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我……想死。copyright protection5PENANACefx0huI9I

喔等等等,不知道我用這麼一個……以正常社會眼光來說有點聳動的標題,是不是會讓你有著「這個人發生了什麼?」、「要不要關心他一下?」、「來看個熱鬧吧!  」等等的想法?copyright protection5PENANAF40BRT9wem9Please respect copyright.PENANAlfJhhFraw5

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為此我得解釋一下……嗯,我真的想死,死透的死。copyright protection5PENANAYjmeRmvl4F9Please respect copyright.PENANAR7nAoFgQPN

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等等等,放下你手邊任何,不管是電話還是什麼可以通知那些好比生命專線的東西,如果你真的做了我在想你可能做的那件事,也許我會真的去死。copyright protection5PENANARYnlT6zFtg9Please respect copyright.PENANACOlZpKEGBu

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這樣的話結果就不同……不,從最根本的本質來說就不再美好。會變成我不是自殺,是他殺,是做出這件事的某人,可能是你是他是她,這樣的話對任何人的心理都不好。copyright protection5PENANASQlDVHeUcn9Please respect copyright.PENANAsgfOgEzVla

9Please respect copyright.PENANApPH3onDgLw
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所以別做傻事,OKcopyright protection5PENANAeIyOSffor19Please respect copyright.PENANAi5jxTzctuy

9Please respect copyright.PENANADUnlXLJB2v
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好,好,冷靜一點了吧,那現在開始我想問一些問題,希望你可以幫我想想。copyright protection5PENANAzPhVkGbWE69Please respect copyright.PENANAC4PVBJvOc0

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寶貝,為什麼"死亡"這麼另人感到恐懼呢?copyright protection5PENANAZ5BSqyGtLo9Please respect copyright.PENANAdSF2OgMk5Y

這樣問好了,對於死,你怕的是什麼?copyright protection5PENANAHldZgyFsuk9Please respect copyright.PENANAkrOfb08HWC

9Please respect copyright.PENANAfnfKiBq75G
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是怕死的時候會痛?是害怕失去現在擁有的?還是怕……我想不到了,到底怕什麼?copyright protection5PENANAcTfNLGlr979Please respect copyright.PENANA63bVjnVr4S

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我得說,我怕痛,而且是非常怕,不得不說這是我在我的自殺小計劃本本中最大的"不該死"理由。這也許是全世界唯一個可以讓怕痛成為優點、讓"該死"可以成為正面詞語的事情。copyright protection5PENANAPJD36K0aFU9Please respect copyright.PENANAaUWlPfILHN

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好,這一點我同意了。copyright protection5PENANA8RiAV8jyDu9Please respect copyright.PENANAGPKCbzSTlz

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那失去呢?說實話我曾經拿起我的筆,在書桌前非常認真的在想我擁有什麼。那是在七歲的時候吧,剛被媽媽罵完很生氣的坐在那想。copyright protection5PENANAsRAgrfQJfR9Please respect copyright.PENANALFBwhM5aGq

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最後我寫下了火焰獸,我最愛的玩具。copyright protection5PENANAMTJ1chmfPS9Please respect copyright.PENANACcadIsZODF

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但現在想想,我如果不是坐在這兒想些五四三,我好像快十年沒把它拿起來玩了。就好像我在十八歲時為了和女友分手哭的死去活來,現在還不他媽活的好好的,只有偶爾會想起那段回憶揪心。copyright protection5PENANAf5sZyqE9IS9Please respect copyright.PENANABBQMOzfNnS

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所以人果然是……用我來概括全人類可能太自視甚高。所以我,我果然是善變的,對於人事物,那我死後就不善變嗎?copyright protection5PENANAMcvwL3HzrC9Please respect copyright.PENANAuzPllEUAsi

不知道,畢竟我沒死過,但我覺得沒意外的話我死後個十來年,沒人會記得我,我也不會想任何人。copyright protection5PENANAEHI6Ghxlqg9Please respect copyright.PENANAtVWJretbsh

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失去不成立。所以……好像我們只是在怕一個"未知"copyright protection5PENANAC0m8w7beHD9Please respect copyright.PENANALqBH93VDeo

不知道我往這邊走會到哪邊、做這件事會怎麼樣,就好像突然叫我去日本,我會不知所措因為不會日文,但真的要我活下去好像又不是件難事。copyright protection5PENANARlkzs0QZmh9Please respect copyright.PENANAVxz89PZDjH

小時候也會對很多地方充滿恐懼,長大的現在只會覺得,小朋友真奇怪。copyright protection5PENANAgz72y6mvtz9Please respect copyright.PENANA52U6BssOVp

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或許死了就會想,人呀,真的很奇怪。copyright protection5PENANA3cbnMEoDDK9Please respect copyright.PENANAoMtjS4LlSH

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不過拿這例子來想就有點頭緒了,因為人的想像力實在強大,明明就不會怎麼樣,但就是覺得會怎麼樣,搞到最後都不知道是怎麼樣了……,事後覺得,嗯,真不怎樣。copyright protection5PENANAS5Is6XygnT9Please respect copyright.PENANADwr7PjbBF4

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所以講了這麼多,可不可以對我抱持"想死"這件事稍微覺得不是那麼怎樣了呢?copyright protection5PENANAXquhtrbCKA9Please respect copyright.PENANAVlAmtqGE1l

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如果是,我還有問題想問。copyright protection5PENANAx9JDrxvoJ19Please respect copyright.PENANADs1ePuEv9G

9Please respect copyright.PENANAQS0B32m6xG
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什麼樣的人會想死呢?copyright protection5PENANAKNhpMncH1f9Please respect copyright.PENANAJyRKNGfrbp

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悲傷的時候?生氣的時候?還是絕望的時候?copyright protection5PENANAKdGcGE8AOG9Please respect copyright.PENANASdiJY5qdxB

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都會吧我想,但我覺得嘛……應該是任何時候吧。copyright protection5PENANApXuOHGEXpT9Please respect copyright.PENANAUNddxcjXqQ

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就像我現在,我很開心,因為我參與了一場很棒的秀,那個感動,哇,難以用言語形容。copyright protection5PENANAaDFEaDU5OR9Please respect copyright.PENANAD8URls3Fqt

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所以我想死呀,因為如果現在掛了,我就是為人生的最後,畫上了完美的句點。雖然過程可能不盡人意……copyright protection5PENANAzrLG57soBQ9Please respect copyright.PENANAP7tKZPc2vC

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「剛吃飽覺得滿足了,所以覺得就算現在來一顆隕石我把砸爆,食物還沒消化就從我受到擠壓的肚子中傾瀉而出,美呀!」的情景也是有過的。copyright protection5PENANAbKP0gRxsy19Please respect copyright.PENANAtanXUmN7pi

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很多人會問,為什麼要去死?對此我想反過來問,為何不去死?copyright protection5PENANA7sjBCIfp1Z9Please respect copyright.PENANAQaee89BVg0

有什麼理由讓人苟延殘喘下去呢?copyright protection5PENANA1dKRd0ILsh9Please respect copyright.PENANAe1WxnWVzwJ

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有,而且很重要,可能很重要吧。copyright protection5PENANARCebeRTtgV9Please respect copyright.PENANANy0K6oG1Yc

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就是冰箱裡還有一塊小蛋糕,巧克力的,我明天還想把他吃完。copyright protection5PENANAaUdzaAN0Tj9Please respect copyright.PENANA9P3az9zgbx

昨天看了一部動畫,下星期結局,再活一個星期好了。copyright protection5PENANAMLW1WaSQE99Please respect copyright.PENANAtVKamMpkcW

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運氣不錯,每天都有想做的事,所以……明天還有事,後天再死好了?copyright protection5PENANAfEitet32tX

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