第十一章 承諾篇 第十四回 諮詢55Please respect copyright.PENANAfltJIVwd74
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鍾媽媽看著情緒日記55Please respect copyright.PENANATTzNC8aNnq
發現李湘渝這幾個月來55Please respect copyright.PENANAGMTWuoJ9Hu
都過度積極的控制情緒55Please respect copyright.PENANAQm0W6EiwmB
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雖然發作的頻率有點減少55Please respect copyright.PENANAqYhBmFFldn
但始終幻覺痛的情況令人擔憂55Please respect copyright.PENANAuMJawTwYX6
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「傷口的幻覺痛頻率如何?」55Please respect copyright.PENANAIWTvJYsNuB
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「每天都有…」55Please respect copyright.PENANAxAEV4HWzG8
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「比起剛出院55Please respect copyright.PENANAG121366l8Q
或上個月55Please respect copyright.PENANAjQ1ySP55pl
有好轉嗎?」55Please respect copyright.PENANAzrexnxBAO7
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「好像…差不多…」55Please respect copyright.PENANAKNHJlZucfi
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「十級的話55Please respect copyright.PENANA4lRazNBIkU
有多少級痛?」55Please respect copyright.PENANAtJYW9XWb2N
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「大概…有試過持續七至八級左右55Please respect copyright.PENANAd0vPn7vrkl
試過幾次真的很痛…」55Please respect copyright.PENANA9JLP2CiF5S
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鍾媽媽看了看李湘渝勉強的笑容55Please respect copyright.PENANAYqeO0TdEYI
掩飾不了他憔悴及不安的眼神55Please respect copyright.PENANAh0XdhhZReS
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「已持續兩個月了55Please respect copyright.PENANAPcXfVGHhRF
是吧?」55Please respect copyright.PENANAlBhA2sYCSY
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「嗯…」55Please respect copyright.PENANANhESgneXx5
李湘渝點點頭55Please respect copyright.PENANA5bRA2We23Z
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小時候的事55Please respect copyright.PENANAB61b0Wc4c6
實在記得太清楚55Please respect copyright.PENANAGCHdXRicSh
印象太深刻55Please respect copyright.PENANATlkV5Ettsk
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而且幻覺痛發作的時候55Please respect copyright.PENANAae3j4Gal8N
彷彿提醒著自己55Please respect copyright.PENANAJLTvzFgRaD
不斷的重溫事發經過55Please respect copyright.PENANACuLAVpWE46
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加上被陳俊言和洪文健的欺凌和恐嚇55Please respect copyright.PENANA1NCa0phXTi
精神一直都維持在繃緊的狀態55Please respect copyright.PENANAB4bHhJWt3q
沒有一刻可以放鬆下來55Please respect copyright.PENANAhS9JPReTj6
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鍾媽媽再次仔細翻看著55Please respect copyright.PENANAIHd4pALtjb
自從幻聽出現後的日記55Please respect copyright.PENANAIU9nOlzJBb
看得出李湘渝心裡55Please respect copyright.PENANAkZBUSwWh8q
是極度的恐慌55Please respect copyright.PENANA03V0bEwM4T
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從字裡行間裡55Please respect copyright.PENANA30XnKKv6r7
李湘渝透露出的是55Please respect copyright.PENANAUbIG08x85z
逃避現實55Please respect copyright.PENANAYzeQ9rWAD4
置之不理55Please respect copyright.PENANAT7vdxDEXA8
過份抑壓情緒55Please respect copyright.PENANARu7gm9Ffih
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「湘渝55Please respect copyright.PENANAoY2vInDXfi
欺騙誰也可以55Please respect copyright.PENANAq6mLeKS1kM
但就是不能欺騙自己55Please respect copyright.PENANAb92vD2LF4I
要對自己誠實」55Please respect copyright.PENANAPTmIK2jkYg
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「嗯…」55Please respect copyright.PENANAlfzQC6TMJE
李湘渝低著頭55Please respect copyright.PENANASCXQCffnTs
點了一下頭55Please respect copyright.PENANAQAEG8minVg
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「有點勉強自己了嗎?55Please respect copyright.PENANAlg2PSNVFW0
在逃避嗎?」55Please respect copyright.PENANAC9bOiZULVt
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李湘渝沉默著55Please respect copyright.PENANAXtqlQ1JIfW
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鍾媽媽也安靜的觀察他的微表情55Please respect copyright.PENANAslYse8l4HI
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李湘渝思考了一會55Please respect copyright.PENANA89yFBbLO54
點了點頭55Please respect copyright.PENANAWC1PZCNnqn
「嗯…」55Please respect copyright.PENANAWUVJ4KGlch
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「有什麼原因55Please respect copyright.PENANA9qxY2mnPq1
令你想逃避?」55Please respect copyright.PENANAWmsYfFtY30
鍾媽媽溫柔的說55Please respect copyright.PENANA6j4bcHHC90
「或者55Please respect copyright.PENANAaD1k1ovz9l
最近有沒有事情想跟我分享?」55Please respect copyright.PENANAixw20n0LH6
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李湘渝低著頭55Please respect copyright.PENANAW400fTBWZa
手按在昨天傷口的位置上55Please respect copyright.PENANA78rs5QwepQ
「我…」55Please respect copyright.PENANADvk77Slml2
突然低壓情緒湧了上來55Please respect copyright.PENANAsw7hZJ2GRX
「很…55Please respect copyright.PENANAu6Qtb3VhPP
累了…」55Please respect copyright.PENANA0MYquC6Dr1
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「所以昨天55Please respect copyright.PENANAt4phPSo48T
控制不住要傷害自己嗎?」55Please respect copyright.PENANAUJUEWOg8e3
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李湘渝點了點頭55Please respect copyright.PENANAUXBCIdk4j9
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「昨天有過輕生的念頭嗎?」55Please respect copyright.PENANAfMF6ao3yi5
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李湘渝的眼流湧出來了55Please respect copyright.PENANA5Kqu1kTVs3
抹著眼淚55Please respect copyright.PENANAaPYsFQKY2S
搖著頭否認55Please respect copyright.PENANAYBs5z9m7g2
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鍾媽媽昨天看到他的情況和反應55Please respect copyright.PENANAMsipob8Bqg
已經知道他經歷過想結束自己生命的掙扎55Please respect copyright.PENANATaTYXYXmW3
只不過在鍾天程面前55Please respect copyright.PENANAqvcLESzAGl
不適宜直接問他55Please respect copyright.PENANAighTxciKSR
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「在這裡說的話55Please respect copyright.PENANAAIihdU69y4
我是不會跟天程說的」55Please respect copyright.PENANAXJVbZ4uL9i
鍾媽媽知道礙於身份問題55Please respect copyright.PENANAwT1RDqYcF7
李湘渝開始對她有所保留和隱瞞55Please respect copyright.PENANA9DYLhUqGak
「你可以放心的告訴我55Please respect copyright.PENANAfjtIePpqtq
我有責任保障你的私隱55Please respect copyright.PENANAqLlAGB4tLR
就算他是我的兒子55Please respect copyright.PENANAu98WBPxSBC
我也不可以告訴他55Please respect copyright.PENANATsCYrnsOpO
這是我的專業操守」55Please respect copyright.PENANArKNyxHYvRj
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李湘渝繼續低著頭55Please respect copyright.PENANAVHLTbQk2VX
「對不起…」55Please respect copyright.PENANAA6M23hyHzq
為自己的撒謊而道歉55Please respect copyright.PENANAVkkZ8AUI0z
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「乖孩子55Please respect copyright.PENANAHn8fi0FwO1
不要怕去面對55Please respect copyright.PENANAcVpQzAL9Iw
要坦誠接受自己的情緒55Please respect copyright.PENANAJxRP8UQZqc
知道嗎?」55Please respect copyright.PENANARgiQ6zq3Y6
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李湘渝沉默了一會55Please respect copyright.PENANAn6YrDmdHEa
緩緩的說著55Please respect copyright.PENANA6MfxCpPov5
「我…很怕…」55Please respect copyright.PENANADCe2w2frlX
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「你在怕什麼?」55Please respect copyright.PENANA1mEsx4W5wg
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李湘渝的思緒有點混亂55Please respect copyright.PENANAJgnP61VJlb
「不…不知道…55Please respect copyright.PENANABIPEzjcpkM
就是…很怕…」55Please respect copyright.PENANAOCKQIbhfjE
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鍾媽媽安靜的讓他說55Please respect copyright.PENANAm5JRnHUumv
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「真的…很討厭自己…55Please respect copyright.PENANAFjswnOrJQI
很麻煩…」55Please respect copyright.PENANA4d8ByJzrGb
李湘渝忍哭著說55Please respect copyright.PENANAaTgWDm3x2j
眼睛和鼻子也迅速的紅起來55Please respect copyright.PENANA9ZwIEtMncN
「我真的…55Please respect copyright.PENANAl59xAIdFQM
一點用處也沒有…55Please respect copyright.PENANANX8VCRzGWG
我是…一個負累…」55Please respect copyright.PENANAGVIiZLsDW5
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鍾媽媽聽著也心痛起來55Please respect copyright.PENANALYX9FC5OY2
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「我知…我不可以這樣想…55Please respect copyright.PENANAOdAYey503g
我也想…拋棄這個想法…55Please respect copyright.PENANANhkqNXyfIq
可是…我…」55Please respect copyright.PENANALa8DgJCgFe
李湘渝看著鍾媽媽55Please respect copyright.PENANA3kB2ERYaQx
「我…做不到…」55Please respect copyright.PENANAoVvqm8Mj3m
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鍾媽媽點頭示意明白55Please respect copyright.PENANAfim3DId6H9
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「我…真的…55Please respect copyright.PENANAQ4b2NcPjBq
很累…了啊…」55Please respect copyright.PENANAOFL5eYXOoo
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「可以告訴我嗎?55Please respect copyright.PENANAfYujKyuHwj
昨天的經過是怎樣的?」55Please respect copyright.PENANA1A8AGjvUyO
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李湘渝愣了一下55Please respect copyright.PENANA1B34DpylW8
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鍾媽媽慢慢的引導他55Please respect copyright.PENANAuFmy3bF7ZW
「是幻覺痛了嗎?」55Please respect copyright.PENANAaFOlp6Q7X8
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「昨天…傷口很痛…55Please respect copyright.PENANAmAm91n8iJe
痛了很久…55Please respect copyright.PENANAuA2zFNFrb2
整個下午都在痛…55Please respect copyright.PENANAtHQ5dGKV1D
痛得…55Please respect copyright.PENANACcLdkgit7d
那鐵枝好像仍然插在背部那樣…」55Please respect copyright.PENANAZsKNiC9O6L
李湘渝慢慢的說出來55Please respect copyright.PENANAXILlNqHHpi
哽咽著55Please respect copyright.PENANAPu3tSlhwvi
「我…真的…55Please respect copyright.PENANAJtOkwd0f5A
忍受不了…55Please respect copyright.PENANAI59GUXnRgY
不想再忍受下去了…」55Please respect copyright.PENANA739zlV1VqS
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「然後你用了什麼傷害自己?」55Please respect copyright.PENANAReUM3UkqRF
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「我在書枱上55Please respect copyright.PENANAGS3eB8O1Qq
隨便拿起了鐵尺55Please respect copyright.PENANA72T2XPclzR
便開始…弄痛自己…」55Please respect copyright.PENANANiharY8TO6
李湘渝回想著昨晚55Please respect copyright.PENANAMYfh89kyuH
那種痛好像又要開始了55Please respect copyright.PENANA7O6rQCGcV6
「好像…變得沒那麼痛了…」55Please respect copyright.PENANAW8CkkyP3p6
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鍾媽媽坐近一點55Please respect copyright.PENANADURov22Uot
「然後?」55Please respect copyright.PENANAqXFxbPa9m2
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「然後…又變得很痛…55Please respect copyright.PENANAfWRj93hsPD
全身也在痛…55Please respect copyright.PENANAB3cX1SRDk2
很辛苦…」55Please respect copyright.PENANAZ5ppXYidEr
李湘渝握緊了拳頭55Please respect copyright.PENANABP5c2KSpjt
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「嗯」55Please respect copyright.PENANAI9zvh1KhY7
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「我想…用鎅刀…55Please respect copyright.PENANAh3o6cGAiZi
在手腕上…割一下…」55Please respect copyright.PENANA8zNz5cYnKk
李湘渝哭了出來55Please respect copyright.PENANAqPBtVpP0Fe
「那…我便…以後…55Please respect copyright.PENANAQp887PbjIb
都不用再痛了…」55Please respect copyright.PENANANjb05y7EgK
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鍾媽媽專業的保持冷靜55Please respect copyright.PENANAVtgo4Xv06w
停頓一下55Please respect copyright.PENANAKj9a9AQoSd
再續問55Please respect copyright.PENANAyhBaCRvhHD
「是發生了什麼事55Please respect copyright.PENANAyeWAcmDkN3
讓你停下來嗎?」55Please respect copyright.PENANAdYZf99M9a2
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「我…在筆袋裡找著…55Please respect copyright.PENANA6wSZUJ7Y1J
看到了…55Please respect copyright.PENANAJro3evetw2
師兄…寫給我的信…」55Please respect copyright.PENANAZd1CQkwGnA
李湘渝激動的哭著55Please respect copyright.PENANArs28i0dNtf
「是他…的…信…」55Please respect copyright.PENANAQrJs63DiR4
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鍾媽媽心也揪著的痛55Please respect copyright.PENANAZMwLoLplt8
給李湘渝遞上了紙巾55Please respect copyright.PENANA6VfwZJve0X
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「你看到了天程給你的信55Please respect copyright.PENANAKIHhPwM0NY
然後便停了下來55Please respect copyright.PENANAID5UR3y10N
對嗎?」55Please respect copyright.PENANAXhrbluycmy
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李湘渝接過紙巾55Please respect copyright.PENANAxLLZhqquTY
點著頭55Please respect copyright.PENANAdfinYr31cC
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「那封信令你想起了什麼?55Please respect copyright.PENANATRKahSsc9Z
促使你停下來55Please respect copyright.PENANAwzjk0jph01
令你選擇繼續忍受痛苦」55Please respect copyright.PENANAwrjn6yGgct
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「我記得…55Please respect copyright.PENANArmxqvT2jpN
無論我怎樣放棄自己…55Please respect copyright.PENANAotVWnwqGZ9
他都會…在我的身邊…55Please respect copyright.PENANAUOFvIYe9rF
不會離棄我…」55Please respect copyright.PENANAOBjdmYyQ75
李湘渝痛哭著說55Please respect copyright.PENANA5lBf2QDNh4
「上次…爸爸打我那晚…55Please respect copyright.PENANAoKum0aABGA
是他說…55Please respect copyright.PENANAm3DvJVJrs8
明明知道了…看到了…55Please respect copyright.PENANAZIxnHOlNUM
不能什麼也不做…55Please respect copyright.PENANAH5alS7xEPt
便讓我回家去…」55Please respect copyright.PENANAClCL5on0ui
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鍾媽媽聽著李湘渝的宣洩55Please respect copyright.PENANApG1UyfPZPJ
感歎著愛情的力量55Please respect copyright.PENANAfxVThzYugs
影響力實在很大55Please respect copyright.PENANAKe7BFJj4XY
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幸而鍾天程的愛55Please respect copyright.PENANAic0G4R0P58
能夠承載著這個重擔55Please respect copyright.PENANAlWcclXE0c8
分擔著李湘渝的壓力55Please respect copyright.PENANAt2qODIfsJ4
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而李湘渝亦從鍾天程的愛裡55Please respect copyright.PENANAPa5ALfbxqT
得到了很強的力量55Please respect copyright.PENANAdD5R0DlRUL
有了寄託55Please respect copyright.PENANAQxAzHweTDm
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要不然55Please respect copyright.PENANAoO1AfbOKg6
李湘渝可能早在幾個月前55Please respect copyright.PENANAeJBV2hQhVO
已經離開了這個世界55Please respect copyright.PENANAxDvZaQUwKi
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「我知道…如果那個時候…55Please respect copyright.PENANAsg17dO8Ux7
他在我的旁邊的話…55Please respect copyright.PENANAol7bcFDdJb
他會毫不猶豫的…55Please respect copyright.PENANAVjm9qBNTCr
抱著我…55Please respect copyright.PENANALthqjXz4Xn
不讓我傷害自己…」55Please respect copyright.PENANAjf3YCVjmgM
李湘渝仍在痛哭著55Please respect copyright.PENANA6yxX1oZ5VT
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鍾媽媽坐在李湘渝的旁邊55Please respect copyright.PENANAC4NTXq7Gov
握著他的手55Please respect copyright.PENANAxMshlQqHpP
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「我還記得…55Please respect copyright.PENANAVCaL0tabeR
在天台那時…55Please respect copyright.PENANAg7s4DgnoAP
他…55Please respect copyright.PENANAen6hAkOk8Q
他……」55Please respect copyright.PENANAFWfC7BEsM7
李湘渝泣不成聲55Please respect copyright.PENANAZxWZDE0MeV
覺得自己愧對了鍾天程55Please respect copyright.PENANAwbtIV7X0w9
不斷的哭著55Please respect copyright.PENANAAvfwje6mBl
哭得難以呼吸55Please respect copyright.PENANAxjzWKOWYBW
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鍾媽媽讓李湘渝盡情發洩悲痛55Please respect copyright.PENANA1qrkalTfYM
輕掃著他的背55Please respect copyright.PENANA50u5aES2eX
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一會55Please respect copyright.PENANA5bUGIowsr5
待李湘渝情緒平伏後55Please respect copyright.PENANAEETsqDIFZM
鍾媽媽溫柔的說55Please respect copyright.PENANAGf0Ynf9Cyb
「謝謝你對我誠實55Please respect copyright.PENANAYpWxZ70gn6
亦謝謝你選擇繼續活著」55Please respect copyright.PENANAcK9YYwmOgM
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李湘渝低著頭55Please respect copyright.PENANANknezxlLBz
擦著眼睛55Please respect copyright.PENANAW7q8yJWNS3
「不…我…55Please respect copyright.PENANAzY8zsArIuj
很沒用…」55Please respect copyright.PENANAOLifR8esZv
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「湘渝55Please respect copyright.PENANAf61VAT2vmc
你真的很勇敢55Please respect copyright.PENANAqsnADo8h2I
而且55Please respect copyright.PENANAMXrbOmPpcx
你也有很堅強的信念55Please respect copyright.PENANA3clAWXRIDt
只是一時有點迷失55Please respect copyright.PENANAzEJpXwBAVc
加上幻覺痛55Please respect copyright.PENANA3iQpCMItMo
令你軟弱了」55Please respect copyright.PENANALwvOHX2Chx
鍾媽媽撫摸著他的頭55Please respect copyright.PENANAw2p1k382QV
「我非常欣賞你的堅強55Please respect copyright.PENANACQOvuEx3Nr
因為這是真的不容易啊」55Please respect copyright.PENANAOWx852wi5K
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李湘渝慢慢的停著哭泣55Please respect copyright.PENANA4cZpyfO69x
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「這件事55Please respect copyright.PENANAwR1RaONT76
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