protection8PENANAJwm6EjAOGJ

“Wow, I like Hemingway too,” he said again.copyright protection8PENANAMNMotN2kJ8

But I stood up and going to cut the conversation. I can’t be late again this time. I’m under my probation. Which means I’ll be under control of this school’s system. Means, sucks. “Who doesn’t?,” I replied him with my sarcastic intonation. Then I saw his face. He seems new here and too old for a high school newbie, just saying. “Are you an exchanged student here?,” I asked politely then.copyright protection8PENANALxzRNITIA8

“Umm no. Actually I’m looking for someone here,” he said.copyright protection8PENANAMkE9rjt179

“Owh. Okay. You can go to Customer Care over there,” I showed him the hallway but he is just looking at it and staring back at me.copyright protection8PENANALUXyjrllL5

“Can you help me? Or maybe you know her?”copyright protection8PENANAuxC3ppLi8m

“No. No. Sorry. I’ve got to go.” I said to him. I didn’t give him a smile or anything. I just walked away from him and come into my classroom. Well, Literature subject. I will fall asleep quickly then. copyright protection8PENANArUG548pxax

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I brought Hemingway’s book to Literature class but Mr. Harrison is talking about Shakespeare and all his stuffs all the times. I actually love Shakespeare but it’s not my thing today. Doesn’t mean I don’t like Shakespeare. I’m just feeling bored. Mr. Harrison likes to talk about him many times with repetition. I want to hear others stuff. I want to hear something more than just Romeo and Juliet or Hamlet instead.copyright protection8PENANAUApxEOXq75

“Any question?,” asked Mr. Harrison to us all while he is staring at us one by one in class. He also looking at me and surprised that I came back to school.copyright protection8PENANAMz0tE5B4CM

A guy is waving his hand up in the air. He is sitting at the same line with me, just being separated few chair only. But I’m not interested to look at him.copyright protection8PENANABjH2YaN4ZT

“Yes,” said Mr. Harrison again. He is pointing his finger to that guy. “Ummm.” He is looking at that guy with his red hair and thinking so hard to mention his name. But he can’t even remember him.copyright protection8PENANAWUtls7apyi

“Harford,” said that red hair guy. “Lucas Harford,” he added his last name with a smile.copyright protection8PENANAvkRwOwBqAe

“Yes, Harford. Ask away.”copyright protection8PENANAccyTfw42A4

“Can we discuss about something else? Sorry, not supposed to be inappropriate but--- I think we need something new here to kill the boredom instead. We had so many man of letter, why don’t we discuss others besides Shakespeare which we had known,” said that guy full of confident with his intonation.copyright protection8PENANAVxZpTrx3R5

Wow. That voice. I think I’ve heard that voice before. It makes me curious and I can’t stand myself for not looking at him. Just curious actually. And I’m so surprised that the guy--- Harford who is speaking to Mr. Harrison, actually the guy who bumped me in front of my locker this morning. And I realized all people in class also staring at him. I see some girls started to talk about him and mention his name, blushing. And I see some guys are looking at him with jealousy.copyright protection8PENANAmmqeTeKuEl

“Um, I’m sorry,” said Lucas Harford to Mr. Harrison when he knows he has just paid all attention in class and afraid it would offended Mr. Harrison’s feeling. He is looking down for a while then his eyes meeting with my eyes by accident. Knowing we are staring each other make me feel awkward. Even we only separated few chair. So I’m back to focusing to my note, trying to write something.copyright protection8PENANAJRyhKNNOPo

“It’s okay. That’s a good idea, Harford. Thank you,” said Mr. Harrison. “Well, I haven’t seen you before.”copyright protection8PENANATLVSaOjISa

“Oh. Actually it’s my first day here,” said Lucas. He smiled. I can see his dimple even from my place right here.copyright protection8PENANANfxdtqseV7

“Owh. Okay, Harford. Why don’t you stand up and introduce yourself to us?”copyright protection8PENANAzEY7VIUJxK

Lucas is standing up right now. His eyes looking straight at the whiteboard and he smiles to everyone like he really enjoy get lot of attention. And I feel like a black sheep right here while everyone enjoying himself and his good aura. I’m sinking into somewhere else, deeper and darker. Suddenly I feel sick and want to vomit.copyright protection8PENANA8qv3iGSCoL

“Hi everyone. My name is Lucas Harford. I came from New York City. Nice to meet you all,” he said. And I hear people are talking and talking something about him and it buzzing in my ear. It hurts like hell. I need to get out from here.copyright protection8PENANANc0kquLSIH

“Welcome, Harford,” said Mr. Harrison to him.copyright protection8PENANAZimYpiGk1e

“Thank you.”copyright protection8PENANA5aFBeYh6AG

While he is sitting on his chair I’m standing up and walking up to the door. I need some fresh air, really.copyright protection8PENANASnSTIinub5

“Well, Miss Sullivan seems in a hurry, Huh?,” asked Mr. Harrison, blocking my way with his statement. I stopped my feet and turning around to see him. And I see all people now are looking at me. Not good. I hate got lots of attention.copyright protection8PENANAbany8NQP8S

“I--- need to go to the restroom,” I explained.copyright protection8PENANA4d2JOgI6ni

“I haven’t done giving homework.” He seems using me as the reason to save his pride now.copyright protection8PENANAMfGF8oXvS8

“Well, just do it,” I said to him. Ready to go.copyright protection8PENANAB4jYCsMsiU

“Remy Sullivan,” he called me once again with emphasis intonation. “Sit.”copyright protection8PENANAkm8m6XDP40

I turned around to face him once again. “Mr. Harrison, seriously. I want to vomit right now.” Probably I sounded rude to him but that’s the honest answer I gave to him.copyright protection8PENANA7QfNwoctT4

“Let her go, Mr. Harrison. I’m afraid she’ll burn this classroom like she burned her own house last month,” said Stephanie, the Queen of Cheerleader at school. She likes to start the war and now she’s mocking at me with her bitchy eyes. I really want to slap her face, to be honest.copyright protection8PENANACv8WtKofdH

And I can hear they are all talking about me again, bring out all my last cases like my probation, my drugs dealer cases and Hayley. Before I feel disgraced, I choose to walk away and go to the restroom. I don’t care if Mr. Harrison will give me C even I’ve never failed in any subject at school before.copyright protection8PENANAax4jUbgy0k

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I hate getting lots of attention in anywhere I go. It would be easier for me if I’m invisible. Now, since I left Mr. Harrison’s class including the fact that I almost burned my whole house few month ago, I’m like a new celebrity at school. They can’t stop staring and talking behind my back. But the most important thing is they have never mentioned about Hayley anymore. Something that I like even it seems they forgot about her easily. But it makes me feel secured and saved when they stopped questioning or discussing about it. I called it my safe haven.copyright protection8PENANAcOBlK559li

During lunch break I stay away from canteen, bringing my lunch box to the backyard of school and enjoying my silence time there. It’s also my favorite place to hide and hang out. No one can disturb me to find my peace. Even some student used backyard to smoke pot or just make out with their partner. But I don’t care about them.copyright protection8PENANAQvQUOL55j6

Then I see him. Lucas Harford. That guy. I remember his name. He seems everywhere. Well, he is lying down on the grass, listening to the music while he is staring at the cloudy sky. I bet he doesn’t recognize me so I’m bothering myself with my cigarette.copyright protection8PENANApReBF9iShu

I never told Mom that I was smoking. It’s just happens when I really stressful and now I’m enjoying it, blowing the smoke in the air with every breath I take. Thinking about how was great my life before this. I could imagine lots of happiness in my mind. College, moving to my new house with Hayley, dating someone, marriage, kids, future. It’s so beautiful. But suddenly I feel something tickling my throat, make me choking again and again. I can’t stop it. And I can’t breathe. I reached my backpack to get my water bottle but I don’t have enough water. I really can’t breathe. God, it’s so hurt. At that moment I remember Hayley and everything we went through together since Pre School. She had been the closest friends I had. It’s all coming back into my brain like a movie. It keeps playing in my head then I can’t feel anything anymore.copyright protection8PENANAYuiAP3FUc0

Hayley’s smile. The way she was lauging at everything between us. Her sweet face. Her jokes. Her songs. Her guitar. Her photograph. Her ex boyfriend. Her stories. Her melody. Her tears at night. Her blood. Her cold body. Her eyes closed forever.copyright protection8PENANAd2w4XlP3q8

God, Am I going to die? Is it my time to die? Like this? Here? Somebody help, please!copyright protection8PENANA9Q0nrGxKyP

Then I feel someone holding my shoulder tightly from behind. I hear a new voice in my head.copyright protection8PENANAexjx78AN3N

“Hey, you allright?,” asked Lucas, that new voice filled my air. He is sitting beside me, helping me to sit properly. I can’t say anything and he gives me his water bottle. And I drink it quickly. “Slowly,” he said again while stroking my back softly. “You okay?,” He asked again to make sure that I’m okay.copyright protection8PENANAOhQklNGaR7

I nodded. “I’m fine. Thanks,” I said to him and pushing him away from me when he is trying to help me up.copyright protection8PENANAj0XjopZV9x

“You seem unwell. I can give you ride to home or hospital.”copyright protection8PENANAKo53Wdcx0f

“No, thanks.” I’m trying to stand up but suddenly I’m vomit on the grass. Really, so embarrassing. And I’m so ashamed because it’s so disgusting.copyright protection8PENANAkPwa9RYQ2P

“Hey,” said Lucas again. He is holding my arms. His face is pretty close to me. He looks worried about me.copyright protection8PENANAXlPVEekD9u

“I’m--- fine---,” And then I passed out.copyright protection8PENANAbUTgYPuanu

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I can’t remember anything after I woke up and I see Hanna is standing beside me, checking my pulse. Then I know where I am. At clinic school.copyright protection8PENANAFhcucRIxvS

“You passed out, Darling,” said Hanna to me. She smells like medicine and chemical things.copyright protection8PENANA1HMVYLLsV8

“Yeah.” I’m trying to stand up but I feel weaker than before. So I just sit there, watching her doing something with pills and medicine on her desk.copyright protection8PENANAXlPhiHL7x5

“You didn’t drink your pills, did you?,” she asked me.copyright protection8PENANAZcnbHz3q7z

I surprised she knew. “Why? I stopped drinking my sleeping pills and my anti depression pills.”copyright protection8PENANAj9g64eRPHN

“Not that pills, Honey. Your medicine.” She is staring at me for a while.copyright protection8PENANAXE8NWrvHz2

“I don’t know. Why? What happened?,” I asked. Pretending don’t know anything.copyright protection8PENANAMyf9KWJOnQ

“Remy, you know why. You’re smart enough to understand your current condition.”copyright protection8PENANAnG0DM4SDUA

“Yeah, okay. Sorry.”copyright protection8PENANArSfAFb1bSB

“It’s not bad just--- keep drink your pills, okay? Until your body recovered well.”copyright protection8PENANAdE9tOUpxIN

I nodded. “Okay.”copyright protection8PENANAo5toJgsCUn

“Well, have you heard about Kim?”copyright protection8PENANAclfrVVCX6u

I feel stoned while hearing that name. “Kim?”copyright protection8PENANAyk9INXCduk

“Don’t tell me you got amnesia and forgot about her. She was another survivors at that night, your friends though.”copyright protection8PENANA0Tquh9KKLF

“I know. I--- actually haven’t seen her in a while. How is she? Is she okay?”copyright protection8PENANA7Y0npWi2Tp

“She’s your friends. You didn’t contact her after that night?”copyright protection8PENANAxsKGaxENL9

“Well, I was a dying zombie that night, Hanna. I couldn’t picked up my own cellphone to call people.”copyright protection8PENANA7L2ygjH14t

“Yeah, I know. She’s fine just--- shocked.”copyright protection8PENANAGcrHzRDSUx

“Shocked?”copyright protection8PENANAirZ28aAMXl

“Yeah.”copyright protection8PENANAV57XDohlpl

From Hanna intonation I know she is reffering shocked into something misareble and traumatic.copyright protection8PENANAO6ygN88r02

“I thought you were both friends?,” she added.copyright protection8PENANAYjuYmC8Wo5

“We were,” I said.copyright protection8PENANAijaqgNOy9d

She looked at my confused expression like she never see the real me. “Remy, you okay?”copyright protection8PENANAUXjse7AnyB

“Yeah.” I shruged my shoulder. “I should have visited her.”copyright protection8PENANApwUUvgwDdU

“Yeah.”copyright protection8PENANAIveTVvHK3Q

Or she probably hate me right now. That was my fault, that night when I invited her to join our party. If Hayley died, Kim too, I guess.copyright protection8PENANAYXNhq2p0pX

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Hanna was right. I should have visited Kim when I got out from hospital or at least call her, asking her conditions or just a simple chat. But I didn’t do it. I was thinking about myself only and I forgot there was someone else left that got hurt too, an innocent girl who supposed to spent her night at home with her homework and paperwork but chose to hang out with us because I invited her. Then that accident happened, killed Hayley. And it supposed to killed me too but it didn’t happen. I was alive and Kim also. But our live would be different then. Including our friendship.copyright protection8PENANAblwpesVVdY

I left clinic after drinking a pill from Hanna. I probably have skipped two subjects but it’s okay, I could handle it then. Now I’m walking at the school hallway to my locker. I don’t know why but my view suddenly forced me to looking at a corner where Hayley’s memorial was still there. I turned around my way and come across to see it. I see her picture. The most beautiful picture Hayley’s mom chose to put it here. She smiled perfectly awesome. I realized I haven’t seen her picture in a while since I left hospital and medical center therapist. I was too afraid to see her, to face the truth that she’s gone, forever. And I have nothing left, just a piece of me. It’s sadden me, really. I almost cry when suddenly I see Lucas is standing beside me, staring at Hayley’s photograph.copyright protection8PENANAMbWztnCSn2

“Hayley Anderson,” said Lucas. His eyes is looking at Hayley’s in memorial stuffs and looking at me also.copyright protection8PENANAP0RkxBjkSW

“16 years old. A cheerleader. The most beautiful girl I’ve had ever known in my 16 years old life with her.” I told him. And I don’t know why I want to speak with him.copyright protection8PENANAl3hStwlosy

“She’s your bestfriend?,” asked Lucas to me.copyright protection8PENANAneJkOcHq55

“Yup. Part of my life,” I sai, trying so hard not to cry in front of him.copyright protection8PENANAtU5lfCXyXP

“I’m sorry.”copyright protection8PENANAvjTNbnjwMM

“--- I supposed to die at that night, not her. She deserved better than all of this. I---,” I can’t continue my words. My words stuck in my throat and I feel like my tears is falling into my cheeks. I can’t hold it back anymore even if I want to.copyright protection8PENANA590OuP1cg6

Lucas put his arms around my shoulder then he pulling me closer to him. He hugs me. And I start to cry louder and louder. I don’t care what people say or what people are talking about me or us. I just can’t stand for myself today. I think I can pass this day like I did the other days but I’m so weak right now. All my emotions running through my head. I want to expload, really. And I feel that Lucas hugging me tightly as like he understands what I feel even what I’m thinking right now.copyright protection8PENANAhJ1n4gZ1PX

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We left school together. Lucas giving me a ride with his black jeep to somewhere, for me to take a fresh air after I vented out my griefing in front of him and everyone. He dropped his car near Willow’s Waterfalls and it makes me shocked.copyright protection8PENANAf43fSy5UKl

“You won’t tell me to jump off from the waterfall, will you?,” I asked, curious and seriously my face full of question marks.copyright protection8PENANA1142o9joa9

Lucas is showing his smile to me while he is getting out from his car. I don’t know since when, his smile started to facinated me slowly. “Nah,” he said and pushed the door closed. But I pulled off the window so I can still see him. “Instead we’re going hiking.”copyright protection8PENANAl1uBMD3U52

“What?” I made an O face to him and getting out from his car, ready to protest and complaining.copyright protection8PENANAOk6RAZqFUa

“Ugh Oh, no compromise.” He said while pointing his one finger to me.copyright protection8PENANA0Vc5YAehZp

“I thought you would take me somewhere, something romantic, erotic or something. But hiking? You gotta be kidding me, right?”copyright protection8PENANArlrVXdy18E

He smiled again. “I think you feel better right now.”copyright protection8PENANA3WZaNA9df3

“I am.”copyright protection8PENANAogYAlWbAea

“See? The power of Willows and my comfort Ruby’s seat.”copyright protection8PENANAZFwrBtEauM

“What? Who’s Ruby?”copyright protection8PENANAOyIOIwoRKD

“My car.”copyright protection8PENANAV9UTJgQUQ5

“Okay.”copyright protection8PENANA5QLChm5WwA

“Ready?”copyright protection8PENANAJl9s9RZxJK

“Ugh Oh, don’t show me that smile again.” I said and following his gesture, I’m pointing my fingers into him too, making him laugh to dead. Am I look so funny?copyright protection8PENANAbET6yCmpxd

He is laughing. “You’re cute.” He said to me. Am I? Looked cute?copyright protection8PENANAuD4gflCli9

“---Are you teasing me?”copyright protection8PENANAV1u4tEWscF

“Nah. That’s a compliment.”copyright protection8PENANAcok5vTIRif

“Are you flirting with me?”copyright protection8PENANA5NT938vGtN

He laugh again. “I don’t even know how to flirt.”copyright protection8PENANAPpOkuiZqLb

Now I’m laughing with my unbelieveable expression. “Liar.”copyright protection8PENANA6YAr45kMXC

“Truth.”copyright protection8PENANA22qVct3Iax

“That’s cute.”copyright protection8PENANAvZWkkqDjQo

“Thanks.” He’s smiling again. “Come on.” He is waving to me and asking me to walk with him. And I’m following his steps. We are walking together and thank God Hanna gave me pill so I can do hiking safetly without afraid I could collapse again. The path getting narrow and sometimes it’s wider and slippery. Plus I didn’t wear hiking shoes anyway. Then he lends his hands to me. “Take my hand,” he said, trying to help me walking up.copyright protection8PENANAvXm5oqaId8

I take his bearish hands. It’s not soft like girls’ hands by the way. He seems likes to do something that effected his bearish palm. I made assumption again about this guy who took my hands along way to reach Willows waterfalls. And I feel like an electric shocked getting into my body. I feel so comfortable and safe. Then I hear that sounds. The waterfalls, the streams and people were talking and hiking downstairs to reach the botttom of the waterfalls.copyright protection8PENANAlfaLbnfe5q

“Here we are,” said Lucas and he released my hand. His eyes staring at every places it could have reached. Trying to enjoy every wind that blew between us and every scenery over there.copyright protection8PENANAMAqIVK8y4Z

“Wow.” I feel peace for a while and looked mesmerized. It’s making him surprised though.copyright protection8PENANAXAWjFkKQ3X

“Have you ever come here before?,” he asked me with his shocking expression.copyright protection8PENANAYod9aowqDC

“Nope.” I said and it was true. Me and Hayley have never been into this nature things before. We hung out at bar or entertaining places at Spring Hills or over the town. We loved party, smoking cigarette, pot or anything like that stuffs I’m sure he will not want to know more.copyright protection8PENANARpdh782gH6

He laughed again, like he can’t believe it was the honest answer I gave to him. “You’ve been living here longer than me I guess.”copyright protection8PENANAfEGbYmwJdz

“Yes, but I haven’t gone into something like this before,” I told him the truth.copyright protection8PENANAHcYUl9jSAX

He is staring at me. “Oh, you missed a lot of fun things here, Girl.”copyright protection8PENANAurnHJuQLLx

“Yeah, I know. It’s just not into me. Things like--- this.” I told him with my clumsy voice.copyright protection8PENANAS0czcaVIT9

“So, what was that? Something into you, what was that? I wanna know.”copyright protection8PENANAhAlgvGpOz0

I’m quietly for a minute then staring at him like I doubt myself that he really wants to know it, or even to hear it. “You will never want to hear it.” I said to him with my flat colded intonation.copyright protection8PENANAM3s9LbEBWp

“Try me,” he asked.copyright protection8PENANA9PploBvkkp

“Well, the point is--- I’m not a good person you think you can make friend for.”copyright protection8PENANAtB0OSvvik4

He looks surprised with my words but then again he just smiled. “I believe everyone is good with the way they do.”copyright protection8PENANAi78KgUVUvS

“Nice mindset, Luc.”copyright protection8PENANAjEHJZ6lvqF

“Well, It doesn’t matter anyway. Now you’re here.”copyright protection8PENANAVUhVJarfsM

I look at him for a while then back to focus with the waterfall over there. “Thank you,” I said to him.copyright protection8PENANAkKTsvanr4S

“For what?”copyright protection8PENANAkox28x8t2z

“For taking me to this place.”copyright protection8PENANA9YurTdBls4

“You’re welcome.”copyright protection8PENANA8MP2fkcCMg

“How did you find this place by the way? And you were new here, though.”copyright protection8PENANAv6E28NAhhD

“Hunting.”copyright protection8PENANARrBlSvzuQ2

“Hunting?”copyright protection8PENANAyZOo14IdHv

“Yeah. Actually I wasn’t really new here.”copyright protection8PENANAtcB8fKWP2d

“Meaning?”copyright protection8PENANAsUE3fxzP1p

“Been here twice or even more. Never counted it.”copyright protection8PENANARApFYqKHDr

“Here? Means this Willows Waterfalls or Spring Hills?,” I asked, curious.copyright protection8PENANAd7DPgSzcIC

“Both.”copyright protection8PENANAqaw4eMBNBD

“Oh. Visited family?” I asked again. I don’t know why I asked him again. Maybe just to make the conversation still going on and on.copyright protection8PENANAdseC8d3SVH

“Nope.” He smiled again. “Visited her and her family,” he added and I’m rolling my eyes to him. “My girlfriend,” he said clearly to me.copyright protection8PENANAj8PXX5Qxiy

“Oh.” I nodded.copyright protection8PENANA9IJGNYspM4

“Have lot of things to fix,” he said.copyright protection8PENANA2ZwhCEuGxp

“Okay.”copyright protection8PENANAnRxcOuiF2B

“She is at Lincoln. Her name is Tessa, just in case you’ve met her before.”copyright protection8PENANAdbjXS7WkwI

“Nope. I haven’t met her before.” I said. I imagine Tessa was a beautiful girl with a long blonde hair, girly and smart. Also the luckiest girl in the world because she could made a man moved the mountain like Lucas did. He moved to Spring Hills for her. She might be the most awesome girl I’ve never met in person.copyright protection8PENANApzIVQkAl18

“Her family had a swing at their yard.”copyright protection8PENANAKpZiBONUtP

“Nice.”copyright protection8PENANAvH1PETXBet

“She was just mad at me and moved back here. I need to talk to her and make everything’s clear. I love her so much.”copyright protection8PENANAjD31zTm9fn

“That was why you were at Lincoln today, Huh?”copyright protection8PENANAh0Mhio56iy

“Yes. I want to see her.”copyright protection8PENANAVOfXEUQBv4

“At Lincoln?”copyright protection8PENANA5OI8Qh2cqh

“She applied at Lincoln, I heard.”copyright protection8PENANAAIhmZAL4G4

“Oh. But you’re too old for a high schooler guy, Luc,” I told him, trying to make a joke between us. Then he smiled. I looked into his green eyes, it was empty. He lost somewhere.copyright protection8PENANADCSSAxNq9i

“You’ve never met her before?,” asked Lucas to me.copyright protection8PENANAve7dmXvpaW

I shake my head. “No. It’s my first day back to school after that accident.”copyright protection8PENANAGKEY6EzRJg

“Oh I’m sorry.”copyright protection8PENANAVmTOftl2Tu

“No problem.”copyright protection8PENANAlpJsD6q8vA

“Or--- maybe you can help me to find her at Lincoln? Please?”copyright protection8PENANA4clJbrnKj6

“Well, Lincoln has so many local and exchanged student. I’ve never had a good social life with those people. Also I’m not interested so you can find someone else to get help,” I replied him.copyright protection8PENANA0ftU4JnqLh

“That’s sad. Because I feel like we’re gonna be a good friend. You are awesome. And you’re the one that I have this time.”copyright protection8PENANAV7GEAkK0sg

“I’m impressed but I’m sorry, I can’t. I think you should go and ask Amber. She’s a famous girl at Lincoln. I’m sure she could help you to find her.”copyright protection8PENANABwtWfEoDoI

“Amber?” Lucas repeated that name again, trying to remember it.copyright protection8PENANAKpXej1XHrI

“Yes. Mention her name and you’ll find her easly.”copyright protection8PENANAYmPF1pZMqr

Lucas nodded. “Okay.”copyright protection8PENANA22YvZe9nRy

“It was a long road from New York to Spring Hills, just saying. So, Goodluck.”copyright protection8PENANA5CY3Qi5NZx

“Thank you.” He smiled to me again but this time it gave me a different feeling, not the same as the first time I saw it anymore.copyright protection8PENANAvXTlCVLCHc

My phone is beeping. I saw a text from Tyler, my ex boyfriend. “Enjoy your trip then,” I said to him then I’m turning around to go back to the car. I need to go somewhere.copyright protection8PENANA3Je1fdgpB7

“You don’t want to go downstairs and playing with the waterfall?,” he asked me while following my steps.copyright protection8PENANAYHJWLzeQme

“I’m done with this waterfalls trip. I wanna go home.” And I feel like he is realizing something went wrong with me. But I don’t tell anything. I just wanna go home as soon as possible.copyright protection8PENANAnSchePcZrT

“Okay,” he replied.copyright protection8PENANAcuDrwTEMig

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Now I’m at home. Alone. Lucas dropped me a while ago then he left to see Amber, or maybe looking for his Juliet, Tessa. And I’m home alone right now. I don’t know where Mom is. She just left a message on the fridge said that she was outside for an appointment with her friends. And I see she prepared lunch set menu in the dining room. But I don’t have any appetite to eat. I’m picking up the phone to call Kim many times but I’m too afraid to hear her voice. But I realized I have to do it as part of responsibility. So I pick up the phone again, pressing Kim’s number and waiting for the answer.copyright protection8PENANAGWtSdHHqH8

“Hello?” Kim’s mom, Mrs. Steinfield picked up the phone.copyright protection8PENANAkUDYlaR0X9

“Can I talk to Kim?,” I said politely.copyright protection8PENANAgRqewDXK4x

“Who’s speaking?”copyright protection8PENANAkKtODHwk8e

“---, her friends.”copyright protection8PENANAss86qtghtd

“Name, please?”copyright protection8PENANArJ5RYBuWlz

I exhaled. “Remy.”copyright protection8PENANAtGkXvXF1iN

“She can’t answer the phone right now.”copyright protection8PENANAfLfnRGR8Yk

“Is she okay?”copyright protection8PENANAlp4rh33MZo

“How she could be okay after you ruined her life? Stop hanging around her circumstances. Have a friend like you just brought her into negative vibes.”copyright protection8PENANAms5GqAE5BW

“Can I talk to her for a minute?”copyright protection8PENANASRH8fzO6HN

“She’s not here right now. She was joining St. John’s community.”copyright protection8PENANAr3dwuuzxhy

“St. John?”copyright protection8PENANAWD12krCZwe

“Yes. Church community. Remy, listen. Kim is different. She’s not like you, a girl who loves party, using drugs and making out with other guys anytime you wanted. Kim is my daughter. She’s a nice girl and I won’t let anyone ruin her life anymore. Not for the second time. So you better fix your own life before it’s too late. You should thanks to God because He gave you a second chance to do it, except Hayley. Poor girl, she was a beautiful girl though.”copyright protection8PENANAWp6ExldmsV

“You say something bad about Hayley again I swear to your God I’ll come and burn yourself alive. Don’t feel so high-minded so you can judged others with the way you think it was the truth, you bitch. I didn’t have any intention to ruined your daughter’s life. I was just invited her then she said yes. That was her choice, not my business, sadly. I call just to make sure she didn’t die at that night. She didn’t. She supposed to die not my bestfriend, Hayley. Thanks for the talk, Mrs. Steinfield.”copyright protection8PENANA9TYmqsRZ08

I put the phone back and I’m really mad right now. I go to my room and shutting the door closed. Suddenly I’m feeling so sad, clumsy and nervous. I checked my cellphone just trying to get distraction then I see Tyler’s message again.copyright protection8PENANAyXMzZ71C6y

I miss you.copyright protection8PENANAQ3XWHuiVQK

He texted me many times but I haven’t activated my cellphone since I got out from the Medical Therapy Center. Except today I called it my new day to start over everything. And I choose to call him just because I don’t wanna feel alone right now.copyright protection8PENANAQZEOm5hd4i

“Hei,” he answered. “What’s up? I was worrying about you.” He sounds meant it.copyright protection8PENANAmCf8cfgeRm

“Where are you now?,” I asked straightly.copyright protection8PENANAMIqJF7eX25

“Home.”copyright protection8PENANAIT4nHqsZEx

“Alone?”copyright protection8PENANAh0ax9mNpBE

“Yeah. Kids still at school. Wanna come?”copyright protection8PENANAMnnc72km0n

“On my way.”copyright protection8PENANArIgw6YXzXB

I grabbed my jacket, my cellphone and my pursue then I’m running into the bus stop. Couple minutes I’m arrived at Tyler’s house. I open the door then jumping into his lap and kissing him intensely.copyright protection8PENANA6fCgNLDAbe

“Hey,” he said to me then smile.copyright protection8PENANAfXCCaKEu6F

I don’t say anything and keep kissing his lips. Feeling his skins on my body, feeling his hands touching all over my body and undressed me wildly. I like the way he makes me move from hell to heaven. We’re making out and having sex on the sofa for about an hour or more. I don’t know. I just wanna go wild and release all my emotions and he knows what I want and what I really need for sure. At least just for today, this time, right before his kids coming back home with his grandmother. I wanna be with him for a while. Hugging him and feeling his warm in me.copyright protection8PENANASxn83u6034

“How’s your life so far?,” he asked me while we are cuddling on sofa.copyright protection8PENANAC9jeq603Gb

“Sucks,” I replied him as usual.copyright protection8PENANAiV9UyjEdOL

“Oh, at least I make your day feels better right now,” he said, teasing me with the way he choose his words to say.copyright protection8PENANASGigPmKVnO

“Yeah. Thanks for that.”copyright protection8PENANA0ZYjeoqes7

“I’m so sorry about Hayley. My condolence.”copyright protection8PENANAqK3zFBTkOI

“Yeah.” I nodded and he kissed my forehead.copyright protection8PENANA5HpnXeKIa7

“Do you still have it in your pocket?,” I asked Tyler about a thing that I was looking for.copyright protection8PENANAwa7uulTVAl

Tyler giving me a deeper look and then he smiled, like he understands me so well. “Yes,” he said to me.copyright protection8PENANA2065ALHu5w

I’m crawling on top of him and whisper to his ears. “Let’s go wild.”copyright protection8PENANAdadCybQiT1

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