我托住頭,呆望住個電腦Mon;視覺上知道Mon入面有畫面、有嘢郁緊,亦都聽到個喇叭播緊音樂。79Please respect copyright.PENANAp8lKh7ElsQ
但係注意力一早飛咗去唔知邊度。79Please respect copyright.PENANAilMucRVxOV
而家我個神態,大概同撞咗邪或者靈魂出竅無乜分別;如果何晞媛見到我呢個樣,應該會嚇到縮。79Please respect copyright.PENANArJfnLdWvmR
……或者會好興奮咁開始研究我。79Please respect copyright.PENANATC53Nl97bn
我都唔知條癲雞會諗啲乜嘢。79Please respect copyright.PENANAVciSi0ymNH
有一個好撚Social嘅屋企人,加上生活喺一個無乜消遣嘅地方,就會得一個災難級嘅聖誕節。79Please respect copyright.PENANA0qDhU3omh6
我屋企唔算好大,一家四口住勉強算係有各自私人空間;但係佢今晚約咗佢男朋友同成班大學同學上嚟,我大約點算咗一下差唔多有十個人。79Please respect copyright.PENANAvgPdzHOUnV
到而家都Get唔到,點解聖誕節就係要玩要High Energy要狂歡要開心,先至叫做有「節日氣氛」。79Please respect copyright.PENANA41k2mNvGE1
所以我通常都只會靜靜地匿埋喺屋企,同嗰啲覺得要熱烈慶祝嘅人河水不犯井水;點估到今年我家姐竟然會主動將個「氣氛」帶返屋企?79Please respect copyright.PENANAZ0N8BPTiIS
還好只要我閂埋門,就唔會太受影響——79Please respect copyright.PENANAwPZE6urSpi
「何晞賢!」79Please respect copyright.PENANAu9jwQLWVFR
緊接住呢聲咆哮,我房門同時俾人轟開——何晞媛大模斯樣咁走入嚟,懶係親切咁「啪」一聲從後雙手搭落我膊頭度。79Please respect copyright.PENANAcfrQc8AOOh
「陣間一齊出去睇戲!」佢笑得好開心,一路亂摷我個頭一路講。79Please respect copyright.PENANA10lhlRCI5n
——妖……我一手撥開佢:「咩戲……?」79Please respect copyright.PENANAkx3jqvyv0Q
無人答我,何晞媛講完呢句嘢,已經直接出返去。79Please respect copyright.PENANAZ7YeVdOjDo
OK,原來佢唔係「問」我一唔一齊睇,係「通知」我一齊睇。79Please respect copyright.PENANAKcm0ebqwBf
陪佢哋去戲院我無所謂,只不過我近排啲注意力好差,入親戲院都一定會瞓覺。79Please respect copyright.PENANALhD7inKw0k
而且……聖誕節呢種日子,依然會令我有啲唔太自在。79Please respect copyright.PENANAfQjQrsxRkC
除咗楊悅盈之外,應該無乜人會明我呢個感受。79Please respect copyright.PENANAo6MOznqN8X
唔知佢而家喺邊,做緊乜嘢。79Please respect copyright.PENANAgRWvM5KJGU
不自覺咁打開個電話,喺Contact List搵返佢個名——原來距離上次我同佢Text,已經過咗半年。79Please respect copyright.PENANAsYIEd8Ye5t
我唔係無搵佢,而係佢對上一次有回覆我,已經係半年前。79Please respect copyright.PENANAyICjmgh5Xr
簡單一句「嗯」。79Please respect copyright.PENANAylGch5gUyt
好想而家Send個Message,甚至乎打俾佢;只係我知有90%機會佢唔會覆同唔會聽,然後我心情就會變得更差。79Please respect copyright.PENANAbGCsgyvHnY
——搏唔過。79Please respect copyright.PENANAD3lSdIwrXE
我諗起啱啱入大學嗰年……五年前?嗰個聖誕,我唔知自己哪來的勇氣,居然主動約佢一齊去啲同學搞嘅Party;佢又唔知咩原因,竟然應承咗。79Please respect copyright.PENANA2PkOOCP036
在場識楊悅盈嘅人得我同賴智勇,其他人見到我帶住佢嚟,都順理成章咁當咗佢係我女朋友。79Please respect copyright.PENANAgvB3HkFAjX
賴智勇當然不在話下,奇怪嘅係,79Please respect copyright.PENANAB14VjrFBLU
我同楊悅盈,79Please respect copyright.PENANAzQ0ynPBoRn
都係不置可否。79Please respect copyright.PENANAa2Gmzb3g81
好似我同佢之間有個共識,覺得我哋嘅關係,與其講清講楚,不如由得佢撲朔迷離仲好。79Please respect copyright.PENANAM4YvjEP4M2
成日都覺得,楊悅盈喺我心入面係一個好細嘅傷口,唔會殺得死我,淨係會間唔中隱隱作痛;每次就嚟結焦嗰陣,自己又會犯賤搣返開佢。79Please respect copyright.PENANA6N4mGSmuxn
連疤痕都算不上,只係個永遠唔會好返嘅傷口……79Please respect copyright.PENANA5UwX0F3o2e
——做乜鳩忽然間諗咁多嘢?79Please respect copyright.PENANAb8c5jQUaP2
我苦笑住擺返低個電話。79Please respect copyright.PENANAaNsXM6OErv
自從何晞媛呢條仆街同我提過乜嘢係「聖誕綜合症」之後,每年呢個節日……唔係,每年年尾,我都會有呢種心神恍惚嘅感覺。79Please respect copyright.PENANAfEvsxSGRLD
好似潘朵拉的盒子咁。
打開嘅人明明係何晞媛,但係瀨嘢嗰個係我。
仆街……79Please respect copyright.PENANAWFLR0YkzKY
然後,部電話好似想嚇我一跳咁,忽然間響起。79Please respect copyright.PENANACgAkCTAwqA
楊悅盈79Please respect copyright.PENANAWnB2UaWJoy
來電79Please respect copyright.PENANAF1zxdqR37j
毫無先兆咁收到佢電話,我有啲不知所措。79Please respect copyright.PENANAQ7mNApwOHd
聽唔聽好?79Please respect copyright.PENANAbcRC0AYfsR
佢本身就唔係嗰種會主動Contact人嘅女仔,今日仲要係聖誕。79Please respect copyright.PENANAJ96lQTgUQz
係咪撳錯掣?79Please respect copyright.PENANACVU9EcLYoK
聽咗會好撚尷架喎?79Please respect copyright.PENANAjWkaI8LEWC
萬一佢真係打俾我?79Please respect copyright.PENANAk0WNXdX0YO
我Miss咗佢Call咪好柒?79Please respect copyright.PENANAl4rsYBDniN
但係……佢連機都唔覆,會主動打俾人?79Please respect copyright.PENANABQUuKb4Rwn
「屌你老母……」我屌住老母壯膽,毅然決定撳掣接聽。79Please respect copyright.PENANALTtV24urQ9
尷尬又好、柒又好,我唔想Miss咗呢個機會。79Please respect copyright.PENANACsYGuPAB2Q
接通咗之後個畫面好黑,隱約見到楊悅盈個樣。我同佢大家都唔知講乜好,隔住個Mon互望咗一陣。79Please respect copyright.PENANA2gzVG6g09Z
「楊悅盈……?」79Please respect copyright.PENANAXW07SpzAPZ
講完之後心諗大鑊——應該會俾佢話我講廢話?79Please respect copyright.PENANA1tqwZ3t52g
好在,楊悅盈無出聲屌鳩,淨係繼續粒聲唔出,瞇起眼睥住我……搞到我有啲緊張。79Please respect copyright.PENANAi8eizXZpr4
「好耐無見……」情急之下,只能夠再講一句廢話打破沉默……79Please respect copyright.PENANAtU7tVDLYUI
「有幾耐?半年咋嘛。」楊悅盈終於開聲。79Please respect copyright.PENANARoFopVCDWj
我扮晒不經意咁望住個Mon,其實好努力咁嘗試緊喺嗰一片漆黑入面,搵少少線索出嚟,想知道楊悅盈喺邊度。79Please respect copyright.PENANAs25po98l3y
利申,呢個時間、呢個日子可以見到佢,我其實好驚喜——好想即刻出街、甚至乎直接穿過個電話Mon去佢身邊。79Please respect copyright.PENANAywXRlzd9Xe
「無出去玩?」79Please respect copyright.PENANApdnjkJ9BFV
聽到呢個問題,我忍唔住笑咗一笑,因為——79Please respect copyright.PENANAd4wnhUalvZ
「如果係我問嘅話,你一定會話……」我壓低把聲,專登扮佢嗰種死老豆Tone:「『廢話,睇都睇到我喺屋企啦』。」79Please respect copyright.PENANA7uONYUfqhW
「你唔好去死?」楊悅盈有啲兇狠咁屌咗我一句。79Please respect copyright.PENANAXHl4bqgPxT
雖然一閃即逝,但係我發誓——佢啱啱笑咗一下。79Please respect copyright.PENANATBNtjUqMg4
心情放鬆咗少少,我攤返落床度。79Please respect copyright.PENANAtqtsdQfh7c
「平安夜仲出去玩……未逼過咩……不過家姐約咗啲人返嚟玩。」79Please respect copyright.PENANA3QQPAdfekC
我好耐都未試過咁近距離望住佢。
畢咗業五年,楊悅盈依然好似無長大過咁,同我記憶入面嗰個大風少少都吹得走嘅中學生,無乜太大分別。79Please respect copyright.PENANA7WW60DugCx
「你出咗街?邊度嚟?」79Please respect copyright.PENANAfBKvmi3Sy8
電話Mon畫面,由楊悅盈大頭,變咗做一條陰暗、完全無辨識度嘅後巷。79Please respect copyright.PENANAttZyznLZ8Y
「某條後巷。」79Please respect copyright.PENANAxgIA9TlANS
我冷笑一聲,睇死佢係因為怕人多,先搵個咁嘅地方匿埋。79Please respect copyright.PENANAhOLKKAVCEZ
快手Cap低咗個畫面。79Please respect copyright.PENANAmZNmAHZEpW
明知無可能憑張咁嘅圖搵到佢喺邊。79Please respect copyright.PENANA7FcmzNhm59
純粹係留個希望。79Please respect copyright.PENANADOrVCXLcUK
可能你會話:「直接問佢咪得囉,柒頭!」79Please respect copyright.PENANAQ4EaNjYrFJ
你啱。
不過我係雙子座。
無論啲嘢幾想講出口都好,未篤中個Keyword,我都只會將所有嘢吞返落肚。79Please respect copyright.PENANAVAfMqv9vjN
「你最近點?」所以我唯有繼續用啲無營養嘅廢話,延長呢段對話。79Please respect copyright.PENANAoQI3ioQ8mh
楊悅盈聽到之後呆咗。79Please respect copyright.PENANAs3NO3wijn0
好似我問咗個世紀大難題咁。79Please respect copyright.PENANAdQ2A972Pha
隔咗一陣,先至含糊其辭咁搖搖頭。79Please respect copyright.PENANAbkIKpNhkRZ
「你記唔記得乜嘢係『聖誕綜合症』?」79Please respect copyright.PENANAcLPN1k3kq8
我微笑住點點頭——呢樣我當然記得。79Please respect copyright.PENANATGjHHuAsFu
我唔記得咗嘅係……楊悅盈同我一樣都係雙子座,而我Feel到自己都未篤中佢嘅Keyword。79Please respect copyright.PENANAN1xcSx9Nye
「記得,你病發呀?」79Please respect copyright.PENANAqZsRFPjbWV
「關你撚事?」佢衝口而出大聲講咗一句。79Please respect copyright.PENANAVI2wNFEO51
一瞬間,終於搵返以前同佢相處嗰陣,唔使顧慮咁多嘅感覺。79Please respect copyright.PENANAmsdNK7klk2
雖然隔住個Mon,現實中亦都唔知相隔咗幾多公里。79Please respect copyright.PENANAgE2OZx7GpM
但係我居然見到呢個罕見過世界奇觀嘅景象——楊悅盈真心對住我笑。79Please respect copyright.PENANAxrXA3vnbn9