「嗶嗶嗶!」50Please respect copyright.PENANAWQzg5Q1PkL
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下午8點,台北市街道上依然車流不斷。座落在路中心旁的義大利麵店內則格外的安靜,我跟女友小柔坐在角落不吭一聲,各自各吃著東西,像是陌生人倂桌,彌漫著尷尬的氣氛。50Please respect copyright.PENANAPdjCVNxmJ3
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「我們待會去公園坐一下好不好?我有東西想跟你說。」我率先打破沉默,決定要與她坦誠相對。50Please respect copyright.PENANAJHkuzMnr9L
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「好。」小柔簡短的回應,只低著頭用吸管攪拌著手上的冰茶,看不到她的眼神和表情。50Please respect copyright.PENANAJlffYKLDx7
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人與人的關係尤其愛情,是很難掌控。有時儘管用盡力氣去喜歡,但結果還是無法做到。有時卻只需看一眼就像陷入瘋狂一樣,無法停止。人最難的就是了解自己,究竟自己為什麼會這樣子?為何回不去那樣子?這些都沒有答案。50Please respect copyright.PENANAQZbf3i8mjj
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路燈昏暗的公園裡,冷風颼颼,兩人坐在一張長椅上。50Please respect copyright.PENANAigkoCRkP9I
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「對不起,我其實很早以前就想跟妳說了,只是我很猶豫。我們還是不太適合。我們......我們還是分手吧。」我不敢直視眼前的女孩,怕她露出什麼樣的表情,讓自己愧疚感更加的劇烈。50Please respect copyright.PENANArI3B707h6c
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經過幾秒的寧靜,小柔卻只簡短的回應:「好,再見。」,就拿著袋子急步的離開。50Please respect copyright.PENANA6GLVYVRsTP
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這樣就結束了。50Please respect copyright.PENANAi8k1ZHC71R
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這段感情沒有轟轟烈烈的結束,只像掉落的枯葉,靜靜的在冷風中消散。50Please respect copyright.PENANAL0Q9Kq6n3b
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我坐在公園的長椅上仰望著星空。很多回憶湧進了我的思緒,但卻不是小柔,是那個她。與她的一切就像是燦爛的煙火,讓人深刻但卻短暫。我對小柔只有很重的愧疚感,因為自私和孤獨,打擾了她。我還以為可以努力的愛上她,但結果還是不能用最好的自己對待她,我真的是一個很糟糕的人。50Please respect copyright.PENANAmGna0xxPB8
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沉重的愧疚感跟空虛,驅使我打給了久沒聯絡的老媽。50Please respect copyright.PENANAPZ5ML9uDV3
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「喂,阿媽,我同女朋友講咗分手。」50Please respect copyright.PENANA94FvzYrctZ
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片刻的沉默過後,50Please respect copyright.PENANAwS9cnRntxc
「咁咪好囉...拖住人反而唔好,翻緊宿舍未?」50Please respect copyright.PENANAKKI43qH5jZ
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「未阿,岩岩係公園講完,而家唔知去邊好。」50Please respect copyright.PENANAcEndqm0exY
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「翻宿舍啦!都話左你太後生,仲未識咩係愛情,第時出社會先慢慢搵啦!上次已經....總之就快啲翻去啦,唔好搞太夜。」50Please respect copyright.PENANAVtKgRH4z95
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「知啦。」50Please respect copyright.PENANAdf0TdcuHq2
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為甚麼我是打給老媽而不是老爸呢?也許可能是她有離開我爸的經驗吧,我的本能就是想尋找一個人給我好藉口,讓自己凌亂不堪的思緒安定起來,而且老爸並不知道小柔。唯一一個讓我父母都知道的女友也只有她,那個曾經像是我生命中的月亮女孩。那時候愛人愛的像傻子般的自己、那時候的怔動、大喜大悲的過去,昔日的感覺已經無法再感受一次。妳又怎麼想的呢?小淑。50Please respect copyright.PENANAt4BPebieC8
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(四年前)50Please respect copyright.PENANAwyi4KNsP8L
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我來到台灣讀書的第一年。50Please respect copyright.PENANAumNJnbSgHW
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「鄭志和?」50Please respect copyright.PENANAfHu8nDMFOm
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「到!」50Please respect copyright.PENANAFwZbRvQJ9e
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「周業坤?」50Please respect copyright.PENANAtLVMKxx0w6
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「到!」50Please respect copyright.PENANA4XmHqUnvRX
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「劉家瑜?」50Please respect copyright.PENANAF4ZLcgQZH0
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「到!」50Please respect copyright.PENANAD4fazOfdx5
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「李子妮?」50Please respect copyright.PENANAYbbBZEmA2c
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「到!」50Please respect copyright.PENANATPcC3ecg2m
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「張逸晨?」50Please respect copyright.PENANAsQrp8n1vwE
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「到!」50Please respect copyright.PENANAJqdAH4sZCE
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香港學生到台後,學長姐正在點名人數。50Please respect copyright.PENANAk1VV0tpMP5
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去台灣的第一年,為了方便人生路不熟的僑生,學校的境外生學生組織提供了接送服務,帶我們去體檢,入住宿舍等等。點完名後,大夥們上了旅遊巴,準備前往學校宿舍。50Please respect copyright.PENANAaQP8EDCWvb
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「覺唔覺得坐前面三行揹住吉他條女幾正?」50Please respect copyright.PENANAZwxJMambYI
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原本看著窗外的我轉過頭來,原來是那個身材微胖、帶著眼鏡,叫周業坤的男生跟我搭話。而他所指的女生叫李子妮,長髮平陰頭,穿著白色吊帶裙子,皮膚白晢,尤其是那雙修長的腿,真的滿正。阿對了,她是阿坤將來的女朋友。50Please respect copyright.PENANAnoYNrnWDa7
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「恩。」個性比較內向的我微微的點頭,只簡短回了一個肯定。50Please respect copyright.PENANAwrn7mXW0TJ
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我創造了幾秒的DEAD AIR後,阿坤再找了一個坐在我們前面的男生搭話,那個男生高高瘦瘦,耳朵帶著一個耳飾,穿著很時髦,有點MK。他叫鄭志和。50Please respect copyright.PENANAjp49WhHf7Y
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「你咩系?我中文」50Please respect copyright.PENANA0hrzagP334
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「新聞系」50Please respect copyright.PENANAtMwDwIHNVf
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「企管系」50Please respect copyright.PENANAWAJAbKAJGK
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「你......」50Please respect copyright.PENANAwM7o5E1aE6
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我們在車上簡單的互相介紹了一下自己,初步的聊了一下。原來他們兩個都比我大,97年生的我是他們之中的老么。那時候真的沒想過他們還有另外兩個人將是陪伴我度過台灣四年青春年華的兄弟。50Please respect copyright.PENANAGCgfs6kflQ
到達學校,我們到了學校的中央廣場集合,排隊拿取來台前就訂購好的生活用品,準備進入宿舍。50Please respect copyright.PENANARyVyvie8nQ
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「那現在大家請排隊拿取之前訂購的物資,有訂購床具的人請先過來這邊!」50Please respect copyright.PENANA0UNnTso7LY
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境外會一名幹部在學校的中央廣場喊話。眾人紛紛按地區個別排隊等候物資分發。我們學校算是一個滿「東亞化」的大學,僑生裡面有來自不同地區的人,有來自香港、澳門、韓國、日本還有其中最多的是馬來西亞跟中國大陸。50Please respect copyright.PENANAEnPBIJt33l
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而剛好香港的隊伍在馬來西亞的隔壁。作為一名來台之前沒看過馬來西亞妹子的真男人,當然立即掃描了一下隔壁隊伍的風景。恩,果然很不錯。50Please respect copyright.PENANASiUClk21bi
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「請問這裡是馬來西亞的隊伍嗎?」50Please respect copyright.PENANAUlaUrBSywX
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突然有一個操著馬來西亞腔調的國語,輕柔動人的女聲從我後面傳來。50Please respect copyright.PENANARvjIrOf6n3
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轉過頭來,她紮著馬尾、五官標緻、有著一雙好像要把你的心都要吸進去的明亮眼睛,身上還有一陣清香。50Please respect copyright.PENANAxJ5ihpA30r
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「恩......阿......這裡...香港.....那邊才是馬來西亞...」50Please respect copyright.PENANALlExAVUFOo
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我頓時像有語言障礙的傻子,骨子裡的「毒撚」魂又在蠢蠢欲動,不敢直視她的眼睛。50Please respect copyright.PENANAVx3poSIkV6
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「謝謝!」跟我道謝後,她走回自己的隊伍。而我的眼睛卻一直離不開她的背影。50Please respect copyright.PENANA4bi5ACXTM7
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一直看著馬來西亞的隊伍,輪到她了。50Please respect copyright.PENANAH6PUH7vQRS
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「妳的名字是張怡淑?對嗎?」50Please respect copyright.PENANAv3khJTOxYu
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「對!」50Please respect copyright.PENANALr8XlgUIh0
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怡淑...真是很特別的名字。如果不是看到她本人還以為是個朝鮮阿姨的名字,不過現在這兩個字只讓我想到她的眼睛、她的臉蛋、還有她的香味。50Please respect copyright.PENANAiyEDHVKCip
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怡淑...張怡淑....怡淑....滿腦子都是她的名字。50Please respect copyright.PENANAPtzR5BvH48
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「張逸晨係唔係度?」50Please respect copyright.PENANANdsKWtyNfw
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「你係咪張逸晨?」50Please respect copyright.PENANAYriraWKXdo
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「喂!!!」50Please respect copyright.PENANApXG72oI8hu
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「阿晨!」旁邊的阿和拍了一下我的肩膀,回過神來,看到臉很臭的香港幹部在面前盯著我。額,原來輪到我了。50Please respect copyright.PENANAFAWO8c9dCE
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「佢岩岩叫左你好多次,你搞咩」50Please respect copyright.PENANAqgZlZmEPZA
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「係車度已經係咁,我發覺你都幾中意發呆。」阿坤竊笑50Please respect copyright.PENANAjGGD0CqvL4
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真是的!在香港的時候已經被朋友老是講我發呆,這不叫發呆,這叫若有所思好嗎?I am a thinker!50Please respect copyright.PENANA0DTqYST3Qw
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那時我腦海裡都是那個月亮女孩,張怡淑。50Please respect copyright.PENANA4SK7k8NEir
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