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小屋裡、睡床邊，她架上老花眼鏡，小心翼翼用開信刀拆開今早收到的奇怪信件。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbaCCpO0iBs
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純白的信封上沒有註明地址，亦沒有郵票、郵戳和收信人姓名。明顯不是透過郵政服務寄來的，而是有人將信件直接放入她的信箱。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoNErMpbO0E
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是誰？有誰會寫信給她這個孤僻木訥的八旬老婦？該不會是兒子——他已好幾年沒有前來探望，電話聯絡亦少之又少……581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMeoA3bjHSs
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「啊！」看見信中物，她不由得發出一聲驚嘆。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY9Mbn9bJDv
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡESimoyd0za
壓花書籤。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCaaDaXnr3f
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ52ybol2Hio
紫藍色的小花在純白色托紙上尤顯孤獨冷清。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWRExG82wNS
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcD2W5eey8
「毋忘我……」她雙唇微顫，熱淚盈眶，回憶片段有如走馬燈在她腦海中快速運轉。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrL5POu3sMh
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFkyffdTp4R
初遇於了無邊際的毋忘我花海……情信信箋一角上畫有一朵線條簡單的毋忘我……他突如其來捧上的毋忘我花束……她在婚宴時戴著的紫藍色毋忘我花形耳環……他在窗前花槽播下毋忘我種子……他因頑皮兒子摘掉花槽裡的毋忘我而氣得流鼻血……他拒絕遷往大屋是因為捨不得花槽裡的心血結晶……年邁的他偶爾忘記淋花施肥……患病的他忘了花、忘了她……她為失智的他戴上紫藍色冷帽，笑說他是一朵毋忘我……每年清明重陽或其他大時大節時，她都會帶上一束毋忘我前往拜祭他……581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQleXgOWty
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難道是老伴的來信？581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmttznZYP2s
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDXSI1ciEz6
是！一定是老伴自天堂寄來的！581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe4ThlIgXZc
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmVcrbWgXI1
明明有很多合情合理的說法去解釋信件來歷，她偏偏選擇相信無從證明的鬼神之說。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSZ9agtOxge
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或許，真假從不重要，合乎心意的表象才是真正有意義的。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNAnQPwEcE
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH6fxiwRphB
這來歷不明的壓花書籤正好滿足她對老伴的思念之情。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmyugZRtX6
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg6DbBThELy
她流淚，她微笑。她憂傷，她幸福。她空虛，她富足……581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgmUZCEEp53
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpE3r3vfsTY
剎那間，她重新經歷體驗數十載的喜怒憂懼愛憎欲千萬遍，不斷發現、擁有、消磨、失去。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRcbRLaBs3P
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ02fLZ3pak
一切歸空，如夢如幻如泡影。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK58XFGGEQi
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2TE9npCb3f
努力活著，只為失去？581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn2R6PtA6wq
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXZykMmQKuZ
放眼望去，小屋冷冷清清。兒子遠去，老伴不在。花槽裡的毋忘我早日被鄰近頑童連根拔起，散落滿地，肢離破碎。垂吊耳珠上的花形耳環已然褪色，只餘帶有花亂刮痕的啞色金屬配件。情信信箋受潮發霉，角落的毋忘我污跡斑駁……581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUpkvH4N9XL
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡykI8G2LrNY
無論如何用心留住一切，終歸逃不過失去的命運，對嗎？581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf7MlxqUAoQ
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9N9luU9nxP
很累。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgzcFhVvA8
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMKsBoAnS07
放下眼鏡，揉揉眼。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFxmm0uAcIe
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSQW0mWH6SY
想睡。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqEdruv7pIS
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡph6qAkbKZX
放下開信刀時，刀尖劃過手腕，留下血痕。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZoN784mWP2
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxseMIXRako
有意或無意？她自己也說不清楚。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeE3mr7xfiJ
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1A1exRdRL
該要馬上包紥傷口。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ1brGKcpVm
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTlJdNKvVHe
但看著血流不止的手腕，心裡竟沒有絲毫焦急。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn7mtUTSc5k
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN2JVIa4Xa0
沒所謂。反正終歸逃不過失去的命運。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjn3pVRAKVH
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzEKgEyWBqy
她懶理手腕血流如注，安坐搖搖椅上，對著壓花書籤發愣。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwoq0zitXH0
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1QqMqPIjBQ
時間流逝，體溫流失，記憶流竄。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHlNGKNdhDq
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq6xq50EcDq
她的意識逐漸模糊——想不起他的墳頭是甚麼形狀，記不清楚他的冷帽是否以純低針編織而成，忘記了肥料是從哪裡買來的……581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsId8uq22Mo
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNRWqgtsJC6
他的臉和身體分崩離析，成碎，成灰，成粉，最後甚麼也不剩。沒有形體，因其而生的神情動態亦不復存在，遑論聲音、氣味、情感……581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDj0gJc0NK3
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjy3vWsRE5J
被遺忘才是徹底的死亡。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7M4qiJC1Ll
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ45M9ZVc2Rx
她曾痛恨上天帶走他的生命。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD96OI29FBC
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA5TxFxVFlu
現在呢？581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKOqTZmGIJC
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0SDgpVUK5
她主動放棄記住他。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg7rOu2HSat
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo1oV7LAAFo
上天或她更可惡可恨？581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnOzwz5cEBb
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7J6S1ghjB
世上有靈魂嗎？他會怪責她嗎？581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTPwFDfG65
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcyPYTiOfWm
「死者已死，沒能怪責。」他的聲音來自壓花書籤：「一切只是生者的心念。」581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡze3peQX79T
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg38diGL4ql
迴光返照。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5hMDTAkBfH
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZIJ8lxA9jk
她撲前將枱面的書籤摟在懷裡，哭哭笑笑。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcPbx5WQhNb
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnOI43uNi4O
書籤是書籤，不是他。毋忘我是毋忘我，不是他。回憶裡的他是回憶裡的他，不是他。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWodf4RlqtX
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHMpRyOMuZT
是她將一切與他扣上關連。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqBG7JpLdWv
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6k0QmEAfXj
如果她不復存在，整個世界跟他亦再沒關連……581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa8GNzh1SNY
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpuSepcreVP
手腕倏忽劇痛。
醫院。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl0mace0vMD
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6qOafAuTbe
病房裡擠滿前來探病的人，熱鬧非常。唯獨是她床邊兩條通道空蕩蕩的。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2gJCQyAOTy
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡju4cUfKaFA
不曾期望兒子不會前來，但她心裡難免一陣失落。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ815j6acaZi
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7CVHoWSZnj
當時是否不該報警求救呢？581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5xz3QejKqk
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq61CWyoWck
這念頭生起還沒兩秒，一個小巧身影踏著小跳步來到床邊。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuDdkhFQ9EG
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwlKjxu7por
「莊遜太太，午安！」女孩不過十歲，雙頰通紅，眼眸明亮有神。身穿白色連身裙，裙上印滿碎花圖案，是紫藍色的毋忘我。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡueHJeGf3il
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxmv9xfvq7y
「午……安……」她和顔悅色禮貌應道，暗裡搜索枯腸，卻硬是想不起這娃兒是誰。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1eoWBNkh9U
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjjP93ySuSg
「喜歡我送你的壓花書籤嗎？」女孩喜孜孜的，不知自己差點兒害死眼前老婦。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlgYjYDgnLg
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTjhnuCSiYN
「喜歡。」她強抑心底裡的一陣震驚，輕撫女孩頭頂：「為何你送我書籤呢？」581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR0SZvHBD7J
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ92VLXJSD5X
「數天前，我和祖母路經你家，看見你跪在草地上，捧著散落的毋忘我痛哭。所以我回家後馬上動手製作壓花書籤。送書籤時湊巧發現你不在家，只好把書籤放入信箱，讓你先睹為快！」女孩從裙袋掏出另外兩張毋忘我書籤送給她。「看！書籤上的毋忘我永不枯萎！多漂亮！」581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOZOF9SKxfm
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUA39DXm9nY
這時，女孩的祖母才拖著蹣跚步伐趕至。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91ge6yDSde
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj5K2FXAmho
原來是鄰居費爾斯太太。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOPCxH22tP3
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftQEYYWrId
十年前，老伴去世後，費爾斯太太每天抽空前來相伴，與她談天說地、為她焗製香氣四溢的果批、陪伴她到市場買肥料……直至孫女出生，費爾斯太太忙著照顧初生小娃，才不得不淡出她的生活圈子。漸漸地，她亦忘記費爾斯太太，變得孤僻木訥……581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJH53us7jjX
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW2Rpy5K3Jz
「小小心意。」憂心不已的費爾斯太太捧上一個毋忘我小盆栽。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4AlbLrd7Oh
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzSVx7WKlzH
「謝謝你們……」她受寵若驚，緩緩伸手接過小盆栽。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo7kznFTw21
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngI49xQoyV
右手手掌上是鮮活的毋忘我，左手手心裡是永不枯萎的毋忘我。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSQ1sHAV8Ns
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGH1zk6SL7i
活的死的都在她手裡，只待她怎麼處理。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyb14dUBMDI
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm4kXqXDYIY
她打算怎麼處理？581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQcYngFzLq
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未決定。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2MUwR0RgwM
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那就先收拾心情、養好身體吧。581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRN7xIt5bB
581Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ6to1AtwWR
活著，才可以想及將來、擁抱過去。
