被強迫面對社會狀況,來自惡魔的威脅,再多的反抗只會落得更淒慘的結局。20Please respect copyright.PENANAX9F3zbpqxa
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現在的處境就是需要向惡魔低頭,去換取一絲生機。20Please respect copyright.PENANAYENWO5YpdW
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做得到的事與想做的事可以重疊,可以有衝突。20Please respect copyright.PENANAAjUaNGzLSd
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上學這件事便是做得到的事以及不想做的事。20Please respect copyright.PENANA8ClNUujTrM
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我並沒有帶有任何偏見,只是對「上學」這一件事感到反感。20Please respect copyright.PENANAXp3RHKzO86
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我讚同義務教育的存在,我認同教育是培養社會下一代的最佳方法。20Please respect copyright.PENANA9MH8MRS690
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但我也不會為自己找藉口,我就是個垃圾。20Please respect copyright.PENANABWntGaOvxl
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即使這樣學校也沒有批准我的退學申請,開學典禮我只是坐在保健室,所有文件都是學校以郵寄的方法寄到家中,出席率為零。20Please respect copyright.PENANAiGvLuj9WqW
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就算是學期考試也只是坐在保健室完成的我,到底學校會有甚麼人記得我。20Please respect copyright.PENANAoBM3zFXx07
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站在鏡子前打量着自己穿上校服的樣子,看上去還真是奇怪。20Please respect copyright.PENANAwinUkrGcjI
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「我出門了……」20Please respect copyright.PENANAoucbEIrMVG
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「我也出門了。」20Please respect copyright.PENANADGElyldinC
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「記住路上小心。」20Please respect copyright.PENANAbub186XlzX
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嘭的一聲,大門被緊緊關上。20Please respect copyright.PENANAZyHHeAldO7
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正午十二時,太陽高掛正曬得猛烈,穿著校服襯衣的我熱得滿頭大汗。20Please respect copyright.PENANA8n1aGG65tS
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而她,此時卻穿著學校的毛衣,臉上一滴汗珠也看不見。20Please respect copyright.PENANAtdO91KvKaI
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我極度懷疑她是不是生病了,還是感熱器官出現了問題。20Please respect copyright.PENANA10T24U6FR8
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「你知道學校一直有着你的傳說嗎?」20Please respect copyright.PENANAdXRroMhEH5
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「不知道。」20Please respect copyright.PENANAG4i3yyU0iV
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「高中一年級一班的夜一桐,初中時每年都能拿到第一,升學考試以滿分的成績原校升讀高中部。」20Please respect copyright.PENANAStGL4dUZhe
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「是我來的嗎?我不清楚。」20Please respect copyright.PENANALlttGn5jEW
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「第一學期的考試以全科滿分取得第一位,但卻從未在學校出現過。」20Please respect copyright.PENANAFvFdv6rgjN
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「學習是學生的本份,取得滿分是份內事。」20Please respect copyright.PENANANFdd3Qx9P1
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這也是我討厭上學的其中一個原因,討厭別人將期望放在自己身上,有能力去做也不代表我有義務去做。20Please respect copyright.PENANAwbU9brQt1Z
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上學是學生的責任,我討厭別人強加於我身上的事情,義務教育是社會對你的保障,同時也是強加於你身上的責任。20Please respect copyright.PENANAw8WrM2dqx5
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「小桐,你明明有能力為甚麼又不去做呢?」20Please respect copyright.PENANAFRZgkmdF9j
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又來了,這種不負責任的話,我最討厭便是這些裝模作樣的說話,有能力便要去做?20Please respect copyright.PENANAx6FzO8jnop
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「因為沒有意義。」20Please respect copyright.PENANAYQir7liYsW
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「那甚麼是有意義的事?」她回過頭來問道20Please respect copyright.PENANAJwmvFZDp0H
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「我還未找到。」我逃避着她的眼神回答20Please respect copyright.PENANAJgdcN53d5e
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「整天呆在家又怎會找到有意義的事,從今天起開始改變自己吧。」20Please respect copyright.PENANAco3VLD94lI
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「我沒有興趣去改變,我為甚麼要為了迎合他人而去改變自己。」20Please respect copyright.PENANA1VroATvBwJ
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「不是為了他人而去改變,而是為了自己而去改變。」20Please respect copyright.PENANAGg7RnfAhOL
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「我也沒有任何要改變自己的原因。」20Please respect copyright.PENANALmCYSA9AZV
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「那不是因為你整天呆在家又不願出外看看這個世界嗎。」20Please respect copyright.PENANAp2NA3rhf9z
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「這件事根本沒有意義......」20Please respect copyright.PENANAZJahb0buAs
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在無限循環這個對話的同時,我們也走到了這所無聊的學園。20Please respect copyright.PENANACY3i7w8zRf
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在踏進校園的一剎,我已經混身不自在,感覺就像被人窺視着。20Please respect copyright.PENANAf8umCl8UL0
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除了知道保健室在哪裡之外,這所學校沒有我熟悉的地方。20Please respect copyright.PENANAk9Y153MLqp
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猜拳輸了要上學也是她強加給我的責任,為甚麼我要去執行。20Please respect copyright.PENANAl9ljBLCIoY
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我也不清楚,可能因為陽光總會驅散黑暗,身前有陰影也是因為陽光在你背後不知疲倦地照耀着。20Please respect copyright.PENANAV8oJ1nb0B2
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「明明初中認識你時你還不是這樣的。」20Please respect copyright.PENANAtJZwuQrCwh
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「我也是這樣想,明明認識你時你還不是這樣麻煩的。」20Please respect copyright.PENANACpM9EecaK2
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「我可是在為你着想。」20Please respect copyright.PENANA9JY0C9oM2A
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「如果是在為我着想就不要強逼我來學校。」20Please respect copyright.PENANAsnwk6vh18y
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在拌嘴的同時我們也走到了班房,緊張嗎?當然不會,反正我也只有今天會來,日落後他們便不會再見到我。20Please respect copyright.PENANAUTgSNEHgk1
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白櫻凜拉開教室的門,所有人的視線都望向了我們這邊。20Please respect copyright.PENANAnfyMorVS6a
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他們一臉意外的看着我們,我能感受到不少視線都聚集在我身上。20Please respect copyright.PENANAczHSKhPozz
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他們竊竊私語,交頭接耳的討論着。20Please respect copyright.PENANAsuWmDF34mR
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「白櫻凜同學,你今天不是請假了嗎?」20Please respect copyright.PENANAt3h0S0tLfP
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「我只請了上午的假。」20Please respect copyright.PENANAK3U7qcdDS0
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「後面那位同學是?」20Please respect copyright.PENANAAQzNFkRmrn
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「我是夜一桐。」20Please respect copyright.PENANAJ9BaLeGrmM
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全班都用驚訝的眼神看着我,我不理會他們的眼光,徑直的往角落靠窗的座位,那是全班唯一一個沒有人的位子。20Please respect copyright.PENANAkSs0dZKOh0
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「他就是夜一桐?」「滿分的那位?」這些說話不斷傳出,我不明白為什麼要大驚小怪。20Please respect copyright.PENANAqqPzz1Iv9u
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這節課就在大家的驚訝中完結。20Please respect copyright.PENANAzONEstX2Gz
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課堂一完結我便離開了教室往保健室走,避免不斷被人詢問的處境。20Please respect copyright.PENANAr3wn7eM5k6
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呼吸越加急促,真想吐,來學校真的很辛苦......20Please respect copyright.PENANACyV0VoKYUA
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走到樓梯口我便再也忍不住要坐下休息一會,完全呼吸不過來……20Please respect copyright.PENANAJGrwUKD7Bt
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此時後面一把腳步聲傳過來,我回頭看去,是熟悉既討厭的面孔。20Please respect copyright.PENANAW7DAdCtjNj
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「追過來幹什麼,我只答應你來上學,並沒有答應你我會留在那會令我窒息的教室裡。」20Please respect copyright.PENANAeNd5PZ7oDq
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「我發現你並不是討厭上學,你只是在逃避,初中一年級第三學期那時到底發生了甚麼事?」20Please respect copyright.PENANA7R9jqUfvmc
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「追問別人私事是很不禮貌的,而且逃避上學不就是因為我討厭上學,不要好像很了解我想法似的。」20Please respect copyright.PENANAwZaYhQI9Xs
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「你明明是個好孩子來。」20Please respect copyright.PENANAEP7Jxp948c
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她拍了拍我後背然後掃了掃我的頭髮。20Please respect copyright.PENANAoFIrwtN6P3
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「是不是要去保健室?我陪你吧。」20Please respect copyright.PENANAWQWA5ftLIk
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「凛……我討厭你。」20Please respect copyright.PENANA9YPQXxJbFJ
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「呵呵,這是對我的讚賞來。」20Please respect copyright.PENANAj5Gc0KqlMk
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「作為女孩子,你還真是不知羞恥。」20Please respect copyright.PENANAKLKtVtbb9p
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我不討厭白櫻凜,能和她相識,也是因為這所我討厭的學校。20Please respect copyright.PENANAJ75wzNf1LR
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她也沒說錯,在初中時我還是一個正常的學生,除了頭腦比其他人好一點外也是跟普通人無異。20Please respect copyright.PENANANm0L5FtQiU
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就是我突然想通了,上學甚麼的一點意義也沒有,於是我便成了「家裏蹲」。20Please respect copyright.PENANADTrMEuQz3m
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她把我送到保健室後便回到教室,而我則躺在病床上休息。20Please respect copyright.PENANAuLUY7vW3QJ
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我沒有所謂「朋友」的人,這所學校也沒有甚麼令我留戀的地方,要不是今天凜強迫我回來,大概高中三年我也打算在家中渡過。20Please respect copyright.PENANACZRpPsin64
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不用擔心出席率,因為學校接受了我的申請,家長通知也早就備好。20Please respect copyright.PENANAySf8Hqzne7
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高中一年級的第一學期也好好過了,考試也是在保健室完成。20Please respect copyright.PENANAuelgUSieMQ
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「這不是稀客嗎,一桐同學。」20Please respect copyright.PENANAhXDh62ME8v
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「是星之宮嗎,真麻煩。」20Please respect copyright.PENANAOuSZj4hpnN
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「我好歹也算是這所學校的老師,不加敬語的話我也是有權罰你留堂。」20Please respect copyright.PENANAiUR17wkvoT
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星之宮千園,保健室的當值老師,也是我在這所學校見得最多的人。20Please respect copyright.PENANA4lVopOX3Af
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一進門她便躺在了旁邊的病床,一點也不像老師,要說她甚麼地方像老師嘛……年齡吧。20Please respect copyright.PENANAZef46eU4BP
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「放學的鐘聲一響我便會回家,不會呆在這裏很久的。」20Please respect copyright.PENANAxQDLfrDdyR
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「你最好不要結我添麻煩,教師會議上其他老師都將你交托給我,說甚麼「星之宮老師,你是接觸一桐最多的老師,一定能改變他的心意」,只會將麻煩的事托給我,又不見給我加薪金,老師也正值美好年華,才沒有那麼多心思放在你身上,乖乖的給我離開這裏然後去上課。」20Please respect copyright.PENANARtiKWjszq7
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她不斷嘮叨,抱怨着學校的待遇不好。20Please respect copyright.PENANAiSMCYY6Ui6
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我側過頭不去理會她,進入我的冥想狀態。20Please respect copyright.PENANAzCVT1FRe3d
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冥想是我的習慣,冥想能放鬆自己的內心,緩解在學校的焦慮。20Please respect copyright.PENANAzCa7nfjqBa
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即使在家我也會抽時間去冥想,大概是因為閑得發慌,久而久之就成了我的習慣。20Please respect copyright.PENANAVL6dOHzwHm
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「你還要睡到甚麼時候,小桐~」20Please respect copyright.PENANAzjAqnwGUb4
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「我沒有睡,只是在冥想,還有就是不要再小桐小桐這樣的叫我。」20Please respect copyright.PENANAPACwVhyi43
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下課的鐘聲才剛響起白樓凜便來到了保健室,她根本就是埋伏在門外。20Please respect copyright.PENANAunkQS9P9aI
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「正值青春的高中學生在保健室打情罵俏,可惡的現充都去死一死!」20Please respect copyright.PENANAoUh7cV5Fe4
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「星之宮,我們才不是情侶,而且從教師的口中說出那番說話應該算是教職員行為失當。」20Please respect copyright.PENANAD9HAkdruv7
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「星之宮老師,小桐今天麻煩你了,我會帶他離開的。」20Please respect copyright.PENANAtRFpD7EoBE
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「麻煩你了,如果所有人都跟櫻凜你一樣乖巧,老師的煩惱就減去不少了。」20Please respect copyright.PENANAaKw48VIuvB
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說這句話時星之宮還是盯着我說的。20Please respect copyright.PENANAZx85TwJ1Fq
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「不用擔心,過了今天除了考試你不會再見到我。」20Please respect copyright.PENANATYdEVa6UtW
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拉開保健室的門,徑直往校門走,再留在這個鬼地方多一秒我也不願意。20Please respect copyright.PENANA8GlN9Pm1mO
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白櫻凜與我肩並肩的走,路上也不斷有人投來羨慕與妒忌的眼光,每個跟她打招呼的同學她也會一一回應。20Please respect copyright.PENANA5dKALAFGTI
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每當我加快步速她也會跟着提速,她就是要站在我的旁邊。20Please respect copyright.PENANAHZdiDoBKXi
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「我得罪了你嗎?」20Please respect copyright.PENANAq0KqtZsT26
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「沒有。」20Please respect copyright.PENANAOrBylYMjtL
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「那你今天為甚麼要纏着我。」20Please respect copyright.PENANAmCVziJTgN4
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「因為我不想再看到你沉淪下去。」20Please respect copyright.PENANAByQSu3b0P4
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「看來我是得罪你了,我在這裡向你道歉,放過我好嗎?」20Please respect copyright.PENANAcFyDbCG5LN
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「為甚麼你就這麼固執,唉……」20Please respect copyright.PENANAhYJkfuGite
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我並沒有理會她的義務,反正這麼長時間沒有出過門,今天就當出來吹吹風。20Please respect copyright.PENANAgvrSrGie02
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白櫻凜她有社團活動,所以當我出到校門時她已經不在身邊。20Please respect copyright.PENANAJgucgfWSzm
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學校離家不近,乘電車的話也要兩個站,而且學校離電車站有一段距離,加上走路的時間,步行跟乘車回家所用的時間其實差不多。20Please respect copyright.PENANAF1OYviXJ5x
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即使我長期呆在家,但我對身體的鍛鍊也沒有落下,我會在家做些普通的體能和肌肉訓練。20Please respect copyright.PENANAx0rgoySSKX
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所以我選擇步行回家,無它,就因我忘記了帶錢包。20Please respect copyright.PENANAogzMPVT9oM
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「我回來了。」20Please respect copyright.PENANA7ACFWXpduD
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「小桐,歡迎回來,學校有趣嗎?」20Please respect copyright.PENANArYu1jbHbJc
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「完全不有趣,最好幫我申請退學,反正學校的課程我早已學完。」20Please respect copyright.PENANA2nnhFWcAcS
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「不要這樣嘛,至少學校裡還有小凜陪你,她是個好女生,如果是她的話,媽媽我不會反對噢。」20Please respect copyright.PENANAdxUTTf1htl
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「但是我反對。」20Please respect copyright.PENANARhctQbeyxy
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梳洗後我回到了房間,坐在床上打座冥想。20Please respect copyright.PENANAHQGaLHfHbH
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一想便是好幾個小時,直到晚餐時段我才停下來去吃飯。20Please respect copyright.PENANAakq3gSAQHT
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冥想時我會幻想身體是土地,一株株幼苗慢慢生長,直至長成一大片森林。20Please respect copyright.PENANAlny9RmhDlj
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每人都有不同的冥想方法,放空自己內心的做法我也有嘗試過,但我實在不能停止思考。20Please respect copyright.PENANA1vFEt2TLiV
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人,不能停止思考,不論是在甚麼情況,就算是在想晚餐該吃甚麼這種事也好,我也不願停止思考。20Please respect copyright.PENANAH4xbo1nzJZ