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某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡciolv2B9NU
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTS0NnNjRjr
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原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgvjhDBMEPA
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzASwxzOD6s
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo6lmlVDSCi
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemefPSZhk0
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被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9lUeiACjv
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ475sIb9jGk
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbUfUWUgPt
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtSvi4NXLsh
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「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBL6dg6QGtK
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ68TYNycCeQ
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc3UuqMDh2c
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1iao4K6Mmf
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyAi1s9wxsR
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「你鍾意Alvin啊？」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsy8UVgNyd9
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCYHTdxEZt2
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavmpqskdDR
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbUpsSkNQTo
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaadN5btTGn
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5hwGYtSg3a
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「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIojS8DPk4p
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt6aeufJbvM
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mZ2EJHjSm
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接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMrIG3wA483
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUqo4uHmmAJ
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡspyEz9hkM9
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「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnEBwomk7ei
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcVwYzyiC9S
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt5ZaYLkPxN
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Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE5KVZakrIi
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhEwxfBSHZ3
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvVS9o1zCvC
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡglIrmKoSWv
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTpdZxpn1MC
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Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUWQRO4hNek
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYaeHE4o4m
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQMfTgVXkN
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ34DziYzyWG
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6EYSa6ShbY
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpGueBpHVE
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「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Nsd1WIRAh
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXdd4xJPjs7
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsgb3W14IKi
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQjxGj7IEH1
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數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFHu6cCtHzy
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgmMSdONHO
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK5pTBTckEB
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fGpXVv6sy
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡak1oxxU0Q0
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh0A1BdOOei
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接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuDkrgpKInJ
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKBgFj4NLWL
隨即二人也站在了原地。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvOTz3fGi0k
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZQXaUJCfht
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFQztWFliFK
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQUIRGjuqx
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLzxdZpmctQ
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡazRYzsiU2Q
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「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ25vUFX6U2Z
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcWDZjBKTHb
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這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzOxpqgPJ5p
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAwLy73xZ40
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5d5XJrGYGM
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQdsJIw9IAC
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSQl5v6s21b
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在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC996GZw3ki
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCXOXlz7THu
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOmmnN9A1Nm
可是，她接著聽到答案是……555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCG8yHT1XVh
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkrwlAxebZH
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聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuznNOiiQry
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMdupQrKJWB
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUPVcK5Ab8V
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0XuefE7vR6
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ISmZhcx4K
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlLTcDZqeC8
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1K9LugamhA
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然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJ9xGMuj3q
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正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzKTxoYVy1
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfqcW6b70HX
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXVwQxrGyBB
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWzmlvqsGh
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而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGlG5wF4hYT
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Wxhuv8Q4I
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXGsCjO02Wu
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT2FerpGhK7
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「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlU72xuUs7N
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVLEcUWfKVE
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLah6tMJutS
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgDlaTHEVa5
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接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9rqBs0yQz
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiXX90slb0I
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu1x0jERPWH
「嚓—」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDNYQ7QYnK6
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「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP0xSA7BXFf
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作者在此鄭重聲明：555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0aEMiRaCXd
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUgXEpxueU4
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnp2XZopmx1
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkCRKGoz9Pi
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEKog4HYlXQ
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkUVPqu231R
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtdP6RW8YQ2
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作者閒聊：555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUQ0V8r7nIp
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhbwpvRRx5B
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……555Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw0rbyKfLco
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