我托住頭,呆望住個電腦Mon;視覺上知道Mon入面有畫面、有嘢郁緊,亦都聽到個喇叭播緊音樂。86Please respect copyright.PENANAjjXfafmfy0
但係注意力一早飛咗去唔知邊度。86Please respect copyright.PENANAwC02zK7cZ5
而家我個神態,大概同撞咗邪或者靈魂出竅無乜分別;如果何晞媛見到我呢個樣,應該會嚇到縮。86Please respect copyright.PENANA6dtNkIsxUC
……或者會好興奮咁開始研究我。86Please respect copyright.PENANAvmu7PPaxtS
我都唔知條癲雞會諗啲乜嘢。86Please respect copyright.PENANA9kZTZTcNi2
有一個好撚Social嘅屋企人,加上生活喺一個無乜消遣嘅地方,就會得一個災難級嘅聖誕節。86Please respect copyright.PENANAgWBu6tbDm1
我屋企唔算好大,一家四口住勉強算係有各自私人空間;但係佢今晚約咗佢男朋友同成班大學同學上嚟,我大約點算咗一下差唔多有十個人。86Please respect copyright.PENANAldQbjo8EP3
到而家都Get唔到,點解聖誕節就係要玩要High Energy要狂歡要開心,先至叫做有「節日氣氛」。86Please respect copyright.PENANAKF3H6ZzavS
所以我通常都只會靜靜地匿埋喺屋企,同嗰啲覺得要熱烈慶祝嘅人河水不犯井水;點估到今年我家姐竟然會主動將個「氣氛」帶返屋企?86Please respect copyright.PENANA2OPgYY6kIQ
還好只要我閂埋門,就唔會太受影響——86Please respect copyright.PENANA2VUaKv6zBJ
「何晞賢!」86Please respect copyright.PENANAjgYPyxrZTA
緊接住呢聲咆哮,我房門同時俾人轟開——何晞媛大模斯樣咁走入嚟,懶係親切咁「啪」一聲從後雙手搭落我膊頭度。86Please respect copyright.PENANAINkQEeb3yN
「陣間一齊出去睇戲!」佢笑得好開心,一路亂摷我個頭一路講。86Please respect copyright.PENANAOndULN5Hph
——妖……我一手撥開佢:「咩戲……?」86Please respect copyright.PENANA39A1ewG7vz
無人答我,何晞媛講完呢句嘢,已經直接出返去。86Please respect copyright.PENANAPv9I5bMboq
OK,原來佢唔係「問」我一唔一齊睇,係「通知」我一齊睇。86Please respect copyright.PENANA32qAz0iN1i
陪佢哋去戲院我無所謂,只不過我近排啲注意力好差,入親戲院都一定會瞓覺。86Please respect copyright.PENANAJyrXD4Bi7B
而且……聖誕節呢種日子,依然會令我有啲唔太自在。86Please respect copyright.PENANAhMI9QU1ptQ
除咗楊悅盈之外,應該無乜人會明我呢個感受。86Please respect copyright.PENANAwmWYxhi7mj
唔知佢而家喺邊,做緊乜嘢。86Please respect copyright.PENANAw6V9iJ814L
不自覺咁打開個電話,喺Contact List搵返佢個名——原來距離上次我同佢Text,已經過咗半年。86Please respect copyright.PENANA0Rp43hDUkr
我唔係無搵佢,而係佢對上一次有回覆我,已經係半年前。86Please respect copyright.PENANAKPWp0QRhNR
簡單一句「嗯」。86Please respect copyright.PENANAXTcpp9pH5f
好想而家Send個Message,甚至乎打俾佢;只係我知有90%機會佢唔會覆同唔會聽,然後我心情就會變得更差。86Please respect copyright.PENANAo3xwbyGnFW
——搏唔過。86Please respect copyright.PENANAaKBM0R1Yps
我諗起啱啱入大學嗰年……五年前?嗰個聖誕,我唔知自己哪來的勇氣,居然主動約佢一齊去啲同學搞嘅Party;佢又唔知咩原因,竟然應承咗。86Please respect copyright.PENANAtkekkHj6Md
在場識楊悅盈嘅人得我同賴智勇,其他人見到我帶住佢嚟,都順理成章咁當咗佢係我女朋友。86Please respect copyright.PENANA3NzLJCKPQ2
賴智勇當然不在話下,奇怪嘅係,86Please respect copyright.PENANAsXnzJcssze
我同楊悅盈,86Please respect copyright.PENANAaipFSlVvjz
都係不置可否。86Please respect copyright.PENANAnjMVKMbbFi
好似我同佢之間有個共識,覺得我哋嘅關係,與其講清講楚,不如由得佢撲朔迷離仲好。86Please respect copyright.PENANAj7gNZrn6Tr
成日都覺得,楊悅盈喺我心入面係一個好細嘅傷口,唔會殺得死我,淨係會間唔中隱隱作痛;每次就嚟結焦嗰陣,自己又會犯賤搣返開佢。86Please respect copyright.PENANA46XIH6yQqK
連疤痕都算不上,只係個永遠唔會好返嘅傷口……86Please respect copyright.PENANAxRqGhurAvc
——做乜鳩忽然間諗咁多嘢?86Please respect copyright.PENANAzEStZfAHIN
我苦笑住擺返低個電話。86Please respect copyright.PENANAn1w7VhCyOc
自從何晞媛呢條仆街同我提過乜嘢係「聖誕綜合症」之後,每年呢個節日……唔係,每年年尾,我都會有呢種心神恍惚嘅感覺。86Please respect copyright.PENANAkqgHx1kC2T
好似潘朵拉的盒子咁。
打開嘅人明明係何晞媛,但係瀨嘢嗰個係我。
仆街……86Please respect copyright.PENANAtwc2kiyDBl
然後,部電話好似想嚇我一跳咁,忽然間響起。86Please respect copyright.PENANAvzItmx6ABC
楊悅盈86Please respect copyright.PENANA7bDgbpoV47
來電86Please respect copyright.PENANAYkbCxLfoxw
毫無先兆咁收到佢電話,我有啲不知所措。86Please respect copyright.PENANA82q0SA9ILs
聽唔聽好?86Please respect copyright.PENANAtGq6pRafLW
佢本身就唔係嗰種會主動Contact人嘅女仔,今日仲要係聖誕。86Please respect copyright.PENANAsfk1n9IlCB
係咪撳錯掣?86Please respect copyright.PENANA7lUtbUUpZi
聽咗會好撚尷架喎?86Please respect copyright.PENANADSENqm3HzP
萬一佢真係打俾我?86Please respect copyright.PENANArpFeFWNeZ7
我Miss咗佢Call咪好柒?86Please respect copyright.PENANA5IxwZEwYu6
但係……佢連機都唔覆,會主動打俾人?86Please respect copyright.PENANA9STzZZsZuS
「屌你老母……」我屌住老母壯膽,毅然決定撳掣接聽。86Please respect copyright.PENANAtnGGEIbpz7
尷尬又好、柒又好,我唔想Miss咗呢個機會。86Please respect copyright.PENANAmThgYZVw2j
接通咗之後個畫面好黑,隱約見到楊悅盈個樣。我同佢大家都唔知講乜好,隔住個Mon互望咗一陣。86Please respect copyright.PENANAL4FsG5nJOI
「楊悅盈……?」86Please respect copyright.PENANAZ30kmmIYlJ
講完之後心諗大鑊——應該會俾佢話我講廢話?86Please respect copyright.PENANA6hUYbvb4VV
好在,楊悅盈無出聲屌鳩,淨係繼續粒聲唔出,瞇起眼睥住我……搞到我有啲緊張。86Please respect copyright.PENANAaB9DumA6Cd
「好耐無見……」情急之下,只能夠再講一句廢話打破沉默……86Please respect copyright.PENANAWgVPv5sV6L
「有幾耐?半年咋嘛。」楊悅盈終於開聲。86Please respect copyright.PENANATd97czvAcb
我扮晒不經意咁望住個Mon,其實好努力咁嘗試緊喺嗰一片漆黑入面,搵少少線索出嚟,想知道楊悅盈喺邊度。86Please respect copyright.PENANAn6rKK0pdt7
利申,呢個時間、呢個日子可以見到佢,我其實好驚喜——好想即刻出街、甚至乎直接穿過個電話Mon去佢身邊。86Please respect copyright.PENANACL0kTxS6dl
「無出去玩?」86Please respect copyright.PENANA3sNWk3RhGe
聽到呢個問題,我忍唔住笑咗一笑,因為——86Please respect copyright.PENANAFdVQrnzesx
「如果係我問嘅話,你一定會話……」我壓低把聲,專登扮佢嗰種死老豆Tone:「『廢話,睇都睇到我喺屋企啦』。」86Please respect copyright.PENANAfptvcxPMma
「你唔好去死?」楊悅盈有啲兇狠咁屌咗我一句。86Please respect copyright.PENANABm7XERAh0G
雖然一閃即逝,但係我發誓——佢啱啱笑咗一下。86Please respect copyright.PENANAePCanORBTV
心情放鬆咗少少,我攤返落床度。86Please respect copyright.PENANAvyF2nEJP1a
「平安夜仲出去玩……未逼過咩……不過家姐約咗啲人返嚟玩。」86Please respect copyright.PENANAtcu3DH2Shf
我好耐都未試過咁近距離望住佢。
畢咗業五年,楊悅盈依然好似無長大過咁,同我記憶入面嗰個大風少少都吹得走嘅中學生,無乜太大分別。86Please respect copyright.PENANA0HIWyRW9Ki
「你出咗街?邊度嚟?」86Please respect copyright.PENANAVduTF8VDSG
電話Mon畫面,由楊悅盈大頭,變咗做一條陰暗、完全無辨識度嘅後巷。86Please respect copyright.PENANAyP7lUrYDp8
「某條後巷。」86Please respect copyright.PENANA7HX0cArcP7
我冷笑一聲,睇死佢係因為怕人多,先搵個咁嘅地方匿埋。86Please respect copyright.PENANAhCwU7Q8R1z
快手Cap低咗個畫面。86Please respect copyright.PENANAsQCuYY9MzH
明知無可能憑張咁嘅圖搵到佢喺邊。86Please respect copyright.PENANASpxs9J4JCy
純粹係留個希望。86Please respect copyright.PENANA377laQ1y17
可能你會話:「直接問佢咪得囉,柒頭!」86Please respect copyright.PENANAHuEFdOvPG0
你啱。
不過我係雙子座。
無論啲嘢幾想講出口都好,未篤中個Keyword,我都只會將所有嘢吞返落肚。86Please respect copyright.PENANAAQVGGEboqw
「你最近點?」所以我唯有繼續用啲無營養嘅廢話,延長呢段對話。86Please respect copyright.PENANAieX6qvygHu
楊悅盈聽到之後呆咗。86Please respect copyright.PENANAz59KDx6100
好似我問咗個世紀大難題咁。86Please respect copyright.PENANAcgyqa4t9R2
隔咗一陣,先至含糊其辭咁搖搖頭。86Please respect copyright.PENANAOY5Jy5vjos
「你記唔記得乜嘢係『聖誕綜合症』?」86Please respect copyright.PENANAxY723fuhl2
我微笑住點點頭——呢樣我當然記得。86Please respect copyright.PENANA0WjBHR9ahO
我唔記得咗嘅係……楊悅盈同我一樣都係雙子座,而我Feel到自己都未篤中佢嘅Keyword。86Please respect copyright.PENANAxdifz5Fgjm
「記得,你病發呀?」86Please respect copyright.PENANAmSfEtYk8Vl
「關你撚事?」佢衝口而出大聲講咗一句。86Please respect copyright.PENANAzybwuPwfYF
一瞬間,終於搵返以前同佢相處嗰陣,唔使顧慮咁多嘅感覺。86Please respect copyright.PENANARcN1GT371k
雖然隔住個Mon,現實中亦都唔知相隔咗幾多公里。86Please respect copyright.PENANAxIdswIgF8P
但係我居然見到呢個罕見過世界奇觀嘅景象——楊悅盈真心對住我笑。86Please respect copyright.PENANA2Gg4bDh3Ze