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因為堆放了許多雜物,唯一的對外窗開口的方向也不對,因此即便老舊的燈管亮起,這間做為諮商室使用的儲藏室,仍是灰暗得堪比監獄的會客室。16Please respect copyright.PENANAhJucym8DH4
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即便早有耳聞,韓銘禮還是對實際現場感到不適,並有預感此番成效連最低目標都無法達成。16Please respect copyright.PENANAYeRk4zKNje
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韓銘禮走到靠近門的椅子邊,並且等池儒安在面前落座,他才坐下。16Please respect copyright.PENANAZR8peI4P8u
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「你好,我是今天請你過來晤談的韓銘禮,很高興能再次見到你,也很感謝你和你的家長願意配合此次晤談。那麼……」16Please respect copyright.PENANAhVAbJNfDCN
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「韓老師,這不是我的意願,因此你從我這裡,不會得到太多有用的資料,韓老師如果選擇其他人,應該會對老師的研究更有幫助。」16Please respect copyright.PENANAc0k8BQLEho
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韓銘禮並沒有被池儒安冷淡不配合的態度擊退,而是回:「你有仔細看過同意書嗎?儒安確實很細心呢,既然儒安對我的研究內容沒有興趣,那我們今天來聊聊你的事情好嗎?」16Please respect copyright.PENANAd6Nzrk3Owd
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「我的事情,你隨便抓個年紀差不多的學生,回答的都會是相同的東西。」16Please respect copyright.PENANAtF7B2dJUqF
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「所以我才想聽你說啊。」16Please respect copyright.PENANAgtCWfB8jU9
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池儒安皺眉迎向韓銘禮,韓銘禮專注的眼神興味盎然、閃著幾乎沒在其他人眼中見過的光。16Please respect copyright.PENANAItsEUtjvwo
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應該是早上密集的考試,讓自己的精神狀況容不得太多思考的關係,池儒安閉上雙眼,倦怠地問:「既然誰都一樣,為什麼一定要選我?」16Please respect copyright.PENANAA73RPb5Rkp
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「儒安喜歡看書嗎?像是托爾斯泰的小說,你知道嗎?」16Please respect copyright.PENANAjD4eHxZfri
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「沒時間看。而且如果你不打算直接問重點的話,我接下來會只當作是換個地方午休,不會再回答你的問題,韓老師。」16Please respect copyright.PENANAzwJdWNKU2l
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「嗯,儒安你……很有禮貌呢。」16Please respect copyright.PENANAaV7db5KjpH
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池儒安錯愕地直望著韓銘禮說:「你到底在說什麼?」16Please respect copyright.PENANAXBo5ZSaBPA
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「儒安你不是完全排斥跟我談話,如果我大膽猜測的話,其實你只是不想浪費在你覺得沒有意義的事情上?如果是這樣的話,我很高興你還願意考慮聽我說,而不是直接拒絕我。」16Please respect copyright.PENANApcucIUlRTA
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池儒安放棄般地回:「老師,你太樂觀了。」16Please respect copyright.PENANAlMdppVKS2I
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韓銘禮輕輕搖頭,開口拉回原本的話題:「我提到托爾斯泰的小說,是因為他寫過一本書,叫《安娜‧卡列妮娜》,故事開頭是一句很有趣的話,大意是說:『幸福的家庭,看上去都是相似的;不幸的家庭,卻有各自不同的不幸。』每次遇見新的人,我就會想起這句話,如果你願意分享的話,我想聽你說,你對這句話的看法,好嗎?」16Please respect copyright.PENANAbLeq1HrYZ9
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池儒安緘默了許久。16Please respect copyright.PENANAZccCZozWvE
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韓銘禮並沒有給出任何反應或催促,只是維持著原先的動作,靜靜等著池儒安。16Please respect copyright.PENANAMNJZPAK32T
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僵持一直維持到午休結束的鈴響,韓銘禮總算開口:「那今天就先到這裡,希望下禮拜還能見到你,再見。」16Please respect copyright.PENANABg9WFt0mEc
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池儒安顰眉,遲疑地問:「就這樣?」16Please respect copyright.PENANAy12uEIer5X
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「嗯,就這樣。」韓銘禮點頭後,起身打開了諮商室的門,連通的輔導室辦公區裡,傳來了走廊上學生的笑鬧聲。16Please respect copyright.PENANAWGnqNSYHHa
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池儒安走道門口時,佇足問:「這對你真的有意義嗎?」16Please respect copyright.PENANA2VhUB4T0LM
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韓銘禮只是笑著說:「這可以是下次你拋給我的問題。」16Please respect copyright.PENANA5h8zlE7Lvy
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──怪人。16Please respect copyright.PENANA68NxdTVtoQ
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池儒安不由自主這麼想。16Please respect copyright.PENANA1B5ybn6Ep0
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離開輔導室以後,還得走上一段不短的路,才能回到教室,儘管池儒安對上課或考試都興致缺缺,他還是一步不停地在走廊上行走,途經特教班那邊時,池儒安總是想停下來,他想知道,特教班的氛圍,究竟和普通班有什麼不同,然而他從來沒有真的靠近過。16Please respect copyright.PENANATPRrz0IAti
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在其他人眼中的特殊和普通之間,被具象化成分班的時候,說是為了方便管理也沒錯,然而,是不是也因此加重了分裂與隔閡?16Please respect copyright.PENANAbKx4GV8la5
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人們總說池儒安很聰明,可是他卻覺得自己明明還有太多不明白的事情。16Please respect copyright.PENANAxDt29hvTKB
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都是去看醫生求助,為什麼生理的病痛和心理的病痛,面對的是關心與排斥的差異?16Please respect copyright.PENANAh0OZUyzi3D
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為什麼人一定要十全十美、才能受人喜愛?16Please respect copyright.PENANAMoUvfZok3x
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假如即便盡善盡美了,仍舊被人厭惡,世界上又有什麼真理可循?16Please respect copyright.PENANAbT0z7q3inZ
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如果承認了這世界有規則存在,就也得承認大多數的人都沒有真正單一的標準。16Please respect copyright.PENANAl1uEFfunev
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池儒安總是覺得很矛盾。16Please respect copyright.PENANAJsf9HkCG36
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他並不會覺得因為受他人厭惡、摧折,就等待別人救贖就是錯誤的,畢竟他也曾經受到他人救助,然而否極泰來、谷底反彈,對他來說是不可能存在的事情,至少在自己人生裡不會有。16Please respect copyright.PENANAxrTxO9vAAB
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連在心中珍惜已久的對象也要離開了。16Please respect copyright.PENANAW8OMyt0viy
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只要細想著類似的事情,池儒安便會難受到無法呼吸,可是,遇見韓銘禮的那天回到家中,看見外婆孤獨地坐在餐桌前等他回家開飯的背影,池儒安又無法真正放下心來輕生。16Please respect copyright.PENANAdCSH51Xbp7
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這個世界上彷彿只剩下他會真的關心外婆,其他人都不願意真的來照顧外婆,只是哭個幾次、口頭關心幾次而已,最終還是拋下外婆一個人。16Please respect copyright.PENANAcdoIvz4ACz
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池儒安不知道別人是怎麼撐過沒有光的人生,然而他的人生並不是自己的。16Please respect copyright.PENANA7iRAzAkPcG
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最終他仍是拿了喜帖,按捺著所有情緒,和外婆說了他們鄰居的女兒要結婚的事情。16Please respect copyright.PENANAGEiEOdr1CU
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對,「董知樺」只是鄰居的女兒而已,只要自己不要再將她視為公主,董知樺就能得到灰姑娘的結局。16Please respect copyright.PENANAxYEI2xq00y
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她喜歡的那個人能和她在一起的話,想必無論是什麼童話的角色,她都願意的。16Please respect copyright.PENANAd1vXkmvvQe
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而自己,什麼都不會是。16Please respect copyright.PENANAuEjWgbqYVl
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只有這樣才能祝她幸福的話,那便這樣吧。16Please respect copyright.PENANAPDEGVn7smJ
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再睜開眼,這還是日常的一部分,而不會是某個從此以後幸福快樂的世界。16Please respect copyright.PENANAG8UejBftBN
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池儒安望著昏黃的天花板看了很久,才將目光轉到一旁,他想不起來為什麼韓銘禮會在這裡,因為看起來他在校醫的醫護室,病床自然不可能多好躺,只是頭既暈且痛,讓他無法起身。16Please respect copyright.PENANA2VtaDGO5e5
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他努力思考了一下,他從第二校區要回醫學樓諮商,後來的事,他想不起來。16Please respect copyright.PENANAzb9p6SaZqb
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池儒安緩緩伸手,搭在韓銘禮手腕上搖了搖,韓銘禮闔著的眼皮底下有黑眼圈,在諮商室裡並不明顯,這裡陽光充足,除了使池儒安能看得更清楚韓銘禮的臉以外,也讓總是蒼白的韓銘禮多添了些活人的氣息。16Please respect copyright.PENANAJFSeCGNsjE
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想到失神,池儒安也沒注意韓銘禮是被搖了多久才醒來的。16Please respect copyright.PENANAqxOjlof0Qz
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韓銘禮一醒來就趕忙問:「儒安,你還好嗎?」16Please respect copyright.PENANAZCWNc7RWBX
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「韓老師,你為什麼在這裡?」16Please respect copyright.PENANAZc238lkM7V
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「你沒來諮商,也沒請假,我打開諮商室的門,就看到你倒在外面,你還好嗎?」16Please respect copyright.PENANAHv55uKithQ
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池儒安按著太陽穴說:「我知道,我不是問我為什麼在這裡,我是問你。」16Please respect copyright.PENANAMjopPIdK9u
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「我不能拋下你就走吧。你先躺著,不要急著起來,我幫你請假了。」16Please respect copyright.PENANAxqIfCv4jEr
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池儒安閉上雙眼說:「韓老師。」16Please respect copyright.PENANAI2rfNV1JH2
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「嗯,怎麼了?」16Please respect copyright.PENANANQjX3eBWrP
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「我頭暈,你好吵。」16Please respect copyright.PENANA7AvSYNS9hN
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「喔……。」韓銘禮乖乖閉上嘴巴。16Please respect copyright.PENANAPz3WARQX9I
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池儒安扯了扯嘴角,接著說:「還有,好痛。」16Please respect copyright.PENANABnilT6xbBp
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韓銘禮原本要接話,伸出的手還是收回了指尖,池儒安喃喃著痛,沒有多少哭腔,眼淚也彷彿錯覺。16Please respect copyright.PENANA2cMbwJwpeO
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