Pagi harinya, saat sarapan, Siska lebih ceria dari biasanya.254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8dIshTGVm4
Pipinya berseri, rambutnya dikuncir asal, tapi tetap manis.
“Aku bawa bekal hari ini,” katanya sambil tersenyum.
“Biar hemat.”
“Kamu makin cantik,” jawabku, menyuap roti bakar.
Dia menunduk malu.
“Kamu ngomong gitu karena semalam, ya?”
“Karena kamu makin percaya diri. Dan aku suka itu.”
Siangnya, saat aku di kantor, pesan WhatsApp masuk darinya.
“Pah, aku break sebentar. Bryan ngajak VC. Boleh ngga?”
Aku terdiam sejenak. Lalu membalas:
> “Boleh. Tapi tetap janji: harus jujur.”
> “Deal 😘”
POV Siska
Siska hanya seorang ibu rumah tangga biasa. Usianya baru 22254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIEbpgx237J
tahun, masih muda, tapi cara hidup dan pembawaannya seringkali seperti254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoaAFngC8R5
perempuan yang jauh lebih dewasa. Alim, tertutup, dan nyaris tidak pernah254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiorYY4Tna6
menyinggung soal seks meski bersama suaminya sendiri. Itulah yang sejak awal254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqAy8tsoURb
membuat Joni, sang suami, merasa ada yang kurang dalam kehidupan rumah tangga254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRYhnoCujAn
mereka. Joni sering bercanda, “Aku nikahnya sama anak muda, tapi rasanya kayak254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQsMjiSHux4
hidup bareng ibu-ibu majelis taklim.”
Sudah hampir dua tahun mereka menikah. Meski secara umum254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbjLjKKpby3
rumah tangga mereka tampak harmonis, ada satu sisi yang terus-menerus membuat254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAEhXHOCObh
Joni merasa resah: keintiman mereka di ranjang selalu berjalan datar. Siska254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQlaN1bokvK
terlalu malu, terlalu tertutup, dan terlalu takut dianggap ‘berlebihan’.254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOZ7qHOhXoT
Padahal Joni adalah tipe suami yang justru menikmati eksplorasi, fantasi, dan254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7EYzu0Q9T7
keterbukaan.
“Akung,” ujar Joni suatu malam saat mereka selesai mandi254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeMSF2xJ1Mf
bersama. “Kamu cantik banget. Tapi kamu nggak pernah lihat dirimu segitu254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6TBntaRPjy
menariknya di mata cowok lain. Kamu terlalu sibuk jadi versi ‘istri baik-baik’.254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpziEHjnOqp
Tapi coba sekali-kali jadi versi kamu yang liar, yang tahu dia seksi. Aku254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWRIa6s6WlP
pengen kamu percaya diri.”
Siska hanya tertawa kecil, meski pipinya memerah. Ia tidak254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdEiS2rXCFJ
langsung menjawab, tapi malam itu, ia tidak menolak saat Joni menyarankannya254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtSgKxdOZHv
mengenakan lingerie tipis berwarna merah. Dari situ, semuanya mulai berubah.
Hari itu, Siska iseng membuka aplikasi Instagram. Biasanya,254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡezv3BKtwoL
ia hanya scrolling resep atau video lucu, tapi hari itu berbeda. Ia melihat DM254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡarGPw3bT00
dari seseorang bernama Bryan seorang pria bule yang ternyata sudah beberapa254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5iBKahgdB
kali menyukai foto-fotonya. Ia tak pernah sadar, mungkin karena selama ini254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfc9YHfwB7m
menganggap Instagram hanya sebagai hiburan kosong.
“Hey,” pesan pertama pria itu.
“You’re really beautiful.”
Awalnya, Siska hanya tersenyum sinis dan berniat254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIcXCShJlK
mengabaikan. Tapi entah kenapa, saat Joni lewat di belakangnya dan sekilas254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHgLzYb6obH
melihat layar, ia justru tertarik.
“Siapa tuh?” tanya Joni.
“Ngga tahu, orang luar. Suka DM-dm kayak gitu,” jawab Siska254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXrv4Ndihs0
malas.
“Coba bales aja. Iseng. Pura-pura kamu jomblo. Aku pengen254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ020LEc6bvd
lihat kamu dilirik cowok lain. Mau liat kamu sadar kalo kamu tuh menggoda254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCt3fwVIHlu
banget.”
Siska menoleh, menatap suaminya heran.
“Kamu serius?”
“Serius. Aku malah seneng banget kalau kamu bisa bikin cowok254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO5yJ29XiBi
lain tergoda. Tapi kamu tetep milikku. Itu yang paling bikin aku bangga.”
Dengan agak canggung, Siska pun mulai membalas. Chat itu254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz8NP7EklFp
semula hanya basa-basi. Tapi Bryan ternyata sangat sopan, tidak agresif, tidak254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyfZ50mhfss
murahan. Ia bercerita tentang pekerjaannya, kehidupannya di luar negeri, dan…254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm7wGr3TWuD
betapa dia menyukai perempuan Asia yang kalem dan feminin seperti Siska.
“Aku suka kamu,” tulis Bryan.
“Kamu beda dari yang254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR605SD8k15
lain. Cantik alami. Matamu jujur.”
Siska mulai tersenyum sendiri. Bukan karena gombalannya,254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVthxuthSvV
tapi karena ada rasa aneh yang perlahan tumbuh: dirinya diperhatikan, dinilai254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡecIJ1FHdFT
cantik, dan dihargai sebagai perempuan. Rasa itu asing, tapi nikmat.
Malamnya, Siska bercerita kepada Joni.
“Aku… aku jadi seneng dibilang cantik kayak gitu. Entah254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5xZpNikFB4
kenapa, aku nggak ngerasa jijik. Justru kayak… aku merasa hidup,” ujarnya254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnNScfn3gU5
pelan, jujur.
Joni langsung memeluknya dari belakang. “Nah itu. Aku pengen254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeTsyGNa5Do
kamu merasa seperti itu. Kamu seksi, dan kamu pantas tahu itu.”
Beberapa malam kemudian, Joni dan Siska mulai bermain-main254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcUjODHibxQ
dengan fantasi itu. Saat mereka bercinta, Joni memancing imajinasi Siska,254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkfTOWXgqJH
membisikkannya untuk membayangkan seolah dirinya adalah Bryan. Siska yang dulu254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhbI2IwpCey
pemalu kini mulai terbuka, menggigit bibir, berani memainkan posisi, bahkan254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq7gE9kgMFo
mengeluarkan suara lirih yang selama ini hanya ia tahan.
Tapi malam itu ada satu kejadian yang membuat semuanya254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5zJAHMhaZP
berubah.
Saat mereka sedang berpelukan di ranjang, tubuh Siska masih254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5rEHnjYIF0
berkeringat, napasnya belum sepenuhnya stabil, tiba-tiba HP-nya berdering. Nama254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP0SOQkftvf
Bryan muncul di layar. Video call.
Siska terkejut dan memandang Joni.
“Aku… aku tolak ya?”
Tapi Joni menggeleng pelan, matanya menyiratkan sesuatu yang254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSPDNc9Ckk
lebih gila.
“Nggak. Kamu angkat aja. Bilang kamu lagi rehat. Bikin dia254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ILwwh5Rto
makin penasaran.”
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Siska tergagap. “Tapi… aku belum pakai baju.”
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