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Some of my colleagues 335Please respect copyright.PENANA2UpYjcH5HV
believe that humans cannot repress memories. That memories which are 335Please respect copyright.PENANAF8awByQP9X
remembered with the help of someone are just implanted through 335Please respect copyright.PENANACEdyov74jw
suggestion or hypnosis.335Please respect copyright.PENANA6eyB5WnP0r
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Utter none sense I say! In a world where335Please respect copyright.PENANAnDpxYf9qkl
ether exists, some find it hardest to believe that we humans can 335Please respect copyright.PENANAP4JgM5ETZr
repress our memories. Those scientists and professors are too arrogant 335Please respect copyright.PENANAntMgl9jIvF
to admit that we know nothing of the brain and what it can do. They want335Please respect copyright.PENANAVokyWGkgxm
me to prove without certainty of a doubt that humans can repress 335Please respect copyright.PENANAcMFggstPhJ
memories. Well to that I say, I want them to prove that it cannot. For I335Please respect copyright.PENANAGXa5IY5S2H
am not arrogant enough to state I know everything about our brains 335Please respect copyright.PENANAhATc4kUJoi
capabilities.335Please respect copyright.PENANAXyGDtgnbak
'Notes from a lecture by Sig Frind on memories at the Royal Commonwealth College."335Please respect copyright.PENANAkG1dK3snjV
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David awakened. Not 335Please respect copyright.PENANA27g5m4gg1V
wanting to get up out of fear of the wounds and disfigurations he 335Please respect copyright.PENANAnWHLjWz3jN
suffered. He closed his eyes. Ignoring reality, ignoring the inevitable,335Please respect copyright.PENANAdXAUtnHxDC
ignoring the pain....wait. David risked moving his hands in front of 335Please respect copyright.PENANAOIry0qTu5b
his face and all the fingers were there. Not only that his hands were 335Please respect copyright.PENANApmvOsf95fC
undamaged.335Please respect copyright.PENANAYWPinR8bz6
"Only your physical body335Please respect copyright.PENANAVuat16ZWBi
was damaged, your ether form is safe." A voice broke David's 335Please respect copyright.PENANA44i45Dmt97
concentration. "The only reason your eye is gone is because the blast of335Please respect copyright.PENANANUTP8b3W69
steam that burned your eye was full of ether."335Please respect copyright.PENANAkbW03BGwzw
A shadowy form appeared.335Please respect copyright.PENANASYtzP6WmxS
Jester. Instead of his form constantly shifting and his voice taking 335Please respect copyright.PENANAsTNHOk9NGw
different intonations, Jester was only wearing a cloak over his body 335Please respect copyright.PENANArQRnojreRf
hiding any features. And his voice sounded...almost human.335Please respect copyright.PENANASwzRGbAk04
"Long time no see, David. Well for you, I've been watching you for a while." Jester laughed as if he said something funny.335Please respect copyright.PENANA6I8Sf0XTx6
"Am I in the...ether 335Please respect copyright.PENANAeRv0WpOcDV
world again?" David asked looking around, seeing rocks flying around, 335Please respect copyright.PENANAjLDE7pEAZO
storms raging in the skies and shadows flickering in and out of life.335Please respect copyright.PENANAzDa9hbs5pU
Jester clapped." Indeed! You are learning, maybe you won't be completely useless." 335Please respect copyright.PENANAFljjbcIeWQ
David was tired, too 335Please respect copyright.PENANAZYhTQxG6IR
tired for Jester. Even so he still stood up. "Jester can we...can we 335Please respect copyright.PENANAWnWhbmfBum
just all this?" David waved his hands in the space between the two.335Please respect copyright.PENANAjDIRyKD3EV
The shadowy hood cocked 335Please respect copyright.PENANAFcO5V376o8
to a side. "Oh, that's just boring." David began a reply but Jester 335Please respect copyright.PENANAsthMC5wd2O
interrupted him. "Very well, if it'll save me from your nagging. 335Please respect copyright.PENANAxPHftebH6X
Knowing what's waiting for you in the real world, you'd think you'd be 335Please respect copyright.PENANAoqcg5QdZnn
more grateful."335Please respect copyright.PENANApMmsLKjPpP
"I..."335Please respect copyright.PENANAuVAhj7mAEq
"I went through all the trouble of getting you here. Hiding my presence from my brother and other mages. Honestly some people."335Please respect copyright.PENANA6nibXgab8L
David groaned in 335Please respect copyright.PENANA9sxKg2I6Sm
annoyance. "I've just been tortured for the better part of my day. Even 335Please respect copyright.PENANAuYY4YVxlwy
if my body isn't feeling it, my mind is. So if you can get to your 335Please respect copyright.PENANAt5R0jY5iu6
falling point, that'd be fly."335Please respect copyright.PENANADM3Vsidb2z
Jester muttered something David couldn't hear. "Very well. What do you remember of your childhood?"335Please respect copyright.PENANAyeL8apVluk
David was startled by the question "What does that have to do with anything?"335Please respect copyright.PENANAJAdGhPL6zM
"Well it's the main point of my visit, and you did say you wanted to stop playing games. What about your mother.?"335Please respect copyright.PENANAGoP14afTYV
A headache, feeling of resentment. "She's dead, or alive. I don't flying care."335Please respect copyright.PENANAMrcuPKZUfN
"Have you ever wondered why you don't remember your childhood?"335Please respect copyright.PENANAfVqEILO1uy
"How do you even..." Then David had a realization. "It was you? Were you the one who took my memory?"335Please respect copyright.PENANAZewOzQTprD
Jester giggled and put his hands up. "Guilty."335Please respect copyright.PENANAb0Td7WQRFI
David shouted and 335Please respect copyright.PENANA1SdKjHZLu4
tackled the cloaked figure. His mind couldn't take it. After all that 335Please respect copyright.PENANAWq4SIlZDK3
torture and Jester's games, after all the pain and loneliness, after all335Please respect copyright.PENANAFi7jTxgjTu
the deaths, David just wanted to blame someone. "Give back my life!" He335Please respect copyright.PENANAqpcIGKo8qB
punched inside Jesters hood, meeting only air. "Give back my freedom!" 335Please respect copyright.PENANAP4pBVR4CxF
Another punch. "Give back my happiness!" Tears joined the third punch, 335Please respect copyright.PENANAPhbHdAVNv0
which was David's last as Jester started cackling and dissolved into 335Please respect copyright.PENANAooQi5S1opj
mist.335Please respect copyright.PENANAjOz1WVSiN2
Jester's voice came from335Please respect copyright.PENANAnvE2CeXkMb
behind. "Do you truly think, your misfortune sterns from me?" David 335Please respect copyright.PENANAmD485OX6zG
could see surround shadows gathering around him. "What of everyone 335Please respect copyright.PENANAJMbQpngMyj
you've betrayed? People who would've called you their friend or lover. 335Please respect copyright.PENANAKCqQ5b8LCs
Killed or abandoned for coin or survival. The shadows seemed to be 335Please respect copyright.PENANADy32F4XfLs
creating a circle around Jester and David.335Please respect copyright.PENANAoBfw9sOdlv
"You're lying to yourself. You..." 335Please respect copyright.PENANAsIbib7xLBu
"Shut up!" David 335Please respect copyright.PENANACHmgAGuTwL
struggled to get up. "Shut your falling mouth. You don't know me, I 335Please respect copyright.PENANAzor75TZLex
don't care if you're one of the five, or a demon, or a falling figment 335Please respect copyright.PENANA5cNp950hVB
of my imagination only I know what or who I am!"335Please respect copyright.PENANAxcTwnDf4HL
Jester gave another 335Please respect copyright.PENANA6ZHF5wmWea
laugh, a laugh that chilled David to the bone. Don't I? What makes you 335Please respect copyright.PENANAs80Y87mGug
so sure? Or are you just trying to convince yourself because you're 335Please respect copyright.PENANAMKkDcGAbXf
afraid of the truth?" 335Please respect copyright.PENANANmJpnzCf8u
"I'm not afraid,I'm..." 335Please respect copyright.PENANA0hAVKlDCHr
"You're what? A 335Please respect copyright.PENANAsMzmYVAOXF
despicable human being? True. A murderer, liar and cheat? Also correct. 335Please respect copyright.PENANA6Lg8Oj4hBo
But allow me to show you something, something that will make everything 335Please respect copyright.PENANA5TuOrU6KdH
you've done not matter." 335Please respect copyright.PENANApufrWxpFvO
The shadows completely 335Please respect copyright.PENANAusvS2UUPfY
surrounded the two of them now. "Allow me to show you the why you're 335Please respect copyright.PENANAE1ETdCq4t0
afraid. Allow me to show you why you forgot your childhood. Allow me 335Please respect copyright.PENANAyldASDFoX1
show you why this world needs to die." Jester put his hand over David's 335Please respect copyright.PENANASdgf6DVAyy
eye and shadows swallowed him.335Please respect copyright.PENANA1OLBEhmDkG
Shadows parting, David 335Please respect copyright.PENANAwsQJY4wzkz
found himself in a room. Bottles and rubbish littering the floor. A 335Please respect copyright.PENANAs6QeapHomQ
woman in the middle of the floor, flailing and screaming from pain. 335Please respect copyright.PENANAx60eggulf6
David could see her so clearly as if he wasn't in the fade anymore. No 335Please respect copyright.PENANA0Nv5hBXG9w
more shadowy figures or echoes. Just an improvished room and David's 335Please respect copyright.PENANAG9OH1AUK6m
mother335Please respect copyright.PENANAWJs48fwfCg
"This is my memory." 335Please respect copyright.PENANAJMRyYMG815
Jester said as he appeared besides David. "You claimed I don't know 335Please respect copyright.PENANAObu5iubvl6
you, yet I might just be the person who knows you the most.335Please respect copyright.PENANA5Wcd8uz5JZ
David didn't reply to 335Please respect copyright.PENANAsS2JWhdXug
that. He just looked at the woman as various feelings rose within him. 335Please respect copyright.PENANAAXKCD9LNCU
Love, longing, loneliness, but most of all hate.335Please respect copyright.PENANA9IdXkn2Ao0
Unaware of what was 335Please respect copyright.PENANAIdBzVSZxF8
inside David's mind, Jester continued. "From the time that you were 335Please respect copyright.PENANAq7TAxueSDz
conceived, when your father raped your mother neither the first nor last335Please respect copyright.PENANAyfjnMquBaR
time. Your poor mother, she loved your father with all her heart, 335Please respect copyright.PENANA7BxPFe3Y1M
despite his many, many faults. It is rather amusing how such a man can 335Please respect copyright.PENANAPxYv64orEK
find true love and yet you cannot." David didn't rise to the bait. "She 335Please respect copyright.PENANAa0fy5UYsoh
tried getting rid of you, taking herbs and the like, it didn't work. She335Please respect copyright.PENANAj0tv0Ea0QE
was even tempted to stab herself in the stomach but she was too scared 335Please respect copyright.PENANA39KkPaGIwb
she would die. A running theme with you Oxthornes, fear of death."335Please respect copyright.PENANAhGJZdP1y0L
Finally the screams of 335Please respect copyright.PENANA1Iye4sZmO0
pain were replaced by the screams of a baby. Whispers from the babies 335Please respect copyright.PENANAp8Qy0HYQrO
mother reached David as if she was speaking to him. "Quiet, just stay 335Please respect copyright.PENANAHbc5vdTzbQ
quiet. You ruined my life, he stopped loving me because of you. You. 335Please respect copyright.PENANADhBTwAAMLq
You. You." The baby started crying louder, screeching the woman grabbed 335Please respect copyright.PENANAm5AHl97ubM
the baby's throat and squeezed.335Please respect copyright.PENANAzeg8kxvvwY
David could feel his 335Please respect copyright.PENANAqTTzbrBCe8
throat contract, the air trapped in his lungs, extending them beyond 335Please respect copyright.PENANA0bva2ksFFH
their capacity. The shock made him go to his knee. "This is when you 335Please respect copyright.PENANA8uAdT4UlsX
died." David could hear Jesters voice in the back of his head. Just as 335Please respect copyright.PENANAt9Hfr5FsZF
the room began spinning his breath and vision returned and the crying 335Please respect copyright.PENANADEUny2Mml8
stopped.335Please respect copyright.PENANAF7oMWz1T0j
"Oh, nonononono." The 335Please respect copyright.PENANAuQqKFUpvL5
woman wailed. She put the baby gently on the floor and started pushing 335Please respect copyright.PENANA5YVvwfvjiR
on its chest. Gently at first, and then with more distress. 335Please respect copyright.PENANA2tGATW6dho
"You who were supposed 335Please respect copyright.PENANAuSTJW3g9Ew
to die, defied death." Thus the baby started crying again, weakly at 335Please respect copyright.PENANAzWKqr0Vf9g
first but then gained more vigor. "Yet by dying you became closer to 335Please respect copyright.PENANADJ7Uwj6etq
the etherworld, susceptible to its inhabitants." 335Please respect copyright.PENANAUDmjQD7uR1
Coughing David stood up 335Please respect copyright.PENANAFzRcuNHcBt
and looked at the mother and son figure...No he looked at him and his 335Please respect copyright.PENANAJKPvhwmgRB
mother. David didn't want to believe this image, yet deep down he knew 335Please respect copyright.PENANADligXLg3N6
it was the truth. "Did...were you the one who brought me back?"335Please respect copyright.PENANAiDH62FsaJb
"No, it was a small 335Please respect copyright.PENANAPnRP7Tm699
miracle, for all of us." David was unsure if he should believe Jester 335Please respect copyright.PENANAUwc0UZlhgm
but before he could question it anymore his vision changed again.335Please respect copyright.PENANAhLpQ57xisF
He was staring at the 335Please respect copyright.PENANAAuszOfFeiQ
wom...his mummy. His mummy who loved him and took care of him, David was335Please respect copyright.PENANAlwFqTFcrai
only good at one thing, getting in the way of his mummy's work. He 335Please respect copyright.PENANA68jdCOmux0
learned to be quiet after the first few times she slapped him, he 335Please respect copyright.PENANABLF9HYCj6J
deserved it because mummy did her best to provide for him and David was 335Please respect copyright.PENANAubpisqzsfi
just a useless existence, just like his mummy said.335Please respect copyright.PENANArZEFhX64Vv
But today David got to be usefull. He had the opportunity to make his mummy proud and happy.335Please respect copyright.PENANAf4bDdnE2MK
"There you go, David." She said brushing his hair with her hand. "You will make mummy proud, won't you?"335Please respect copyright.PENANAFabUgiw4EH
"I will!" Came a squeaky335Please respect copyright.PENANAG20P7ErLjO
voice. "I will make you proud..est!" David said as he put a book down.335Please respect copyright.PENANA2MoidA0Foi
David was unsure what the name or what the words inside said but it had335Please respect copyright.PENANAvQEOPkSQbn
pictures of flying ships and heroes, something he wanted to be when he 335Please respect copyright.PENANAuayXXT54UN
was an adult.335Please respect copyright.PENANAyqGyJD5k6f
A knock came from a door335Please respect copyright.PENANAiO5bOlwKXE
and David's mummy went to answer it. She spoke to someone in hushed 335Please respect copyright.PENANA1ZdOpXXNyE
tones and then left the room without giving David a glance back. In her 335Please respect copyright.PENANAb6NXpSkqp4
stead a stranger came. David had never seen the man before and he was 335Please respect copyright.PENANAgtKvkKh99m
scared of strangers. Whenever a stranger came in with his mummy he was 335Please respect copyright.PENANAvRBQum6vrU
supposed to be quiet otherwise he wouldn't get food and get slapped for 335Please respect copyright.PENANAAah6tPsmHw
being a bad boy.335Please respect copyright.PENANAp9ihPB9fEG
That's why he didn't 335Please respect copyright.PENANAAT7zzeoEeH
speak, didn't move, didn't look at the stranger. "Speak up boy, what's 335Please respect copyright.PENANAB7QaC2ueDq
your name?" The man said in a haughty voice.335Please respect copyright.PENANAg5rE8dqcM5
"D..david" the answer 335Please respect copyright.PENANArvBPe2rdWj
came in a whisper. The stranger grunted and came closer to David, moving335Please respect copyright.PENANAh0fZsVTsjb
empty bottles with his boots. "I said speak up."335Please respect copyright.PENANAvPNxLPJX75
"David!" Came out the reply, which sounded too loud in David's ears.335Please respect copyright.PENANAcSbGuxpuLF
The man put his hands on335Please respect copyright.PENANAKfuEzfYENl
Davids shoulders and smiled. "David? I'm David aswell, David Hozzelpoff335Please respect copyright.PENANA6CEtulyGnh
to be exact. Do you recognize my name?"335Please respect copyright.PENANAlrWAPXg0Qh
David meekly shook his 335Please respect copyright.PENANA87aLrUyMmE
head and was shoved to the floor. David hit the floor hard, losing his 335Please respect copyright.PENANADdzvUySRxo
breath. "I am the greatest mind of this century!" He crouched down 335Please respect copyright.PENANA4cCyIKIiGA
putting his face next to Davids. "Soon everyone will know my name, no 335Please respect copyright.PENANA3bRyxura25
matter what my colleagues say or what rumors they spread." He said but 335Please respect copyright.PENANAzkzsiYjvx6
the anger was slowly leaving his voice. "You must understand, I'm not 335Please respect copyright.PENANAnKXXXKoYQe
usually like this, but...but sometime you just reach that point. I'm a 335Please respect copyright.PENANAciDkBXWRaI
good man I have a bright future and sometimes you just need obstacles, 335Please respect copyright.PENANAD9FDSj7uIT
you are just that an obstacle that I must conquer." The man was 335Please respect copyright.PENANAYhNj2jjM1M
bubbling. Caressing Davids face with his hand, the other one moving down335Please respect copyright.PENANATir8etLDct
Davids body.335Please respect copyright.PENANA3ZFisr5daZ
Please don't. Came adult David's voice335Please respect copyright.PENANApXDKAQol2p
Young David was scared; 335Please respect copyright.PENANAT6tsmoBK1c
he was used to beatings but not being touched in that way. He tried 335Please respect copyright.PENANApHPsp7H0ez
wiggling away from the man pinned David down with his greater weight. 335Please respect copyright.PENANAXsIJY3QAgl
"Stop resisting." Derek hissed. "If everyone just didn't resist I 335Please respect copyright.PENANACyVZAdq7nm
wouldn't be here I wouldn't need to do anything."335Please respect copyright.PENANA5PH8I2A8ng
Help me. Save me. Came the child and adult voice intermixed.335Please respect copyright.PENANASDZibTcYG2
"Mummy, mummy!" David 335Please respect copyright.PENANAqFe33kMEtt
screamed, tears flowing, a feeling of wetness around his legs. Finally 335Please respect copyright.PENANAWnx4vJystQ
the man slammed his palm into Davids face. That stopped all resistance, 335Please respect copyright.PENANAEVxNDNhqRV
after that day David liked to pretend that he lost consciousness, that 335Please respect copyright.PENANA3MaFSei1GY
everything that happened was a nightmare, but deep down he knew better, 335Please respect copyright.PENANAogIOnUbDFt
he knew that what he saw and felt was what had happened.335Please respect copyright.PENANAXyeLDV1wQG
David didn't even know 335Please respect copyright.PENANAqe9NXeZJ87
when the man finished, his mind was blank and when he came to he could 335Please respect copyright.PENANAsSoplWut80
see his mummy looking at him. She scoffed. "Clean yourself up, you're a 335Please respect copyright.PENANAmuAXLcMKlw
mess. David tried crying but no tears came.335Please respect copyright.PENANAZOHsCOeHQU
Suddenly the room shifted again and David himself as an adult again. "That was the first time it happened. One of many." 335Please respect copyright.PENANA1Otw8oWcLu
David could barely hear 335Please respect copyright.PENANA3LF8W2bT4h
jester, as all the memories came flowing back. It overwhelmed him and 335Please respect copyright.PENANAiL8ve6GmS1
the tears he couldn't find as a child freely flew out of him and he 335Please respect copyright.PENANAd0Mrs1NSU7
screamed into the void. Out of desperation, out of misery, out of pure 335Please respect copyright.PENANAlw67OWjNn3
anger. 335Please respect copyright.PENANAtM4c5Zq6W4
"There are more 335Please respect copyright.PENANAk9DB2S0AzY
memories. Let me know when you're ready." David looked at jester, whose 335Please respect copyright.PENANAQtfgWLW1KH
form changed again. His hood was down but half of his face was covered 335Please respect copyright.PENANANAaLdOeAt8
in a dark like substance. The other looked...looked like a normal adult 335Please respect copyright.PENANAvZryuOK8Kk
male. David almost recognized it but couldn't quite place it.335Please respect copyright.PENANA5vb6AMgolR
"What else is there to 335Please respect copyright.PENANA18nk321Am5
remember?" David asked as he got up. Jester just smiled. "Just indulge 335Please respect copyright.PENANAsu0WEpQl8i
me." Jester waved his hand again and David was standing in front of a 335Please respect copyright.PENANA9iT0AxnzjK
mirror. He could see himself, a young teen. With dead eyes and bruises 335Please respect copyright.PENANAromeckAXLH
all around his body. He looked at the glass shard in his hand. The blood335Please respect copyright.PENANAW0iv10i3au
that was spilling down his arm and hand was slowly dripping on the 335Please respect copyright.PENANAA9tqrdRel0
floor. 335Please respect copyright.PENANAvi9Eix9VE4
Even the pain didn't 335Please respect copyright.PENANAiqjWKre8nf
offer him solace, it used to be that the pain he inflicted on himself 335Please respect copyright.PENANAvs2Us7uDVw
offered an escape, but no more. One flick of the shard though...and 335Please respect copyright.PENANAmbA2XO3BO4
everything would be gone.335Please respect copyright.PENANAXPusmJ0lMW
~Just like that, give up335Please respect copyright.PENANAoVrXzHtgsp
end it all. No one will care. ~ That's right, no one cares. Mother is 335Please respect copyright.PENANA0vuoyMoJeu
probably with some man, or trying to get someone who was willing to buy 335Please respect copyright.PENANAT98slVxtWl
Davids body. Would she really mind if he died. He moved the shard closer335Please respect copyright.PENANAQNhPjWOJXU
to his neck, his pulse slowly beating. ~But...what if it gets better? 335Please respect copyright.PENANAMnHcJch0gS
What if death only brings more pain?~ David paused. "Can't be much worse335Please respect copyright.PENANAWOdJMA7e5r
than this."335Please respect copyright.PENANA6kFzFIbTrC
~STOP! ~ David dropped 335Please respect copyright.PENANAxylo5M3RVS
the shard as if burned. ~It will get better. Just survive. Have to 335Please respect copyright.PENANAR9DDm1I3nI
survive.~ David dropped on his knees. That's right all he had to is 335Please respect copyright.PENANARok0LdM8yd
survive. Survive and live.335Please respect copyright.PENANAMLCISideoO
Everything changed again and David could see his reflection. Scarred, rugged and haunted. 335Please respect copyright.PENANAwSXemXpvGH
" that voice, it was yours." More of a statement rather than a question. 335Please respect copyright.PENANAsJjvauw36o
"Indeed." Jester 335Please respect copyright.PENANAPMi74TICXC
replied. David could actually hear his voice properly, without an echo 335Please respect copyright.PENANA0h7dvtEl2M
or any other effects. He never noticed it before but it did sound a lot 335Please respect copyright.PENANAUPAkrzaauO
like his own did.335Please respect copyright.PENANAgwaKg4u45J
"Why did you try 335Please respect copyright.PENANAiRgTDDxonp
convincing me to kill myself and then stop me? Why not just let me do 335Please respect copyright.PENANAqPPUtQC1aM
it?" He said the last part in a whisper; his brain still trying to 335Please respect copyright.PENANAuBfYM8D0wc
process the influx of memories.335Please respect copyright.PENANA9a8OEnmddP
"I've been there since you were a child I..I wanted to offer you an escape, but then I got scared I'd get lonely, if you died,"335Please respect copyright.PENANABvycRtFISU
"You expect me to believe that?"335Please respect copyright.PENANAXiCAjp6Trv
"Believe what you want."335Please respect copyright.PENANARCQ9IMEbmS
"How many times? How many of my thoughts were mine?"335Please respect copyright.PENANAOuBzmLUstO
Jester chuckled. "All of335Please respect copyright.PENANA67ifEJieRW
them really. To make sure you didn't notice anything was out of the 335Please respect copyright.PENANA02hfUzl2aS
ordinary I had to make it look like they were your thoughts."335Please respect copyright.PENANAO8UVlrAHEY
"That just 335Please respect copyright.PENANAkESBIGa2Tc
means..."David held his head and groaned in pain. "I'm so confused, in 335Please respect copyright.PENANAQEX2cQLhpz
my memories it doesn't like you're trying to be subtle. What changed?335Please respect copyright.PENANAYKO50U3aAC
"It's related to the last memory, I'll show you if you're ready."335Please respect copyright.PENANAdXByoVIqaH
David nodded. "Do it."335Please respect copyright.PENANAA5bag7RQ6I
Everything shifted. 335Please respect copyright.PENANA3S9uNyKVWx
David was cleaning his 335Please respect copyright.PENANAcmeDUPfKy0
face, in his middle teens and miserable. He wasn't sure when this 335Please respect copyright.PENANAQVUnB0I2xT
grounded life started but it's been a long time now. He learned tricks 335Please respect copyright.PENANAPm3lvRvPnf
on how to make it easier for himself. By pretending the strangers were 335Please respect copyright.PENANACooJ9lEm8n
important he would save himself a lot of abuse, by guessing how they 335Please respect copyright.PENANArjwHD0LVf3
wanted him to act and acting that way they, sometimes, took pity. Of 335Please respect copyright.PENANAg5wAPIxluz
course not everyone cared; some still had fun abusing a young boy.335Please respect copyright.PENANAQyieZQyFPi
His last one was just 335Please respect copyright.PENANA4WqfMWlFQ9
that an abuser. David touched his broken-again nose and the eye that was335Please respect copyright.PENANAFeBXwrQ5Hd
barely opening. The bitch would be angry again, his face was supposed 335Please respect copyright.PENANAZZwk850fko
to be without bruises. Her clients liked him more when he looked pure. 335Please respect copyright.PENANA3xPIA6HQ5w
Undamaged goods she loved to say.335Please respect copyright.PENANA7lxI7ddFJT
Right on cue, David 335Please respect copyright.PENANAEI4MFebLGZ
could hear the bathroom door opening and she came in. Sneering she 335Please respect copyright.PENANAS14bDI5yHF
slapped David causing him to fall on the floor. "Stupid, idiot boy!" She335Please respect copyright.PENANATIfVkRSu6v
slurred. What a surprise the bitch was either drunk or drugged. "One 335Please respect copyright.PENANAkuyI1CNeBm
thing, don't let them hit your face. And look at you! Useless!" She 335Please respect copyright.PENANAGqKoEK0uD9
shrieked and kicked David clumsily.335Please respect copyright.PENANAvWbuyhjrUa
Why was this his life? 335Please respect copyright.PENANA7ekV2KnVQg
Should he have taken his life, can he still do it? He looked at her and 335Please respect copyright.PENANAnYDxB8UTrg
she seems to have taken offense at that. She scratched at his face and 335Please respect copyright.PENANAe4Mmpdcvth
came down on him. "How dare you look at me with those eyes! They're his 335Please respect copyright.PENANALzzzOk4LIf
eyes! Someone like you doesn't deserve them!" She continued in a similar335Please respect copyright.PENANAp2eWcUGkF3
vein trying to get his eyes. 335Please respect copyright.PENANAFzq9p2OGu8
~Enough David.~ A voice 335Please respect copyright.PENANA0KsutyVc02
resounded in his head. David knew that voice, it was his only friend. 335Please respect copyright.PENANAsFbvRLMW6z
~Fight back.~ David faught against the urge and voice, after all it was 335Please respect copyright.PENANA8mxldcGZtw
still his mother. ~FIGHT BACK~ Finally David extended his arm with force335Please respect copyright.PENANATo0KSMIejn
and met resistance.335Please respect copyright.PENANAiOS020CnDZ
The scratching and 335Please respect copyright.PENANAAWLbFC9tvu
shrieking stopped, he could see his mother on the floor, groaning, 335Please respect copyright.PENANA9u0aNhV8pu
slowly getting up. Thinking quickly David grabbed a glass bottle and hit335Please respect copyright.PENANAsREVVS5KhT
the bitch with it. Again and again until all that was left was a glass 335Please respect copyright.PENANA4I4LsZtwu8
shard and then he kept stabbing and screaming until his throat and hand 335Please respect copyright.PENANATK1aaCIhcz
was raw. Once he couldn't hold the shard he stopped and laughed.335Please respect copyright.PENANAUeYBPPEMxj
Oh god what did he do? 335Please respect copyright.PENANA59FsrTgY8m
This was his mummy, the one who always protected him, the one who would 335Please respect copyright.PENANAA0rAYPzrm9
never abandon him a and he..he murdered her. But...no, no, no. She hated335Please respect copyright.PENANAJTj4zRQZZR
him did she? Yeah she was a bitch..NO..she was his mother. Was there a 335Please respect copyright.PENANAKpDRJnSWJB
difference? David started crying and throwing up. He killed her, he 335Please respect copyright.PENANAA5W27FvtWY
killed her, he killed her. His head felt as it was going to burst, cries335Please respect copyright.PENANAFxvVn764nM
replaced the laughter as he rolled on the floor covering himself in 335Please respect copyright.PENANAr7jY3Ez1uy
blood.335Please respect copyright.PENANAS1J4W5joSN
~that's enough David. Forget, forget everything.~ 335Please respect copyright.PENANA51YjYbVVCk
There was a pause and everything quieted down.335Please respect copyright.PENANAImWlpG5MYC
A boy named David just 335Please respect copyright.PENANAPdkJxTiKfI
woke up. Surrounded by empty bottles and rubbish. David shrugged and 335Please respect copyright.PENANAlH8rc0s7xq
winced. He was in pain did he fall? That would explain the blood all 335Please respect copyright.PENANAIOTt4Bmelk
over him. Yes he fell and hurt himself. But what about the body...wait 335Please respect copyright.PENANAah0zHJ1zlR
what body? David looked around and couldn't see anyone else in the room335Please respect copyright.PENANAUNxnQLgT0W
besides him. Why did his head hurt? Why couldn't he remember what he 335Please respect copyright.PENANArf5CzlxKIY
was...oh that's right. He was going to become a hero and fly on a ship. 335Please respect copyright.PENANAByYmfsdE1u
Yes, that's what he was about to do when he became all confused, how 335Please respect copyright.PENANAjSVGfWbph1
silly of him.335Please respect copyright.PENANA8nvUgcJRXB
Remembering his 335Please respect copyright.PENANA9nVezzNtFI
objective, David opened the door and left his old life behind. To enter 335Please respect copyright.PENANASO5bDlRRvm
his living room and find his dad, mum and brother sitting at a round 335Please respect copyright.PENANAvx1ZSYUHQK
table preparing a meal. 335Please respect copyright.PENANAjjh40XwdlS
"There you are David!" 335Please respect copyright.PENANAkpbgKXCnqQ
His dad said. "We've been waiting forever, come on I can't wait to start335Please respect copyright.PENANAFTXImhK7lL
eating!" He started hitting his utensils on the table. 335Please respect copyright.PENANA9kP5rSlKFp
This isn't the truth.335Please respect copyright.PENANAF85GkyrbW3
David obligingly sat 335Please respect copyright.PENANAakBgjU15Fh
down. "Oh stop, honey. You're going to give children bad manners." His 335Please respect copyright.PENANAlg8DhFfYR4
mum chided playfully. As she put the food on the table and ruffled his 335Please respect copyright.PENANAVx9rFC8Ap5
brothers hair. Sitting down next to David and giving him a warm smile.335Please respect copyright.PENANAoYiciJqaTq
A dream, nothing else.335Please respect copyright.PENANAbcd0H3m8Pw
They all thanked the 335Please respect copyright.PENANANzCsXHhJdr
gods for what they had and started eating. Yes thankful for this happy, 335Please respect copyright.PENANAXCs9CBoeOp
oblivious life. Thankful for good and supportive parents. Thankful for 335Please respect copyright.PENANAEaYwpYtV4e
this lie.335Please respect copyright.PENANAgtGMzhKgpw
A lie that has to end.335Please respect copyright.PENANAw9BXIZPlxb
David was standing at 335Please respect copyright.PENANAMIKclsDdXG
the table.. He was sure this wasn't part of any memories, but he was 335Please respect copyright.PENANAzAC9xQ45lK
sure that the boy was him, a happier more healthy him, and the woman was335Please respect copyright.PENANA5RubKKLgWW
his real mother or atleast someone who looked like her. While the 335Please respect copyright.PENANAJ95qj4lUfj
brother and man? Something that might've happened if he was luckier? 335Please respect copyright.PENANA3kBMFfD35L
Either way David hated 335Please respect copyright.PENANAMYr5fewYLr
this. Why, why, why, why didn't he get this happy blissful life. Why 335Please respect copyright.PENANAV2t7KEhFyH
didn't he get a father who would teach him to become a proper man, why 335Please respect copyright.PENANAQzGYe22eSS
didn't he get a mother who consoled him when he hurt? Why was he all 335Please respect copyright.PENANANvr3Hm6K9Q
alone, without a brother or any other sibling. Why does THIS pale 335Please respect copyright.PENANAW7gjkaNBSJ
imitation of his deserves this good life, he'll never appreciate. Why 335Please respect copyright.PENANA7zyX8gb611
does anyone. When there's so many suffering why do only few deserve to 335Please respect copyright.PENANAnZmM9OEx2X
life this happy blissful life?335Please respect copyright.PENANAmmm2LhERgE
The answer was so simple335Please respect copyright.PENANAD9M9b2UAmA
that David almost laughed. It didn't come in a whisper by someone else,335Please respect copyright.PENANADsYs26vwr1
it was his own and he fully knew it. They didn't, they didn't deserve 335Please respect copyright.PENANARZFxWvKzYa
this life, no one did. Thus there was only one solution to end it all, 335Please respect copyright.PENANAQHvFmcaTGd
end all misery either present or one that will come in the future. 335Please respect copyright.PENANAurKUvfYH5l
David decided to start 335Please respect copyright.PENANA5u0sq9VP9C
with this lie, he took the knife and plunged it into his young self. "No335Please respect copyright.PENANAqzYZWOzd8U
more lies." He took it out and stabbed his father. "No more regrets." 335Please respect copyright.PENANABVbjBB25nE
Next his brother. "No more tears." And finally he stabbed his own 335Please respect copyright.PENANAMve77iO7dl
mother. "No more mercy."335Please respect copyright.PENANAQJs0ez3kUh
With the last stab 335Please respect copyright.PENANA96xFubDjvk
everything fell apart piece by piece and David found himself staring at 335Please respect copyright.PENANAmoLW6scsWe
his own shadowy reflection. The only thing surrounding them was the vast335Please respect copyright.PENANAFp3ll6z9ZE
emptiness.
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