我見到楊悅盈個笑容,忽然間有種想流眼淚嘅衝動。75Please respect copyright.PENANACeX1H1K5mp
「唔關我事你就唔會打俾我啦。」我逼自己笑笑咁串返佢一句。75Please respect copyright.PENANAaMw47l1RwR
「得閒無嘢做先打……唔好諗得咁複雜。」75Please respect copyright.PENANAiHMx8alKYg
——以你平時脾性,主動打電話嗰一刻已經輸咗。我收住掣,無將呢一句講出口。75Please respect copyright.PENANALubBlQX5Xk
呢啲嘢根本無得分輸贏,我唔想咁幼稚。75Please respect copyright.PENANAH7t2ApBOiL
無言以對之際,有人打開咗我房門,出面佢哋玩緊起緊哄啲聲滲咗入嚟。75Please respect copyright.PENANATwfzxfSwlN
「喂。」75Please respect copyright.PENANAvhddHNnmWX
我望向門口嗰邊,Kyle——何晞媛男朋友走咗入嚟。75Please respect copyright.PENANAKbhLH0rISv
佢同家姐拍拖之前,間唔中會搵下我吹水、叫下我同家姐一齊去玩;但係兩個拍咗拖之後,佢就好少會同我講嘢。75Please respect copyright.PENANAWg1utxpwgo
我唔係想指控佢啲乜嘢,佢咁樣可能係人之常情?我都係講個事實出嚟啫。75Please respect copyright.PENANAwovvziZT7G
「咩事?」我問。75Please respect copyright.PENANAGhSeHeHusR
「外賣到,你家姐叫你出嚟食嘢。」75Please respect copyright.PENANAr6LzxNXX21
「你哋食先。」外面咁大棚人,我寧願夜少少落便利店求其買個飯嚟叮。75Please respect copyright.PENANA587bu0cBF1
「溝緊女呀?」Kyle行近少少,偷偷地望向我部電話。75Please respect copyright.PENANAbHICWCg16a
幾肯定楊悅盈聽到我哋呢段對話。如果我話「係」,佢會唔會冷笑一聲否認?但如果我話「唔係」……佢又會點諗?75Please respect copyright.PENANABfwaJ5JcLf
唯有將個話題帶走。75Please respect copyright.PENANAghF51CLIdO
「我家姐男朋友。」我撳掣轉咗去前Cam,影住Kyle。75Please respect copyright.PENANA2SVEffQhac
Kyle對住我個電話——楊悅盈——好公式化咁微笑住揮揮手。75Please respect copyright.PENANAUsAQdylOfl
唔知佢一陣又會同何晞媛講乜嘢。75Please respect copyright.PENANAwZYAfSkQya
「一陣出去睇戲,叫埋你女朋友一齊?」佢又問。75Please respect copyright.PENANAIr410KYZ1h
我轉返去前Cam,望住電話入面嘅楊悅盈,聽住佢呢個問題。75Please respect copyright.PENANAYsXBzTF5hP
——佢唔係我女朋友。好似應該咁樣糾正佢。75Please respect copyright.PENANAJ75907jaf0
但係楊悅盈望住我,好似有啲期待我會點答。75Please respect copyright.PENANALzZKGIMpTX
「唔喇。」所以,我唔敢俾個好確實嘅答案出嚟。75Please respect copyright.PENANAId8PadlqSI
的而且確,楊悅盈唔係我女朋友。老實講,我覺得佢比較似個好硬頸、好倔嘅阿妹,鍾意就出現,唔鍾意就消失。75Please respect copyright.PENANA40zxI0GYDQ
我與其自己亂講嘢打破而家呢個平衡,不如敷衍了事搪塞過去。75Please respect copyright.PENANAcpsLBnxPj0
Kyle點點頭,離開咗我間房,閂返門。75Please respect copyright.PENANA8dt2C3RDkb
終於靜返。75Please respect copyright.PENANAdWAz3KYIo6
「你家姐叫你出去食嘢。」我仲未開口,楊悅盈已經劈頭講咗一句。75Please respect copyright.PENANAekcR5cjR9q
「其實佢啲Friend我大部份都唔熟……好撚尷……」喺自己屋企都要同人搭枱嗰種感覺,真係好撚閪:「我寧願夜啲自己落街買嘢食。」75Please respect copyright.PENANAqowNr2baPj
「打俾你唔係聽你呻。」佢語氣變得有啲冷冰冰:「我有嘢做,唔講住——」75Please respect copyright.PENANAfcdQIbfSB7
Feel到佢嬲嬲地想收線,我做錯咗乜嘢?75Please respect copyright.PENANAqdnyoPDI9f
「你又話得閒——」75Please respect copyright.PENANAw0CUxkadT0
「唔得閒,我其實約咗人食飯。差唔多要過去。」75Please respect copyright.PENANAcTE2ImOyR7
「咩人?」有少少對唔住佢,但係聽到楊悅盈有人約,我有啲驚訝。75Please respect copyright.PENANA99xzy89Gn3
「返Part-time啲同事。」75Please respect copyright.PENANA3qC470B3tW
「……男定女?」75Please respect copyright.PENANAStlsWbpBKX
問完我立即開始後悔,因為以楊悅盈性格,應該會同我講「你問夠未」,或者更直接地講「關你撚——75Please respect copyright.PENANAhsEbUIxS1i
「男嘅。」75Please respect copyright.PENANAo9pwq1Bs1t
佢語氣決絕到似乎唔想再傾落去。75Please respect copyright.PENANACCtClrP5TZ
我忍唔住呆咗幾秒。75Please respect copyright.PENANAqEnd8C0HFq
好快逼自己冷靜返,笑一笑,希望佢睇唔出我啱啱有動搖。75Please respect copyright.PENANAR7qdRarLZ0
楊悅盈捽一捽眼,無再望住鏡頭——無再望住我。75Please respect copyright.PENANA6r0Ql01Xp8
縱使唔知原因,但係睇到佢呢個樣,我直覺佢係講緊大話呃我。75Please respect copyright.PENANAS211SEzMqG
定係……我其實呃緊自己?佢已經有佢自己嘅生活,係得我仲喺度季節性發愁,自以為同佢有種切唔斷嘅Connection,大家都覺得對方嘅存在有啲特別?75Please respect copyright.PENANAZtpotCZSdl
「好呀……咁……我哋遲啲再傾……?」試探性咁問佢一句。75Please respect copyright.PENANAiZuJV4govG
因為,呢一刻收咗線,我唔知下次幾時先有機會同佢見面。75Please respect copyright.PENANADt8qT4EUWh
「嗯。」佢咁爽快,我反而唔知點俾反應。75Please respect copyright.PENANAT7IB3vj7q3
不嬲都唔擅長同女仔溝通,尤其是呢個我完全唔知佢諗乜嘅女仔。75Please respect copyright.PENANA33bQX3aQAQ
「聖誕快樂。」75Please respect copyright.PENANAaeMfMulZQo
我未講完呢句,佢已經收咗線。75Please respect copyright.PENANACY1NZ7DdBy
隨手將部電話掉咗上床,好苦惱咁揞住面低聲咆哮——我明知佢最撚憎聖誕……點解要同佢講聖誕快樂……?75Please respect copyright.PENANAmfIZ390eNY
隔咗個零鐘,房外面終於靜咗。75Please respect copyright.PENANAILAq5ktfcQ
我打開少少門望出去,家姐佢哋全部出晒去;阿爸阿媽應該已經瞓咗。75Please respect copyright.PENANAa4WlNmPTc8
拎住部電話行出廳,坐咗落梳化度。75Please respect copyright.PENANA3Z6DA6Ku1e
望住頭先打俾楊悅盈十幾次嘅通話記錄。75Please respect copyright.PENANAk4zwJ3SeAJ
佢一次都無聽到。75Please respect copyright.PENANA6nsEYdJzrn
隨手喺枱面拎起一塊Pizza想食,不過個口感凍到有啲核突。75Please respect copyright.PENANANpFuaZzGnU
我歎一歎氣,掉返低塊Pizza;再一次嘗試打俾楊悅盈。75Please respect copyright.PENANANM2uhU2syf
聽到電話接通嗰啲「嘟嘟嘟」聲,同頭先一樣滿心期待。75Please respect copyright.PENANAoQALKTiCBm
然後聽到響到斷線嗰陣「嘟……嘟……嘟……」聲,再一次心情沉入谷底。75Please respect copyright.PENANAfDHBXDeSoR
我記得舊年有套戲,描述聖誕老人係個酗酒成性嘅廢老,去咗間俾人劫持嘅大屋嗰度殺恐怖份子。75Please respect copyright.PENANAihkL0FUp0i
套戲其實幾得意。75Please respect copyright.PENANAyav6NyFj6E
而且……我好羨慕外國人,細個會真心以為聖誕老人係真實存在。75Please respect copyright.PENANAWT2bzvSJ5g
到大個咗之後,會用「Santa is not real」呢句說話,嚟表達嗰種失去某種信念嘅心態。75Please respect copyright.PENANAkXPEnOWbDP
有啲無力咁喺梳化度瞓低咗,唔忿氣咁再打俾楊悅盈。75Please respect copyright.PENANA8i2r2Bau1p
——嘟嘟嘟……75Please respect copyright.PENANAKyFlaMBhMO
你叫我用一句說嚟形容而家個心態,我真係無能為力。75Please respect copyright.PENANADYidO4LyZk
——嘟嘟嘟……75Please respect copyright.PENANADHK8eBDwB9
比較接近嘅講法,大概係好似有個超新星核心塌縮,變咗做個巨型黑洞……75Please respect copyright.PENANAohDLkUTTts
——嘟嘟嘟……75Please respect copyright.PENANASSoM0lOFeb
將所有嘢吸晒入去吞噬殆盡。75Please respect copyright.PENANAxjok2ZUZpG
——嘟……75Please respect copyright.PENANAJ56y7HHmlE
唯一一個可以填補呢個空洞嘅人,75Please respect copyright.PENANA1u45w6Nj4x
——嘟……75Please respect copyright.PENANAclkJmaxTQF
而家匿咗喺唔知邊度,75Please respect copyright.PENANARkNNKXHiGo
——嘟……75Please respect copyright.PENANAFHjYaSFU8j
同佢想像出嚟嘅男同事,75Please respect copyright.PENANAEQlclYqN3q
——嘟……75Please respect copyright.PENANAjt803syPbU
喺某條陰暗後巷度過緊聖誕。75Please respect copyright.PENANABbq8l4ZL6u
—《聖誕綜合症×2》 完—75Please respect copyright.PENANABUdMaEhWQ6