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「我是孤兒。這是我十多年來沒有告訴任何人的事,除了政府、學校,你是第一個知道。我不想其他人用同情的眼神看我,也不想受其他人白眼,我自己的事,我能想方法解決,雖然到最後還得依靠香城政府的幫助,所有事在初中已經解決了。」8964 copyright protection125PENANA4xcP4oRczj 維尼
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想不到李沛弦初中時候已經這麼懂事,有心理質素面對痛失雙親的事實、處理後事,還為自己打算將來,把所有事都做得相當完美。8964 copyright protection125PENANAsxG84ydlIr 維尼
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「親戚我不是沒有,只是沒有願意幫忙的親戚,他們抱著看戲心態,我有事相求就諸多推搪。我知道,限制不在任何人,沒人對我施加壓力,這是環境的問題,改變一下環境就可以了。不是說過︰愈年小,環境愈容易改變嗎?」8964 copyright protection125PENANA2j5fUaEtOS 維尼
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「所以我沒有哀求成為親戚的養女,而是向政府求助,申請成為孤兒,要犧牲的是不能再享受家庭樂趣,享受夠了,沒有也不要緊。」8964 copyright protection125PENANAThAtiCEMgM 維尼
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香城的法律裡,要達到一個年齡才有完整法定地位,為自己下決定,不然就需要找監護人作主。8964 copyright protection125PENANAZL7amfEBvQ 維尼
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「剛剛不是說了,沒有親戚願意幫忙嗎?他們覺得我是麻煩製造者,多一個人多一張嘴,負起所有開支。照顧別人家的女兒,誰會做?」8964 copyright protection125PENANA0KQkCs6axU 維尼
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年小時候已經要面對殘酷的現實…李沛弦為甚麼有心理質素應付所有事?她究竟是甚麼人?8964 copyright protection125PENANA5H3scZKWen 維尼
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說回來,既然沒人會照顧親戚的兒女,那為甚麼李沛弦會照顧弱小的我?8964 copyright protection125PENANAROwgLEk5kU 維尼
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「這不是值得自豪的事,只能說明我的求生意志很強而已,所以我沒有跟任何朋友提過,對外的說法是『我很少回家』,然後三緘其口。」8964 copyright protection125PENANAtogHILlo7v 維尼
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原來李沛弦住在社會服務區的風台,是住在孤兒院。8964 copyright protection125PENANAbeMMfbBvZo 維尼
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「你之前在教堂說過『想當護士是因為受過幫助』,就是這個原因?」我問。8964 copyright protection125PENANAa7PI9psq0v 維尼
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白先生的調子。8964 copyright protection125PENANAx5N8wO9pZ4 維尼
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「不是說過『我只會救還能救活的人』嗎?那麼不能救的人呢?我很清楚,這類人有不少都希望結束這刻的痛苦,有尊嚴地離開這個世界。所以,我非常希望助他們一臂之力。」8964 copyright protection125PENANAL9x2GZEvm7 維尼
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香城是世界少數安樂死合法化的地方,部份醫院設有臨終治療部,擁有執行安樂死的法定權力,這部門的醫護若干地「像」古時的劊子手,每天需要「殺」幾個病人,久而久之會出現嚴重心理壓力,甚至心理創傷。據說臨終治療部的醫護職位,是香城有名的厭惡性工作之一。8964 copyright protection125PENANANbnHg903MB 維尼
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這麼說,李沛弦的目標是希望以臨終治療部的護士身份,「貢獻」社會?8964 copyright protection125PENANAksUAHBWC5v 維尼
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「想不到,這才是你想當護士的原因。」我說。8964 copyright protection125PENANAX2JhM01Wyv 維尼
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「嗯,我聽說執行安樂死的醫護都是被迫才到那裡上班,真的沒聽過志願是那裡。」8964 copyright protection125PENANAm9wF2H4O35 維尼
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「不如我問你吧,對一個快要死的人,你知道無藥可救,你會選擇維持他的生命,還是送他有尊嚴的最後一程?」知道我不太認同她的志願,李沛弦問。8964 copyright protection125PENANA3XZXIOZlSO 維尼
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「當然是救他啊,這是人命。」8964 copyright protection125PENANA6l7seaG97H 維尼
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「你有想過,病人很痛苦吧?」8964 copyright protection125PENANAMLw4ilFSDU 維尼
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「見到有人很痛苦,伸援手是人之常情;那為甚麼見到其他人痛苦到想死,做法就完全不一樣?要強行延續他的痛苦?」8964 copyright protection125PENANA28iSk5n5G6 維尼
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「說不定你救活了他,他會咒罵你啊。」8964 copyright protection125PENANA5NrMqqDtNG 維尼
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活著比死更難受的時候,強行要病人存活,對他是好事嗎?8964 copyright protection125PENANAJwQpDWVOVh 維尼
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「所有人知道病人無藥可救,他選擇放棄治療,渴望一死,我配合,在香城沒人會怪罪我的,因為所有人都知道︰施救是沒用的。手軟,只會毀掉病人的尊嚴。」8964 copyright protection125PENANANbCEMLBsGE 維尼
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「即使病人勉強繼續治療,我想我有勇氣送他一程,當送給他的禮物,我想我絕對能下手,假如病人需要我不惜一切送他一程的話。因為作為旁觀者,無力救援的感覺更痛苦。」8964 copyright protection125PENANAs5tho65QDI 維尼
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認真?真的下手,就是犯了殺人罪,會被追究的。8964 copyright protection125PENANAKuty67cK0v 維尼
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「不用太認真,說說而已。」李沛弦強調說。「說真的,我覺得我是個快要患上絕症的人。」8964 copyright protection125PENANAvwz3HaHPP3 維尼
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這個人跟穹雪霞說起一樣的話來。8964 copyright protection125PENANAgL23Ofe226 維尼
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「為甚麼…?」我問。8964 copyright protection125PENANAh4ppFQE8Y4 維尼
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「基因問題,發生時間比較遠而已。」李沛弦答。8964 copyright protection125PENANAZDBcdgyZi4 維尼
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不是說她的父母在她小時候就過身了?8964 copyright protection125PENANAHxxB5MRyjj 維尼
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「可能會勾起你的不快回憶,但是可以問嗎?你父母過身的時候,有甚麼病症出現了嗎?」我問。8964 copyright protection125PENANAWtvn55WGb1 維尼
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李沛弦未有回答,一直未有回答。8964 copyright protection125PENANAWct9vKyaV3 維尼
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「有,病徵出現了。」沉思了很久,她說。8964 copyright protection125PENANAVPeJNllAHG 維尼
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「但是同一個病徵,可以有很多病因吧?為甚麼你能斷定那是基因問題,遺傳了給自己?」我問。8964 copyright protection125PENANAtaObNdOISQ 維尼
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「不,我知道。」8964 copyright protection125PENANAlzhXuGM0K2 維尼
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父母還沒有正式發病就知道基因病會遺傳給自己?8964 copyright protection125PENANASHXhaRoB25 維尼
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──知識範圍外的知識。8964 copyright protection125PENANAQgaV7YSSag 維尼
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果然穹雪霞說的話,可能是對的。8964 copyright protection125PENANAqlh0uz9BFv 維尼
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「不要說這些話好嗎……」我說。8964 copyright protection125PENANAscHlWs1IZI 維尼
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穹雪霞是這樣,現在李沛弦又是這樣,快瘋了…8964 copyright protection125PENANAJFs0Qnf5II 維尼
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「直覺而已,人總要面對這種時候,我猜…這一天不會很久。」8964 copyright protection125PENANAIi507PQkiz 維尼
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「如果那天真的到了,不要救我,就像我不救其他人一樣。」李沛弦說。「不能救的時候,做甚麼都是無謂。」8964 copyright protection125PENANA99i0SlJyZ8 維尼
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「你希望我送你一程嗎?」我嘗試順著她的思路問問題。8964 copyright protection125PENANA1elqteUeqS 維尼
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「我的小程程變聰明了。」李沛弦摸我的頭。8964 copyright protection125PENANAD7fSdvW55f 維尼
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「如果你有放棄一切的覺悟,我希望你能送我一程。」8964 copyright protection125PENANAy86Mcr7SBb 維尼
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李沛弦,不要…8964 copyright protection125PENANAd0e1o6Ryuq 維尼
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「雖然我會先到臨終治療部交申請。」8964 copyright protection125PENANAZx7EQPiGhP 維尼
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我開始分不清眼前這個人是李沛弦還是穹雪霞了。8964 copyright protection125PENANAJ44zG43VJH 維尼
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「現在我的小程程陪著我,我甚麼也不怕。」李沛弦又蹭我的背。「小程程的背很柔軟啊,抱著甚麼也沒有穿的小程程很舒服。」8964 copyright protection125PENANAcL7AvybWDs 維尼
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「內褲我有穿的。」我無奈地說。8964 copyright protection125PENANA7YxhXjVdFv 維尼
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還有你的運動裝啊可惡,哪裡「甚麼也沒穿」?8964 copyright protection125PENANAukR9tjMRUw 維尼
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「如果我說,我有超能力,你相信嗎?」李沛弦靜下來,在我背後說。8964 copyright protection125PENANAxKj0cn94WY 維尼
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