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January 1, 2005
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Same day
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Even though I was trying really hard not to listen to the girls through the wall, I could still make out bits and pieces of their conversation. 610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4EqcRxBAo
Okay, maybe I didn't try that hard.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSAuS6giQTC
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Okay, fine I didn't try at all. 610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVey0RqgKdP
In fact, I might have tried really hard to listen. If only the guys would have shut their stupid mouths, maybe I could have at least heard the loud redhead.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVtzG9Sm14B
I heard Vanessa yell something about good sex in Kat's life. Shit, were they talking about me? 610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡboKNmvWzfK
I've never been so fucking insecure about a girl before. What the hell is wrong with me?610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6RXy4pohC
I couldn't make out anything Kat said, but Vanessa's voice came through clearly. She practically yelled about Kats ex being unable to satisfy her.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMlco8Djtrv
I tried to hide my snicker, but Kai stopped mid sentence to glare at me. "What the fuck is so funny? I haven't even got to the good part."610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoWzK3Lp5dY
I couldn't think up an excuse, so I went for an apology. "Sorry, bro."610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgva38eM8iE
"Just ignore him, he's smitten with his new girl." Nate betrayed me.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUZUWIk9nn
"What the fuck, man?" I tried to think of more, but I was in shock. Smitten? Who says that? 610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡabA17tItO5
"Just telling it like it is, bro." Nate smirked. Asshole.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfyEeQrjtCX
"Whatever. She's definitely not my girl." I crossed my arms defensively, hoping he would take the hint and back the fuck off.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhs9SwLACoh
As soon as we heard the girls screaming at each other, I was on my feet, ready for... what? 610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJ3fEK82k0
Was I worried about Kat? What could I even do? She barely even liked me. She would probably just turn her wrath on me.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtTAb0qlucs
Nate stood up and clapped his hand down on my shoulder. "I got this." Thank fuck. I blew out the breath I didn't realize I was holding.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQXNzao60Je
I tried to focus on Kai's story, but my mind kept drifting to Kat.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpqdHTLouYQ
Damn, Vanessa was the only one with Nate when he returned.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDi6DYF8G42
Where was my little hurricane?610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY75oeGRRYI
"Hey 'Ness! Good to see you again." Luke smiled from next to the stove, waving the spatula in greeting.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlzMPEjG7TD
Vanessa smiled and stepped up to the breakfast bar. "Hey Luke, where's Soph?" 610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIm45FUaygc
"Your guess is as good as mine." Luke grimaces as he moves to the opposite side of the breakfast bar.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnuvRx1Gzp3
"Uh oh... Trouble in paradise?" Vanessa pats his arm to console him.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf9bzEybdfc
Fuck this. I can't sit here and listen to this small talk. I need to find Kat. I need to apologize. 610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvKpbzRo3dd
I wasn't sure where Kat would be, but I saw the redhead drag her into the empty room next to mine, so I knock on that door. 610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBAUtNnG87m
Even though she tried to turn me away, I was determined. She accepted my apology, but she seemed to withdraw afterwards. What did I do wrong? 610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7oUlyUewlx
I thought apologizing would make things better, give us a fresh start, but she said she didn't want to start over. 610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPL66mQkWdA
And that made me fucking ecstatic. I wanted to remember everything, every little detail.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlfoHhl4iS9
As we walk into the kitchen, Kai stops shoving food in his mouth long enough to be obnoxious. "Daaamn bro, your girl is smokin'!"610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxynECGOKAR
I smirk, giving a slight nod in acknowledgement, but I know better than to speak. 610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy0UqjqCNBd
"I'm not his girl." Kat sounds offended. Oh shit. Shut up, Kai.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMrcCS33hj
"So sorry, my lady." She is full on glaring at him by this point and I'm resisting the urge to grab an umbrella and wait out the storm that's brewing.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWJONj6UGQO
"I'm not your lady either." I fail at hiding the laugh that escapes out of me. Even though Kai had no idea what he was getting into, I could get used to her rage being aimed at someone other than me. 610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtMLzZDX4Ia
Shit. Now she's glaring at me again. "Something amusing?"610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnVUzQT9v0y
I drop the smirk and shake my head, hoping I look innocent.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7wQTffcuNa
Her eyebrows raise further, in question. "No, Kat." Feeling very much like the schoolboy who got caught. Guess I got detention.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUZxAun4C0P
"Sorry, Kat, is it?" His stupid face continues taking. Fuck, he's gonna get this whole house burnt down. 610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIUXyz77oNJ
Just shut up, Kai.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB9cQoBTqUX
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I'm sending a brain message to him.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoYAvVaxeWg
Stop talking. 610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvMYvV0aXc
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Stop talking.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSbTAGbtYWf
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Stop talking.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkuqgC3QLcS
Of course, he doesn't hear me, so he continues digging his grave. "I just assumed since Vanessa is with Nate-dog, Soph is with Luke and I'm pretty sure you aren't with me... Benny here is the only option."610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYHTQBT95vU
"Oh." She... wait. What? That's it? What the fuck? She would have murdered me. 610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGt5OF0dkP2
"Oh?" I say it before I can stop myself. What is wrong with me? She turns her little glare on me. 610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaThftzpmSn
God, could she be more breathtaking? I want to worship her... and run for shelter at the same time. What is she doing to me?610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYPzIZz4QAz
"Sorry, just ignore me." I try to cut off her rage before it starts, but fail. 610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpDUzNj8JUI
"Will do." Her eyes avoid mine as she hurries out of the kitchen.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Qvpkklz1o
I follow after her. Of course I do. I am a glutton for punishment.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuyCKOaFeuM
But as I stand outside the door of my room, I'm at a complete loss. 610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOFYAdsJzm1
I'm honestly not sure what I did wrong, other than piss her off... but I seem to do that simply by breathing. 610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMzu1q3AReM
I just want to be near her.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUr5RlfJTJo
Come on, Ben. Get a fucking hold of yourself. You are the man. You don't need another disaster. Remember what happened last time you - no, don't think about that. 610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEENy6m1Kwi
Focus. 610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMogyTdnxP
No relationships. 610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ODPFFolnB
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No dating.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhoQLNA3RtG
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No long term. 610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4u5vMjeciR
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No feelings.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfye80L0K7q
That's the deal. Nate might have fallen off the wagon, but I know he will come back around. 610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkSXdoIZS2O
Time to reign this in. I turn the knob and walk in without looking at her. That will make this easier. 610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOf73jMC2xX
I sit on my bed, next to her and stare at the floor as I begin my half-assed blow-off attempt. 610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBljwTRMiu
"So, listen, Kat... This has been fun. But you know, I'm just like super busy right now and I just think maybe-" She cuts me off, which is good because I ran out of cliches to use.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhIbQotZbJD
"Are you serious right now?" If her eyes could shoot lasers, I would be cut into tiny pieces... and she would probably enjoy it. A lot. "I can't even... I can't..."610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhOKmD1fTvl
She shakes her head and walks out the door. I swear I feel a piece of me follow her, but like the pussy I am, I stay behind. 610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJPrV3vCETw
She chose to run away from the shell that's left of me.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo4wIjH1DTs
So I let her.
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