我其實是打算開口的。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6jLb1GKxT6
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昨天那句話講完，我就後悔了。雖然嘴上還撐著一副理直氣壯的樣子，心裡其實已經在想要怎麼和好。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpiDwAmT3fk
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只是她什麼都沒說，就進房、關門，連頭都沒回。那聲「喀」一響，我腦袋空了一下。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgdg5FyXS8Q
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我站在原地，有想過要不要敲門。她那時候是真的生氣，不是鬧情緒，也不是裝可憐——就是完全不想再聽我講半句話。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4D7QIvqS8
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我擔心現在開口，只會讓她更火。以前也發生過幾次這種狀況，兩邊情緒上來的時候，誰講話都只會讓事情變得更難看。讓彼此冷靜一下，通常是最好的。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0D0yCKxEfC
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所以我想，明天早上再找機會說吧。不是那種正式道歉的說法，而是……一句像「妳今天要直播嗎？」這樣的話。她聽得懂。如果她不再那麼生氣，應該會回我一句。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrft2WqP7r9
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而且昨晚家裡什麼都沒剩，連她最愛的那種奶油草莓泡芙也吃完了。光道歉好像不太夠，得帶點誠意才行。所以我吃完飯沒多久，就出門去便利商店買了一盒，想說隔天早上給她個小驚喜。這樣講話會比較好開口。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAneeb3Pnmv
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她的氣……應該會消一點吧。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWTqfXRbyF
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至少我那時候是這麼想的。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEi5WjZhZW6
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但隔天早上，我醒來時，家裡靜得有點不太對勁。她沒叫我，也沒準備早餐。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfegpZDiAZw
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我看了一眼餐桌是空的，鞋櫃少了一雙鞋。她應該早就出門去上學了吧。她在氣的時候也是這樣，不會叫人起床，也不會多說一句話。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTTCB2b4itE
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我只是覺得，給她一點空間，會比現在煩她來得好。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl9Onw6RjzI
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所以我沒想太多，等她回來，我就會把話講清楚。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQhNurSxqH
7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hvhRsz1Xy
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我比平常晚一點回到家，大概五點三十左右。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmn5Td57tBq
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鞋櫃的樣子和早上一樣。她應該還沒回來。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVlKK4Qc3kX
7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0JatQ8PBWx
我換完衣服，走進廚房，開始煮晚餐。就算吵架，她通常也會照常吃，頂多吃得安靜一點，吃完就直接進自己的房間了。我邊煮邊想，該在哪個時間點開那個口。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ02dBwuV3yd
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我打算把那個奶油草莓泡芙放在最顯眼的位置——讓她看到，卻不用立刻回應。如果她還願意理我，我就能順著那個空檔，好好道歉。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWyS7CYoPc9
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飯煮好了，我擺好兩副碗筷，把那個裝著泡芙的小盤子放在她的位置上。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm9IfgfZCNI
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我坐下來，沒動筷。只是一直聽著玄關那邊，有沒有動靜。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Pdsdl9MOC
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她要是看到那顆泡芙，應該就會明白。我會等她開口的那一刻。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53ar8r9ZTN
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……她應該快回來了吧。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ049zA9ZOUa
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她平常這時間早就回來了，晚餐、洗澡、剪片，節奏一向很穩。但今天，什麼聲音都沒有。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLrrP31EG9Z
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我低頭看了一眼手機——快七點了。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5NWI882f1e
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我開始覺得，有些不對勁。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC8dusz5adE
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我拿起手機，傳了訊息過去：7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEeoxkbcCjN
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「妳什麼時候回來？」7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7cPQHVQ6C
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訊息送達了，但她沒讀。我又打了一通電話。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdZDlru6aXy
7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbCNQqO6953
響了幾聲，沒人接。我再撥了一次，還是沒人接。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBggkr9wp4c
7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡObX8xgmplP
以前就算吵得再兇，晚餐時間她也會出現，至少會說句話。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmV2BN83K1e
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……還是有可能，她根本沒出門？7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH29MvliOxz
7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJVV5bR1lj
雖然鞋子不見，手機也不接，但也許……她只是躲在房間，不想見我？7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7fAjr9Pe9
7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZYXslMkZT
我站起來，走到她房門前，敲了兩下。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7BuwtkmcQw
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「安淇？」7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdjkX6Z04Ja
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沒聲音。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKQynDUiWVN
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我又敲了一次，這次力道比剛剛重一點。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGINU1OJRrP
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「我買了妳喜歡吃的奶油草莓泡芙，晚餐也煮好了。」7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡedEOn1h2br
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還是沒回應。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR2RFdvlgos
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我轉了門把。沒鎖。推開後，房間一片昏暗。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDp2K1yviN
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我伸手開了燈。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ubdgQ6zv8
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窗簾拉上，床鋪整理得一絲不亂。筆電放在桌上，螢幕是黑的，插頭沒插。她直播用的耳機還插在側邊，線連動都沒動。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqEPS6bPd0J
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我走過去看了眼收納櫃，門開著一半。那格她平常放直播器材的小袋子，空了。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTHLObKGyFd
7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVzd1z6bUp
往裡頭一掃——三腳架、外接麥克風、行動電源……全都不見了。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡysm7XxGw8d
7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ2ehSG9z9T
我頓了一下，心裡升起一股說不上來的不對勁。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4rl9LFeF3t
7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35AFkAD8J8
她不是那種會隨便把這些東西全帶出門的人。平常在家直播根本用不到這些，只有外出直播時才會一次全帶。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHMYd5hl4ta
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也就是說——她出門前，早就打算好要帶這些了。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ83OfDEfUDx
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她是早上上學時帶走的？不可能……那麼明顯的器材，學校那邊，一定會被看到。還是說……她昨晚就偷偷溜出門了？7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZq9KdyQIa6
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等等，她——昨晚有回家嗎？7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpJQ4goN3m
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我腦中一瞬間像是空了一塊。胃突然像縮起來那樣，冷得發空。幾秒後才發現自己手在抖。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEudSnL2aFz
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我退了半步，掏出手機，又撥了一次。還是沒接。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnWTwhutul3
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一時整個人像是斷了線，愣在原地。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYVRRAPSbD
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她不是那種會臨時計畫外出的人，也從不會什麼都不講就出門。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKLXOFhEHc4
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如果真的要外出直播，她一定會說。就算是氣我，平常也會留一張紙條。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRuaa3o66mP
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她不是這樣的人。她從來不是，會讓人找不到的那種。7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAjm959SFWs
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那她現在去哪了？7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNH91bxfElE
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我腦中突然閃過一個畫面。那段短片裡，那棟廢棄的工廠。
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