White sheets stained red in a hotel bed76Please respect copyright.PENANAfHFirgzgtW
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone76Please respect copyright.PENANA46xDsYTI7n
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing76Please respect copyright.PENANA81I35ilk9V
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping76Please respect copyright.PENANADoISHRIAca
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 76Please respect copyright.PENANAirMtIuzjzi
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 76Please respect copyright.PENANAeD08TuzEo5
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head76Please respect copyright.PENANAUzmbSJVyej
Vivid visions invading my rest 76Please respect copyright.PENANANlD5xVVSe7
I can't sleep because all I see is death76Please respect copyright.PENANACiPN7QIOw7
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 76Please respect copyright.PENANANMcVdLjcgr
Thinking about death at such an early age76Please respect copyright.PENANAB6LoCKhX0R
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 76Please respect copyright.PENANAIdbdY00QfR
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest76Please respect copyright.PENANAd6K35pcpmV
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 76Please respect copyright.PENANAeWSWTEcjyZ
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end76Please respect copyright.PENANAf8Sw0Sh7ph
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again76Please respect copyright.PENANA7y2QL5RI2i
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying76Please respect copyright.PENANA0dt1lM8Kp6
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries76Please respect copyright.PENANAilj6o26u4z
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"76Please respect copyright.PENANAwU1alHcLi1
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 76Please respect copyright.PENANAWC2E6VXdUV
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends76Please respect copyright.PENANASbQswQtIh9
Nobody actually cares until you're dead76Please respect copyright.PENANAubCNd5YDka
Until you're another headline in the news76Please respect copyright.PENANA5eooU7X53V
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 76Please respect copyright.PENANA5Wgkk8rZuc
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 76Please respect copyright.PENANAvARfkBUfRI
"I miss you today" 76Please respect copyright.PENANApPGcx7evbv
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around76Please respect copyright.PENANAjvmuBvlJW1
But they care now, 76Please respect copyright.PENANAS9IuETaSk8
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 76Please respect copyright.PENANAnm8HE5WApb
Mixed signals is all they send76Please respect copyright.PENANAOY2Mnu76al
One day I matter to them 76Please respect copyright.PENANAikgMaDcamO
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine76Please respect copyright.PENANAznQYNtwStv
A few months ago, I felt like flying 76Please respect copyright.PENANAuBO8cylm6J
A few months ago, I truly felt alive76Please respect copyright.PENANAprc15yQjLD
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 76Please respect copyright.PENANAPi2U4tMEvO
It's hard to explain with words,76Please respect copyright.PENANA4MDiqma4JA
How the silence kills 76Please respect copyright.PENANALZuE4l1fNI
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 76Please respect copyright.PENANA9Ma0bgD6Ep
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 76Please respect copyright.PENANAnkUg1CvKHq
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 76Please respect copyright.PENANA2L99yRN5E4
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow76Please respect copyright.PENANAoZxsI4dzkr
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 76Please respect copyright.PENANAJx5XUCoKTs
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 76Please respect copyright.PENANAlVv9kBJLIs
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it76Please respect copyright.PENANAOf00VyiYHE
The little voice in my head, it screams it76Please respect copyright.PENANAMHrC4aLGo9
"This was their choice"76Please respect copyright.PENANAU5yqKkqrts
And to be lonely all the time is mine76Please respect copyright.PENANAlQO84eQWWE
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly76Please respect copyright.PENANAnj0MAFxzNd
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains76Please respect copyright.PENANAFM2lPFkBic
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned76Please respect copyright.PENANAOpCerNsyDB
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 76Please respect copyright.PENANAx2gIxfWKTt
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 76Please respect copyright.PENANAsUGj5g5ZCH
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying76Please respect copyright.PENANAap76PG8I3E
I wish somebody would call76Please respect copyright.PENANAqpJxnq9AuB
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 76Please respect copyright.PENANAwq1x888qCF
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 76Please respect copyright.PENANAQREXQs0FWS
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden76Please respect copyright.PENANAR2JZ2gSLFs
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 76Please respect copyright.PENANAGFxFbYKthb
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 76Please respect copyright.PENANAVndtjxklEK
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 76Please respect copyright.PENANAepCSYtaImA
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried