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February 14, 2005
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Same day
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I see her across the room. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwBgLVsdVnv
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Of course I see her.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHDn4D3jVCb
I always see her.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGhhEZ1CoYN
And she's just as fucking beautiful as always. Maybe even more so.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ64PKlbyZd4
Damn it.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl8PUK6Ct08
I need to stop looking at her. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS7Uu8pv2dD
This is fucking Valentine's Day. The Holiday for desperate chicks, so why the fuck am I sitting here alone?800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7AAi05Suth
You already know the answer to that, you fucking idiot. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtYds0yCJyP
Damn it.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNA9Fu3MVYL
I scan the room for the thousandth time. My gaze lands on her, like it always does. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtaCUaMTaJm
I want her so much, it physically hurts. I couldn't think about anyone else, even if I wanted to.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI7NCLkqxvm
I don't want to. I want her, only her. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMc2m5E69a
But I fucked it up. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCTk5LZW6p1
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Of course I fucked it up.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ57oe9fNxeh
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Because I'm a fucking idiot.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7w09c1NfOa
And now she really hates me. She's been avoiding me this whole time. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFx8uggx1PI
It feels like a fucking knife in my chest every time I see her and she's not near me.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ECfphkoPz
I need to touch her soft skin. I want to kiss her sexy lips. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRIMeYQzCtc
Can lips be sexy?800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM3JPPOfDME
I don't know, but hers are. Everything about her is perfect. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvpjs4T6FRy
I need her. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdCkgn8VWzB
A blonde approaches me, Karen, I think. Fuck, I don't know. Who cares. She pushes her arms up in an attempt to display more of her tits and any other time, I would have been interested.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlpt55QmA3a
It's feels like that was another life. Everything feels so different now.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCwB5lKuuhW
"Hey Ben." She says my name like it's supposed to mean something, but I couldn't care less about what she wants.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKaiQeSCdio
Oh shit, I think I may have fooled around with her before. Maybe?800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvpsMUcOpPZ
"Hey, sorry, I gotta go. See you around." I stand quickly without a plan of where to go, but I figure I can hide from everyone in my room. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRos2bP8Vbs
Even her.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcOuD9ijNx1
I close the door, locking everyone out and stumble to my bed in the dark. Shit, I drank too much trying to ignore the girl across the room. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1AvNvinn0
I feel something strange as I lay down...800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrwFVFWqzTk
I'm not alone. Fuck! Who the hell is in my bed?800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrSQkhS3fec
"Ben?" I hear her groggy voice and instantly relax. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrSvMG8oERP
"Kat? What the fuck? You scared the hell out of me!" Why is she in my bed? Was she sleeping?800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzMahmK82cD
"What are you doing here?" Her confusion coming through her scratchy voice.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9Gzqqxc82
"What do you mean? In case you forgot, this is my room." I'm too amused to be irritated. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡym7TMUgs7Q
"Oh." She seems to realize where she's at. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3MEiIS3jhR
"Oh." I chuckle. God, she's so fucking adorable.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhCVa1QzpHX
"Sorry." I can hear the embarrassment in her voice and even though I can't see her in the dark, I know she's blushing. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq4vkdyQNno
She moves, in a hurry to get up and probably run away from the asshole that I am. I need to make her stop. I don't want her to leave.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPt6KOYWpev
"What are you doing in here, Kat?" I hope my question will be enough of a reason to stay at least a few minutes longer. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGh9endYet6
It's not. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOIiO8B4zUC
She stands up quickly, just as a crash sounds through the room. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzljFdggZGM
"Oh shit! Ben, I think I knocked something over." I can hear her scurry around, feeling for whatever it was.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1qspocEYs
I laugh. Nothing in my room is that important. "Don't worry about it, Kat."800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdnO9k1BO9P
"Don't worry about it?!? I'm pretty sure there's broken glass down here!" She's frantically feeling around. She's going to get herself hurt.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6j3WQfzxaw
"That's all the more reason to not feel around in the dark. Seriously, Kat. It's fine. Stop before you hurt yourself." I hear her sigh, but she stops her movement. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7eyMiXTDYB
"Now, tell me. What were you doing laying in my bed? Not that I'm complaining." Shit, that last part wasn't supposed to come out.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcghtLw6TtL
I feel the bed sink next to me as she sits down. "I just needed to... get away."800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ3h5MrYOmY
"I know the feeling." I sigh. What I don't say is I was mostly trying to get away from her.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXt32bwqaWf
"You do? You know what it feels like for all you friends to be in happy relationships and worried about you and your sad pathetic life?" She lets out a huff. Damn. I was not expecting that.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxSFLjGVxH2
"Uh... Yes?" She gives a humorless chuckle and I can just see her eyes rolling. "Well, I mean, I kinda do. Actually. I guess I just never thought about it like that before."800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtXqR7xbiya
"Oh." Well, that shut her up, which would usually be a good thing, but I'm not sure what the fuck to say.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡunE0y1oZ9l
I decide to use this moment to beg for her forgiveness. "Listen, I just want to say, I am really sorry. For everything. I know you're not a fan of starting over, but do you think maybe you could forgive me?"800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWF1l8yWCxe
She scoffs. "Oh please, like its that easy. You don't even mean that."800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5zcbWzlek
"I do too. More than anything. What can I do to make it up to you?" I would do just about anything she asks, I just hope she does forgive me.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNAA0ZfRqd
"Nothing. There's nothing... at... all... Wait! I have an idea." I can hear the smile in her voice. Oh shit, why do I feel so nervous?800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVjbSa42TxT
She keeps talking, not waiting for my response. "Okay! Just hear me out before you say anything. Okay?"800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAeJ87q0rVw
Again, I couldn't get a word in before she barrels on. "Okay. So, I think we should date."800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwXzrtaWl47
I can't stop the sound that erupts from my chest. It's somewhere between a laugh and a choking sound. I'm so in shock that my body has broken.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIi5JlHcM6S
"I-uh... You-what?" Words. What are words? 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyfOnOxYUXt
"Okay, before you shut me down." I wasn't going to. "It's not real. We can just pretend to date."800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvCzT7KmTAZ
"Why the fuck would we do that?" Okay, now I'm really confused.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3DMe3JGLQs
"Because I really need this. And you said anything!" She throws my words back in my face.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOUBU5Yp9mE
I groan and rub my hands down my face. What the fuck did I just get myself in to? 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5HHeZeHypH
"Okay, okay. Just give me a minute... to... to..." To what? What the fuck is there to think about? I can't say no. "Just give me a minute to process... all of this."800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3s3VSoQfEm
"Sure, take your time." I feel her shift on the bed as she lays down. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyiJFRKpP2X
"Make yourself at home." I half joke, because I honestly don't mind her laying in my bed.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ZJNJko494
She just giggles, stretching out to get comfortable. Damn. I really missed that sound. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpNsCNI2WkK
I missed everything about her.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz79RFrSv6i
I'm going to have to do this. Pretend to be with the girl that I can't stop thinking about. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNhjcydOKnd
Shouldn't be too hard to fake feelings, it's the keeping them fake part that's going to be a struggle. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKUzr1b4wqf
"Why exactly do you need this?" I have a right to know why we are doing this, don't l?800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDUjl9F8h8
She sighs. "Does it really matter?" 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdVkq1Zirnc
"Before I agree to your crazy scheme, I need to know why we are doing it in the first place." Why can't it just be real? Of course, I don't say that out loud because I'm a huge pussy.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8rBUt4o077
"Okay, fair enough. Everyone has been treating me like I'm fragile since the whole... you know... happened." I lay down next to her on my back.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrmbPouSEk4
"The whole you know?" I'm completely confused. What the fuck is she talking about? 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGmY8UC1fQ
"You know... New Year's Eve?" She sounds embarrassed, but I still don't understand.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBlgmTSnyKa
"Why would they treat you differently because of that?" Maybe I'm missing something?800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBs0osdCCo
"Uh... because of... what happened... with you." Shit. This is all because of me? 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYbsuAG58KC
"Oh... I didn't... I didn't know." I can't believe she has been struggling and it's all my fault.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdpEzPvqAYQ
"So uhm... Yeah... They act like I'm going to break, so I'm sick of being pitied and worried about and I just want to be normal... And you can help with that. Two birds, one stone. You know?"800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvbEidO8bWK
"Uh, am I the birds or the stones here?" I chuckle. She's so weird sometimes. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mj5mD8u2W
She laughs. "Well, I guess the stone."800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN16b2hZSxu
"Okay, so what are the birds?" I'm barely able to hold my laughter in to get the sentence out.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX8WqQfuOfZ
"Wait. No. That's wrong. You're a bird!" She sounds excited, like she's made a huge discovery or something.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGWyW1bjap2
"So... I'm a bird now?" Seriously... She is the most adorable person I know.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEVAIhEIKmi
"Okay, everyone is worried about me because they think you broke my heart or whatever. So, bird one is you. And everyone pities me because I'm single. So, being a pathetic loser is bird two."800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0N5FsL89Rs
I turn on my side to face her. "You are not a pathetic loser." Completely ignoring the fact she said I broke her heart.800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRhURRaPhWJ
"I most certainly am. That's why I need this. If I can just throw the stone of our fake relationship at the birds, everything will be okay." Exhaustion fills her voice as she turns to face me. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEIYV8BugI
I can't help but notice we are only inches apart. I can feel her breath on my face. If I leaned forward a fraction of an inch, our noses would be touching. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjfOFXOGZhi
Shit. This is bad. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIfgn05m5Eq
Faking it is going to be so hard. 800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9jGvtT6wGK
"So... What do you say, Little Birdie? You in?" Her laugh echoing into the core of my being, reverberating and filling my chest.
I find her hand and pull it to my face, placing a kiss on it. "Let's throw that rock."800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbqDek340DS
I am so fucked.
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