I wish I could understand why I feel this way78Please respect copyright.PENANAWEJSrORQQX
Why flying doesn't feel the same 78Please respect copyright.PENANA4HadVjZ4o8
And the lows don't seem to fade78Please respect copyright.PENANAK1uRC0Hn4N
They just linger and remain
I find myself trapped with no incentive to fix it, to rewrite the narrative 78Please respect copyright.PENANAYuHl3f4Cx6
Instead my mind picks it apart, going straight for the heart78Please respect copyright.PENANAkL9IqfjInD
I gotta give it to them, they play it pretty smart
I wish I could tell you everything that makes me hurt 78Please respect copyright.PENANAOWCdlO5vXB
I wish I could convert it into something better, avert from the inevitable 78Please respect copyright.PENANAPgK2apPqb0
I'll convert this pain into something that works 78Please respect copyright.PENANAvTizgnZzoK
Something that works to be charitable to my health, make my pain more revocable and severable 78Please respect copyright.PENANAAKcwTuWDcM
Because after several years of being rendered inseparable from this feeling 78Please respect copyright.PENANAJBRsUpzXtN
I finally feel like I'm worth freeing 78Please respect copyright.PENANAEpureV8WA8
That this pain made me bleed, but it can't keep me78Please respect copyright.PENANA9ZKrUTsGsT
I'm finally fleeing
But my superficial confidence is fleeting as my heart slows its beating 78Please respect copyright.PENANAxhP5vOYuXz
The breathing turns to drowning 78Please respect copyright.PENANANitCYXvRth
The seconds I'm counting, turns to shouting 78Please respect copyright.PENANAys90jSUnmR
I'm pounding on the walls, sounding my alarms78Please respect copyright.PENANARl003IIheF
But no one welcomes me with open arms78Please respect copyright.PENANAR9zcJW7KIi
Their love is fictitious 78Please respect copyright.PENANADNE4SxhGIY
So thus, restarts the vicious cycle78Please respect copyright.PENANAUmfLrBAdKh
I try to focus on my survival, but I never see its arrival 78Please respect copyright.PENANAzhieNSo9Po
So I lay here, my body limp and my heart slowing 78Please respect copyright.PENANA6ruiFIgQdJ
The deprival of blood, of color, of feeling 78Please respect copyright.PENANAzExxem0Uhw
My life is fleeting, like the confidcence I once had 78Please respect copyright.PENANAfwGjHFhbm1
I never meet my revival
But no one understands, no one offers a hand 78Please respect copyright.PENANAr6DfswmKOi
I try to stand, my lungs expand, only to to be stuck in secondhand smoke78Please respect copyright.PENANAxUOGNZv2LY
My voice broke as the smoke filled my lungs and covered my eyes like some sort of cloak 78Please respect copyright.PENANA55YeRNtqf0
I tried to yell, to call out for help, but all I did was choke
Falling on my knees, right back to the ground, I look around 78Please respect copyright.PENANA9paEyymEdc
Listening to the elaborate planning of everything demanding a change 78Please respect copyright.PENANAmJqxiRPjIo
They get their way, nothing remains the same78Please respect copyright.PENANAkG5rv7mCC3
All I feel is shame as I call out every name, hoping for someone to see everything slipping away 78Please respect copyright.PENANAlbbRg77owi
But no one comes my way, I'm disregarded and pushed away 78Please respect copyright.PENANAZOW78pyLbl
I guess no one wanted me around anyway
I give in to the deadly game, as if I was ever given a choice 78Please respect copyright.PENANAjJBXyr0pJj
But maybe my only claim to fame would be that I'm pretty damn good at playing this game 78Please respect copyright.PENANALtmCCFITwz
Even if it feels like I'm locked in a cage78Please respect copyright.PENANAyrUSYgstpH
The game of push and pull with the demons in my mind78Please respect copyright.PENANAZhcdIpLCxU
Darkness covering my eyes, I'm blind 78Please respect copyright.PENANAM93LceKmIS
But full of myself and always on time 78Please respect copyright.PENANAtLoYyIEqsZ
I admit that the crime is mine 78Please respect copyright.PENANAMeajp29HNo
Now I'll serve my time
I thought, maybe if I quit it78Please respect copyright.PENANAodAUgLfQe3
The devil will lose his incentive 78Please respect copyright.PENANAyniSKx9hOQ
The weak little girl, poisoned 78Please respect copyright.PENANAk8VnjdWFQN
Too bad for his game of tainting the good
But even then he just pulled down my walls 78Please respect copyright.PENANAhB9bAObVgB
Brick by brick 78Please respect copyright.PENANAA3fFBBAQIJ
And now I'm back in this smoky pit, the light drained from it 78Please respect copyright.PENANAAM5Uf88ow8
Smoke filling my lungs and ripping the sight from my eyes 78Please respect copyright.PENANAvBbnrPIZj3
Once again, I'm blind
Even when I believe it's over78Please respect copyright.PENANAKqOKNg3jGm
That the thunder has passed me by, the storm subsiding 78Please respect copyright.PENANAR6ZaZVtQeM
It's still right there 78Please respect copyright.PENANAdG27ZqQmdZ
The devil on my shoulder