I wish I could understand why I feel this way73Please respect copyright.PENANAXJlwbvovCL
Why flying doesn't feel the same 73Please respect copyright.PENANAFMCUSPYMa6
And the lows don't seem to fade73Please respect copyright.PENANA1JPwjwkUeP
They just linger and remain
I find myself trapped with no incentive to fix it, to rewrite the narrative 73Please respect copyright.PENANAjuxYqR4KAO
Instead my mind picks it apart, going straight for the heart73Please respect copyright.PENANAXjaaIe4XAM
I gotta give it to them, they play it pretty smart
I wish I could tell you everything that makes me hurt 73Please respect copyright.PENANA6egL4hpwUb
I wish I could convert it into something better, avert from the inevitable 73Please respect copyright.PENANAHmPF6zd7iD
I'll convert this pain into something that works 73Please respect copyright.PENANAZLWV8ey8H6
Something that works to be charitable to my health, make my pain more revocable and severable 73Please respect copyright.PENANAakISlXNdNs
Because after several years of being rendered inseparable from this feeling 73Please respect copyright.PENANAWKvgkL7vFC
I finally feel like I'm worth freeing 73Please respect copyright.PENANA1VQrCUu9ox
That this pain made me bleed, but it can't keep me73Please respect copyright.PENANAHGmtnsYdxM
I'm finally fleeing
But my superficial confidence is fleeting as my heart slows its beating 73Please respect copyright.PENANAgHs0DkPItg
The breathing turns to drowning 73Please respect copyright.PENANAsKWn9c7SRA
The seconds I'm counting, turns to shouting 73Please respect copyright.PENANAyTZEbGJKF2
I'm pounding on the walls, sounding my alarms73Please respect copyright.PENANASZJt0PG7an
But no one welcomes me with open arms73Please respect copyright.PENANAc3psfau632
Their love is fictitious 73Please respect copyright.PENANArE7y7zocKK
So thus, restarts the vicious cycle73Please respect copyright.PENANAatLY70bcBO
I try to focus on my survival, but I never see its arrival 73Please respect copyright.PENANA5xIFqmzb7t
So I lay here, my body limp and my heart slowing 73Please respect copyright.PENANAQVwgV5WllQ
The deprival of blood, of color, of feeling 73Please respect copyright.PENANACM76Fkz6YL
My life is fleeting, like the confidcence I once had 73Please respect copyright.PENANArzBYFMFnVp
I never meet my revival
But no one understands, no one offers a hand 73Please respect copyright.PENANAb2XgPKCq2L
I try to stand, my lungs expand, only to to be stuck in secondhand smoke73Please respect copyright.PENANA0L0D4P8ZSs
My voice broke as the smoke filled my lungs and covered my eyes like some sort of cloak 73Please respect copyright.PENANA1z2Em62VGG
I tried to yell, to call out for help, but all I did was choke
Falling on my knees, right back to the ground, I look around 73Please respect copyright.PENANASIMe69Pw1K
Listening to the elaborate planning of everything demanding a change 73Please respect copyright.PENANA3LALTEJjOE
They get their way, nothing remains the same73Please respect copyright.PENANAbL4qDu9ab2
All I feel is shame as I call out every name, hoping for someone to see everything slipping away 73Please respect copyright.PENANAPvBXYyNCT6
But no one comes my way, I'm disregarded and pushed away 73Please respect copyright.PENANAP82XpmpKGq
I guess no one wanted me around anyway
I give in to the deadly game, as if I was ever given a choice 73Please respect copyright.PENANAWdtXTnbG2C
But maybe my only claim to fame would be that I'm pretty damn good at playing this game 73Please respect copyright.PENANA84qHMVoJFt
Even if it feels like I'm locked in a cage73Please respect copyright.PENANAs2YJB3NTrP
The game of push and pull with the demons in my mind73Please respect copyright.PENANA6OVk09DcQf
Darkness covering my eyes, I'm blind 73Please respect copyright.PENANAtJXPH42VpW
But full of myself and always on time 73Please respect copyright.PENANAdVkZgl1U8l
I admit that the crime is mine 73Please respect copyright.PENANAwyji0rh7AZ
Now I'll serve my time
I thought, maybe if I quit it73Please respect copyright.PENANAZdBhl9uxNp
The devil will lose his incentive 73Please respect copyright.PENANAVDvFE2gu6i
The weak little girl, poisoned 73Please respect copyright.PENANA8FliEqwaqJ
Too bad for his game of tainting the good
But even then he just pulled down my walls 73Please respect copyright.PENANAsTR5kJaRVE
Brick by brick 73Please respect copyright.PENANAVmV8LMezOS
And now I'm back in this smoky pit, the light drained from it 73Please respect copyright.PENANAFA3KWn10lL
Smoke filling my lungs and ripping the sight from my eyes 73Please respect copyright.PENANAElPAlp9aZA
Once again, I'm blind
Even when I believe it's over73Please respect copyright.PENANAEe7ofAlgmw
That the thunder has passed me by, the storm subsiding 73Please respect copyright.PENANA2YIAbwyaou
It's still right there 73Please respect copyright.PENANAyPWwrjUrN0
The devil on my shoulder