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Some of my colleagues 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ZxR2bI7S5
believe that humans cannot repress memories. That memories which are 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDAItLB9PJT
remembered with the help of someone are just implanted through 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn4lY0UCL9d
suggestion or hypnosis.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfjg6vwqS46
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Utter none sense I say! In a world where580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDICY9IKL61
ether exists, some find it hardest to believe that we humans can 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9G1A2vDVbP
repress our memories. Those scientists and professors are too arrogant 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCdu57qXyih
to admit that we know nothing of the brain and what it can do. They want580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0DpvuWAp02
me to prove without certainty of a doubt that humans can repress 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9uy112xkbQ
memories. Well to that I say, I want them to prove that it cannot. For I580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNyLCQgTg8C
am not arrogant enough to state I know everything about our brains 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyyFuj861RQ
capabilities.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHEokACetF
'Notes from a lecture by Sig Frind on memories at the Royal Commonwealth College."580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡekgsGHN7jR
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David awakened. Not 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqUv23zxfc7
wanting to get up out of fear of the wounds and disfigurations he 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5jPHlNaS2G
suffered. He closed his eyes. Ignoring reality, ignoring the inevitable,580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCRJFu9FKEe
ignoring the pain....wait. David risked moving his hands in front of 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkzmmzwJH6f
his face and all the fingers were there. Not only that his hands were 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqEX2amOTim
undamaged.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT801NnlHOP
"Only your physical body580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpRFfJmnCGG
was damaged, your ether form is safe." A voice broke David's 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoneMRdmgWW
concentration. "The only reason your eye is gone is because the blast of580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMX8Hjtdsq
steam that burned your eye was full of ether."580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBAr70B2NKX
A shadowy form appeared.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnR7GoP3e8A
Jester. Instead of his form constantly shifting and his voice taking 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwNfGjcOw96
different intonations, Jester was only wearing a cloak over his body 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX9cSn7yVhX
hiding any features. And his voice sounded...almost human.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2dYdnbdbF1
"Long time no see, David. Well for you, I've been watching you for a while." Jester laughed as if he said something funny.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ5A2EQBRst
"Am I in the...ether 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVuxOQ3VFnY
world again?" David asked looking around, seeing rocks flying around, 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDgPyQEghRU
storms raging in the skies and shadows flickering in and out of life.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs5mX9LBSFj
Jester clapped." Indeed! You are learning, maybe you won't be completely useless." 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2zSuoV3li
David was tired, too 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBjq8I0Juyy
tired for Jester. Even so he still stood up. "Jester can we...can we 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6AwgD2Hiry
just all this?" David waved his hands in the space between the two.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRRHQYV2Od
The shadowy hood cocked 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHOcTuD0lWk
to a side. "Oh, that's just boring." David began a reply but Jester 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuM2g2VOJ8c
interrupted him. "Very well, if it'll save me from your nagging. 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8s3wxxDkN0
Knowing what's waiting for you in the real world, you'd think you'd be 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhDGTYlpmnE
more grateful."580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSMMC4wB09Q
"I..."580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5q9KxRDI8d
"I went through all the trouble of getting you here. Hiding my presence from my brother and other mages. Honestly some people."580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFq7oz6hUFD
David groaned in 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXlisKAV5NY
annoyance. "I've just been tortured for the better part of my day. Even 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJPMJtdPQq5
if my body isn't feeling it, my mind is. So if you can get to your 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ61M8X6x9Xv
falling point, that'd be fly."580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkSOGGNmaYZ
Jester muttered something David couldn't hear. "Very well. What do you remember of your childhood?"580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfLrWXHKyKm
David was startled by the question "What does that have to do with anything?"580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmYM6godUsD
"Well it's the main point of my visit, and you did say you wanted to stop playing games. What about your mother.?"580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUQMH0P9Nl2
A headache, feeling of resentment. "She's dead, or alive. I don't flying care."580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhd5Spr70BY
"Have you ever wondered why you don't remember your childhood?"580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdSmfn08xf
"How do you even..." Then David had a realization. "It was you? Were you the one who took my memory?"580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFLOLgk8LP
Jester giggled and put his hands up. "Guilty."580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLxkV9dFIs3
David shouted and 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqsdDSIZgqZ
tackled the cloaked figure. His mind couldn't take it. After all that 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDnbvTHa26M
torture and Jester's games, after all the pain and loneliness, after all580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡudKJc96C6K
the deaths, David just wanted to blame someone. "Give back my life!" He580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnOS08lEHCp
punched inside Jesters hood, meeting only air. "Give back my freedom!" 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡivpPyhdCvS
Another punch. "Give back my happiness!" Tears joined the third punch, 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvrUzNAx5B
which was David's last as Jester started cackling and dissolved into 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGtG9aEfQuZ
mist.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBP4fJf5rZz
Jester's voice came from580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMBoYdRhe8g
behind. "Do you truly think, your misfortune sterns from me?" David 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG9Z26UDQwU
could see surround shadows gathering around him. "What of everyone 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyWQxRgWG2L
you've betrayed? People who would've called you their friend or lover. 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZva0M7g7yu
Killed or abandoned for coin or survival. The shadows seemed to be 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFK1ETw8I47
creating a circle around Jester and David.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq5awOCjQxQ
"You're lying to yourself. You..." 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1pjMUvNLvH
"Shut up!" David 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAqxti1ArRP
struggled to get up. "Shut your falling mouth. You don't know me, I 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFS2AhCNKDj
don't care if you're one of the five, or a demon, or a falling figment 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8j2JvLJh0e
of my imagination only I know what or who I am!"580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3sjUL3r0kn
Jester gave another 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgN6X8M4U6K
laugh, a laugh that chilled David to the bone. Don't I? What makes you 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡprfPCUFI49
so sure? Or are you just trying to convince yourself because you're 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLgsn0bYgM3
afraid of the truth?" 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwYfbtkaMzc
"I'm not afraid,I'm..." 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFddutTFnkc
"You're what? A 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJmzfEFeoPm
despicable human being? True. A murderer, liar and cheat? Also correct. 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ99kUxfwqCE
But allow me to show you something, something that will make everything 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkNncaayRoP
you've done not matter." 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsbYFB6avwT
The shadows completely 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq8G6K1ZiES
surrounded the two of them now. "Allow me to show you the why you're 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4kPPts7Fos
afraid. Allow me to show you why you forgot your childhood. Allow me 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUvboQh4cV
show you why this world needs to die." Jester put his hand over David's 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxFXRbrVOG
eye and shadows swallowed him.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYLBooFsCi9
Shadows parting, David 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyiVFpgqWP8
found himself in a room. Bottles and rubbish littering the floor. A 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWiXx4uVsiX
woman in the middle of the floor, flailing and screaming from pain. 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkSHB9VMmie
David could see her so clearly as if he wasn't in the fade anymore. No 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1IzqyWNo41
more shadowy figures or echoes. Just an improvished room and David's 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvKsS6rV4Hi
mother580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo5Vjcix9uf
"This is my memory." 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrfUGWSS03j
Jester said as he appeared besides David. "You claimed I don't know 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyD3XSzqOTF
you, yet I might just be the person who knows you the most.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXktS9kg4lz
David didn't reply to 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3VgfvMh1wQ
that. He just looked at the woman as various feelings rose within him. 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxpsA7inshc
Love, longing, loneliness, but most of all hate.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnexOqHaQwG
Unaware of what was 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡumXCBcI8X1
inside David's mind, Jester continued. "From the time that you were 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPR5pdksuKm
conceived, when your father raped your mother neither the first nor last580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkbs1fotMQF
time. Your poor mother, she loved your father with all her heart, 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxf4dFzIIrF
despite his many, many faults. It is rather amusing how such a man can 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8jHQDt5Am0
find true love and yet you cannot." David didn't rise to the bait. "She 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbZGyWWOnF8
tried getting rid of you, taking herbs and the like, it didn't work. She580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp40jQXXkEh
was even tempted to stab herself in the stomach but she was too scared 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPyrZr39eo4
she would die. A running theme with you Oxthornes, fear of death."580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4bjnbhrklr
Finally the screams of 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1cxnETVZny
pain were replaced by the screams of a baby. Whispers from the babies 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxAkhL0NFFr
mother reached David as if she was speaking to him. "Quiet, just stay 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Z6deCGPme
quiet. You ruined my life, he stopped loving me because of you. You. 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡouOsko9LjG
You. You." The baby started crying louder, screeching the woman grabbed 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUxwUhjqAcA
the baby's throat and squeezed.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgAJIJUSD0Y
David could feel his 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEupp2WrPaB
throat contract, the air trapped in his lungs, extending them beyond 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5cOWQ4BxE
their capacity. The shock made him go to his knee. "This is when you 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi5QiyFGQwR
died." David could hear Jesters voice in the back of his head. Just as 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb7LIOjipRu
the room began spinning his breath and vision returned and the crying 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqdKjv2l6s
stopped.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzkb8YAlHGK
"Oh, nonononono." The 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGbT1CGeyxR
woman wailed. She put the baby gently on the floor and started pushing 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM0KPS65aIn
on its chest. Gently at first, and then with more distress. 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFj5SuRSqAP
"You who were supposed 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtZiCWguXQd
to die, defied death." Thus the baby started crying again, weakly at 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ47N2boKm6N
first but then gained more vigor. "Yet by dying you became closer to 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOPopq6tp5m
the etherworld, susceptible to its inhabitants." 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8oZa2YBZgy
Coughing David stood up 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvbRVgPKOqS
and looked at the mother and son figure...No he looked at him and his 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ86pMXAio42
mother. David didn't want to believe this image, yet deep down he knew 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ45P03Bcic6
it was the truth. "Did...were you the one who brought me back?"580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8uGyfgf3gY
"No, it was a small 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlcfF9yTZla
miracle, for all of us." David was unsure if he should believe Jester 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2aEnWrxp6M
but before he could question it anymore his vision changed again.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAImHxybs7y
He was staring at the 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSLfgpUOqB0
wom...his mummy. His mummy who loved him and took care of him, David was580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwdWKTHrRU
only good at one thing, getting in the way of his mummy's work. He 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfFnDtMPPMu
learned to be quiet after the first few times she slapped him, he 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWsG2UQ3uSt
deserved it because mummy did her best to provide for him and David was 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgUUrIhckJ
just a useless existence, just like his mummy said.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpKEbvgVQN9
But today David got to be usefull. He had the opportunity to make his mummy proud and happy.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZMsjGgULML
"There you go, David." She said brushing his hair with her hand. "You will make mummy proud, won't you?"580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58VbRigsx8
"I will!" Came a squeaky580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡibbzxKahnP
voice. "I will make you proud..est!" David said as he put a book down.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR2a2me7idV
David was unsure what the name or what the words inside said but it had580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcx2susxvGM
pictures of flying ships and heroes, something he wanted to be when he 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTm92zr91ds
was an adult.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVswG4pS00N
A knock came from a door580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWde7ZwWRED
and David's mummy went to answer it. She spoke to someone in hushed 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe3iJuqORuq
tones and then left the room without giving David a glance back. In her 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ3PIxmXupZ
stead a stranger came. David had never seen the man before and he was 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5K8sxZzRgx
scared of strangers. Whenever a stranger came in with his mummy he was 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJuknjXrCG
supposed to be quiet otherwise he wouldn't get food and get slapped for 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ5Ev3NpYLm
being a bad boy.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRuPuhGpDx8
That's why he didn't 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiWoVzcUfbm
speak, didn't move, didn't look at the stranger. "Speak up boy, what's 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡis2CGIKfQz
your name?" The man said in a haughty voice.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLC0MtLr7yv
"D..david" the answer 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH87zQEJEAF
came in a whisper. The stranger grunted and came closer to David, moving580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSn2nx2ncTx
empty bottles with his boots. "I said speak up."580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJX0LMPQ8yP
"David!" Came out the reply, which sounded too loud in David's ears.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqm8C1QobX2
The man put his hands on580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmBQypRfHqN
Davids shoulders and smiled. "David? I'm David aswell, David Hozzelpoff580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa159Pl3Hka
to be exact. Do you recognize my name?"580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkbwxnjl8YO
David meekly shook his 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsld4fTTQ6f
head and was shoved to the floor. David hit the floor hard, losing his 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk9Rjuq2Hvd
breath. "I am the greatest mind of this century!" He crouched down 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7T5e2onUeE
putting his face next to Davids. "Soon everyone will know my name, no 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbu1BqCsuXi
matter what my colleagues say or what rumors they spread." He said but 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvC5aHrGaq
the anger was slowly leaving his voice. "You must understand, I'm not 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ49NUrcjQf4
usually like this, but...but sometime you just reach that point. I'm a 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs6R2KvV6cH
good man I have a bright future and sometimes you just need obstacles, 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlJnGpdG06w
you are just that an obstacle that I must conquer." The man was 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZeI7ZYzyKt
bubbling. Caressing Davids face with his hand, the other one moving down580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQfQj0uT4Ya
Davids body.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBu5typOe8L
Please don't. Came adult David's voice580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZxO7TQuNZy
Young David was scared; 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6bTY76JbAX
he was used to beatings but not being touched in that way. He tried 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQXR5gpazl
wiggling away from the man pinned David down with his greater weight. 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt7oZPHhsof
"Stop resisting." Derek hissed. "If everyone just didn't resist I 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡahCUcD9J3c
wouldn't be here I wouldn't need to do anything."580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡElhENxv6f0
Help me. Save me. Came the child and adult voice intermixed.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlAq07BVidj
"Mummy, mummy!" David 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlIIjMf5Lz8
screamed, tears flowing, a feeling of wetness around his legs. Finally 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡifKyPX4nuQ
the man slammed his palm into Davids face. That stopped all resistance, 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzdER4mUvz5
after that day David liked to pretend that he lost consciousness, that 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTAhkDLGvD
everything that happened was a nightmare, but deep down he knew better, 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2T9twNZ6ED
he knew that what he saw and felt was what had happened.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKNIwqBSpBz
David didn't even know 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM8CycOfKUS
when the man finished, his mind was blank and when he came to he could 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡegCRLuO9Am
see his mummy looking at him. She scoffed. "Clean yourself up, you're a 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI5YyxRsubs
mess. David tried crying but no tears came.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjluP54cRs6
Suddenly the room shifted again and David himself as an adult again. "That was the first time it happened. One of many." 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq0HjOzx6hw
David could barely hear 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRBe2rClvJe
jester, as all the memories came flowing back. It overwhelmed him and 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoSDq9zlTFO
the tears he couldn't find as a child freely flew out of him and he 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXjvYXBFa5M
screamed into the void. Out of desperation, out of misery, out of pure 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlLPrSxaZNC
anger. 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDdZNsBzMAq
"There are more 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCNQyRwteEU
memories. Let me know when you're ready." David looked at jester, whose 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmr4QMEQbpu
form changed again. His hood was down but half of his face was covered 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2g732WEK0f
in a dark like substance. The other looked...looked like a normal adult 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC3Q2AiDgRb
male. David almost recognized it but couldn't quite place it.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWsmNKauSe7
"What else is there to 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoX24BCmxKl
remember?" David asked as he got up. Jester just smiled. "Just indulge 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXIQEzZo2Du
me." Jester waved his hand again and David was standing in front of a 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLyfcPx4dcc
mirror. He could see himself, a young teen. With dead eyes and bruises 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWoKRaG8mky
all around his body. He looked at the glass shard in his hand. The blood580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU8OU7jrvoC
that was spilling down his arm and hand was slowly dripping on the 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwyIrJDcivc
floor. 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHwPE0ps7bp
Even the pain didn't 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgRpUW44UAA
offer him solace, it used to be that the pain he inflicted on himself 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJO0WVMqye8
offered an escape, but no more. One flick of the shard though...and 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGg0eeFvvDT
everything would be gone.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBnHWLcuCZF
~Just like that, give up580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmjm4xV2hk5
end it all. No one will care. ~ That's right, no one cares. Mother is 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS3qOy8moHD
probably with some man, or trying to get someone who was willing to buy 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiJpt56lZfj
Davids body. Would she really mind if he died. He moved the shard closer580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhNUGLdxESN
to his neck, his pulse slowly beating. ~But...what if it gets better? 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIhdJoxG5JD
What if death only brings more pain?~ David paused. "Can't be much worse580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ87qU8utwB5
than this."580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡckqFj4mnct
~STOP! ~ David dropped 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDnO4LtWTzx
the shard as if burned. ~It will get better. Just survive. Have to 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJKF4oKAVsP
survive.~ David dropped on his knees. That's right all he had to is 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9f2yiMxxzD
survive. Survive and live.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh4Jwt4BKy1
Everything changed again and David could see his reflection. Scarred, rugged and haunted. 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEOOC5EAW0t
" that voice, it was yours." More of a statement rather than a question. 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdTTKrwcf8b
"Indeed." Jester 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBgZOhex5ak
replied. David could actually hear his voice properly, without an echo 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8FIXgoR13Z
or any other effects. He never noticed it before but it did sound a lot 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQeofNCuvAy
like his own did.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHST8rjjgs9
"Why did you try 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyXYmAa7qCa
convincing me to kill myself and then stop me? Why not just let me do 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEYcejNrxau
it?" He said the last part in a whisper; his brain still trying to 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb10tZg6z4N
process the influx of memories.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGQH0EBJCv
"I've been there since you were a child I..I wanted to offer you an escape, but then I got scared I'd get lonely, if you died,"580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpeao6nM81j
"You expect me to believe that?"580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjYIjPhKm8N
"Believe what you want."580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDNas7hn3W
"How many times? How many of my thoughts were mine?"580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0XKTcHqpl
Jester chuckled. "All of580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOIinjUgcQm
them really. To make sure you didn't notice anything was out of the 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgYFUfA5QKe
ordinary I had to make it look like they were your thoughts."580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1hoMNMwusN
"That just 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoYTEoBRFHG
means..."David held his head and groaned in pain. "I'm so confused, in 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwWMIa6pkI
my memories it doesn't like you're trying to be subtle. What changed?580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwyrKsidERq
"It's related to the last memory, I'll show you if you're ready."580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt101zn9qoe
David nodded. "Do it."580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xva4FEUen
Everything shifted. 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSbtQqFJdEN
David was cleaning his 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhyhiosiTk
face, in his middle teens and miserable. He wasn't sure when this 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOaiemz3fTf
grounded life started but it's been a long time now. He learned tricks 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIEj444Zkji
on how to make it easier for himself. By pretending the strangers were 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2xzDisljcY
important he would save himself a lot of abuse, by guessing how they 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIlNPtH1myu
wanted him to act and acting that way they, sometimes, took pity. Of 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV31jijZchV
course not everyone cared; some still had fun abusing a young boy.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡri75Uteofq
His last one was just 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhSR6JW3FFY
that an abuser. David touched his broken-again nose and the eye that was580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGkqf8fLaD
barely opening. The bitch would be angry again, his face was supposed 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf9RiLXO2YQ
to be without bruises. Her clients liked him more when he looked pure. 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAuu13hEiKT
Undamaged goods she loved to say.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡou2eIS5hh3
Right on cue, David 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSyVRrsdTK
could hear the bathroom door opening and she came in. Sneering she 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpMQcAWvTxC
slapped David causing him to fall on the floor. "Stupid, idiot boy!" She580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI1e00G44VU
slurred. What a surprise the bitch was either drunk or drugged. "One 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlpsUNPkFNk
thing, don't let them hit your face. And look at you! Useless!" She 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSNjpgzvGD
shrieked and kicked David clumsily.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPE8kqOQse
Why was this his life? 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡchXAR0IPYw
Should he have taken his life, can he still do it? He looked at her and 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4MnANgP2k
she seems to have taken offense at that. She scratched at his face and 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZOSTK5obhe
came down on him. "How dare you look at me with those eyes! They're his 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEw7oUQfylI
eyes! Someone like you doesn't deserve them!" She continued in a similar580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlEG1geQYKS
vein trying to get his eyes. 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD2gWcFj3fg
~Enough David.~ A voice 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡweddWbNOXz
resounded in his head. David knew that voice, it was his only friend. 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy07GdHq2oR
~Fight back.~ David faught against the urge and voice, after all it was 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ81xa5y4Sy3
still his mother. ~FIGHT BACK~ Finally David extended his arm with force580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgD9tsqFlRl
and met resistance.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDUIPgqchV
The scratching and 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpy449auMRr
shrieking stopped, he could see his mother on the floor, groaning, 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjmyFLcnRiD
slowly getting up. Thinking quickly David grabbed a glass bottle and hit580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuwGqQHyKtm
the bitch with it. Again and again until all that was left was a glass 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRnFu6oMYXw
shard and then he kept stabbing and screaming until his throat and hand 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgIzMB9Sval
was raw. Once he couldn't hold the shard he stopped and laughed.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJBKGCgpwRD
Oh god what did he do? 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7cy5MHqvxZ
This was his mummy, the one who always protected him, the one who would 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFT9VirpyXg
never abandon him a and he..he murdered her. But...no, no, no. She hated580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ20z8lPaNkk
him did she? Yeah she was a bitch..NO..she was his mother. Was there a 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqtq0Zucnkj
difference? David started crying and throwing up. He killed her, he 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgtZi9Nfb8O
killed her, he killed her. His head felt as it was going to burst, cries580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEGf2b9lMGU
replaced the laughter as he rolled on the floor covering himself in 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBdJ5E0vbPV
blood.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLrr0jhfocI
~that's enough David. Forget, forget everything.~ 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX2PcTZAiY6
There was a pause and everything quieted down.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3w9IrpW0Ic
A boy named David just 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHjbJloUPNm
woke up. Surrounded by empty bottles and rubbish. David shrugged and 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrz5joEpK6A
winced. He was in pain did he fall? That would explain the blood all 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKlDKbfkcOK
over him. Yes he fell and hurt himself. But what about the body...wait 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVeEFSib7am
what body? David looked around and couldn't see anyone else in the room580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBsbdRKOl7
besides him. Why did his head hurt? Why couldn't he remember what he 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYV2nLEtcOX
was...oh that's right. He was going to become a hero and fly on a ship. 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf2EoSEPvz5
Yes, that's what he was about to do when he became all confused, how 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8T2f2W3v8Z
silly of him.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTAm8Svavx4
Remembering his 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0hnVNCksG6
objective, David opened the door and left his old life behind. To enter 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs3T4ecp931
his living room and find his dad, mum and brother sitting at a round 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbr3ALxlTXw
table preparing a meal. 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFhTRk6hV5
"There you are David!" 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG4lPj4HhaL
His dad said. "We've been waiting forever, come on I can't wait to start580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvYXb372Qe5
eating!" He started hitting his utensils on the table. 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK0FtCPKq8m
This isn't the truth.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOqHycdi85
David obligingly sat 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyLEbdgDx0b
down. "Oh stop, honey. You're going to give children bad manners." His 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtvL18w69cL
mum chided playfully. As she put the food on the table and ruffled his 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2cReewkFTy
brothers hair. Sitting down next to David and giving him a warm smile.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNs22MvnbSB
A dream, nothing else.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAd1P0TTKTS
They all thanked the 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUn2xHIVUf8
gods for what they had and started eating. Yes thankful for this happy, 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrSWoan7dBw
oblivious life. Thankful for good and supportive parents. Thankful for 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3nGGqtgskG
this lie.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUufMgROq53
A lie that has to end.580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi3z6575Oqv
David was standing at 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ39Cl8wbY6e
the table.. He was sure this wasn't part of any memories, but he was 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTTsdjU6Sdr
sure that the boy was him, a happier more healthy him, and the woman was580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgJUcjgssN
his real mother or atleast someone who looked like her. While the 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyq5WqMwVKo
brother and man? Something that might've happened if he was luckier? 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXtwWYiLlRd
Either way David hated 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfLjXq1DmV5
this. Why, why, why, why didn't he get this happy blissful life. Why 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjse8XNdYti
didn't he get a father who would teach him to become a proper man, why 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2SPg8hS8Lc
didn't he get a mother who consoled him when he hurt? Why was he all 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftAHtbC2U8
alone, without a brother or any other sibling. Why does THIS pale 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmujZA6NkP8
imitation of his deserves this good life, he'll never appreciate. Why 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbScWm3wiJW
does anyone. When there's so many suffering why do only few deserve to 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjkB4l6XJgL
life this happy blissful life?580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ21eGlikdeV
The answer was so simple580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaRlXch90sK
that David almost laughed. It didn't come in a whisper by someone else,580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvGsSrKiF8K
it was his own and he fully knew it. They didn't, they didn't deserve 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNmsKVXCkUM
this life, no one did. Thus there was only one solution to end it all, 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7z0F8NShpL
end all misery either present or one that will come in the future. 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu41sEmIUsp
David decided to start 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy52kPu7flH
with this lie, he took the knife and plunged it into his young self. "No580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvaK3ikMeBk
more lies." He took it out and stabbed his father. "No more regrets." 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoIlkvffgD3
Next his brother. "No more tears." And finally he stabbed his own 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkbys0mwL6b
mother. "No more mercy."580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgxRh9HmoqC
With the last stab 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0QzhNXThpw
everything fell apart piece by piece and David found himself staring at 580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2VkQK1pDZ
his own shadowy reflection. The only thing surrounding them was the vast580Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT5Y2glft7S
emptiness.
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