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EP 24 及子145Please respect copyright.PENANA7c1MnVrfrZ
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我後悔在生145Please respect copyright.PENANAV5SrPSZjxa
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一直以來145Please respect copyright.PENANAZ8e3f3MOQC
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我也是一個負累
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我知道,所以遠離所有人
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我恨我自己
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我知道自己是沒人要的小孩145Please respect copyright.PENANA3mjmqEpnP3
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我不想這樣下去145Please respect copyright.PENANA7Y23DiYx2y
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但不論那一個她也好,也說得對
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我根本,根本沒有那個能力去保護任何人
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我不敢去改變自己
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我是個懦夫
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玫瑰的身上有倒刺,寄生脊椎的麗花釋放毒素到各傷口,從這些扎肉的痛處,流進心脾並噬喰,是支配身心的刺痺,也是令人憶起噩夢的觸感
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脊椎是貫穿整個身體的長骨,連接大腦和身體全部神經的遊路,將下身的痛楚拉上來的道路,想拋到肚子,但反覆的拳頭把電流推回脊椎
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唯有繼續向上升的裂傷,只好逃到胸膛,只是當肺部呼吸時,心臟抖跳時,窒息的恐懼已經佔據了此處的所有空間,離開無門,椎骨的刺感停留在該處是淵深的形成,扭曲神經、感官的負累
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怎麼辦,不如反問不然可以怎麼辦?145Please respect copyright.PENANA3R9QHcNDEW
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繼續往上,到達頭殼的神經信號,折磨最敏感的大腦,反覆刺激海馬體,摳打後腦,摧毀左右腦,溶解小腦,啃咬腦前葉
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迫使恐懼的絕望傳至全身,淚腺的全通並失控地流出;令到身體輕飄,若如空中墮下,跌入死亡的谷底;摧毀聽覺又好,方向感又好,失去了,卻在如此情況下,彷彿已經不重要了;束縛呼吸的刺痛,是會使心跳停止的休克電流,身體在拼命堅持、忍耐,然而頓時的內心,已死去;在這具身體上留下永遠的烙印,一生的噩夢,奪去呼吸的自由
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到一個地步,電流開始令自己的意識模糊,痛楚已經超載,最後化為腦漿噴出,亦把意識一拼拋出體外
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休克,接近死亡的狀態,但把所有不快清空,是一個暫時的救贖
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死亡,是一個永恆的救贖145Please respect copyright.PENANAi2SikwM1Ad
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在現在,我不想面對這現實,我甚至想就此,一刻,心臟驟停,就此陷入不止的黑夜
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真相就是,終究到底,我只是不想負責任145Please respect copyright.PENANAlIHNkTZhTD
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「對不起」,我想至少對她,她們說
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姑負期望的我,讓大家失望,提出無法兌換的承諾
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我不知道怎樣才好145Please respect copyright.PENANA7phCMXOfFV
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我不知道我可以如何贖罪
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我,不是一個值得信賴的家人、朋友
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我只是一個失敗作
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我無權為他人決定
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真諷刺145Please respect copyright.PENANAfqG6Ux81zR
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在不久之前,明明對著花子説了一番「鼓勵」、「肺腑之言」
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真是矛盾呢
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真是自私
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別人自負不可以,自己自負卻反而去怪責他人的想法
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的確是想自己死去,但仍然想身邊的人因而幸福
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多麼荒謬,對吧?自私自利的自己,最後也只是照住自己的意思,去強迫他人「幸福」起來
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那麼,我該怎樣?145Please respect copyright.PENANAeKWvx5FRnm
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壓力,馬上會跨越理性的最後一條防線:「我值得嗎?」
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然而越是從記憶中見到背上的豔紅,對其他顏色就越是麻木,紅以外的一切只是黑白和灰
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令人作嘔,令人反感,暴力的白噪音卻成為了唯一陪伴自己的聲音,一股不斷膨脹的疲累感由胸口散開,致命的毒素造成的痛楚不是強烈,而是慢性的折磨
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呼吸不了,身體感到晃暈,焦急的心情完全霸佔了大腦,唯獨是無從反應,若如靈魂被抽了出來,不適的蔓延叫人心焚
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一切也很慢,太慢了,血液循環的速度根本趕不上,呼吸的節奏太弱,整個神經元路有如被搽上了一層薄膜
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辛苦感表達不了出來,想哭但哭不出來,精神的折磨,是發瘋的原因
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「我值得⋯什麼?」145Please respect copyright.PENANAkVXvqe41yy