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一聲喊道下,我便把Mandy拉到懷中緊抱著。314Please respect copyright.PENANADBr2M7pEXo
已經不知道,這個舉動到底是理性控制,還是感性驅動了……314Please respect copyright.PENANA5hwA2p3mWh
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不過在我懷中的Mandy,也在一陣錯愕過後。314Please respect copyright.PENANATyv2xrWNby
便輕聲地說:「做咩咁突然攬住人……」314Please respect copyright.PENANATPhnuX0B5x
「唔知……我都唔知點解自己會突然咁做。」我仍然摟抱著她說道。314Please respect copyright.PENANAN73ik5Dp34
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而我們唯持了這個姿勢大約半分鐘後,她也再說:「一陣比其他人睇到啊……」314Please respect copyright.PENANA4RxXWwpY17
聽到她這這番說話,我才下意識過來,現在還是在營區內,隨時都會有同級的同學或老師出現。314Please respect copyright.PENANAAndipyUtR7
因此,我便很快把她推離懷中,並說:「對……對唔住。」314Please respect copyright.PENANAbbTsNNISm2
但她沒有責怪我突然的舉動,反而是臉頰泛起一點紅地盯著地板看。314Please respect copyright.PENANAQVYBnpAP4I
我想,突然被人抱入懷中,有這個反應也不奇怪。314Please respect copyright.PENANA0IFZ0Nmi4Q
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「不如我哋去個邊企?」314Please respect copyright.PENANAnPVysuy0C3
發現氣氛變得有點尷尬起來的我,便指向了近河畔邊的平台。314Please respect copyright.PENANAcfXFvQs4q3
她抬頭看一看我指向的方向,沉默了一會。314Please respect copyright.PENANAuJ53Bqd7xs
接著也少少聲地在嘴邊說:「好。」314Please respect copyright.PENANA2W9WuuGVAw
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隨即我們便一同往平台的方向前去,不過路途上卻沒有任何傾談。314Please respect copyright.PENANAU9ziLqQnFo
畢竟,現在我腦中想著的,都只是她那一句「道別」。314Please respect copyright.PENANALZyjIafVUJ
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直到我們來到平台,並雙雙靠在欄杆上。314Please respect copyright.PENANAnZLQrVRqyS
她也開口說:「聖誕之後,我就會翻番澳洲讀書。」314Please respect copyright.PENANAMfZBU61f2H
「喺啊……」我竟然比想像中表現得平淡。314Please respect copyright.PENANAipgfnlVFwz
而她對於的我反應,似乎都感到有點意外。314Please respect copyright.PENANAoWMKJJrYNT
於是好奇地望向我,隨即我都一同與她對視起來。314Please respect copyright.PENANATy3gBaYBbS
「阿侑你嘅反應比我想像中冷靜喎……啊,唔喺。你啱先都無啦啦攬住我。」314Please respect copyright.PENANArHR8weIla0
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其實我的反應會如此鎮定,可能是因為我早就猜想到會有這一天的來臨。314Please respect copyright.PENANA68fukv989I
始終,她已經不是第一次離開我了。314Please respect copyright.PENANAmmwUVG7eKD
三年前,她因為移民而前往了澳洲。314Please respect copyright.PENANAtIjBPbntP2
可是在一年後又回來了與我再次相遇。314Please respect copyright.PENANATocw8UjthK
但是她的家人仍然在澳洲,這樣代表,終有一天,她還是要離開……314Please respect copyright.PENANAVLSKFICxhk
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「點解又突然翻去讀書?」314Please respect copyright.PENANA6obUrv84fO
她沒有即時回答,而是扭過頭去看著前方一片漆黑的河畔。314Please respect copyright.PENANAy459I074RX
「本來都諗住考埋DSE先,但屋企人都希望我唔好考,而喺返去讀多兩年high school,然後直接駁入U。」314Please respect copyright.PENANA01qzu3m13P
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聽到她這樣說道,我都瞬間理解到為何她的家人會作出如此的抉擇。314Please respect copyright.PENANAoHciFuMnGN
畢竟論教育,香港的教育實在太過落後,只專注在菁英培育上。314Please respect copyright.PENANAiuY2GSbh1J
然後又推行現在的「一試定生死」方式,來區分能力高與低的學生。314Please respect copyright.PENANAL2Ak2dnCyl
分分鐘考入大學還比在麻將桌上以海底撈月食糊更難呢。314Please respect copyright.PENANA9P0lMl51ko
換做是我的話,都會選擇在海外升學。314Please respect copyright.PENANAAdrXLYHhmX
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在她的話後,我也一同望向眼前漆黑的河畔。314Please respect copyright.PENANADTb3iNFxF4
頓時覺得眼前的景色,就如同不久的未來一樣。314Please respect copyright.PENANAPCFrCagB6E
現在晚上看著,只會覺得一團漆黑,根本捉摸不清眼前的事物。314Please respect copyright.PENANAkRl9ZE0Qnq
換做早上看著的話,卻會清楚地看到河畔上所有的景物。314Please respect copyright.PENANA5Vf5lOR8WG
人,會因為一時的迷茫,而失去向前的動力。314Please respect copyright.PENANA9L4P3dI7W5
但又會因為熟悉而感到舒適,並最後失去了探索的動力。314Please respect copyright.PENANAogf9q1WGFJ
到底是選擇留在舒適圈,還是離開,都將會引致不同的未來。314Please respect copyright.PENANAGMs73u6Zau
而我們往往擔憂的,就只是那個未來到底適不適合自己。314Please respect copyright.PENANAvPbm2mrX9v
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Mandy發現我沒有回應,於是又再說起來:「所以今次真喺要再見啦。」314Please respect copyright.PENANAUrsNQTtzeH
她又再一次提起了「再見」這一回事。314Please respect copyright.PENANASQeVaeLLSa
但這次我並沒有像剛一樣立即把她拉到懷中,而是說出心中話:314Please respect copyright.PENANAs2UtePkazS
「老實講啊,其實我唔想你走。」314Please respect copyright.PENANAzkAEA7UJVt
「我知啊,啱先你攬住我個陣,我聽到啊。」她在話後便微笑起來。314Please respect copyright.PENANA82opOunI6s
感覺就像在回味剛才的一刻一樣。314Please respect copyright.PENANAF8eXHe1XoD
但接著又再問:「點解咁唔想我走?」314Please respect copyright.PENANAIMDAf5WBcG
「因為我自私囉。」我直接說道。314Please respect copyright.PENANAU6wQwtNPOn
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然而,她又沒有立即回答,而是轉過身來背靠在欄杆上。314Please respect copyright.PENANAy5xj9jjJZG
「唔可以自私喺我到架。」314Please respect copyright.PENANA4oDr9H06pv
「點解啊?」我一臉好奇地反問道。314Please respect copyright.PENANAZk2hRmVyNP
「因為……我唔值得你自私囉!」314Please respect copyright.PENANAaybPwPfu2E
她這樣一說,使我愣住了。314Please respect copyright.PENANA5eCrZLiM68
但是正當我開口時,她又說:「仲有其他人值得你自私。」314Please respect copyright.PENANAqATTJScTkH
「你嘅其他人喺指?」314Please respect copyright.PENANA4YIwO8mMSO
「Venus啊,Elaine啊,甚至可能喺你畢業之後識嘅人。」314Please respect copyright.PENANAv5XR36Sci1
在她提起Venus的名字時,我的腦海卻聯想起一段畫面。314Please respect copyright.PENANAterGkGm8Wh
就是開學的那一天,她與Venus在6C班門前談天的時候。314Please respect copyright.PENANAix71SNmUlz
因此我也不禁問:「愛瑩喺咪一早知架啦?」314Please respect copyright.PENANAl7NsLUgO3k
她點頭,然後望向夜空:「班入面有幾個女仔都知。其實我都諗住差唔多時間同大家講架啦。」314Please respect copyright.PENANA0MBAF2x6Hp
即使與全班說,大家都知道後,都是改變不了她要離開的事實。314Please respect copyright.PENANAJGnEV50wnN
而我此刻想對她就只是:「比我……」314Please respect copyright.PENANAllmQHqMQ0S
「時間都唔早啦,不如我哋翻去啦。」314Please respect copyright.PENANANPDMq2z2aK
她突然的一句打斷了我的說話。314Please respect copyright.PENANAo4OkmGNVX8
是巧合?還是刻意呢?314Please respect copyright.PENANAZCqvMZJmhX
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並且她在提議後,只是雙眼默默地凝視著我。314Please respect copyright.PENANAlV5D2F9zta
我隨即只能吞下還在口中的說話,點頭回應:314Please respect copyright.PENANA2pwp6MvoN6
「都好。」314Please respect copyright.PENANArff98vtkZF
答應了的這一刻也代表著,我們的話題,將會在此結束……314Please respect copyright.PENANAbJLW1D53By
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片刻後,我帶著複雜的心情返回了宿舍內。314Please respect copyright.PENANAEyk5UkEWg9
並在打開門的一刻,就見Harriet拿著毛巾及衣服在大廳的沙發上看著電視。314Please respect copyright.PENANA6LSssTWUpo
「散完步翻嚟啦?」Harriet看見我的出現,便立即問道。314Please respect copyright.PENANAVVcyZSkEv6
而我只是坐到他的旁邊,並靠在沙發上嘆氣起來。314Please respect copyright.PENANAH8DAcEIsW5
「唉,感情真喺好複雜呢。」314Please respect copyright.PENANA4I8CedzKct
他先是愣住了,但是也一同靠向後,並輕笑了一聲說:314Please respect copyright.PENANARkbybwdL7V
「喺啊,感情真喺好複雜架。」314Please respect copyright.PENANAwufyUW8Igp
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「想放手,但又想捉緊,真複雜」314Please respect copyright.PENANA7AbwuThH1u