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本人對於那件事的後續一點印象也沒有了,似乎打擊太大時大腦會啟動防衛機制喪失某些記憶,不過最重要的過程他都記得、甚至無法原諒自己,只忘卻後續善後的部分可說是毫無意義,或許僅僅是發現自己殺人的當下就昏過去了也說不定。59Please respect copyright.PENANAfaruACRrzy
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獨人不知道答案,警察也沒有告訴他,他只有在後續作筆錄的時候得知爸爸媽媽哭得很傷心,聽說他們加班到晚上九點多回家時,打開門就是一陣嗆鼻的血腥味,走到廚房發現獨人跪坐在地一動也不動,茉紅梨也是躺在他腿上靜止不動,以他們為中心蔓延的濃稠液體也有開始乾涸的跡象。59Please respect copyright.PENANAr0EcrAd1i4
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聽說爸媽沒有責怪他,甚至在醫護人員以及警察到場的時候持續幫他講話,雖然很激動也不知所措,甚至在整個現場犯人明顯到無論怎麼推測都會走向獨人殺了人的劇情上,他們依然站在他這邊,說肯定是有什麼誤會他不可能做這種傻事,就算真的發生了他也絕對不是故意的。59Please respect copyright.PENANA6C11jIqw5n
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除了忌妒天生擁有特別的個性之外,最讓獨人忌妒的就是爸媽的愛被茉紅梨搶走。可當知道了父母其實仍然深愛自己時,已經來不及了。59Please respect copyright.PENANAloJbF9UWbv
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在偵訊室裡將所有一切娓娓道來,獨人的表情悲傷到連負責偵訊的檢察官都開始憐憫,只不過一切早已為時已晚。59Please respect copyright.PENANAg5V0SLR2vX
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殺了人就必須受到法律的制裁,往後獨人必須以少年殺人犯身分出庭接受審判,在判刑之前他進了少年觀護所。59Please respect copyright.PENANAjz7I6E7bqi
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本以為一進去,直到判刑後行刑期滿之前都不可能獲得自由,結果因為獨人不僅態度極佳、甚至他善用自己敏銳的洞察力觀察正副所長的喜好並討他們歡心,終於在第二週取得了每週兩次在輔導員陪同下得以前往墓地祭拜的機會。
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「還是不吃嗎?」
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說話的人是每次掃墓都會遇到的春菅,要說他把這裡當家了都不為過。他總是帶著飯糰來,然後在遇到獨人時親切問候順便遞上一顆其中形狀最漂亮的。59Please respect copyright.PENANA130Q0YYSeM
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與在少年觀護所裏頭對人花言巧語的神態大相逕庭,獨人掃墓時總是沉默寡言,不僅拒絕春菅的好意,連話都不怎麼回。59Please respect copyright.PENANA84Z3pkU17v
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「你人真好呢,一週來祭拜兩次的人可沒幾個。」59Please respect copyright.PENANANj836AjDL8
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「……」59Please respect copyright.PENANAyqTJGPjAMd
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春菅邊大口嚼著被獨人拒絕的米飯與餡料,心直口快地道出心聲,不過這段不經大腦的發言在旁人耳裡聽來就像在諷刺:只有你閒閒沒事做能一直過來。獨人無語。59Please respect copyright.PENANAOuE9ICirXv
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「這樣說來,果然感情最好的還是我跟我老婆了呢。」他將食物嚥下,並為前一句話下了個總結。59Please respect copyright.PENANAwcgGwXEpGW
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獨人無意間聽到一聲嘆息,那是春菅的聲音,瞥眼看去,他望著妻子的墓露出最哀傷的微笑,眼神裡盡是滿溢的寂寞。59Please respect copyright.PENANAnDTWDgBXf3
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既然感情如此深刻,離別就得承擔相同份量的孤獨吧,獨人如此推測。他貌似能理解,卻又無法完全共感,畢竟他自己的情況肯定是複雜許多。59Please respect copyright.PENANA8a66wOzF7w
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一邊是懺悔、一邊是思念。比起自己,隔壁那位頹廢大叔的心靈是壓倒性的高尚,獨人就算想回話也沒資格對他做任何評論。59Please respect copyright.PENANAlVrp8PZLZ0
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眼看時間似乎差不多了,獨人從祭拜的跪姿站起,不料石磚地面有幾處凍結,正巧踩到光滑處,他失去平衡向前倒去——59Please respect copyright.PENANATEONfdANWQ
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「喂喂……你想陪她也不必這麼快就準備讓自己埋在她隔壁吧?」59Please respect copyright.PENANAfYxedVy8QP
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獨人聽到這句很冷的玩笑話時,他人已經站在稍遠一點的地方了。59Please respect copyright.PENANA6Gwi4DCwAa
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他不太明白發生了什麼,剛才滑倒時的視野由上往下急速翻轉,最後一刻入眼的是墓碑角落,是一個頭撞下去肯定會受傷的地方。59Please respect copyright.PENANA4wc6bh9Lws
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春菅握著他的手腕站在身旁,本來應該是站在距離他十公尺左右的位置才對。59Please respect copyright.PENANASvBZ2LPgkw
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雖然不清楚是怎麼辦到的,但顯然是那個人拉他一把,「……謝謝。」59Please respect copyright.PENANALfwCKTWZaU
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「沒事就好。」59Please respect copyright.PENANA19mx7vh5ji
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「是你的個性嗎?」59Please respect copyright.PENANAkFAO59nBad
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春菅不知為何臉色沉了下來,「瞬間移動而已,也不是什麼大不了的個性。」59Please respect copyright.PENANA6pTiZq9BP5
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剛才春菅的舉動就像個英雄,利用個性拯救他人,甚至讓獨人想起了茉紅梨,他開始疑惑為什麼這個人可以謙虛到這個地步。59Please respect copyright.PENANAglgmX24Qm0
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突然想起了什麼,獨人的眼眸睜大了些。59Please respect copyright.PENANAD8SBDylS36
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「瞬間移動……難道你是職業英雄嗎?」59Please respect copyright.PENANALmZ8hzVFoF
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這個問句顯然引起春菅的不悅,比剛才臉色更加沈重,不過並不是針對獨人的負面情緒,只是有些哀愁,「為什麼這麼問?」59Please respect copyright.PENANAByXCIxx6LK
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「有個英雄的個性也是瞬間移動,我不知道長相,他低調過了頭,這讓我有點無法理解。」59Please respect copyright.PENANAGpUxgXrSLZ
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在少年觀護所裡需要上心靈矯正課程,其中有提及一些不為人知的英雄。59Please respect copyright.PENANAONxv4A3FJk
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垂下眼簾的春菅一臉滄桑,伸手撫向墓碑上的名字,獨人這才發現他們現在移動到的是春菅每次都佇足許久的位置——他祭拜的墓前。59Please respect copyright.PENANAgy5iPySczH
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「我妻子一直希望我當英雄幫助他人,不過我倒是一點興趣也沒有,所以遲遲沒有去考執照。」59Please respect copyright.PENANAxaPqvIhkbc
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都講到這份上了,春菅等於間接承認剛才的英雄身份問題,所以獨人露出認真的表情,決定當個稱職的傾聽人,等待故事的後續。59Please respect copyright.PENANAzPPfgf5I2P
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「幾年前某天在下班的顛峰時間,我妻子搭乘的公車被敵人挾持了,雖然英雄救了絕大部分的人質,但她還是不幸成為極少數的犧牲者。」59Please respect copyright.PENANA5fsbag7Sm0
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春菅顫抖的嗓音從緊咬的齒縫中發出。59Please respect copyright.PENANASbZDkqVXu3
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「可以瞬間移動的我在收到通知趕去時已經來不及了。」59Please respect copyright.PENANAZuvuLuPswT
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回想起那不堪回首的過去,春菅臉上的憔悴與不修邊幅的面容十分相襯,看来能力所及卻沒有辦到的事,遠比起無能為力還要更悔恨。59Please respect copyright.PENANACwKwaohrf7
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「雖然遲了,但我當英雄只是為了遵從她的希望,甚至盡可能去挽救一些性命減少我這樣的悲劇吧。」59Please respect copyright.PENANAvjtDnSo496
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獨人瞥向春菅手指輕柔觸碰的位置,那是他妻子的名字,聽起來是個美人擁有的名字,「癒花小姐她肯定很幸福。」59Please respect copyright.PENANAK60IEXg8JF
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日日前來祭拜並奉上最真誠的思念,想必天上的妻子一定感受到這份祝福了吧。59Please respect copyright.PENANA54lKL3dH0v
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「謝謝你,獨人。」春菅喪著眉努力擠出微笑回敬,可獨人卻從目光中感受到了同情,這份情感令他感到彆扭之外,也順道解開了某些不自然之處。59Please respect copyright.PENANAOS342LJ7gQ
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——「茉紅梨肯定也很幸福。」據獨人觀察,人們通常會回覆這般客套話,可春菅什麼也沒說。59Please respect copyright.PENANANDcgZKfL5C
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仔細想想,似乎從雙方自我介紹過後,春菅就再也沒稱讚過獨人與茉紅梨之間的關係了。 59Please respect copyright.PENANAMA19NJoUNI
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沈默半晌,獨人終於做好心理準備,深吸一口氣。59Please respect copyright.PENANAs8chHujCWE
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「我……」59Please respect copyright.PENANACn29AMbtU9
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高三的少年有著已變聲完的渾厚嗓音,蘊含著對自己的憤怒與不可饒恕,聲音經喉頭擠壓顯得有些沙啞。59Please respect copyright.PENANAu6fUvHvmb6
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「殺了茉紅梨。」59Please respect copyright.PENANAOTgl7bCgsV
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已經沒有什麼比這還要可怕的事情了,獨人總是無神的黑眸此時無所畏懼直直凝視對方,看春菅那張貌似早已知道真相、內心無波瀾的表情,獨人就明白自己的推測是對的。59Please respect copyright.PENANAybSkegXw8v
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「你早就知道了吧?伊堂先生。」59Please respect copyright.PENANAerE2A8MMu5
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「嗯,抱歉。」春菅回覆地簡短。59Please respect copyright.PENANAvsu3DIN0al
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春菅當初認為獨人的祭拜之人是女朋友,尚未取得法律上的連結,等同於擁有各自不同姓氏。獨人對陌生人自我介紹卻不連名帶姓說出只道了個名,此舉動毫無禮節可言,春菅卻不以為意,非但沒追問甚至一樣只報上後面的名字。59Please respect copyright.PENANA2fItwZjbsa
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而剛才將過去娓娓到來時他說了,那個墓是屬於妻子「伊堂癒花」的,換言之,就算本人從未親口說出,獨人也能明白春菅的姓氏。59Please respect copyright.PENANAwB064eIvPw
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當初獨人刻意隱瞞姓氏也是避免春菅發現他與茉紅梨的親屬連結,他認為做出弒親這種舉動的自己不具備擔任她家人的資格。59Please respect copyright.PENANAQJJAs68ETP
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「……這樣啊。」59Please respect copyright.PENANAfODX8cui9H
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春菅在得知獨人名字後只是如此回應。59Please respect copyright.PENANA6GbSzJSqV9
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這是個奇怪的反應,彷彿是在說「原來你就是獨人啊」,不過他當時反應也有些惆悵,或許是在說「原來你是她哥哥呀」,無論哪種都表示春菅已經知道“獨人”是誰了。59Please respect copyright.PENANAgjpcJRy2vQ
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「請問是我家人來這裡參拜時說了什麼嗎?」59Please respect copyright.PENANAmEGfr49Brx
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無論原因為何,想要知道真相也只有鼓起勇氣一問了,不過少年語氣裡聽不出那年紀該有的好奇,反倒只像隨口問問。59Please respect copyright.PENANAW4AOVftoWv
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「他們常提到你的名字。」見對方本是黯淡的目光更為失色,春菅立刻補充:「總是在上香時對墓碑說著『獨人已經在贖罪了,請原諒他』或是『哥哥沒有討厭妳,他跟我們一樣愛妳』之類的話。」59Please respect copyright.PENANArCZ5j53TbT
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儘管沒有惡意,隨後追加的問句對被問話者而言宛如尖銳審問。59Please respect copyright.PENANAcUdR3qQanm
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「是這樣的吧?」59Please respect copyright.PENANAPcUne27nBE
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這是個過於赤裸的疑問,知曉全部原因的話或許就不會如此開口了,獨人將這舉動歸咎於春菅把一切當成意外所致。59Please respect copyright.PENANAyOtargtsuf
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哥哥沒有討厭妳。59Please respect copyright.PENANAqYeZQvvjrB
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哥哥已經在贖罪了。59Please respect copyright.PENANApToOiVprdj
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現在所有針對茉紅梨的負面情緒早已隨著她的生命一同消逝,沒有討厭她,但曾經討厭她。59Please respect copyright.PENANA1YDmikWT8N
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以一週兩次的高頻率過來參拜,在心裡頭糾結無數次懺悔,光是這樣就能稱作贖罪嗎?59Please respect copyright.PENANAf4mduLAHCi
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「是不是如此……光用口頭是無法證明什麼的。」59Please respect copyright.PENANAlCWszqFqOE
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得不出答案的那人無法用是與否來回應。59Please respect copyright.PENANAZpP7CHLSVn
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獨人從春菅身旁緩步走回妹妹的墓前,就算可能再次滑倒也不畏懼,他從擺放在一旁的水桶中用木勺舀起匙水澆淋在石碑上,從平面向外四散的水染深了石塊,深色區域一路蔓延至旁邊的垂直面。59Please respect copyright.PENANAfPLNJmEnxl
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「我親手了結茉紅梨生命的這件事是個事實,不論再怎麼悔改都無法改變事實的。」59Please respect copyright.PENANAwsFqsM2Bfn
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「不,我沒有要苛責你的意思……」59Please respect copyright.PENANAZ1w0Xphe02
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「請不要再跟我說話了,跟成為英雄到處拯救性命的伊堂先生不同,我不只一點都不高尚,自私自利、甚至還動手殺了妹妹。這樣的我可沒資格跟你說話。」59Please respect copyright.PENANA1YmwNWAAU3
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一把將木勺扔進水桶裡發出與此靜謐之處格外不搭的吵雜聲響,獨人拉起水桶手把,提著工具準備離開。59Please respect copyright.PENANA18DZ62oorC
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「剛才我滑倒的時候拉了我一把,真的很謝謝你,伊堂先生。」59Please respect copyright.PENANANtEW4mmgei
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背對著如此說道的他不想對上視線,因為他不小心遷怒了。59Please respect copyright.PENANAAvejGHmmw3
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方才春菅訴說著父母來這裡時的所作所為,這讓獨人不禁安下心來,事到如今他的家人仍願意當他的後盾,這是多麼令人動容的事。59Please respect copyright.PENANAzn59GxtJxW
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而他也差點跟著原諒自己。59Please respect copyright.PENANAfEpKVM8SpW
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意識到可悲的逃避思想後不自覺對自己生氣。59Please respect copyright.PENANArWzUU5qBcj
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「我先走了,失禮了。」59Please respect copyright.PENANAd3oF2FJ65a
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最後,獨人只能帶著這份怒氣黯然離去。
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