這算什麼?463Please respect copyright.PENANAFk47VNSvYd
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突然之間出現,說要給我一個測試,突然之間說完就完。463Please respect copyright.PENANA5rYpcn9OiJ
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說什麼,我為傾姐哭了一回,她以後就會改變。463Please respect copyright.PENANAmfQXInIvSE
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說什麼人最厲害的地方在於改變態度,什麼事都能夠做到。463Please respect copyright.PENANA2PLMFvBVZ3
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說什麼脫離不了人的思維,說什麼不如開創自己的人生。463Please respect copyright.PENANAJ5M692Y9IU
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神明丁在看著我,手中仍然拿著練習簿。463Please respect copyright.PENANAmvGq0SLlYD
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我伸手接過練習簿,慢慢站了起來。463Please respect copyright.PENANAEkfXhdOIJQ
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走去岩石旁邊,拾起厚皮的孤島日記,裡面仍然夾著葉片。463Please respect copyright.PENANAaBDmiCVM9g
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然後便準備下山了。463Please respect copyright.PENANAk0u0vnn80P
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「其實我想聽朝先畀本簿你……」神明丁說。463Please respect copyright.PENANAU9MVHzV9VP
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「你想去邊?」祂再問,一直注視著我。463Please respect copyright.PENANACP04ODWohA
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我嘴巴兩動,「餵雞。」463Please respect copyright.PENANApsKehbhfxJ
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一步一步離去,不久消失在祂的眼前。463Please respect copyright.PENANApaOA116pAB
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到了山腰,我撥開茂密的樹枝葉,走到空曠的樹底。463Please respect copyright.PENANA0sIHlHtUIq
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樹幹旁邊綑了一個雞籠。463Please respect copyright.PENANAwAV45VYpX4
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雞籠是我用很長時間,以枯枝、樹滕和氣根織成的。463Please respect copyright.PENANAPHV4Pk4pBY
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裡面住了三隻山雞。牠們都是雌雞,一年有幾個月會生蛋,其餘時間白養。463Please respect copyright.PENANA3lnEx3rykv
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養雌雞的好處是,不會晨啼,不會在陽光出來的時候,「額咯咯咯……」463Please respect copyright.PENANAfru5PHLQvo
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不會告訴我,又一天了。463Please respect copyright.PENANAccts7FuhTj
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在沒有光的晚上,雞會發雞盲,什麼都看不見。463Please respect copyright.PENANATYkb3pAuGT
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我總是在這個時候,偷雞蛋吃。463Please respect copyright.PENANAlJnehBi1qQ
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現在就是沒有光的時候,但也沒有雞蛋吃。463Please respect copyright.PENANA1M0m1rhHQ7
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我摘了一個水果,咬了一口,又咬了幾口。463Please respect copyright.PENANAOxiQLFQqdg
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靠著樹幹坐下,我打開神的練習簿,從第一頁開始看起。463Please respect copyright.PENANAJySKKDv9Ui
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「陸傾兒,17歲的少女,願望是可以脫離現有的生活。」463Please respect copyright.PENANAcOeSlF5MT5
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摸著書頁,仍然覺得紙張的質感很特別,像是摸著人的心靈。463Please respect copyright.PENANAJj5Ntg2ki3
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但此刻的觸感,跟最初摸的時候不同了。463Please respect copyright.PENANAx6m76MjeVj
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怎麼說呢?463Please respect copyright.PENANAwg1A0gaVV4
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本來是偏冷感的,現在多了一份溫暖,有冷中帶暖的感覺。463Please respect copyright.PENANApgdqSU9XpS
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「陸傾兒。」我撫摸著。463Please respect copyright.PENANAei1YmtECjP
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翻開下頁,記錄著我的所思所想。我像個新的人一樣,無知又懷舊地上學。理性又感性地救人。463Please respect copyright.PENANArjPDoHnmRg
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那天剛好也是我的生日,完完全全是慶祝我的新生啊。463Please respect copyright.PENANAu7Suw4ZCq7
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「新生……」我繼續看著,翻後一頁。463Please respect copyright.PENANAQFvmtl7iPe
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「咁聽住喇喎。」她看著我說,表情漸漸柔和起來。463Please respect copyright.PENANA92SqDoKoTX
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我再點頭。463Please respect copyright.PENANA61ZZAabvgZ
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「孫正直,陸傾兒祝你生日快樂。」她露出笑容地說。463Please respect copyright.PENANAlUF7ACK62L
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一天完了,有一個記號「END」。463Please respect copyright.PENANAfSgGkkTgKw
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我馬上看第二天。463Please respect copyright.PENANAy445b1ss4M
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中六的阿豪和阿晨還沒遭到天譴,還不知道蔣少的下場,李可兒的事情還未處理。463Please respect copyright.PENANA19ou5OGia2
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在傾姐以外,仍有很多問題未解決。463Please respect copyright.PENANAUckHIaF2RM
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在海邊替她戴頸巾、蒙眼餵麥提莎、訴說心事……463Please respect copyright.PENANAZPdSfTLJ3y
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聽著她說自責的話,讓有共同體會的我,流下了淚。463Please respect copyright.PENANAKis3srIhkT
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「如果我喊一喊,就能夠令佢產生咁大嘅轉變……」463Please respect copyright.PENANAnUbAKlbM9Y
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「咁我做更多嘅嘢,咪會有更大嘅轉變?」463Please respect copyright.PENANAwM7in62trL
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第二天「END」出現。463Please respect copyright.PENANAUK6AAoMOOe
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我蓋上了練習簿。463Please respect copyright.PENANAYZxvBYm4Nf
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雙手把練習簿抱在胸前,深深地感受心靈的重量。463Please respect copyright.PENANAx2UJ4u9z6Z
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如果換一個態度去面對,會變成怎樣?463Please respect copyright.PENANAHnA4w8CIvc
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深深地嘆一口氣。既然我已經不合格了,那麼我就不需要在意什麼神的慧根,什麼神的做法,不需要在乎神的目光。我就只需要做我認為對的事,做我自己就可以了。463Please respect copyright.PENANARmS1WD9YEF
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問題是,我不只有一個自己,我有孤獨且軟弱的我,也有堅強而積極的我。463Please respect copyright.PENANAWSv2HGA3My
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活在這個孤島的我,是軟弱的我。這兩天,進入練習簿中的是另一個我。463Please respect copyright.PENANAYSFqpwo8gv
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但無論哪一個我,都受著過去的影響。463Please respect copyright.PENANAlgXBdKzsg8
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有人說,過去的經歷會影響人現在的生活。沉重的過去會成為腳上的鎖鏈鐵球,阻礙著自己前進。463Please respect copyright.PENANAMe8gdkuPZi
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我現在是不是正被過去束縛,而停滯不前?463Please respect copyright.PENANAyfou68rp9d
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剛剛看完練習簿,在學校裡的我總是回憶和感觸,放學後也是,看見別人在牽手也感慨一番。463Please respect copyright.PENANAEFenpneGdu
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只有一個時候,我變得特別不同。特別珍惜時間,沒有回想過去,腦海像是沒有過去的人一樣只享受現在。463Please respect copyright.PENANAsLz2VLxOVd
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「你都有今日。」陸傾兒陰笑,馬上得逞地說,「繼續答頭先嘅問題。」463Please respect copyright.PENANAufjEdPqOiq
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「我揀大膽。」我逃避地說。463Please respect copyright.PENANAbSMaVVdzch
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「吓?」她難以置信,激氣地說,「我話畀你知,我突然之間好唔開心!你揀大膽嘅話,你真係要好大膽先得。」463Please respect copyright.PENANAvYC1Ngmdjd
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「嗯,我揀大膽。」我無可避免地說。463Please respect copyright.PENANAZpmhduGkOM
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放下練習簿,放在日記旁邊。463Please respect copyright.PENANACv8RuNAyvt
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我再摘下水果,用石頭砸成幾塊,悄悄放進雞籠子裡。463Please respect copyright.PENANAMNtgCDSkjd
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然後再次坐好。463Please respect copyright.PENANAtfVXNXI8vM
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「陸……傾兒。」463Please respect copyright.PENANA2g2YYFlVwi
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這一晚,在睡著之前,我一共想起了她四次。463Please respect copyright.PENANA2nBBaRGv1s
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陽光再次出現,睡醒的我看著雞籠,山雞正在喙食水果。463Please respect copyright.PENANAu0LDsbnhzs
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紅頭黑頸啡身綠屁股的山雞,並不是常見的家禽品種,而我已經強制養了牠們很久。463Please respect copyright.PENANAHZu4vgvdpk
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一身骯髒的我,這時,有了溫暖的想法。463Please respect copyright.PENANArXZQfcPS21
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不如拆掉籠子,看看牠們會不會走。463Please respect copyright.PENANABo4Fksb2cS
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牠們會不會因為這裡有膳食而留下呢?或者,會不會對籠子產生了感情呢?463Please respect copyright.PENANA5ftiNyIAjv
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於是,我伸手去拆開籠子,解開至牠們能夠出來為止。463Please respect copyright.PENANAntWaqaRFUW
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坐在一旁的我,看到了有趣的一幕。463Please respect copyright.PENANAMMOcQP4dFU
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山雞喙起果肉,馬上跳跳,再拍拍拍拍翼飛走了。463Please respect copyright.PENANA8i2Yj5JOKN
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第二隻也是,第三隻掉了果肉,回來喙起,也再次起飛了。463Please respect copyright.PENANAubNzyEjRqF
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雖然只能飛五秒左右就墮地,但牠們沒有放棄過逃生,一直跳走跳走飛飛。463Please respect copyright.PENANA1OrbBhvxWf
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不愧是山雞,有著天生的野性,跟被人類選來圈養的雞種不同。463Please respect copyright.PENANAPFQaKBzLGe
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這些山雞,從基因裡,就有著不被馴服的特徵。463Please respect copyright.PENANAOHL9htAPK3
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所以,不會甘心一生留在籠裡。463Please respect copyright.PENANAbWamtpFbcU
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只要有機會,就一定會逃出去,再次過自由自在的生活。463Please respect copyright.PENANAhS6IP5SkXU
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那麼,我呢?463Please respect copyright.PENANArtqRnpouo2
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我會選擇留在籠子裡,還是想辦法逃出去?463Please respect copyright.PENANAx4xXhSSNZT
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「點啊你?」神明丁問,仍在山頂上等我。463Please respect copyright.PENANAjaAxEtpTgA
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我來到山頂,帶回練習簿和日記。463Please respect copyright.PENANAjTo3USgRcT
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「你好似精神咗喎。」祂說,正在看著我。463Please respect copyright.PENANACIFpAoVRSR
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「係咩?」我問,走到祂的身旁,掠過祂的身旁。463Please respect copyright.PENANAHx4tWJV4YM
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屁股坐在扁平岩石上。463Please respect copyright.PENANABwL5CGqvuz
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第三次出發,我要做到什麼? 463Please respect copyright.PENANAvwIVLQtdtO
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最後一次出發,我要過怎樣的一天? 463Please respect copyright.PENANA579ZQkIBOa
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「神明丁,你覺得我應該點做?」我默默地問。463Please respect copyright.PENANAD0hr8fOteY
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「最好……唔好咁悶啦。」神明丁說,「太無聊嘅話,冇人會想睇。」463Please respect copyright.PENANAeEPrK3QToY
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「神明丁,我好多謝你兩日前嚟到哩度。」我說,「係我想讀完本日記就自殺嘅一晚,你及時出現,令我活到今日。」463Please respect copyright.PENANABKZuh8qmCh
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「今日,雖然你話我已經唔合格。」我說,「但我一早有咗心理準備,早就同自己講,至少我賺咗沖一個熱水涼、食到魚蛋燒賣。」463Please respect copyright.PENANAR1VzejOvRn
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「所以,即使我對你有好多不滿,但終歸嚟講,我都係感謝你,能夠嚟搵我嘅。」463Please respect copyright.PENANAeoIISHyxV6
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「係……係。」神明丁聽著。463Please respect copyright.PENANAY1jJXfkaOD
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「今日,」我回歸今日,「我一樣會救想救嘅人,幫要幫嘅人。無論係咪測緊試,我認為我都係要繼續做嘅。」463Please respect copyright.PENANA4JvE1uyMYZ
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「嗯,嗯。」祂點著頭。463Please respect copyright.PENANAJGLEjny8qh
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「今日,我會活得比你『預知』嘅我,更加出色,更加超乎想像。」我宣言。463Please respect copyright.PENANAP76hhCZQLF
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不然的話,就太對不起這「一天」了。463Please respect copyright.PENANADlSWTy31Ax
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我已經很多年沒有重視過一天是怎麼活,但今天,我稍微地,想試一次。463Please respect copyright.PENANAvEoAY93Cm0
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不受束縛的我,到底能活成怎樣?463Please respect copyright.PENANABJP8f2Tijo
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我期待著。463Please respect copyright.PENANAgHNzfAQ1H2
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——揚起嘴角,流下了淚。463Please respect copyright.PENANApHtjbp2FBz
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「點啊你,準備……好未?」神明丁問。463Please respect copyright.PENANAg9HAcgSa39
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祂用白淨的手袖,替我抹抹。463Please respect copyright.PENANAr7ZXoAsHwH
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「今日,我要毫無遺憾咁度過,就算遇到令人心碎嘅畫面,我都要好似神明辛咁,勇往直前,甚至做得比佢更好!」463Please respect copyright.PENANApaPMiUrffm
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「加油。」神明丁眼裡的我。463Please respect copyright.PENANA28YVpucixI
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「我會睇住你。」神明丁再說,十分認真,「全程睇住,你放心啦。」463Please respect copyright.PENANAfSx0mjkyGf
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「好,咁我去喇。」我說。463Please respect copyright.PENANA0I3bTmgs9T
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「啊,係你去之前,我有一句話想講。」神明丁說。463Please respect copyright.PENANAXcFjbDtnmN
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傾耳以待——463Please respect copyright.PENANArh8WxxurRe
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「孫正直,做唔到一個合格嘅神,你做神『不合格』,係唔緊要。」463Please respect copyright.PENANADvu0ynJCks
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「最重要係,唔可以做一個不合格嘅人。」祂再說。463Please respect copyright.PENANAxbZAowRxRB
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聽完,我便低頭,準備打開練習簿。463Please respect copyright.PENANALXlzgNjsS2
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「你諗住坐係岩石度?」祂問。463Please respect copyright.PENANAQ9wbVwVuxl
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「唔通又企一日咩?好攰。」我說,正在翻開,「同埋我都唔係諗住坐。」463Please respect copyright.PENANABGl8ChcqGp
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身體傾後,躺了下來。463Please respect copyright.PENANAuxFEl8d8EE
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「係諗住攤。」463Please respect copyright.PENANA6HLU6IUFUZ
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翻到新一頁,意識隨即被牽扯。463Please respect copyright.PENANA29j7hKwBPP
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神明丁站在一旁,默默地守候著我,目光在看著我。463Please respect copyright.PENANAoM9F4X5n6I
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在朝陽的照射下,我把練習簿放在臉上,寫意洋洋地蓋住了眼。463Please respect copyright.PENANAHEn31nzLT3
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露出鼻尖和微笑。463Please respect copyright.PENANAUPVFc2sHhU
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像個學生時期喜歡偷懶的孫正直。463Please respect copyright.PENANAi1hKtHTz7a