我有個習慣,就是喜歡寫文章,或者說寫日記。9Please respect copyright.PENANABcldbfh7P4
尤其,我最喜歡紀錄跟祂的對話。9Please respect copyright.PENANAHC52jqLu2j
「我該怎麼稱呼你?」跟祂相處了這麼久,我沒想到高三畢業這一天第一次問祂的名字。9Please respect copyright.PENANAZt4E378rMM
我記得有人守護靈是天使,有人守護靈是貓、狗,有人守護靈是自己早已逝去的親人。
「死神。」祂淡淡說了一句。9Please respect copyright.PENANANUzDGc2Boo
這句話讓我震驚,緩了好久才開口。9Please respect copyright.PENANA2cGHKV9Kbb
「你是死神?我的守護靈是死神?」我驚訝地說道。9Please respect copyright.PENANAWIHPnQlZW5
祂不再說話了。9Please respect copyright.PENANAyYfDlUkw2k
「你倒是回我呀。」我難得情緒激動。9Please respect copyright.PENANAQcIfKQotZU
我知道祂的不凡,但怎麼會是位死神呢?9Please respect copyright.PENANAdhAfcZbp36
難不成那些人的死亡,都是我害的?只因我的守護靈是死神?9Please respect copyright.PENANAK4Yrr3wKP8
我不禁如此想著。9Please respect copyright.PENANAW2uvZ3ko4w
畢業典禮進行著,我的心卻忐忑不安。9Please respect copyright.PENANAQ6OdXw5ZF6
偌大的場地,我隱隱看到好幾個人身上的黑霧已經快要到達致死量了。9Please respect copyright.PENANAoxp3OkhdZ7
我突然感覺自己乘載著無數生命的重量。9Please respect copyright.PENANAE1CHTqjjia
那感覺好沉重。9Please respect copyright.PENANAlf82EBPpwb
「死神阿死神,你是神,為何還要管理死亡呢?」我腦中浮現出好多問題。9Please respect copyright.PENANAgm5weq3MjA
「我就是管理死亡的神。」祂說道。9Please respect copyright.PENANAdft2OdYMQX
「如果當初是其他人快死了,你是不是會出現在他們身邊,成為別人的守護靈。」我問著,腦中浮現起當年的畫面,從遠處看著自己的身體被急救著。9Please respect copyright.PENANAleqCZ9hh5o
「死亡」真的不是每個人都能體驗的。9Please respect copyright.PENANAnAAJmVR0ou
「不會。」祂如此說著。9Please respect copyright.PENANAyJOCUO0uNk
「為什麼。」我疑惑地問。9Please respect copyright.PENANAGogrj670r1
「因為那人是你。」祂回答。9Please respect copyright.PENANALu3A1lDO70
同樣的話語,跟那時同樣的回答。9Please respect copyright.PENANArCioL2U9Xj
我不懂自己有何特別的。9Please respect copyright.PENANAqkCs6ItzFV
難道死過一次,才能擁有死神當守護靈嗎?9Please respect copyright.PENANANYSnEs7Xye
「還有其他人有死神做守護靈嗎?」我又問,我發現自己有時挺煩的。9Please respect copyright.PENANAMHZwb4pIk4
「沒有。」祂的語氣也是冷冷的。9Please respect copyright.PENANAAf7q2uyCcP
其實要接受這一切也不算太難,或許是因為早就猜到了。9Please respect copyright.PENANAbEDDBL2H8M
死神守護靈,聽著也挺酷的,但就是不能說出去,太中二了。9Please respect copyright.PENANAqBCZZUigVV
「擁有你,我就是特別的,是嗎?」9Please respect copyright.PENANALUBjRpEsHq
「是。」9Please respect copyright.PENANAJ059TyN3ke
我突然有點開心。9Please respect copyright.PENANA237d116Vlh
這讓我想起第二次跟祂見面時的場景。9Please respect copyright.PENANAbTUHWt1Zl9
自從死亡過後,我就再也沒見過祂了,只能看見一點黑霧。9Please respect copyright.PENANA7tVsR54LgB
第二次見到祂是死後的一年。9Please respect copyright.PENANAlapfeZ2gJs
我在房間內,開始靜心冥想。9Please respect copyright.PENANAxl8HfIbm32
那時我才八歲,但我不知道為什麼,當下就是盤著腿深呼吸。9Please respect copyright.PENANAnJC4OQiLuJ
後來,我看見窗戶邊有一道黑影。9Please respect copyright.PENANAFZtQs3LH1S
「你好。」這是我對祂說的第一句話,正式的第一句話。9Please respect copyright.PENANA54JCcsiEqF
而祂只是點了點頭。9Please respect copyright.PENANAUtCnnq2xnh
後來我只要想見祂,就會開始冥想,看著那道黑影劈哩啪啦地說一堆話。9Please respect copyright.PENANAGupNS07LrJ
祂都沒回,但沒關係,至少祂仍願意靜靜地聽我說著。9Please respect copyright.PENANAxx7SH8VFG6
時間長了,我漸漸地在日常看見祂了,或者是祂願意讓我看見了吧9Please respect copyright.PENANAMWCyvk9vi0
我笑了。9Please respect copyright.PENANA06bSKG97nL
想起這些片段的我笑了。9Please respect copyright.PENANAwT6bwIUtDf
「你是不是有些傲嬌。」我開口問。9Please respect copyright.PENANAKQ2d18o5Yp
而祂依然不說話。9Please respect copyright.PENANAazmOsyyoOg
這樣也好,有人靜靜聽我說話,這樣就好。9Please respect copyright.PENANA2c7fB3FpCg
「以後再見。」典禮結束後,一群人哭著抱成一團。9Please respect copyright.PENANAWIVFabIFcs
而我跟陸子雲也約好有空就一起聚。9Please respect copyright.PENANAkSzEwQiyFO
但我知道的,子雲,未來天涯路遠,我們不一定再有機會見面的。9Please respect copyright.PENANA6OitWt69QK
我很想說你是我兄弟。9Please respect copyright.PENANAJf1sHeiFZV
但陪在我身邊的,一直是祂。9Please respect copyright.PENANAoGffqG93Qh
那晚,我睡得很好,只是做了一個夢。9Please respect copyright.PENANA1YewAYwvwC
夢裡是一位戴著眼鏡的女生,被一輛車撞上的畫面。9Please respect copyright.PENANAnBlxbGVuDl
那個人,我不認識,那就算了吧。9Please respect copyright.PENANA0r5R9nhPWe
那就算了吧。9Please respect copyright.PENANAlhf0fV9rFY
算了,嗎?9Please respect copyright.PENANAEGpvkzJW31