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I didn't hang out with anyone after work yesterday because I just didn't feel like it. I just went back to my dorm, said hi to my roommate, made some homework, played some video games, had banana for dinner and went to bed. I slept like a rock because it was a dreamless night and I woke up earlier than my alarm. I checked my phone while taking a brush, Scott texted somethin like, 'where are you?' at midnight. There were some miss calls from Eliot and the other text showed that Raymond kinda misses me. He messaged sometin along the lines 'I saw you but you didn't say hi'. I'm not sure about Raymond's case but I think I was just watching my steps yesterday and I wasn't really paying attention to my surroundings. Anyway, I thought today will be as peaceful as yesterday until I saw a dense mutherfucker in front of the dorm's entrance. I really didn't want to talk to him or to anyone today because I already had problems at home and I just don't to want to pile my emotions that way but he was blocking me with his sorry eyes and frown like he wants to model for H&M or somethin. Cheap shit, boo hoo, i hate you but we have to face the music from time to time so I said SUP. Then he spun me around and rested his arm on my shoulder like there was nothin wrong then he began smilin. This reminds me of someone and I'm starting to hate this asshole more than ever but after we sat on the bench, his demeanor was much more serious and he was staring at me like I'm the one who should fix this. Well, I was about to mention that but he said sorry and he admitted that he over reacted and he said that he isn't being homophobic because he's Bi- yep... and then he said that he wants our relationship to return to what it used to be. That is what I wanted too so I guess I smiled and said OKAY. Then he tried to hug me but I crossed my arms and pretended to look away for a second because I'm not ready for that yet. After that, he asked me where I was going in the evening because he knows that I only do part-time four times a week. I told him the truth; I told him that I was having dancing lessons with Scott and I'm going to continue that because I'm havin fun. It's a good thing that he didn't really react to that but there was a long pause before he asked if it's like a new hobby or is like one of those gym membership scenarios. I told him that I was planning to hit the gym to carry my weight better and I said that I'm not planning to quit anytime soon since I have a very hot instructor. He sighed to that and then he told me that he has to go. I stopped him by grabbing his arm and said sorry. I don't know why I said sorry but he stared at me like.. I broke his heart or it's just in my mind.. I dunno. Then without seconds thoughts, I mentioned the Airforce and about what he should do because I don't want him to be like me; someone who's really unsure about the future and is definitely unhappy. I returned the deep stare and told him that he should not worry about uni or what some people may think as long as he's being himself. And I told him that if he ever leaves, I want to meet him someday and I want to find him successful, in a uniform maybe but most importantly, I want to see him smile like he could light up the whole town just like the first time we met.133Please respect copyright.PENANAfcGmmGGHev