「確是爛店。」甫出店鋪,穆青松從心底斥出這句咒罵,儘管那只是輕聲至極的自言自語。他把步伐加快,急促地在大街大巷中穿插遊走,彷彿想在摩肩擦踵之間把剛才的經歷洗刷掉。數不清的陌生人在自己身旁擦過,穆青松感到頭腦越加混亂。是因為剛才喝酒太急了?還是自己實在太累了?47Please respect copyright.PENANAOuZwvUCI2u
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稍一失神,穆青松迎面撞上一個正在低頭用手機的行人,兩人猛烈碰撞,差點雙雙倒下。47Please respect copyright.PENANAWC3mLaBwgw
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行人似乎覺得這難以置信,他向穆青松投以一個驚怒的表情,嘴裏向穆青松噴了一堆粗言穢語,大意為斥責穆青松走路不看路,絆死不可惜。穆青松沒有與他辯駁,卻也沒有對他道歉,任由行人對自己施以辱罵。47Please respect copyright.PENANAh8csDW73zK
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行人自然不可能咒罵穆青松到天荒地老,他拋下最後一句粗口,發洩完畢後繼續趕自己的路。47Please respect copyright.PENANAOhVIMwnrl5
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穆青松呆站原地,耳朵嗡嗡作響。哪怕頭腦沒有聽進那些謾罵,單單是那音量,也足以對聽覺神經帶來傷害。47Please respect copyright.PENANAEpkIywtk1l
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穆青松抬頭看着毫不漆黑的夜空,心裏泛起內疚的感覺。47Please respect copyright.PENANA4A2acwTT6X
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應該發怒時選擇沈默,應該容忍時失控爆發,他很厭倦這樣的自己。47Please respect copyright.PENANA5Ad3Komo6j
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然而,他又能做甚麼呢?47Please respect copyright.PENANAcWPHRN6xdp
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穆青松合上眼睛,無力地嘆息。再睜開眼睛,他拿出手機,打開了那個程式,儘管他不知道自己期望在裏面看到甚麼。也許他想看到狄美亞發佈了甚麽帖子,顯示她已經去了哪個新酒吧尋歡作樂,好讓自己能稍稍減低剛才對她失控發脾氣的罪咎感。47Please respect copyright.PENANAGzqe9CgTUz
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打開少女的帳號,卻看不到任何新發佈的帖子。47Please respect copyright.PENANAYRTV9vt3pP
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不僅如此,穆青松發現連剛才拍下自己的那個限時故事,也消失得無影無蹤。47Please respect copyright.PENANAEItwDUbmdc
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她刪除了那個限時故事。47Please respect copyright.PENANAsz2qKqdJYu
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穆青松全身像受到猛烈電擊,腦海一片空白。47Please respect copyright.PENANAe5n7S6dmiV
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在稍微恢復意識之時,穆青松發現自己已推開了好幾個路人,身體正往回頭路跑。一個路人搭住了他肩膀,堅持要他道歉賠罪。47Please respect copyright.PENANA9ZCKHmFnlp
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穆青松把路人的手推開,他現在只想拔足狂奔,哪怕現實的自己腳步蹣跚。拐了一個街口,只見眼前的路人有增無減,穆青松不想再與任何人碰撞,隨即向身旁的小巷衝進去。小巷燈光昏暗,穆青松沒看到棄置在地上的建築廢料,一股勁兒撞進了垃圾堆上,狠狠地摔了一交,連眼鏡也撞歪了。47Please respect copyright.PENANAPe0WgrlMMJ
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倒在地上的穆青松想爬起身再跑,可是身體已再沒辦法榨出任何氣力。即使渾身用勁,他也只能夠用雙手把自己勉強撐起,不至於繼續趴在地上。47Please respect copyright.PENANAv1b8LVx2Ev
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穆青松掙扎着坐起來,把背部靠在小巷牆邊。47Please respect copyright.PENANAfxamqINEed
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他很想大叫,很想哭喊,可是無力感重重地壓着他。他沒法趕走這些感覺,只能絕望地感受它蔓延全身。47Please respect copyright.PENANAJP6sqwRgVZ
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大街上人來人往,對小巷裏的事情不知不覺。過了若干時間,穆青松感到外面的人潮逐漸減退。他張眼往大街方向望去,看到外面行人寥寥可數。雖然穆青松不知道自己坐在這地上多久,可是他實在已很熟悉這個金融商業區,星期五晚上配以這樣稀疏的人流,肯定已是深夜。47Please respect copyright.PENANAiYwRkZwmfX
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拾起掉在身旁的手機,查看現在時間,已是晚上十二時二十分。地鐵尾班車還有十分鐘開出,如果這刻起程直追,應能剛好趕上,可是穆青松真的沒力氣了。他繼續坐在地上,嘗試把精神集中回來。47Please respect copyright.PENANA4e7MalCZ6L
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無數思緒不斷在腦裏明明滅滅,可是穆青松不想放棄,他再次努力把精神集中。47Please respect copyright.PENANAlSUjckxlGv
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昏亂之際,穆青松突然想到,也許可以看看手機提神。47Please respect copyright.PENANAcI4aHJEgBC
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於是他把手機解鎖,關掉了低電量警示,打開了Instagram。47Please respect copyright.PENANAjJxBCNw6Cj
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翻閱狄美亞的帳號,依舊沒有任何新帖子,而那個限時故事也不見蹤影,仿佛從未存在過一樣。47Please respect copyright.PENANAlwiXKXQyCl
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她現在安好嗎?47Please respect copyright.PENANACGlFHPv3R3
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她恨自己嗎?她被自己傷透了心嗎?還是一早已把自己忘掉了?穆青松有千個問題想問她。然而看着程式裏的訊息鍵,明明彈指之間就能給她發訊息,可是穆青松不想這樣做。47Please respect copyright.PENANAXRysp7Huvo
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他用拇指把程式畫面向下拉,嘗試刷新內容。還是沒有新帖子。47Please respect copyright.PENANAgeHO3Ty41V
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他重複刷新幾遍,幾十遍,幾百遍。還是沒有新帖子。47Please respect copyright.PENANAIQ3fP7abHq
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低電量警示再度出現,穆青松再把它關掉。「我到底在做甚麼?」穆青松不禁反問自己,同時無聲地嗤笑了一下,像是要嘲諷誰似的。47Please respect copyright.PENANAaRc4yttWKN
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退出了狄美亞的帳號版面,穆青松在程式裏觀看其他內容。按進探索頁面,海量照片湧現眼前,讓人目不暇給。穆青松聽説現今的社交媒體程式經過大量優化,無論是內容或排版都經過刻意策劃,務求讓用戶看到上癮,看到不能自拔——可是真的投入其中時,這些理論全都拋諸腦後了。47Please respect copyright.PENANAwlRVAk7HSh
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他往下滑動,看到一張又一張引人注目的照片:風景、美食、美女、時裝、時尚、玩意、明星、電影、電玩、八卦、新聞⋯⋯源源不絕的資訊映入眼簾。看着這些美輪美奐的照片,穆青松感到心底慢慢揪住,一種悲涼感覺漫溢於胸膛。47Please respect copyright.PENANArfHL2xSJwM
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每一張照片背後都是一個個真實用戶,都包含着一個個故事。這些人背後都藏着甚麼過去?他們在發佈帖子時都有甚麼想法?47Please respect copyright.PENANAopOVSevtTR
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他們想得到讚賞嗎?他們想得到認同嗎?47Please respect copyright.PENANAzTdE1eQ7XG
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他們想得到人氣嗎?他們想得到虛榮嗎?47Please respect copyright.PENANABApOgBpOmT
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他們希望分享自己的感受嗎?不管那是快樂、悲傷、痛苦、憤恨?47Please respect copyright.PENANAVfjjN3v9Av
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他們希望被理解嗎?47Please respect copyright.PENANAsWe0t55cNM
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他們渴望自己的故事被知道嗎?47Please respect copyright.PENANAQCtw8Tml5s
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穆青松輕輕仰頭,把後腦靠在牆上,把眼睛合上。這一切都太沈重,太令人疲累了。47Please respect copyright.PENANAl46PKMpGgn
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稍作休息,他又再睜開雙眼。47Please respect copyright.PENANAjatRvcW6mh
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還是要提起精神。47Please respect copyright.PENANAgf74iK9HbG
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穆青松再低頭看手機。應該找些甚麼來看?凝視程式首頁良久,他腦海突然浮出一個念頭。打開搜尋欄,輸入「#打火機」關鍵詞,再按下搜尋鍵,一堆以打火機為主題的帖子出現了。穆青松憑直覺挑選某幾張照片翻查,竟真被他找到他預想會見到的東西。47Please respect copyright.PENANAebZHpbcEYm
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那是一張一小時前發佈的帖子,照片加了暗黑濾鏡效果,展示着一個精緻華麗的打火機。打火機機身是黑色金屬外殼,上面有玫瑰花和骷顱頭圖案,頗有搖滾風格。發佈帖子的是個以黑色跑車作為頭像的帳號,亦即是同事小張。穆青松看看圖片的標題,見到小張如實申報這個打火機(他稱為「寶貝」)是在等女朋友下班時買的,還説這個是限量版,想不到僥倖讓他買到。47Please respect copyright.PENANAoR6uvaLubf
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目前為止,這張照片只有一個讚好。47Please respect copyright.PENANAR7cKjJsCCs
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雖然穆青松也為小張買到心頭好感到高興,可是看着那心型點讚符號,他實在無法按讚。47Please respect copyright.PENANAdbxErFIQiG
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穆青松繼續查看其他打火機主題照片,總數量竟是數以十萬計。林林總總的帖子呈現眼前,涵蓋各種與打火機相關的題材,包括款式、設計、保養知識等。穆青松不禁感嘆,世上的打火機收藏者竟是如此的多,而僅僅是打火機,都能有這麽多學問。假如自己也能有這樣的嗜好,相信會是一件挺快樂的事。小張的帖子有種獨特風格,在眾多打火機照片中頗為突出。穆青松把照片打開,看見大部分也只有幾個讚好,較多的也只是十幾個讚好。47Please respect copyright.PENANAA5iWDEjndd
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然而,看着這些精心修輯過的照片,穆青松又覺得,區區讚好數目不能代表甚麼。47Please respect copyright.PENANAUpFW3pNRch
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穆青松閉起眼睛,緩緩抒出一口氣。他嘗試幻想自己哪天拍下甚麼有趣的東西,或是無聊的東西,加上幾句標題,然後放上網絡分享。47Please respect copyright.PENANAxq7BEBJgH2
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或者只是,僅僅和人分享。47Please respect copyright.PENANAkvfBnyNKKm
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想着,穆青松的眼眶濕了。47Please respect copyright.PENANA3B5NYxWZPH
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穆青松托起歪掉的眼鏡,用手擦掉淚水。他按住地面,扶着牆壁,使出力氣,再使出力氣。47Please respect copyright.PENANAE4f49vMZ0f
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縱然顫顫巍巍,他終究還是站起來了。47Please respect copyright.PENANAoyoRFTpMi6
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