Taylor's POV
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The bugaboo fox is the pram for me. I've decided and so Jay is ordering it. We're still in the baby shop, I didn’t quite realise how much this gear is going to cost. Especially since Jay wants high end, branded stuff.
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I'm looking at the vests and baby grows whilst he is ordering the car seat. He's pretty good with shopping, he knows his stuff already on baby gear and I smile walking over to him holding onto a few baby clothes. Little hats and socks.
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The salesman smiles at me and I stand next to Jay his arm goes around me.
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"Yes so could we choose delivery nearer the time" Jay enquirers.
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"Of course when would you like the items to arrive sir" Greg, the salesmen asks. In this store the staff are impeccably dressed.
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"Say 4 months time" Jay says looking at me for help.
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I smile.
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"Yes that should work" I say.
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"Of course" Greg replies sorting it all out on the computer.
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"What was your colour choice ?" He smiles.
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"I like the black but it's up to you" Jay says smiling at me.
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"Black is neutral and classic" I say softly.
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"But" he laughs.
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"No it is totally impractical" I laugh.
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"You like the cream" he says reading my mind.
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“I like the cream colour” I say to him smiling.
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Jay smiles at me.
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“The fabric is pretty stain resistant to be fair and it’s all wipe clean” Greg informs me smiling.
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“The cream then” Jay smiles looking at me.
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I nod and stroke his arm. We order all of the extras including a footmuff which zips up to keep baby warm. The car seat with pram adaptors so that we can clip it to the pram chassis. I thought I would be most excited about the pram but the bassinets and the cribs are just as cute. I imagine tucking in a little baby and watching them sleep.
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Once everything is ordered, several thousands of pounds later we browse the clothes and sleep sacks.
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“What’ve you picked already” he smiles.
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“Little socks and baby grows” I smile showing him and he holds the tiny clothes in his hands.
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“They’re so tiny” he says.
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Naturally I am drawn to the blue and he begins picking up all the baby pink stuff.
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“Maybe we buy gender neutral, until we know” I say.
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“You wanna find out” he teases me.
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“I do I think you’re right, painting the room and buying the clothes I think actually it makes sense” I say.
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I turn to him unbelieving this man is mine and is going to be the father of my children. I see his smile which has softened since being with me; the once boyish brute that I used to meet only at parties has become the centre of my universe. The reason I’m happy.
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“That’s actually really good because I’m impatient” He laughs.
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We purchase some socks and vests in neutral colours and then we head to an Italian, my choice, for lunch. He orders, he just knows what I like. And I’m busy browsing my phone at the time.
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I look up at him, he’s thinking about something and my face falls. His usual calm self assured expression is replaced by one I almost don’t recognise on him. He strokes his blonde hair back.
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“You okay, Jay” I say softly reaching my hands out.
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He smiles at me.
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“I’m fine” he says but I’m not leaving it there.
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I stroke his hands in mine. Softly, my approach is going to be gentle.
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“I can’t explain it Taylor. I just felt a bit confused. Temporarily. It’s nothing I promise. I actually don’t think it’s even a thing.” He mumbles.
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“You’ve just come out of hospital with a head injury Jay” I say
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“It must be related, but it’s okay we can sort it” I say softly.
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“Just you being here helps” he smiles. I stroke his arms across the table.
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“Let’s just keep an eye on it. I’m gonna look after you” I say. He smiles softly.
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“No I’m supposed to look after you” he says.
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“And you do, always so think of it as pay back” I smile.
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Our food arrives and we move our hands smiling at the waiter. He’s ordered me truffle pasta, because the man knows me so well. We eat heartily after our shopping and I keep a close eye on him. Just to be double sure that he’s not having another episode of confusion.
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Of course I’m worried, that this might become a part of our lives. That he might not get over it. And it will all be my fault again. I fork some more pasta and eat it watching him.
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“No Taylor” he says.
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“Don’t you do that this is not your fault” he says.
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“How is it you can read my mind” I say
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“Because I’m very good at deciphering your thoughts from your body language” he smiles.
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“Firstly this isn’t your fault, and second I’m not confused anymore there’s nothing to be worried about” he smiles.
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“Are you sure” I say to him concerned.
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“Hundred percent” he smiles.
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“Eat” he smirks at me.
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“Don’t worry about me” he adds.
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We finish our lunch in peace. I cannot shake the worries I have over him. I decide if there’s another problem I will call DR forester and ask his opinion.
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Once we’re finished we head back to the car, we’re in the Audi. I watch him, not too closely but just in case. I’ve not seen him look lost before ever. He’s the most self assured person I know. And lost isn’t something I ever associate with him.
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“We need to give our home a name” I say to him.
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He smirks.
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“A name?” He asks.
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“You know we used to call the lake house that because of the lake. We need a new name for this one” I laugh.
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“Hmmm okay” he smiles humouring me.
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“What about cherry tree house” he smiles
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“Jay you are great with names” I laugh.
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“We have cherry blossoms, it’s a feature” he smiles.
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“Our cherry tree house” he says softly.
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“I like it” I smile running my hand up his thigh.
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He winks at me and I smile. Gazing out of the window I watch the sun hide behind the clouds, we’ll be back home at cherry tree house soon and I can’t wait to spend another evening with just him.
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