這算什麼?486Please respect copyright.PENANAy3UtHZaUHW
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突然之間出現,說要給我一個測試,突然之間說完就完。486Please respect copyright.PENANAjOd7lamH9X
486Please respect copyright.PENANAa7xvCnkCQ5
說什麼,我為傾姐哭了一回,她以後就會改變。486Please respect copyright.PENANAA2KIQGQori
486Please respect copyright.PENANAOpEauqSVJU
說什麼人最厲害的地方在於改變態度,什麼事都能夠做到。486Please respect copyright.PENANApdH8DQubV4
486Please respect copyright.PENANAq49nK5FNa7
說什麼脫離不了人的思維,說什麼不如開創自己的人生。486Please respect copyright.PENANAu3dTNEeYy8
486Please respect copyright.PENANATsZ79hYuNj
神明丁在看著我,手中仍然拿著練習簿。486Please respect copyright.PENANAMSsP8sVo6p
486Please respect copyright.PENANAUOEHO9xwDp
我伸手接過練習簿,慢慢站了起來。486Please respect copyright.PENANAxBz9cMOH7u
486Please respect copyright.PENANAaaISiNZSQx
走去岩石旁邊,拾起厚皮的孤島日記,裡面仍然夾著葉片。486Please respect copyright.PENANAavAiFnvGay
486Please respect copyright.PENANA3b9pMx0tGu
然後便準備下山了。486Please respect copyright.PENANAdUe9MmPuof
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「其實我想聽朝先畀本簿你……」神明丁說。486Please respect copyright.PENANAczOjFzjqMy
486Please respect copyright.PENANAw9W8dBfu5n
「你想去邊?」祂再問,一直注視著我。486Please respect copyright.PENANAkVpmYXV4tH
486Please respect copyright.PENANAQL3ri7pMC5
我嘴巴兩動,「餵雞。」486Please respect copyright.PENANA9JlCJ5fnMc
486Please respect copyright.PENANAjCRMwxhrhk
一步一步離去,不久消失在祂的眼前。486Please respect copyright.PENANA5DOKnHS4Mm
486Please respect copyright.PENANABSYeBwvdJu
到了山腰,我撥開茂密的樹枝葉,走到空曠的樹底。486Please respect copyright.PENANAwi1Ay1eu88
486Please respect copyright.PENANAuPh4vCUrEI
樹幹旁邊綑了一個雞籠。486Please respect copyright.PENANABor8zaDVal
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雞籠是我用很長時間,以枯枝、樹滕和氣根織成的。486Please respect copyright.PENANAPUHTjbALnJ
486Please respect copyright.PENANAM09q9dqojk
裡面住了三隻山雞。牠們都是雌雞,一年有幾個月會生蛋,其餘時間白養。486Please respect copyright.PENANAeXz2a6Uo2m
486Please respect copyright.PENANATis5DUTiKW
養雌雞的好處是,不會晨啼,不會在陽光出來的時候,「額咯咯咯……」486Please respect copyright.PENANAoQLKfQ104L
486Please respect copyright.PENANA6zUniJA0ei
不會告訴我,又一天了。486Please respect copyright.PENANAstvnBU4OYi
486Please respect copyright.PENANALxN5P65ceY
在沒有光的晚上,雞會發雞盲,什麼都看不見。486Please respect copyright.PENANAeghA96h2nj
486Please respect copyright.PENANAPUTxXmyLIR
我總是在這個時候,偷雞蛋吃。486Please respect copyright.PENANA93EX6GTfxy
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現在就是沒有光的時候,但也沒有雞蛋吃。486Please respect copyright.PENANAfRrnUIU77P
486Please respect copyright.PENANA3bs2HjuiOa
我摘了一個水果,咬了一口,又咬了幾口。486Please respect copyright.PENANAAWaSYZLKSy
486Please respect copyright.PENANA5pvkMSctHp
靠著樹幹坐下,我打開神的練習簿,從第一頁開始看起。486Please respect copyright.PENANAI9arRWmBjR
486Please respect copyright.PENANAdjCwBYor0Q
「陸傾兒,17歲的少女,願望是可以脫離現有的生活。」486Please respect copyright.PENANAhXgi4LgYaR
486Please respect copyright.PENANAXubqZadgll
摸著書頁,仍然覺得紙張的質感很特別,像是摸著人的心靈。486Please respect copyright.PENANAxxCseEFOZy
486Please respect copyright.PENANAbwiKxfXfu5
但此刻的觸感,跟最初摸的時候不同了。486Please respect copyright.PENANA89utWvB3V6
486Please respect copyright.PENANAXo5JRH6dl3
怎麼說呢?486Please respect copyright.PENANA8F4PoEdakZ
486Please respect copyright.PENANAgfAEf73CgQ
本來是偏冷感的,現在多了一份溫暖,有冷中帶暖的感覺。486Please respect copyright.PENANAtZoM9w5ktX
486Please respect copyright.PENANA3P6RwWfMHD
「陸傾兒。」我撫摸著。486Please respect copyright.PENANAdlBBKNwjHv
486Please respect copyright.PENANAfAwbNRmMOZ
翻開下頁,記錄著我的所思所想。我像個新的人一樣,無知又懷舊地上學。理性又感性地救人。486Please respect copyright.PENANAhfOUEZq0QO
486Please respect copyright.PENANA6ZCZeI8Ms2
那天剛好也是我的生日,完完全全是慶祝我的新生啊。486Please respect copyright.PENANALcRCpiFkaK
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「新生……」我繼續看著,翻後一頁。486Please respect copyright.PENANAZTsC3PHOzS
486Please respect copyright.PENANAyw3Py9DHDl
「咁聽住喇喎。」她看著我說,表情漸漸柔和起來。486Please respect copyright.PENANAAt2527cU9v
486Please respect copyright.PENANAumdS1ZoocT
我再點頭。486Please respect copyright.PENANAnxsyXecz4r
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「孫正直,陸傾兒祝你生日快樂。」她露出笑容地說。486Please respect copyright.PENANAg83Y8AHCLw
486Please respect copyright.PENANAta0DtkHs4H
一天完了,有一個記號「END」。486Please respect copyright.PENANAXDLzTp6c4R
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我馬上看第二天。486Please respect copyright.PENANAKKwkUngU83
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中六的阿豪和阿晨還沒遭到天譴,還不知道蔣少的下場,李可兒的事情還未處理。486Please respect copyright.PENANAHQyqCbIu52
486Please respect copyright.PENANANxwYFLpRwl
在傾姐以外,仍有很多問題未解決。486Please respect copyright.PENANAJApzaq5qsa
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在海邊替她戴頸巾、蒙眼餵麥提莎、訴說心事……486Please respect copyright.PENANAUk0cD8fkbr
486Please respect copyright.PENANAb43LpQpTOj
聽著她說自責的話,讓有共同體會的我,流下了淚。486Please respect copyright.PENANAfuYiuSg1ux
486Please respect copyright.PENANAcFMyTfqalU
「如果我喊一喊,就能夠令佢產生咁大嘅轉變……」486Please respect copyright.PENANABZ3RJPjFhy
486Please respect copyright.PENANAVgao9ncVMa
「咁我做更多嘅嘢,咪會有更大嘅轉變?」486Please respect copyright.PENANAplcMTQ4eCZ
486Please respect copyright.PENANAqQS8u0eeS1
第二天「END」出現。486Please respect copyright.PENANAz3vJsUeXyS
486Please respect copyright.PENANAMYEDrkjWnh
我蓋上了練習簿。486Please respect copyright.PENANABGdliQa2QR
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雙手把練習簿抱在胸前,深深地感受心靈的重量。486Please respect copyright.PENANA9pKje0QBpw
486Please respect copyright.PENANAG9FTeHNJCt
如果換一個態度去面對,會變成怎樣?486Please respect copyright.PENANAZ5zCJxdcs6
486Please respect copyright.PENANAQ9kWwyE6EY
深深地嘆一口氣。既然我已經不合格了,那麼我就不需要在意什麼神的慧根,什麼神的做法,不需要在乎神的目光。我就只需要做我認為對的事,做我自己就可以了。486Please respect copyright.PENANAZd0jmyBsiv
486Please respect copyright.PENANAyDYL4Hii2W
問題是,我不只有一個自己,我有孤獨且軟弱的我,也有堅強而積極的我。486Please respect copyright.PENANA95YxWpjcSm
486Please respect copyright.PENANAoVZQF0ihBX
活在這個孤島的我,是軟弱的我。這兩天,進入練習簿中的是另一個我。486Please respect copyright.PENANA3g0oiMmqw2
486Please respect copyright.PENANAy3L3B4DDe7
但無論哪一個我,都受著過去的影響。486Please respect copyright.PENANA9YB7hUmpjS
486Please respect copyright.PENANA05nm0kYvqd
有人說,過去的經歷會影響人現在的生活。沉重的過去會成為腳上的鎖鏈鐵球,阻礙著自己前進。486Please respect copyright.PENANALwO9jif60o
486Please respect copyright.PENANA4fE9GwtD9L
我現在是不是正被過去束縛,而停滯不前?486Please respect copyright.PENANAqoUYl0jVCm
486Please respect copyright.PENANAPMHFy7txn1
剛剛看完練習簿,在學校裡的我總是回憶和感觸,放學後也是,看見別人在牽手也感慨一番。486Please respect copyright.PENANAHIcTgo0L8g
486Please respect copyright.PENANABL7OZ76bdt
只有一個時候,我變得特別不同。特別珍惜時間,沒有回想過去,腦海像是沒有過去的人一樣只享受現在。486Please respect copyright.PENANAQjNSwnKV5l
486Please respect copyright.PENANAi3Dq6qBi9f
「你都有今日。」陸傾兒陰笑,馬上得逞地說,「繼續答頭先嘅問題。」486Please respect copyright.PENANAGMlewndRbM
486Please respect copyright.PENANAVtdonW5ecX
「我揀大膽。」我逃避地說。486Please respect copyright.PENANALYXmzynWHR
486Please respect copyright.PENANAhc3a1xuVur
「吓?」她難以置信,激氣地說,「我話畀你知,我突然之間好唔開心!你揀大膽嘅話,你真係要好大膽先得。」486Please respect copyright.PENANA0wR3fhGvfM
486Please respect copyright.PENANAR3PXdRPXL7
「嗯,我揀大膽。」我無可避免地說。486Please respect copyright.PENANAGwfvZUulZF
486Please respect copyright.PENANAFQpptFGYbI
放下練習簿,放在日記旁邊。486Please respect copyright.PENANAftrZ42r1Mu
486Please respect copyright.PENANA2eiSTfQkTZ
我再摘下水果,用石頭砸成幾塊,悄悄放進雞籠子裡。486Please respect copyright.PENANAHZZe8w2gHC
486Please respect copyright.PENANAUyO9JutE2h
然後再次坐好。486Please respect copyright.PENANAqdqLrmkEAX
486Please respect copyright.PENANAaIS5JGuAWc
「陸……傾兒。」486Please respect copyright.PENANADEOFDn0mzc
486Please respect copyright.PENANALg45u8Ffc0
這一晚,在睡著之前,我一共想起了她四次。486Please respect copyright.PENANASYGmFC8mfe
486Please respect copyright.PENANATJfAqKClJZ
陽光再次出現,睡醒的我看著雞籠,山雞正在喙食水果。486Please respect copyright.PENANAFdK0OZAfgE
486Please respect copyright.PENANAPe7OmgePCu
紅頭黑頸啡身綠屁股的山雞,並不是常見的家禽品種,而我已經強制養了牠們很久。486Please respect copyright.PENANAjou6480lXn
486Please respect copyright.PENANANeDjqD1QT6
一身骯髒的我,這時,有了溫暖的想法。486Please respect copyright.PENANA8qp6tS5w0b
486Please respect copyright.PENANAcRaIF7qy6S
不如拆掉籠子,看看牠們會不會走。486Please respect copyright.PENANARkgOFsx80O
486Please respect copyright.PENANAu7iP14SfaX
牠們會不會因為這裡有膳食而留下呢?或者,會不會對籠子產生了感情呢?486Please respect copyright.PENANA2aLFJaLvF9
486Please respect copyright.PENANAgOTsv1ase8
於是,我伸手去拆開籠子,解開至牠們能夠出來為止。486Please respect copyright.PENANAYjFUHRC6mu
486Please respect copyright.PENANAqPCbyZW3DD
坐在一旁的我,看到了有趣的一幕。486Please respect copyright.PENANAxVCtZ7vGST
486Please respect copyright.PENANA62KBmiGzQo
山雞喙起果肉,馬上跳跳,再拍拍拍拍翼飛走了。486Please respect copyright.PENANArO9FJkc7xx
486Please respect copyright.PENANAC5TMZZLLQ9
第二隻也是,第三隻掉了果肉,回來喙起,也再次起飛了。486Please respect copyright.PENANAe7jOcy7k0H
486Please respect copyright.PENANAIcz0IxM2RW
雖然只能飛五秒左右就墮地,但牠們沒有放棄過逃生,一直跳走跳走飛飛。486Please respect copyright.PENANAQWou4aVXGU
486Please respect copyright.PENANAfsmZLxvnFf
不愧是山雞,有著天生的野性,跟被人類選來圈養的雞種不同。486Please respect copyright.PENANAYTWtCEXO3S
486Please respect copyright.PENANAtWLB3FVIwE
這些山雞,從基因裡,就有著不被馴服的特徵。486Please respect copyright.PENANAK4lcirJLhK
486Please respect copyright.PENANAH7UKfcVdoQ
所以,不會甘心一生留在籠裡。486Please respect copyright.PENANAetqWDiMI59
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只要有機會,就一定會逃出去,再次過自由自在的生活。486Please respect copyright.PENANAjMfnVhXDo1
486Please respect copyright.PENANA8h73m6cnNg
那麼,我呢?486Please respect copyright.PENANAewWYbtxuhM
486Please respect copyright.PENANAfAbNL9CfJ7
我會選擇留在籠子裡,還是想辦法逃出去?486Please respect copyright.PENANAfhLFSU6NF7
486Please respect copyright.PENANAs1ny0TC4sb
「點啊你?」神明丁問,仍在山頂上等我。486Please respect copyright.PENANAT8DxQuA81Y
486Please respect copyright.PENANAVRxDW3xbKE
我來到山頂,帶回練習簿和日記。486Please respect copyright.PENANAo5ldF8bt8U
486Please respect copyright.PENANADZ0eH4ffIK
「你好似精神咗喎。」祂說,正在看著我。486Please respect copyright.PENANAPHZxbPEYrX
486Please respect copyright.PENANA8t8xwtkYfN
「係咩?」我問,走到祂的身旁,掠過祂的身旁。486Please respect copyright.PENANAKFFOMvRNEr
486Please respect copyright.PENANAG2kGfedNMP
屁股坐在扁平岩石上。486Please respect copyright.PENANA8ZU3TFFPYy
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第三次出發,我要做到什麼? 486Please respect copyright.PENANAl8cSEGLP46
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最後一次出發,我要過怎樣的一天? 486Please respect copyright.PENANAN90mUiwOVF
486Please respect copyright.PENANAaWO5CkN3Xj
「神明丁,你覺得我應該點做?」我默默地問。486Please respect copyright.PENANAfTZTjQxu8q
486Please respect copyright.PENANAmbmQtRi5Kh
「最好……唔好咁悶啦。」神明丁說,「太無聊嘅話,冇人會想睇。」486Please respect copyright.PENANAM4T6sed9EG
486Please respect copyright.PENANADYUapfu4J3
「神明丁,我好多謝你兩日前嚟到哩度。」我說,「係我想讀完本日記就自殺嘅一晚,你及時出現,令我活到今日。」486Please respect copyright.PENANAPrBi7dcNrd
486Please respect copyright.PENANAkYvIdgrbZF
「今日,雖然你話我已經唔合格。」我說,「但我一早有咗心理準備,早就同自己講,至少我賺咗沖一個熱水涼、食到魚蛋燒賣。」486Please respect copyright.PENANACjoQn8xzBb
486Please respect copyright.PENANAfI1Vh2xTz8
「所以,即使我對你有好多不滿,但終歸嚟講,我都係感謝你,能夠嚟搵我嘅。」486Please respect copyright.PENANABpFAzX8xak
486Please respect copyright.PENANACU4ROXA8pe
「係……係。」神明丁聽著。486Please respect copyright.PENANAWVbzYi19L7
486Please respect copyright.PENANAuYcHN3rLQf
「今日,」我回歸今日,「我一樣會救想救嘅人,幫要幫嘅人。無論係咪測緊試,我認為我都係要繼續做嘅。」486Please respect copyright.PENANADKzhcWjPiZ
486Please respect copyright.PENANA1UOXuVM1SE
「嗯,嗯。」祂點著頭。486Please respect copyright.PENANAJTJP6Ivhcm
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「今日,我會活得比你『預知』嘅我,更加出色,更加超乎想像。」我宣言。486Please respect copyright.PENANA8kk512BcH3
486Please respect copyright.PENANA09WOJuO9qH
不然的話,就太對不起這「一天」了。486Please respect copyright.PENANA99kNPSWeq3
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我已經很多年沒有重視過一天是怎麼活,但今天,我稍微地,想試一次。486Please respect copyright.PENANAwBoOQfoO65
486Please respect copyright.PENANAMMn5uVCURN
不受束縛的我,到底能活成怎樣?486Please respect copyright.PENANAj24aKcfrI1
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我期待著。486Please respect copyright.PENANAgFNENIjWeL
486Please respect copyright.PENANADsFdeAwl1L
——揚起嘴角,流下了淚。486Please respect copyright.PENANAsHsk7I5xXS
486Please respect copyright.PENANARPRsestCne
「點啊你,準備……好未?」神明丁問。486Please respect copyright.PENANAHb95v28HcO
486Please respect copyright.PENANAVAW3nA7RAZ
祂用白淨的手袖,替我抹抹。486Please respect copyright.PENANAdLKf6CsIZi
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「今日,我要毫無遺憾咁度過,就算遇到令人心碎嘅畫面,我都要好似神明辛咁,勇往直前,甚至做得比佢更好!」486Please respect copyright.PENANAdFYXmTnaQB
486Please respect copyright.PENANAL61sx3oyde
「加油。」神明丁眼裡的我。486Please respect copyright.PENANAqOgrJmsAXk
486Please respect copyright.PENANABdzQDwMrrd
「我會睇住你。」神明丁再說,十分認真,「全程睇住,你放心啦。」486Please respect copyright.PENANABDjQjUf3iR
486Please respect copyright.PENANA3XX6Fg2uic
「好,咁我去喇。」我說。486Please respect copyright.PENANAx7sLy9nDbp
486Please respect copyright.PENANA4JEvFoYyaI
「啊,係你去之前,我有一句話想講。」神明丁說。486Please respect copyright.PENANAyAc4BAPRJK
486Please respect copyright.PENANAR4unnhdhGk
傾耳以待——486Please respect copyright.PENANAANOlL4wzZO
486Please respect copyright.PENANAHK7FkHD1ym
「孫正直,做唔到一個合格嘅神,你做神『不合格』,係唔緊要。」486Please respect copyright.PENANA7M9PgYaHU5
486Please respect copyright.PENANAE42BMEEoHI
「最重要係,唔可以做一個不合格嘅人。」祂再說。486Please respect copyright.PENANAFezdvl70Uj
486Please respect copyright.PENANARDt4kCHjj1
聽完,我便低頭,準備打開練習簿。486Please respect copyright.PENANAxwDEiZWvSU
486Please respect copyright.PENANAoMXsRfcTiY
「你諗住坐係岩石度?」祂問。486Please respect copyright.PENANAYsSD3SiEgh
486Please respect copyright.PENANAsi6JStVDg7
「唔通又企一日咩?好攰。」我說,正在翻開,「同埋我都唔係諗住坐。」486Please respect copyright.PENANAwwXqHlgvMC
486Please respect copyright.PENANA0XFhJ25qQ0
身體傾後,躺了下來。486Please respect copyright.PENANA7Uyg5zLNEY
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「係諗住攤。」486Please respect copyright.PENANAOUKNzDEamG
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翻到新一頁,意識隨即被牽扯。486Please respect copyright.PENANAtTsJ7nc3y1
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神明丁站在一旁,默默地守候著我,目光在看著我。486Please respect copyright.PENANAhXYltlZP6y
486Please respect copyright.PENANARMhAN9Q3fz
在朝陽的照射下,我把練習簿放在臉上,寫意洋洋地蓋住了眼。486Please respect copyright.PENANAadlRDz7FI2
486Please respect copyright.PENANA7K1RqMDtj5
露出鼻尖和微笑。486Please respect copyright.PENANAjES0Q0AVo0
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像個學生時期喜歡偷懶的孫正直。486Please respect copyright.PENANAE5erwTPc4J